I'm hiding by myself

Annie Perrault Age 19 Resident patient at Belvedere Institution for the Clinically Insane

[walker-jay]

  [There was a slight pull on Annie’s part and Jay had expected it. He knew things would take time and so his lips left her neck, as hard as it was, and placed a much softer kiss on her lips. Their lips barely brushed and he smiled at the sensation before laying on his side beside her, his arm draped over her abdomen, his hand holding her waist tightly. He smirked over to her] Didn’t expect that to happen but I definitely liked it. I am quite the lucky lad.

[a-perrault]

[Her breathing is still uneven as he wraps an arm around her; she nestles her head against his shoulder.] I...d-didn't expect that either. [A soft laugh escapes on her exhale in response to his almost-smug smile.]

[walker-jay]

  [His name came out almost as a whimper and he immediately wished to hear it more. He could feel the heat in the pit of his stomach and his legs laid in the space between her own. His hands took the chance to explore her, his fingers trailing down her ribcage towards her outer thighs. He shouldn’t have been doing it, he knew that, but the heat that radiated off her own body was testing his patience to new extremes. 

His lips traveled to her neck, his tongue making small circular motions against her skin, reminding himself to not leave a mark. The last he needed was a dark red spot appearing on her neck and with Annie’s lack of socializing sometimes, one could guess where it came from]

[a-perrault]

[HIs hands move across her stomach to her thighs, leaving sparks of heat behind where his fingers touch her skin, the feeling pooling somewhere just below her stomach. She shivers at the sensation, her head arching back as his mouth explores her neck.

It's all moving very very quickly and Annie's not sure how to react, where to place her hands or her lips. She pulls back, letting her head rest back against the couch for a moment to breathe, and to calm the anxiety clawing its way through her veins. She smiles quietly up at Jay, long delicate fingers running over his shoulders. She feels safe here, somehow, beneath his touch, in his embrace.]

[wolfful]

you’re not alone

[walker-jay]

  [Jay has always been the type to like surprises, especially surprises that came from people he cared about. This, for instance, was a surprise. It wasn’t that he thought Annie would never be one to initiate a kiss but she surprised him with her timing. Jay stayed still, not wanting to frighten Annie with his..over enthusiasm. His eyes close as she rests her hand against his face, smirking slightly as her lips lingered so closely to his, the sensation teasing him. It was killing him not to act in his usual, hurried manner. But as patience was never a virtue Jay handled well, his own surprising gentleness didn’t last long and his lips pressed firmly against her own with a little more force. 

He hardly realized that his body was now lifting from his place on the couch, which in turn forced her to get up as well. His hands seized the opportunity to grasp her hips, now turning her as smoothly as possible so that her body lay back on the couch, his body slowly leaning forward to rest against hers. His hands supported his weight over her as his hands pushed into the cushion, keeping his lips as close to hers as possible during their change of positions. He breaks away from her kiss, now placing small, teasing kisses in the small space just underneath her lower lip and down towards her chin] So beautiful, [He crooned softly] 

[a-perrault]

[It's soft for a moment, gentle like the moment it is, and Annie feels Jay go very still- Has she done something wrong? Maybe she shouldn't have-

And then his lips come firmly down on her own, parting them slightly with their pressure. Annie exhales sharply, the sigh escaping before his mouth presses hers again. She moves with him, not wanting to break away but not sure at how close they are. But then he turns her back and she's lying flat against the cushion of the couch, him hovering over her- Annie doesn't think about closeness anymore, not in the way she had been- though the anxiety and nervousness hover in her mind like a dark mist. They break the slide of lip-on-lip, the heat of contact just for a moment before he begins to trail soft kisses at her lower lip. His words make her blush, the pink tones of her features hidden the dark room.] Jay.. [ Her voice is quiet, as per usual, but now it's breathless -she hadn't expected her soft kiss to turn this way, but...she's not complaining, not as of yet. The mist may settle, and she may panic, but for now...]

[walker-jay]

  Oh yeah, he’s a Hypnotherapist here. Weird bloke but I’m glad he’s nice to ya, [Jay felt a small sense of protectiveness then, knowing he didn’t know or trust Declan. Although Annie can’t see, he makes a face at the sound of Jade’s name. That topic still made him uncomfortable, especially with all that happened with the three of them] Well I’m here now. Maybe not as fun as those but I think I’m alright, [he teased] And I’m glad to get ya to myself for a little, without all the noises of patients and nurses. 

