Self-loathing trash

just fr my thoughts on rough nights 🌙⭐ addict 😤💊❄️ queer🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍⚧️ mentally unstable 🎭😓 28😮‍💨🔞 side blog(may not get many posts 🤷‍♀️) Follows From @Subby-puppers

[d-i-d]

[sulfatto-deactivated20250905]

[ravioliet]

they should invent a disproportionate emotional response that goes away when you understand it's disproportionate. they should invent a way to logic yourself out of emotions

[splittingatbothends]

What doesn’t kill you makes you passively suicidal 24/7

[dogpuppy]

[kosmogrl]

what doesn’t kill me leaves a pit in my stomach that never goes away

[kosmogrl]

what doesn’t kill me leaves a pit in my stomach that never goes away

[kosmogrl]

what doesn’t kill me leaves a pit in my stomach that never goes away

[kosmogrl]

what doesn’t kill me leaves a pit in my stomach that never goes away

[a-sad-puppo]

Tw Child Abuse/Death, Grief, Addiction

In nine days it'll be three years since you passed away, barely a year and a half old, it'll be 3 years since I wasn't there to do my job as your Aunt. Two days earlier you said your first word to me over a video call with your mom.

When I got the call that you had died I was 800+ miles away doing the same drugs that your parents had told me I couldn't move with y'all because I brought them into the house. I'm three years clean from coke as of your death anniversary, but it's not nearly enough.

I should have been there, it was my job to get you kids into your bedroom and barricade the door when your dad would get abusive, start laying hands on your mom and destroying things your siblings made, family heirlooms, furniture, whatever was in his was path, & because I brought my addiction into your house, I couldn't be there to watch you after your parents got in a fight and left you unattended for hours before they found you dead. You were just a lil guy. Barely a year and a half old. You'd almost be 5 today if I could have just gotten my shit together.

I watched your siblings while your mother gave birth to you, I was the one who'd feed/bounce/hold you when your mom was burnt out, since your dad couldn't bother to pay you or your siblings attention unless he was mad.

I was a damn fucking good Aunt Sarah, until my choices took that ability away from me.

I'll miss you forever Adler, I'm so so sorry you're not here anymore

[scaryskinny]

i just want my thighs not to rub when i walk

[90zenface]

me when i'm not eating: i don't want to do this

me when i'm eating: i don't want to do this

me when i'm eating like a normal person: i don't want to do this

[st4ving4g4in]

my partner wont ever have to worry about me cheating, they’ll have to worry about if I am eating or if im scrolling the meanspo tags

[milkywaa]

When you see yourself in a candid video and suddenly you realise people actually see you that way and you look so unelegant and sloppy so they are basically doing charity work by talking with you

[deegausserr]

Real. And then they post the videos/pictures and it’s so fucking humiliating.

[scabbed--wings]

nine inch nails // terrible lie

[konoko]

[strikemedowntohell]

It's okay. I dont deserve to feel good anyway