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ACK + '99 + he MAD + PLURAL + OBSESSIVE. RECOVERING FOOD ADDICT. ( @cottagemeals )

TRIGGER WARNING — THIS IS A PERSONAL VENT BLOG. I AM VERY UNWELL. PROCEED WITH CAUTION.

NO DNI. I BLOCK FREELY.

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wowow

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que maricada

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i’m really resisting the urge to dig up pictures with different hair cuts because that’s when i’ll lose it

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like weight differences + hair differences might be a fatal combo oh my god i just need to go shower

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i’m really resisting the urge to dig up pictures with different hair cuts because that’s when i’ll lose it

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not going to lie either i fully relapsed with food addiction this week too. i had a good monday. but i’m deep in it right now. it’s so bad.

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last night was so rough. i was watching a world cup match and i felt something trigger within me and next thing i knew i was having one of my shaking anxiety attacks ):

a little while passed and i was exhausted afterwards. so we got ready to sleep. and then a little got triggered out and he was so afraid to fall asleep ): my eyes hurt from crying so much. every switch has felt like a crash landing this week. so much unrest i’m trying to just shove down because we can’t fall apart right now. or ever. but especially right now.

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weevil today + cedar waxwing

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finally got a bed frame and the mattress is so much comfier omfg

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i got offered early release tomorrow thank GOD

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ugh gonna kms i hate everything

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would i forgive myself

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its not that i hate working at the bank i just hate that they’re making me do sales? it’s been making me angry lately

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aaaaaa gonna throw up?

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x___x the library is hiring for 2$ more an hour

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i have an english degree for context and they’re not requiring a masters i’d be doing programming

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also this is literally the building right next to my current town #smalltownthings #twotrafficlightsinmytown

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x___x the library is hiring for 2$ more an hour

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i have an english degree for context and they’re not requiring a masters i’d be doing programming

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x___x the library is hiring for 2$ more an hour