curious observer

questioning ghostkin

[a-wandering-shade]

I think I see ghosts as very close, beloved family rather than my actual self. they influence me greatly, my behaviors and thoughts can be very ghost-like, but I think it's just not integral enough to my sense of self that I would be ghostkin. I'm leaning much more towards otherheartedness, I think.

[a-wandering-shade]

I've really been thinking about my life these past few days. Basically just trying to figure out if I truly felt moments of non-humanness or if I was just a really lonely person all my life.

Surprisingly, it's actually been kind of reassuring! There are so many little moments from my past that make me feel so much more connected to (what I suspect is) my kintype. I want to type some out here to remember them.

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While we have been fairly estranged for a while now, the Greek side of my family really influenced my childhood. Like many kids I was obsessed with their mythology. I remember finding their beliefs about the afterlife to be so comforting. Once you die, it's true that you'll never be the same living soul again. But you'll still be around, in a way. An echo of your life remains to wander around the underworld, a shade.

I've always liked that term for ghosts, too. Just shade. A faint shadow of yourself, but still you. Not just a piece of you like "revenant" or something. It's almost soothing.

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I've always been fond of the wind. For a very long time when I was little, I was convinced I could control it. A light breeze, a gust, anything I wanted, the winds would be. When the wind howled, I chose to think it was speaking to me. I liked to thank the wind for whoever was indulging my requests. I live in a very windy place now, and I still can't shake my fondness for its impermanence and power despite its lack of a corporeal form.

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As I've said before, I'm not much of a religious/spiritual person. But when I was little, I held a sort of "might as well be nice to them just in case all of this IS real after all" kind of attitude. Occasionally, I would verbally acknowledge the "ghosts" in my room, asking them politely to not scare me or hide in my closet or something. I would say bye to them when my family went out. Sometimes I'd just talk to my invisible peanut gallery. I couldn't verify their existence, but I figured they appreciated someone to be with. I got to be with them too, really.

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The moment that stands out the most to me is a dream I had a couple years ago that I've never been able to forget. I was a ghost, in every possible way, and I was so happy. I caused some mischief stealing from the supermarket, ran right out the front door. From there I went through some back rooms (liminal spaces have always been pretty calming to me) to a movie theater. After that, I just walked and watched so many people. It all felt vague and ephemeral, but there was an indescribable sort of beauty in knowing that my not-belonging made me appreciate people more. Made me appreciate life in general more. I loved being able to see it all from a spectator's point of view.

I wish I could believe in something more than a cut to black once I die, because I would be eternally fulfilled if my shade could linger around long after I'm gone.

[a-wandering-shade]

Alterhuman community, I could really use your help here :(

So, I'm very new to this. I just know I feel like a ghost, have for a very long time, and this is most likely entirely psychological in origin due to alienation I've experienced from being a neurodivergent person. Problem is, even though I heavily relate to ghosthood(?) and genuinely kinda feel like it's a part of me, I'm just not a spiritual person. Never really have been. How could I possibly be a ghost alterhuman when I question their existence in the first place?? Is it possible to identify with the concept of ghosts? Their symbolic meaning in my life, I guess?

I feel like I'm just faking alterhumanity or at the very least extremely misunderstanding it :(((

[a-wandering-shade]

figuring all of this out for myself is a very confusing process 😖

[idwl]

the idol sings you a song...

★ outsider

[pt: outsider /end pt]

a flag for those who are outsiders, i.e. "a person not accepted by society, or someone who isolates themselves from society." there's no wrong way to use this term.

intended for neurodivergent folk, especially those with avpd, social anxiety, autism, etc.

★ outcast

[pt: outcast /end pt]

a flag for those who are outcasts, i.e. "a person who has been rejected or ostracized by their society or social group." meant for those isolated against their own will, but can be used by those isolated by their own will, as well. there's no wrong way to use this term.

intended for neurodivergent folk, especially those with avpd, social anxiety, autism, etc.

★ recluse

[pt: recluse /end pt]

a flag for those who are recluses, or reclusive, i.e. "a person who lives a solitary life and tends to avoid other people." meant for those isolated by their own will, but can be used by those isolated against their own will, as well. there's no wrong way to use this term.

intended for neurodivergent folk, especially those with avpd, social anxiety, autism, etc.

coined by us!

see also: chronically online, avoreclusic

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[flagboo]

nonhuman⛶ / nonhumansquareco - a term for when one identifies with, as, and/or connects to nonhumanity in a mysterious, eerie, and liminal way.

archival tags: @radiomogai @io-archival @symblabel-terms, [x]⛶ by @angelomour, colors from this flag

[silverwound]

nocturnal — when one feels they are more active or awake at night, are more tired or have trouble being awake during the day, etc. made with alterhumanity in mind but doesn't have to be.

