Gonna tell you something.
This year I thought I had achieved everything I had wanted...I have a job I feel comfortable with, earning a regular salary, met a guy that took my heart away despite his issues, I am living this somehow normal life, but....there is a moment when the guy who took your heart away has his “issues” that you can no longer ignore or pass by, even though you are still trying and shall try until the very end...and later, the job you love so much starts to become a nightmare in its own unique way...
And there’s a small light at the end of the corner, one you can see but at the same time don’t want to see. Why? Because of the fear of losing everything you have, the fear of leaving your comfort zone.
What am I afraid of?
Not being able to handle my own loneliness for long.
What makes me so afraid to the point my bones start to shake?
Missing the guy I love deeply, and never seeing him again. Seeing him in a future and feel the exact things I do now.
What else am I afraid of?
Not being able to move forward from my family, not seeking my independence, and not even getting it at some point.
I am afraid of losing the ability to support them in some way. I am really afraid of not covering the things I had offered them.
I am afraid of losing my boyfriend forever. Or crush. Or lover. Guy I like...whatever.
But as the photo says...I can’t keep myself, no, we can’t keep ourselves inside this comfort zone. Help me to wake up! Let’s wake up from this living nightmare together to move on, to go on, to grow.
Let’s leave the comfort zone once for all.