Allen ⋆✴︎˚｡⋆ (relapsing)

he/him 🏳️‍⚧️ sw: 95 - cw: 53 - lw: 46 - gw:50 - ugw:38 Please let's talk i'm so lonely

[abyss-boi-diary]

Introduction!!! :D (again bc im remaking my acc lol)

Hiii, call me Allen

I’m 18 :3

This is a personal diary bc this illness makes me very lonely, pls don't report me

Im pro-recovery :D

I mainly speak spanish

nb trans guy in the aroace spec

Future social worker!!! :3

Any interaction is welcomed :D

Interests: art, 5th wave emo, kandi making, videogames (persona 4, persona 5, animal crossing, tomodachi life, overwatch, the sims, stardew valley, yakuza, fashion boutique, etc), diy clothing and reading (about sociology and gender theory)

Fav shows: The good place, community and Bojack Horseman:D

Music: Glass beach, stomach book, Home is where, your arms are my cocoon and weatherday (I love 5th wave emo in general!!!!)

I was kind of forced into recovery last year and gained a lot of weight back

I've been slowly relapsing since december but now it's full-blown

Here I will vent about my mental health struggles bc I’m very lonely bc of them and having a personal blog helps me with it

Again, feel free to talk to me, I would love to have ana buddies or new friends to talk about things in general

[abyss-boi-diary]

One day I’m gonna grow wings 🪽✨

(Fully recover or die from this disorder, no in-between)

[abyss-boi-diary]

Help i “binged” on low cal food this weekend and still dropped down a kilo

So… hell yeah ig 😭🗣️

[vcniillaa]

Biggest fear: Someone noticing

Biggest fear: Nobody noticing

[starvindove]

[abyss-boi-diary]

Lowkey I want to recover because life like this is hell on earth (especially now that I’m in college)

Like, my grades are awesome already, I could be a beast without this disorder

BUT IM NOT SICK ENOUGH UGHHSGHAFEHSC

[fatasslosermoment]

other people: trying to discourage me from having an ed by saying it'll get rid of my period and make my tits smaller

me af:

[abyss-boi-diary]

Dealing with eds while in college studying the career of your dreams is so soul crushing :(

Like wdym I am HERE, at classes learning about my FAVORITE topics, but I’m to numb and hangry to learn something? :(((

[verytired-002]

I will hit my gw before december

I will hit my gw before december

I will hit my gw before december

I will hit my gw before december

I will hit my gw before december

I will hit my gw before december

I will hit my gw before december

I will hit my gw before december

I will hit my gw before december

I will hit my gw before december

I will hit my gw before december

I will hit my gw before december

I will hit my gw before december

[oucchhoucchh]

a lot of people view anorexia as ‘teenage girl wants to get skinny’ disorder and not self harm with the highest mortality rate and it explains a lot about their behaviour towards anorexics

[ecstasyangl]

you’ll never regret an empty stomach.

[tinawontstop]

🍁🍂🍄

[abyss-boi-diary]

I’m back no one cares but yeahhhh

Fully relapsing, Ana is back!!!! Honeymoon is back!!!!!!!! I’m getting the best grades at college!!!! I’m seeing my ribcage thru my skin!!! I’m living alone!!!!!

Life is great hell yeah

[theannoyingkea]

Man I want a girl to kiss me and use my body up until I die so bad

[abyss-boi-diary]

A girl did this to me and I let her do it bc I thought she loved me (even tho I’m asexual and I didn’t want it that much) but now I feel so weird bc I fantasize with that day so much even though in the moment I felt so weird help- :D

(I miss her sm pls come back I’ll be better this time pls pls pls pls pls-)

[sluei4w3]

no excuses to binge

[abyss-boi-diary]

I’m going to start living alone in less than a month. My fridge will look like this istg

[abyss-boi-diary]

I’m gonna crash out I ate over my budget 😿 technically I’m still on a deficit but still, I feel so gross omg I wish I could hate food 😭😭😭

[thisishowidissapear]

I dont hate food, i just hate the numbers..