Wow what a way to dehumanize those trying to help or even reach out to you. Have some awareness? its not cool nor is it fair, just cause YOU think we aren't real. But hey, who cares. If no one can reach out to you, then who can?
At least reveal some shocking things if you want. It makes no sense at all and its disturbing.
i wish great things for all the people who genuinely do want to help me, and i hope you find a good place to channel that but i am not a good person, i dont know how long it will take everyone to realise im a shitty person but for the last segment of posts i’ve been writing my thoughts as i think
i don’t expect people to genuinely reach out cause i don’t see myself as worth helping
and what shocking facts would you like?
how about the fact i grew up with an abusive dad, and that i woke up in the night to him abusing my mum multiple times while i was less than 10, how i’ve blocked most of my childhood from my memory, and how i was made to go to so many events for my whole childhood cause “it will look good for when you get a job” that i got completely burnt out from doing any outside events so i hate going out and being social
and can’t forget then failing college twice so i can’t even get a sustainable job, so i’ve been working at a fast food place since i was the legal age to work and all i think about while im on shift is killing myself
and don’t start on relationship pasts cause we already know how toxic i am, never once successfully asked someone out, it ended with rejection every time, if i’ve been asked out it ended after the first or second date, they never told me what i did, they just gave the old “it’s not you it’s me” as an easy way out
matter of fact a story on why i don’t ask people out, i went to maccies once when i was about 14 with a mate and 2 girls came over and asked for my snap, me being 14 and having never dated successfully i was very happy and we eventually met later, one asked if i would date her and i said if i got to know her i would. they then started berating me and followed me for a good 20 minutes just harassing me, recording me, telling me they were gonna get their guy friends to batter me, so that killed my self confidence in a heartbeat
interpret this how you wish, call me toxic, say it’s normal say i’m attention seeking cause at the end of the day that’s all my bitching is, it’s looking for attention, same reason this page came to be in the first place