[a-perrault]

. [She glances up at him, faces very close, as he talks about having her to himself, though she can only see the outlines of his features- not specific expressions. It helps her focus on his voice, and it calms her, hands trembling only slightly when she reaches up to touch his face while brushing her lips lightly against his- heart beating fast, even now fearing rejection- she's never been the one to initiate a kiss, but she supposes that there's always a first time for everything. And this seems like an opportune time.] 

[a-perrault]

walker-jay:

[a-perrault]

 walker-jay:

 [Jay’s hand gives a protective squeeze on her shoulder, now turning her so that her back laid against his chest, his own back resting against the armchair beside him. He let his legs spread out in front of him and he held Annie tightly. He rested his cheek against the top of her head] I’m sorry love. But ya should still be careful, wandering around. The guards can be right twats sometimes. 

What sort of adventures do ya get up to then? [he smirked, placing a quick kiss against her temple] 

I, um, sort of h-hide when I see them coming. Guards don't usually s-see me. [Annie hopes her words are at least a little reassuring. Despite her initial humiliation, she's glad that she came here.] 

[She leans into the embrace, her back resting close to his chest- her slim body too light for it to be uncomfortable. Annie thinks for a moment about her nighttime conversations and smiles.] I ran into Declan, I th-think he's a therapist, he gave me c-coffee and we had a st-strange conversation about dreams, I think. I woke Jade once. I used to talk to Es-Esmeralda when she couldn't sleep either- But mostly nothing very  interesting happens; I j-just wait for morning. 

[jimkirks]

[dez--franks]

a-perrault:

[It didn’t make any sense, that’s what people did. They picked and prodded at the new kids and then leave them alone, well the rules might be different in a place like this, but the concept should still be the same. A few months, that still made her relatively new, right? So she should be in the same boat that he is. Maybe that’s why she didn’t know about the hazing.] A few months? So you should be like me, you might get the better end of the deal on the hazing but I doubt you’ll know when the whole thing was taking place. 

[a-perrault]

No way. Esmeralda- m-my friend here, she would have told me. And nearly everyone I-I've met here seem very kind, even the level th-threes.  [Annie wraps her arms around herself as a sort of comforting shield. Her gaze lands on her shoes and stays there, all  words addressed to her toes. She hopes that this conversation doesn't erupt into an argument or him yelling at her.]

[a-perrault]

walker-jay:

[walker-jay]

[A lazy smirk appears on Jay’s face until she lays her head on his shoulder, now letting his back rest comfortably against the couch, holding her to the side of his frame] Better than five minutes? Was that because of the kiss or because you were havin’ a tough night? What are you doing up anyways?

[a-perrault]

Both, I guess. I w-was making myself m-more nervous, earlier. I c-came in here to calm down;  I th-think too much at night. ['And I can't think straight when you're kissing me. So that helped.' Annie finishes the statement silently in her mind, much too self-conscious to say it aloud. a blush stains her cheeks-luckily invisible due to the dark. She quickly moves on to his next question.] I always w-wander around at night.

[kinginthenorths]

[jayme--cook]

I thought this place was supposed to help.

[jayme--cook]

  It’s kind of dirty out here [understatement of the century], but it is nice to get outside. It just feels so stuffy inside, sometimes. Especially in there.

It’s nice to meet you too, Annie. [Jayme smiles to Annie, then looks out over the greenery, attempting to convince herself that she is free, home, anywhere away from Belvedere. Somewhere normal. But she must admit, despite her current stasis in her condition, she’s quite happy, and doesn’t want to leave Belvedere. She has friends, and an amazing boyfriend. Thinking about Carson makes her miss him, so she focuses her thoughts back on the present.] Have you been here long?

[a-perrault]

[Annie decides to let her opinion be known, despite Jayme being practically a stranger.] Outside is s-supposed to be dirty, right? It m-makes everything real. It's not pr-pristine, or perfect, it just is. [Annie smiles, closing her eyes just for a moment- letting the cold air brush over her pale skin, making the sensitive hairs stand on end, letting herself hear the rustle of the leaves, be aware of the vast space above her head. It's incredibly calming; it makes her feel so small and hidden- content, rooted. But only for a second. Then her eyes open after that brief moment and everything rushes back. Her constant companion returns, anxiety seeping back into every pore. She smiles though, softly, at Jayme as the girl asks her question. It's good to pretend. Annie's out of practice.] Um, not very long. I think I've been h-here about tw-two months. 

