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sometimes it is easier to write down my feelings here than in my notebook

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Mon 19th November

Bila sam u Americi, živjela dost lijepi život ali stres me fizički i psihički uništio. Imala sam napadaj panike neki dan, užasan osjećaj i osim toga vrištala sam toliko da me boli grlo još uvijek i prehladila sam se zato. Moj želudac više ne može jesti sve i svašta kao prije, sada dobijem gastritis i umirem od bolova, a pogotovo ako sam u stresnoj ili anksioznoj situaciji kao što je prozivanje na faksu, svađanje sa sestrom ili pričanje s nepoznatim ljudima...

Promjenila sam se i loše mi je u zadnje vrijeme.

Ne znam u kojem smjeru idem u životu jer uskoro idem na diplomski a htjela bi samo putovati.

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Fri 15 Apr Bila sam na svom prvom sprovodu danas, baki od mojih sestricni. Plakala sam iako nisam znala nju, upoznale smo se jednom. Ali shvacala sam koliko je utjecala na tuđe živote i koliko su je voljeli i ona njih. Svi smo tako krhki. Što je uopće postojanje i ne postojanje? Trebamo li uopće biti tužni kad netko prestane postojati?~pa to je isto dio ovog "ciklusa" Za dva dana je Uskrs. Gdje je Isus da nas spoji s rajem kao što piše u Bibliji? ~ nije da se žalim, nego bi bilo fora da to vidim u svom životnom vijeku. Ili je bitno samo to što ja vidim? Što ćemo dalje?

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how could you expect your life to be something special when you don’t do anything to make it meaningful??? go out and do something cosmic

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Thu 2 Feb 2017

2.52 a.m. Now that I look back on my posts it seemed as if I was waiting to fall back again, back in a lonely, sad and full of fear state of mind. I'm like that, I find it very hard to adapt to new people. But I'm getting by and trying to be as positive as I could. The thing that bothers me the most is that I fall into a trap every time I procrastinate. Internet has become my addiction, and all my dreams remain just my dreams. I hate my life like that and I hate that I'm like that. I have to live happily, healthy and just with few moments of weakness. Now it's more like everyday weaknes with a few spurrs of creativity. I have to be grateful more for what I have...

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05012017

I visited my hometown’s Faculty of Humanities and Social Sciences’ library to study these days. I’m ljiving for this, it was motivating and calmed all my anxiety from january tests. Oh yeah, happy new year! 2017 began so confusing but eventful and I’m excited for what comes next. I wouldn’t say I’m happy right now. It is still hard to live in two places at once, but I’m opening up and getting used to it. Whoever is reading this, I hope you’re happy😌

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251216 So today is Christmas and I don't feel like it's Christmas. Recently I've been missing my hometown and friends. I don't like where I live right now, it's such a small city with little attractions but I came there to study so I must not give up. I also don't like my hair, it's too plain and normal and definately not me. Soon I'm going to colour it grey. Can't wait for better times.

[thequotejournals]

I aim to be lionhearted, but my hands still shake and my voice isn’t quite loud enough.

Michelle K., Earning Your Roar  (via thequotejournals)

[amargedom]

“You get depressed because you know that you’re not what you should be.”

Marilyn Manson x (via amargedom)

This!!! I'm trying to be someone else because me is very submisive and I don't feel good not being me. And, once again, I'm torn between who I am and who I wanna be. It's hard, idk what to do or say. I wish to stop and just be me ugh

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Osjecam veliku rupu izmedu sebe u zagreba i sebe u osijeku. Ne znam uopce tko sam ovdje jer mogu biti bilo sto. Mi ljudi smo samo ono sto nas drustvo cini. Ovdje nema nikoga tko me zna istinski i nitko zapravo ne zna kako se ponasat prema meni, kao ni ja prema njima. Vec me zovu evica, a ja sutim kad nemam sminke i vani je sunce i sve moje akne se vide. Vec sam tiha i plaha, ali volim pricat s ove tri cure, fkt se slazemo. Ali svi su tako normalni i dosadni, i sto je najgore i ja sam isto, to me najvise boli. Rekla mi je cimerica kad sam joj pokazala neke slike smjesne da je mislila da sam normalna. Ne zelim da itko ikada misli da sam normalna jer normalno je obicno i dosadno. Ipak tesko je bit drugaciji i odvaziti se. Na satu engleskog sam vise toga htjela rec, al nisam se usudila. Puno samopouzdanja mi ode na akne, ne bih smjela nositi bb kremu ili puder jer mi je suha koza tad ali kad nemam prekrivene akne osjecam se svuceno i ne zelim pricat ni sa kime, samo da ne privuknem paznju na svoje lice. Trebam se rjesit tog kompleksa. Ova pjesma je iz filma Tonight You're Mine, moj najdrazi film i totalno sam u tom moodu. Vani je cak i magla i takvo kisno vrijeme, a nemam nikoga za cuddleanje. Nema veze, sretna sam 😌

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Summer is ending, college is starting and I can’t be more happy. I’m so satisfied with my life that I question what kind of bad thing will happen next. In 2 days I’ll be 19 and in a week I’ll move out yay responsibilities

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happy bday kook~

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For another inspiring and motivating year, chasing my dream and working hard for it.

“I’d rather die than live without passion”

Hvala ti što me vodiš kroz glazbeni život i daješ temelj mojim snovima i ciljevima. Kako gledan kako rasteš, poželin to i za sebe. Ove godine radim više nego ikada😌

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#1 Summer 2016. I passed my exams and got into college in another city, I'm moving out in three weeks. I feel happy, that's important. Kind of "can't wait", kind of "I'm scared as hell", but either way I don't regret anything 😌

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Hello, today is 2016.5.31. and I'm quiting social media because of my finals. When I get back I want you to be happy and to feel worthy of happiness. Even if you fail, even if your college doesn't accept you, I love you and tell me that's not enough to move on. Thank you for taking care of me, I know you do and always will. Just look at your to-do list in the first drawer. Imagine yourself doing all those stuff and be happy because you have the time to do it finally. And you CAN do it. If I'm happy, you are happy right? (watch JeffreyFever)

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YOUTH

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Troye Sivan x BTS Literally my youth. The most beatiful moment in life.

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I finally finished my high school! I can’t believe this is it, I will tell my kids about this day and about 4 years I’ve spent in XVI. Grammar School. I will always remember people from my class, they were all so good to me, I was so lucky to be in the same class as them. I want to thank them for helping me grow up and making me a part of the team. I’m also so thankful for being best friends with Anita (in the middle), Ivana (next to her) and Mia (in the group picture she is in the right corner down, without glasses but lately she’s been a pain in the ass).

I still can’t believe this is over, I can’t believe all the stuff I’ve been through and all that is waiting me to experience. In 4 months I will be 19 and I’m already entering adulthood.

Yesterday was the day for partying and I met Vjeko and my first “kind of boyfriend” Din and it was a little awkward but pleasant. It was like a memory lane and made me step back from everything and just think about how beautiful these 4 years have been.

Oh yeah and I cut my hair short and I feel super nice👌

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Još uvijek čujem njen smijeh u glavi naježim se… Želim..

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Today is this kind of day

7/2/2016