things i wish i could say but cant

rome || she/them || minor || bi

[a-lmach]

my main is @back-tothestreetswherewebegan

i am here to simp in peace, thank you

[a-lmach]

you have to give things an opportunity to get better

[a-lmach]

the whole point of being alive is growing, give yourself a break and stop expecting yourself to be perfect all the time

i know its hard but its worth reminding yourself the whole purpose of living - growth

[a-lmach]

i miss him :(

[a-lmach]

its okay if you didnt get everything you needed done today, dont pressure yourself

[a-lmach]

you deserve all the gold the stars have to offer and more

[a-lmach]

it sucks, doesnt it? feeling like you're never really home.

[a-lmach]

hey i just realised i have 17 followers, thank you <3 i know im not super active here but its my little outlet

[sadlachimolala]

Hello people of tumblr, i am asking you to donate money (whatever you can please) to help me leave my parents' house because i have absolutely no life, its a raging hell over here. I am not allowed to leave the house to even a friend's house. I feel like i am in a jail. My phone is taken away every now and then and i have no communication with anyone. I have no friends. I wanna die all the time. My parents are emotionally manipulative and turn around each and every thing to make me feel guilty about it and blame me for everything. "Fight in the house? - its because of you. The house isn't clean? - its because of you. Chances of my parents getting divorced? - yes you guessed it" and what not. Now i know you'd think that these are trifle matters but no these aren't, things escalate to a point where it goes down in shouting, blaming, crying, fits and sometimes suicide attempts(me). The manipulation has been going on from when i was in 8th grade. The physical abuse is in control but it isn't zero. This is a cry for help because if i dont get out of here soon I'd die. My mother came to me and 'told' me that "if you think you're depressed, you're faking it and you really need to behave normally. This is stupid. After all we've done for you, you can't be depressed. You have no reason to be depressed." - this is after I've told them repeatedly how i feel and what they do makes me feel like dying 10 times a day. They do not understand and make it worse by saying that i am faking it and they make me feel guilty about hating them because they are my 'family' but they dont see that they are toxic and abusive. I swear to god i ask myself the same question everyday, what if i am faking it? What if im overreacting? And idk if i am faking it or not but i know that i can't take it anymore. I need money to rent a small room and pay for basic food and water. Bc rn i have no source of income. And amidst current conditions, if you cannot donate, i totally understand. I would really appreciate it if you'd please boost this post. Thank you💜

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[a-lmach]

i think people forget we live and learn, i only really came to terms with it recently, like its okay if you realised that the way you behaved a year ago was fucked up or somehow bad, just try your best to get grow from that

its okay if you realised that the trend you participated in was toxic or offensive in someway, as long as you apologised to those effected and grow from that

its okay to grow and its okay if you never stop growing, its growth and improvement after all

you cant expect anyone to know everything and to be 100% morally correct all of the time, we live and we learn and we grow and thats okay

[a-lmach]

it's still so surreal to me that you love me back

[a-lmach]

as soon as i wake up i check to see if i have a message from you

[a-lmach]

we dont get a lot of boy positivity posts on here so let me talk about this one thing that i think is really cute

when they compliment you then realise what they said and try to take it back, usually getting a bit flustered

its so cute but at the same time noooo youre valid please express your feelings!!

feel free to add on in rbs or comments!

[wistfulwisp]

I’ll watch the rain and the cars whiz by, wishing for a life where you didn’t leave.

[lovelysuggestions]

i never realized how happy i could really be until i met you

[a-lmach]

i'm the antagonist and that's okay

[a-lmach]

id go to straight tiktok for you