I mean yeah you'd think so. Most time I do struggle to sleep when drinking coffee. Just thought it may be a plausible answer for what happened, but clearly not.
It could still be an answer. I'm so sensitive to caffeine that I barely touch the stuff, so I really have no idea what it can do. You could tell me coffee before bed has been scientifically proven to lead to dreams about demonic possessions and alien invasions, and I wouldn't question it. Did you ever find out if others had weird dreams too?
As long as you can promise me that you're okay and you're safe then I can accept that you're not ready to tell me. No, I guess I wasn't okay, but I am now. I love you, you know that?
Promise me the same thing and we'll call it even. I love you too. I'm sorry, the last few months have been a lot and I haven't checked in enough. How are you? Not... whatever happened with Dad, but just in general? Tell me about Midge, that's one of my favorite topics.
Nah, that's just cold. They choked on their energy drink? C'mon now. Yeah, I've had a few of 'em invite me to parties just so I could buy the drinks. I might've been a bad influence because I definitely did just that.
I guess it was better than the other option of him spitting it out. Not much better, but better. That... probably is a bad influence, I can't try and tell you otherwise. But one of the big things I've gotten from the 18 year olds around me if you hadn't done it, someone else would have so... maybe that's marginally more responponsible?
I feel like you're not telling me something. And like, that's cool, if you have stuff you don't want to tell me, but don't lie and tell me it's nothing, if it is something, okay? I'm okay. I was drunk during lockdown, sent Dad a picture of me making out with a guy, it went over about as well as you can imagine, but I'm okay.
...no, you're right. I'm sorry. It's not nothing, but I don't think it's something I'm ready to tell you about either. Some day maybe, just not now. You're okay now, but were you okay? Zach seemed really worried, and I know they worry a lot but this felt like it was more than usual.
I'll be honest: I didn't expect to be back here until Thanksgiving or maybe even Christmas, and I definitely wasn't expecting to suddenly find myself semi-living at home again on Halloween. Don't get me wrong, I love my family, of course, but it's been... well, let's just say it's been a bit of an adjustment. And it looks like I'm not the only one who thinks so because my mom quite literally just told me to "stop moping on the couch with the cat and go to that Halloween bash".
I suppose she has a point, so I'm currently putting together a very last-minute costume, as I didn't bring costume 1.0 from New York (and it was a couple's costume, so it would have been no use anyway...).
In other words: yes, hi, I'm back, and I figured I'd say hello on this website before seeing most of you (I hope!) in person again tonight! For those of you I haven't met yet: I'm Blaine Anderson and disclaimer: the mustache you'll see me with tonight is very much a fake one. Please feel free to come and say hi! I promise I don't bite.
Crazy how time flies, because I know the last time I made a post on here was before a whole lockdown and Halloween had passed, and now I'm sitting here like, oh yeah, this place actually exists to make posts and stuff. Anyway, how's it hanging? How's it going for everyone? Anything exciting happening in everyone's lives? I gotta say, everyone looked fucking awesome last night. I'm so obsessed with all of you, you're all perfect.
Oh, and in some kind of fun news, I kind of got a pretty serious e-mail talking about possibly getting Mindscapes off of YouTube and on actual television. I don't know if I'm gonna follow through with it yet, but it's still exciting. Like, little 'ol me? Mindscapes? People want that on their big screens? (Not to be confused with the movie theater, I don't think I'm that cool yet.) Anyway, just thought I'd share that tidbit because when I got the e-mail I did a little jig that was absolutely embarrassing.
Right, Halloween is now over which is kind of sad, I do love dressing up. However now that it is over and we're in November it is acceptable to watch Christmas Films and listen to Christmas music and decorate for Christmas now right? I know some people think December is the time to do that but how can you wait that long to do the Christmassy events and how do you watch all of the Christmas films in 25 days? Who else gets in the Christmas Spirit once it hits November 1st?
If you want to start celebrating now, I don't think there's anything stopping you. I won't be doing any pre-celebrating just yet, mostly because I need to get over the Thanksgiving hurdle first. But once December 1st hits, I have big plans to watch Elf.
I had the weirdest dream. Something about a haunted mansion and cults and witches. That's enough coffee before bed for me. Did anyone else have any fucked up post Halloween dreams, or just me?
Well finally I have finished the first draft of the final book of my series, the relief but fear of that being done. I can't believe my first ever book series is almost complete. I honestly am going to miss writing this series because it has been a dream.
What is something productive everyone has done recently? Also random and unrelated what is on your Christmas lists?
That's amazing, congratulations. I couldn't write one book, let alone a whole trilogy. How many drafts do you usually have to go through before it's ready to go? I tackled the pile of laundry that's been on my couch for two days, if that's an accomplishment. I don't think I can even try to think about Christmas yet, it already feels like I'm running behind.
What the fuck is up, PSU? Not gonna lie, they gave me the info for this site when I got accepted and I completely forgot about until now. Feels weird being twenty-eight and a Freshman. My classes are filled with eighteen year olds and I'm freaked the fuck out. They're all looking at me like I'm an old man. Me? This pretty face? Please. Speaking of this pretty face, name's Nate. Who wants to show me around campus? Or better yet, tell me the ins and outs of what it's like here. What's the go to bar for the students? The cafe on campus suck? Etc.
Earlier in the semester I told a classmate my birthdate, year included, and she choked on an energy drink so badly that I thought she was going to need medical attention. That was embarrassing for both of us. Have any of them asked you to buy them alcohol yet? That's something I keep getting as a thirty year old surrounded by eighteen year olds.
I can do a one card or three card drawing for you. You're welcome to take what resonates or leave what doesn't.
ABBY WILDE.
What’s the difference?
SAGE SYLVESTER.
Three cards can give you more of an insight.
ABBY WILDE.
Okay… this is all new to me so I think I'll do one for now if that's okay.
SAGE SYLVESTER.
Sure thing. Can you think of a question you have for the deck, or something you'd like it to focus on? [Sage shuffles and one card falls out.] Temperance, reversed. To me, this card suggests a lack of balance. Something in your life is out of harmony. You're living in extremes, and that could be in relationships, habits, or work. Whatever it is, it's harming your well-being.
ABBY WILDE.
[Abby nods slowly, trying to process] Can I ask you something*?
SAGE SYLVESTER.
It's not… great? [Sage pulls another card.] The Fool, reversed. With Temperance… it sounds like if you're acting impulsively, or out of alignment-- the unbalanced part-- that could lead you to make mistakes or enter conflicts you don't mean to. It's a warning, I think, to step back and assess your situation-- whatever it is-- and take time to ground yourself with a balanced approach before you move forward.
ABBY WILDE.
[Abby nods slowly, trying to process] Can I ask you something?
SAGE SYLVESTER.
Sure.
ABBY WILDE.
Like I said, this is all new to me. But.. how accurate is this? In general?
I didn't tell you because I needed someone to protect me. It's done and over., nothing like... that'll happen again. I told you because if anything bad happened in the earthquake, I didn't want to die a liar to everybody. I just needed to know I could trust you.
