I needed that new fun. song so much
I've been out of the loop lately so I didn't even know until like an hour before it broadcast
but I've had a really rough time these past few months (man who was like a father to me for the last 7 years committed suicide in March, my mom is moving over 900 miles away...)
and I spent the weekend sorting through all my childhood possessions and packing them away and that really really sucks because I'm not ready to move on
and then yesterday everything went wrong in lab and the compound I've been working on for like a month straight wouldn't recrystallize and I spent the entire day setting up a column which is a super time-consuming and tedious thing (we're talking like 8 hours here) only to run an NMR of what came out of the column, after all that work, and find out that either my compound broke down in the solvent or didn't elute and I did all that work for nothing
which may sound like gibberish but basically I've been working for weeks to try to figure out how to purify my compound and eventually I gave in and did this really time-intensive procedure that's supposed to get you a small bit of your compound really pure and then somehow it still didn't work
and I was going to come home and cry a lot and probably cut a lot because tbh it was a really rough day during what's been a rough week of a rough year
and instead I listened to Harsh Lights over and over and ripped a video and blogged about it and analyzed the lyrics and got all excited and did all this stuff and felt good and happy and connected and uplifted
I'm not saying that a new fun. song fixes all my problems
just that a new fun. song meant that I didn't cut last night
and that's enough for now