[pt: nocturnal.] image IDs in alt text. do not repost!

i made this for a headmate and thought i should share since i couldn't find a flag for this :3

[r04dk1lld0g]

Un/dead Ask Game

💀 - what kinda un/dead are u? zombie, ghoul, ghost, corpse, etc?

🪦 - would u rather spend a whole night alone in an abandoned hospital Or a graveyard? (ur in no danger)

🥩 - is there any food/drink that consuming it makes u feel more like ur ‘type?

📼 - are u a fan of horror/thriller media like movies and games? if so, do u hav any favorites?

🦷 - is there a kind of memorabilia related to ur ‘type that u like to collect? (ex. zombies collecting brain-related things)

🪖 - do u hav/want clothes/gear related to ur ‘type?

🪞 - did u come back wrong, or did u come back urself (or maybe, did u come back better)?

🍄 - are u a decayed/decaying thing? if so, 1) what stage of decomposition r u in, and 2) what stage do u feel most connected to?

✨️ do/did any kind of powers come with ur un/deadness?

🍖 - do u experience phantom feelings? like limbs or pains?

🪡 - are there specific un/dead ‘stereotypes’ u feel connected? stitches, stapled joints, ooze, brightly colored veins etc?

🥀 do u have other kin/therio/hearttypes that overlap with your un/dead ‘type?

for anyone to play!! reblog for others to choose questions to send in your askbox! please make sure to have your asks ON

these kinda blogs are getting blocked if i see you in my notifs: * radqueers * TERFS/SWERFS/radfems * true crime community * anti endos :)

[a-wandering-shade]

new to this (as in, literally today), but thought I'd try my hand at it as a freshly awakened ghostkin(?)

1. I'm a ghost. Just general for now, though I do intend to look into more specific kinds to see if any resonate with me. I'm pretty sure the only specific I have rn is that I'm an urban ghost. It's easy to haunt the world when the wealth of people obscures your existence.

2. Such a hard choice! I love staying in buildings when everyone is gone, getting to really enjoy the liminality of it all, but graveyards are quite soothing. Ultimately, I think I'd have to go with the abandoned hospital.

3. Currently unknown.

4. Very much so. I'll just mention one of my favorite horror books, The Haar by David Sodergren

5. This might sound strange, but blue things. I heavily relate to dazecore, and usually digitally collect things that remind me of that.

6. Some more dresses would be nice.

7. I think, in a way, I came back myself. Again, still looking into things, but I almost feel like I'm the ghost of my future self, living alongside my afterlife. I don't feel like I'm a different person's soul or from the past. I'm myself long after my body is gone.

8. No, not really.

9. I don't think so, no.

10. Just a general sense of longing and yearning, knowing that I'm meant to wander this world freely, watch everything with no one to look back at me.

11. I'm quiet, shy. I love people-watching. I'm a loner. I prefer nighttime to daytime.

12. No, don't think so.

[alterhuman-culture-is]

Ghost culture is fear of being perceived

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[alterhuman-culture-is]

Ghostkin culture is always saying "invisibility" when asked what superpower you want.

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[alterhuman-culture-is]

ghostkin culture is bumping into l i t e r a l l y everything

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[alterhuman-culture-is]

ghostkin culture is forgetting you have a phsycial body that needs to be maintained instead of being an incorpreal being

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[alterhuman-culture-is]

ghost culture is . lurking ....... in the corner ....

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[self-ish-coiner]

(No flag ID)

Ghost⛶

[PT: Ghost⛶ (ghost square corners) /end PT]

A term for those who identify as a ghost or connect to ghosts in a mysterious, eerie, and liminal way.

Cannibal⛶

[PT: Cannibal⛶ (cannibal square corners) /end PT]

A term for those who identify as a cannibal or connect to cannibalism in a mysterious, eerie, and liminal way.

Please don't eat real people because I coined a term please... cannibalism is a crime for a good reason

[x]⛶ coined by @angelomour

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[rwuffles]

☕️ ❛ living ghost！ ⚣

pt: living ghost. end pt.

︵︵﹒definition ｜ a flag for when one is a living ghost in any way!

pt: definition, a flag for when one is a living ghost in any way! end pt.

☕️ ❛ tags！ ⚣ @crossstains

[melabea]

ghost!

species flags for ghosts!

for willow!

symbol from here (link)!

tagging; @radiomogai, @specieschive, & @seasulfur!

[luxiomahariel]

ghost-coded

a label for when someone feels like they are ghost-coded; they could have ghost-like mannerisms, give ghost-like vibes, being a ghost or being ghost-like intertwines with their identity, or whatever else ghost-coded means to the user

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