[a-perrault]

walker-jay:

[walker-jay]

It’s quite alright, love. [Jay smirks, angling himself towards her once she was seated. He brushed a piece of hair hiding her eyes, a few seconds go before he decides to kiss her. It isn’t rushed nor urgent but isn’t all that soft either, a firm kiss as if to say he needed it]

]He broke away after a few seconds, now pulling her body a little closer to him] So how are you love? 

[a-perrault]

[Annie's surprised by the kiss, but not unhappily so. She kisses back softly, pulling back when he does, a surprised little smile on her face. She's not wholly uncomfortable at their closeness right now, and she lets him pull her near with only a bit more anxiety than usual.] I...I'm better th-than I was five minutes ago, I think. 

[Her smile fades as the thoughts that had been swirling earlier return, and she rests her head on his shoulder to hide it. She doesn't want to worry him.]

[saafox]

[jayme--cook]

I thought this place was supposed to help.

[jayme--cook]

  [Jayme smiles as Annie agrees to walk with her. She wants to feel the wind in her face, and she’s rewarded with that when they reach the door and step outside. The fresh, crisp air nips at her skin, tingeing her cheeks and nose pink and she lets her hair down to protect her ears from the chill. It’s cold, but it’s refreshing. She takes in a breath of air, lungs filling with the fresh air and stale smoke. It’s the secondary, lingering taste of burned tobacco in the air that makes the woman crinkle her nose in distaste.] I always like to think it will be so lovely out here, and every time, I’m proven wrong. Perhaps we should head further out, the air should be clearer.

[She smiles again as she begins to walk, slowly distancing them from the area where all of the smokers tend to linger.] I can’t believe I forgot to ask your name, I’m sorry, I must have been more distracted then I’d thought… I’m Jayme, by the way.

[a-perrault]

[Annie breathes in the sharp, cold air as soon as they're away from the smoke, nose tingling pleasantly from the chill.] It's st-still better than being inside a-all th-the time, I think. [A small smile makes its way across her face as they walk. It's good to be out.] 

Oh, it's absolutely okay. I'm Annie. It's n-nice to meet you, Jayme. [She hopes that the other girl doesn't mind that Annie doesn't offer her hand to shake or something, as it's nothing personal. Annie just dislikes touching people she doesn't trust yet.] 

[a-perrault]

walker-jay:]

[a-perrault]

[Jay smirked, rather amused at her nerves. It wasn’t to be mean but rather that he found her adorable. He lifted his hand out to her, a slight nod of his head to motion her to the couch] Why are you sorry? I was wishin’ that I could have snuck you out here myself. 

Because you were asleep, and I woke you. [Annie comes around from the side of the couch, sitting down just a few inches away-nearly touching. And despite her embarrassment, a quiet smile dimples her cheeks at his words.]

[walker-jay]

  [Unlike some of the other doctors and staff, Jay didn’t live on the island. There were no ferries or ways to get back to his cousin’s apartment so he decided on one of the rec room couches, seeing as he’d never sleep in Selene’s office. He wasn’t sure if she lived on the island or not but it didn’t matter much to him as he could only imagine the intense awkward conversation he’d have to have with Selene. She was lovely but a lion looking for young, fit prey.

[He had to have been asleep for only a few minutes before he jumped just slightly at a squeak of a voice. He forgot he was sleeping in a public place. He squinted his eyes at the figure, noticing her brown hair. London? Annie? Maybe that new girl he spoke to briefly? But his eyes adjusted and he noticed his girl from her jawline. He smirked, sitting up, quickly looking around before settling his gaze back on her] Hiya love.

[a-perrault]

[ Why do these things always happen to Annie? Can someone else please take at least half of the humiliating situations she gets herself into? Annie covers the lower half of her face with her hands with no little amount of embarrassment, calming herself until she can lower her palms from her mouth, her voice returning to its usual soft tone.] I-I, I'm sorry, Jay, um, I j-just, I'd never been in here before, and, um, I th-thought it'd be empty...[But apparently not. She wants to apologize profusely, but she finds that she'd rather just judge his reaction first. Jay doesn't seem angry, but then, Annie's not the best at reading people. Her eyes scan his features in the dim light, worried.]

[owen-organized-chaos]

Sometimes the nurses talk a lot and I do not really listen...

[owen-organized-chaos]

  Oh,  Ava is my favorite. She is very nice and smiles a lot. I like that.

I am Owen, by the way. O-w-e-n, Owen. What is your name?

[a-perrault]

I'm Annie. Um, A-n-n-i-e, Annie. Owen is a n-nice name. [She gives a nod with a soft smile, grateful he'd asked the simple question first.]