abe.dosmil

barber | cook | drummer

[sustancy]

[abedosmil]

[abedosmil]

had a really good music day. discovering something new to me is some form of therapy for me.

[horrorgifs]

Johnny Depp as EDWARD SCISSORHANDS in Edward Scissorhands (1990) dir. Tim Burton

[coolinnboolin]

[sxlxmxndvgxd]

😔

[abedosmil]

things have slightly gone up since my accident. gotta keep this upward trend going!

[abedosmil]

tonight seems like a good night to end it.

[abedosmil]

even though shit has changed. my feelings for her are still there. they aren’t going anywhere. just wish the feeling was mutual.

[vivienvalentino]

LIV TYLER Empire Records, 1995

[depressingxthings]

[ohyeahpop]

Untitled, from the series »¥€$U$«, 2018 - Ph. Paweł Jaszczuk

[abedosmil]

i sure know how to self sabotage myself don’t I..

[abedosmil]

tonight was a hit. yo boi rocked the fit. laced up some dishes. got a few honeys lurking my fortress of solitude aka the kitchen. i think the drummer of provoker was hittin on me for a bit. tonight was weird but hella long. im tide. good night timblr. I love y’all but this cocaine ain’t doing it’s job and my eyes heavy. 😘

[abedosmil]

have you ever fallen for someone you haven’t even met. i am dumb but I have. it is what it is.

[abedosmil]

cause there’s this tune I found that makes me think of you somehow, so I play it on repeat.

[abedosmil]

Everyone can go fuck off. I’ll kill myself in a bit. Chill out.

[abedosmil]

as I lay here stoned beyond belief did I realize what my problem is. i realize that i overthink the shit out of everything. i don’t really know where this disconnect happened because I used to be so sure of myself. i guess really shitty relationships really do leave their mark in some way even if you don’t want to believe it. i tend to get discouraged after not getting any reciprocation cause I really put in mad effort to the way I move. I should know never to expect the same energy back always and it’s just cause someone ppl can’t and that’s my issue. i need to understand that not everyone can easily be as open as I am. it’s kinda of double edge sword cause last relationship your boi was in, I bottled a lot of shit and it ended up biting me in the ass. so I’m trying to be open. just gotta understand that most aren’t and that’s okay.

rant over.