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[abjectadmiration]

WHAT THE FUCK

MY MOM WENT THROUGH MY COMPUTER AND DELETED MY BRONIGMA SLASH

WHAT THE FUCK. WHAT THE FUCK!!!!!

[brittlegreen]

This may be the last post on this blog.

I’ve finally realized the thing I have to do to progress in life. I need to master my fear and carelessness. I need to take initiative. It’s not going to just happen. I’ve been passive for too long. I need to grow up and take responsibility for my actions.

My counselor suggested I start taking martial arts and doing meditation exercises. This is an entirely new experience for me and I’m glad I started. I can’t tell yet how much it’s working but I can tell the mental discipline will be helpful.

In all sincerity, please forgive me for all I have done wrong and for all the things I should have done that I didn’t. I hope to become a better person. I realize it won’t happen overnight, it may take my entire life. But I need to master my fears and learn to be at peace with the world and with others.

Thank you all for all your help, for all your attention. Be good to each other.

[abjectadmiration]

good luck

[abjectadmiration]

I want to learn how to drive so I can go certain places but no one here will teach me and everyone cool is too far away and I don’t have money for a car or even gas anyway

I just need to get out of here

[abjectadmiration]

Okay I’m sorry about the meltdown earlier. I lost my job again and I feel like ass

I’m just gonna sleep until someone tells me I’m not allowed to sleep anymore

[abjectadmiration]

even this is attention seeking

who’s gonna fall into the trap

and ask me if i’m okay, tell me i’m special, so i can box up reality and put it back in the closet for a little longer

and in a few months it happens again, i have a “bad day” and the truth comes out, and it happens over and over and over and you’re just feeding the stray cat you know “just this once i’ll put out some food for it” and you think that helps but you’re just prolonging that cat’s sad shitty life

this metaphir is garbage what ma I even talking about

[brittlegreen]

Someone once told me “reality is what you make of it” … it feels like such a drag, a burden, to have to constantly face the grind day in and day out. All the little annoyances and setbacks make life hell, but to give up is much worse.

These thoughts are not any more true than the other ones you have. You get to pick which ones you believe, which ones you side with. It’s not an easy choice, and sometimes you can’t make it on your own, but that’s why we’re all in this together. 

You should really try to spend time with people you know irl though. It tends to make all the difference, at least for me. 

[abjectadmiration]

Thanks for trying to help and everything but 1) You don’t even like me soooo 2) You have superpowers so obviously it’s going to be difficult for you to understand where I’m coming from and 3) My family probably hates me because I flunked out of school and can’t hold a job, I’m just a sponge

I’m gonna try to consider what you’re saying

But right now I’m having a hard time taking anything you say seriously

[abjectadmiration]

even this is attention seeking

who’s gonna fall into the trap

and ask me if i’m okay, tell me i’m special, so i can box up reality and put it back in the closet for a little longer

and in a few months it happens again, i have a “bad day” and the truth comes out, and it happens over and over and over and you’re just feeding the stray cat you know “just this once i’ll put out some food for it” and you think that helps but you’re just prolonging that cat’s sad shitty life

this metaphir is garbage what ma I even talking about

[abjectadmiration]

i think i’mk so cool with my insensitvity like ium just too REAL for you too REAL and its BULLSHIT i just want an answer even if it isn’t an answer someone has to talk to me because i’m the hardhitting reporter that no one fucking needed and i don’t have anything to do with the info i get because what am i supposed to do besides LOOK at it i’m just osme sack of shit at a computer

[abjectadmiration]

a cold light wants yoou and its yours and it wants you and supers!!!! super s are interesting aN THERE’S ONLY ONE OF THEM they have something no one else has no one else in the whole world and you know whatg

even the most diupshit, donothing, worthless super

is tragic

and tragedy

is the key

id rather be tragic than just pathetic there’s a poetryt to it you see

[abjectadmiration]

It’s economics, there are substitutes, and i bet they’re cheaper, don’t cost as much time or sympathy or patience and maybe they’re shiny and new and maybe they have extra features so if you need a sad friend it doesn’t gotta be me, if you need a deadbeat around to look at and pity there’s plenty of depressed 20 somethings it doesn’t gotta be me stray cat is a stray cat is a stray cat

[abjectadmiration]

NOTHING

[abjectadmiration]

who the fuck doesn’t get excited about shit, who doesn’t have enthusiasm, what am I that NO ONE ELSE IS there’s NTOHUNG

[abjectadmiration]

and what am i, what am i that no one else is, all i have is ENTHUSIASM and it’s makes me FUCK UP all the time because i don’t care who hears or who hurts i just gotta say things gotta ask things gotta write it all down in my little book full of shit that everyone who matters already knows 

[abjectadmiration]

And how many stray cats do you see in your life

depends where you live but the point is that a stray cat is a stray cat is a stray cat and thy’re all sad in the same way and you move past them all in the same way and a stray cat is a stray cat what’s the difference who cares

[abjectadmiration]

I’m like a stray cat yknow, stray cats are all shabby and sad and what do you do with a stray cat, it’s a shame, “what a shame” and then you move on because you have a life, you have shit to do stray cat don’;t have shit to do stray cat’s FUCKED

[abjectadmiration]

Why am I even fucking here

[abjectadmiration]

for real though get off my case

[abjectadmiration]

If I were a super, I’d probably be the kind that goes nutso and hurts a bunch of people. Un/fortunately, no Cold Light has wanted me so far ;~;

[ee76q]

I’ve heard of Cold Light chasers.

They try to hunt down Cold Lights based on statistical models and things.

Given how randomly they fall, I suspect they have significantly more money than sense.

[irradiantmadness]

It’s like the people who drive after tornadoes.

But dumber.

[abjectadmiration]

Hey buddy c:

Fuck off ccc: