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Hugs are actually so underrated especially those hugs that are so tight u can literally feel the other person’s heartbeat n for a moment everything feels so calm and safe like nothing can hurt you

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angrybagel

i wish i cried macaroni because i would get free macaroni and that would make me so happy that i would cry from happiness and make more macaroni

are you okay

yes

Extra bonus round on “How to spot an artist” pro-tips:

Rubens: “Skinny may be in. But fat is where it’s at.”

Michelangelo: “Nude women are muscularly sculpted men with oddly shaped fruits attached on as breasts.”

irishmoo

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mystivy-me

I would never have posed for Rubens if I thought he’d just post the pics online. Smh.

vonkomagno

#relatable #postsecret

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retrogaydad-deactivated20190324

being bisexual and having different feelings when ur attracted to guys than when u are to girls is so hard to explain bc being attracted to a guy is like “ah” and being attracted to a girl is like “oo” but that doesn’t make any sense to anyone but me

#me #this makes so much sense #about me

it’s been a really long time since i’ve posted or even looked at tumblr but i’m writing here because i need to write somewhere and twitter only allows 140 characters. I haven’t written a post since 2014. and i guess a lot has changed...? who knows. this post is about to be a mess. okay. well, most recently, i broke up with my boyfriend of 7 months. he was great to me but it wasn’t 100% there. i don’t know how i feel about it all yet. i feel like i’m in a cloud again, i can't stop feeling sad. I’ve been on antidepressants for a while for anxiety/depression but idk if they actually do that much. i’m starting to think more and more readily that i’m just going to be numb like this forever. it’s a weird feeling because everything around you is going and i just feel like i need to curl up in a ball and go to sleep for 14 hours but every time i lay down my head spins and my thoughts keep me awake. i miss his company, but i don’t think that i actually miss him, i miss the idea of him. I feel fatter than i ever have, my body pretty much disgusts me so i try not to look in the mirror too much. i’ve stopped trying to look nice a while ago, its too much effort. when i was breaking up with my bf he told me that i seemed different and distant lately and i knew that he was right, but i don’t know how to fix it. i don’t know how to address it. a part of me wants to see a therapist again but the other part of me knows that i’ve been there and done that and i’m intuitive and they don’t usually tell me anything that i don’t already know.

i think the thing that bothers me the most is that i see people around me who are doing so much more than me and doing it well, or at least looking good when they do it, and it just makes me feel even more worthless. i don’t even shower on a regular basis, let alone have enough energy to work or do things. I don’t like hating myself, and for a while, i was doing really well, but as the year goes on, i can’t help but be sad about like, everything. I don’t like to eat. that’s a lie, i do, but I don’t like the thought of eating. i eat as little as possible during the day and just try to drink a lot of water. i don’t want to feel fat and eating makes me feel that way.Its hard for me, also, because i know that i have privilege and i know that i don’t really have many reasons to feel the way that i do, which only makes me feel guiltier for having these feelings. I’m just really in a poor mental state right now and hopefully can overcome this soon. i know that positive thinking is the proper way to go about it, but the negative thoughts have been so overwhelming. I wish we had a fall break, I want to go home.

#personal