If Fear Hasn't Killed Me Yet Nothing Will

I was diagnosed formally with panic disorder and General Anxiety Disorder when I was in 4th grade. I've shown evidence of anxiety my whole life. My first panic attack was in first grade. My first experience of suicidal thoughts was last year. I've been battling my anxiety for 17 years now and I've come so so far and I want to help others. If you ever, ever need to talk about mental breakdowns, panic attacks, anxiety coping mechanisms, etc. please please don't hesitate to message me. I may not be a doctor but I a lifetime of experience.

[pr1nceshawn]

If the Government Treated Men Like It Treats Women

[ithelpstodream]

[loveandddrevenge]

Wait… Someone finally made something that shows what it’s really like. This is always so hard to explain.

[buzzfeed]

This was made by Kirsten King and Charlotte Gomez!

[willow404]

I feel most of these 😔

[probablynothumanish-deactivated]

Reading these and imagining people ACTUALLY saying them is a fuckin trip. I’m dying laughing because I have anxiety and like imagining people actually saying this stuff to my face is hilarious

[macrolit]

Giveaway Contest: We’re giving away ten vintage paperback classics by Kurt Vonnegut, Virginia Woolf, Aldous Huxley, Ray Bradbury, Kate Chopin, and others. Won’t these look lovely on your shelf? :D To win these classics, you must: 1) be following macrolit on Tumblr (yes, we will check. :P), and 2) reblog this post. (If you want two bonus books, follow macroliterature on Instagram, too!) We will randomly choose a winner on July 15, at which time we’ll start a new giveaway. And yes, we’ll ship to any country. Easy, right? Good luck!

[askthedeadpoets]

Hey! It’s Kath here, your friendly neighborhood moderator, and I’m in a bit of a pickle! For those of you who don’t know, I’ve been out of a job for a while, helping my parents do stuff with their house (which they considered my “job” I guess), and while I’m looking for a job now, I haven’t been able to find one yet. This is a problem because I have a variety of bills due in the next couple weeks, and not paying them is going to be hugely problematic for me! 

If you’re able to donate at all to help me out, I would be immensely grateful. Everyone who donates will receive a thank you card from the Dead Poets as soon as I have a job (I do have some interviews coming up). 

To donate to my Paypal, you can go here: http://paypal.me/kath0530

The stress on me stops me from updating this blog and keeping it interesting, which is one of my main priorities! Please help! Reblog this! Signal boost!

Thank you!

[johnnlocked]

Johnlock Kisses

Hard and desperate. After a case, after one too many close call, where the adrenaline is surging through their systems, the need to feel each other is near overwhelming. They don’t even make it to the flat at times like that. John drags them to the nearest dark ally, to press Sherlock against the wall. They cling so tightly to each other, it hurts, their tongues and lips occasionally making way for teeth. Buttons go flying, Sherlock’s neck is marked by John’s mouth and they rut against each other without reserve. 

Tender. John’s hand in Sherlock’s curls, their lips moving against each other. The fire is burning, engulfing them in a comfortable warmth and glow. They speak without words - IloveyouIloveyouIloveyou - with each brush of tongues. Sherlock is holding John’s hand, it moves up his arm and comes to rest above John’s heart.

Passionate. There is no mistaken the need in their movements then. Their hands move quickly to rid themselves of their clothing. They groan, whimper, moan, beg… anything for more. They lick and taste. They grope and hold. They gasp when they kiss without coordination and their bodies take control over their minds.

Lazy and slow. Mere minutes before they fall asleep or after they wake up. When sleep is still clouding their brains, their bodies move towards each other, cradling, a slow movement of lips and tongue and lazy smiles and whispered ‘goodnight’s and ‘good morning’s. 

Brief. When John leaves for work, he presses his lips against Sherlock’s cheek. Or his lips. Or his brow. Whatever is more available at the moment. Sherlock always warns him when he kisses John like this. Not with word, but with a shy slide of his fingers against John’s wrist. John will turn towards him, a smile in place, before their lips meet. 

SLAY ME WITH JOHNLOCK KISSES!

[kath-goes-to-college-deactivate]

LGBT Student Needs Help to go to College

Hello everyone! My name is Kath, and I’m a sophomore at Bowling Green State University! I’m twenty years old, nonbinary, and demisexual. 

Recently, I found out that my financial aid for school is not very much at all - in fact, it hardly covers any of my school costs. This is because my Dad, who I have to include on my FAFSA, makes a lot of money. However, neither of my parents are helping me pay for college, which is causing a lot of stress on my part. 

I have to go back to school this upcoming fall semester. My parents do not treat me very well, and tend to make fun of the fact that I identify as nonbinary, and make very rude comments about my weight and emotional instability. In addition, the family member who molested me as a child also lives with them. He makes me very uncomfortable and brings me to the point of panic on a daily basis. I cannot live with him any longer, and my parents will not kick him out. 

My education is something that is most important to me. I’m double majoring in Creative Writing and business, with a minor in film. I want to help bring about more diversity into the publishing and film markets. This is something I am very passionate about, and would be much easier to pursue with a college degree. 

I have made an IndieGogo campaign! I also have a PayPal ([email protected]), and if you can donate anything at all, it would be much appreciated. Please help me get out of this abusive household, and back to doing what I’m best at, in an environment that makes me thrive! 

Thank You, 

Kath

[kath-goes-to-college-deactivate]

I’m not going to make enough money before August 15th to pay my first payment on my installment plan for school, which is $1,400. I don’t want to beg for people to reblog, but I need to go back to school. I already feel so scared and overwhelmed. I hate feeling like this.

I can’t put up with this. Please help.

-Kath

[saturnspaceprince-deactivated20]

Please reblog if you can. I am currently living with my abuser. I have to be around him whenever I am not at work. I cannot even sleep without worrying if he is going to do something to me. I am in an unsafe environment and I’m more often scared than I am okay. Please. Reblog. I need help. It’s gotten to the point where I feel like my only option is to do something really stupid that I really don’t want to do but what other choice do I have? 

[askthedeadpoets]

If every one of the followers of this blog reblogged this post just ONCE, Kath would be a lot closer to their goal, and would end up in a much safer environment. Please reblog. We know that sometimes that’s asking a lot, but one of our own is in a very BAD situation, and we NEED to help them. -Mod X

[poetrusicbycharlie-deactivated2]

Let him be everything because he is everything. (insp.)

[buzzfeed]

A special celebration from Sir Ian McKellen and Sir Derek Jacobi❤️‍💛💚💜💙

[nobodystrophywife]

Is it possible to be triggered by something.. that doesn’t apply to you/has never happened to you/you have no reason to be triggered by? Or is that just a fear? Is there a difference between the fears and triggers? If so, what is it? When does a fear transition into a trigger and vice versa?

[a-paranoid-blogger]

Triggers come in all shapes and sizes. I was triggered by the "2012" thing for about three years, And for a while anything having to do with the universe. These have passed now but they were horrible triggers at the time. Triggers meaning that any mention of a word, image, etc., related to the trigger or the idea of having to confront a situation involving the subject, like an astronomy class, would immediately snap me from 0-10 on the anxious scale 0 being calm 10 usually being panic attack. A fear however only makes you mildly uncomfortable. If your afraid of spiders and one is in the kitchen you could walk out of the house or into another room and generally feel better, but you won't end up in a hep on the floor to terrified to move. If that happens you probably have a phobia but that's another subject. Hope this answered your questions

[thrustfundkid]

Guys.. For those of you that have anxiety.. Is feeling your esophagus close up around your bell, or like feeling your bell have something stuck on it and continuously feeling something stuck, almost making you want to gag..

Is this a form of anxiety? I don’t know.. I’ve had it bad for several days now and its worse when I lie down to sleep. I can’t be like this anymore. Its getting worse and worse and I’m so close to breaking into tears from how stressful this is

[a-paranoid-blogger]

It could be from your anxiety. Is there anything that's been stressing you out lately? Even if there isn't anything that comes to mind it could be subconscious. Have you had a panic or anxiety attack lately?

[duchessofweirdness]

Over-thinking: what I do best.

[a-paranoid-blogger]

me: yeah im alright i look pretty cute today

anxiety: :/

me: alright but at least i have this one skill people like me for

anxiety: :/

me: my friends like me?

anxiety: :/

me: im going to bed to stare at the ceiling and think over all my failings

anxiety: nice

[stability]

“stop thinking about it” wow thank u I am cured u should write a book

[bludotcom]

I have a question little bugs.

hey does anyone know how to deal with a panic attack where your throat closes?

[a-paranoid-blogger]

Does your throat like completely close to the point where it’s entirely cut off? Of is it just tight? Honest question

[bludotcom]

it’s just really tight and it’s making it even harder to breathe

[a-paranoid-blogger]

This could partly be caused by over stimulation. Next time it happens try and get yourself to a dark comfortable, familiar space and play relaxing music. Focus on your breathing specifically with your diaphragm, in through your nose for 5 seconds out through your mouth for 6 and repeat. Stroke your arm or have someone pet your hair in time with your breathing and as hard as it may be just keep breathing and focus. Center your mind and body. Remember this too shall pass and you’ll only be stronger than before.

Whenever I have a panic attack I focus on a candle in my head that flickers and sways with my breath but never goes out.

I hope this helps(: good luck

[a-paranoid-blogger]

Also I'm always here if you need more help😘

[bludotcom]

I have a question little bugs.

hey does anyone know how to deal with a panic attack where your throat closes?

[a-paranoid-blogger]

Does your throat like completely close to the point where it’s entirely cut off? Of is it just tight? Honest question

[bludotcom]

it’s just really tight and it’s making it even harder to breathe

[a-paranoid-blogger]

This could partly be caused by over stimulation. Next time it happens try and get yourself to a dark comfortable, familiar space and play relaxing music. Focus on your breathing specifically with your diaphragm, in through your nose for 5 seconds out through your mouth for 6 and repeat. Stroke your arm or have someone pet your hair in time with your breathing and as hard as it may be just keep breathing and focus. Center your mind and body. Remember this too shall pass and you'll only be stronger than before.

Whenever I have a panic attack I focus on a candle in my head that flickers and sways with my breath but never goes out.

I hope this helps(: good luck

[bludotcom]

I have a question little bugs.

hey does anyone know how to deal with a panic attack where your throat closes?

[a-paranoid-blogger]

Does your throat like completely close to the point where it's entirely cut off? Of is it just tight? Honest question

[lupilupinchen]

My confession.