Unlikely I will ever break this blog in enough that it functions like it's intended to again, but I might remake and just keep a presence for chill one-off stuff.

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@acadiian
Unlikely I will ever break this blog in enough that it functions like it's intended to again, but I might remake and just keep a presence for chill one-off stuff.
tfw you finally get back into an account after being locked out for like a year+
acadiian:
For what it’s worth!
Tentatively alive! Gone so long tumblr went and, uh, nuked my blog a little bit (updates have the site on fire here and if there’s an obvious xkit-y fix I’m not seeing it, bots are All The Fuck Over old posts, etc)? I have primarily kind of shifted websites, but I debate making a new blog someday and will probably end up going through with it. I’ve still been writing Misty all this time, there’s zero muse death going on, it’s just hard to split focus. If I do, it’ll presumably be a pretty small, chill affair, and I’d try and pluck out some of you from whoever’s left following me/I Remember And Is Around Still.
For the record I’m super down to write via like, dis.cord or anything if we wrote before, and if you’re ever interested you can drop a line and I’ll shoot info over. If/when I remake, on the off chance it isn’t under this same url with this one archived I’ll throw a note up here.
acadiian:
For what it’s worth!
Tentatively alive! Gone so long tumblr went and, uh, nuked my blog a little bit (updates have the site on fire here and if there’s an obvious xkit-y fix I’m not seeing it, bots are All The Fuck Over old posts, etc)? I have primarily kind of shifted websites, but I debate making a new blog someday and will probably end up going through with it. I’ve still been writing Misty all this time, there’s zero muse death going on, it’s just hard to split focus. If I do, it’ll presumably be a pretty small, chill affair, and I’d try and pluck out some of you from whoever’s left following me/I Remember And Is Around Still.
For the record I’m super down to write via like, dis.cord or anything if we wrote before, and if you’re ever interested you can drop a line and I’ll shoot info over. If/when I remake, on the off chance it isn’t under this same url with this one archived I’ll throw a note up here.
acadiian:
For what it’s worth!
Tentatively alive! Gone so long tumblr went and, uh, nuked my blog a little bit (updates have the site on fire here and if there’s an obvious xkit-y fix I’m not seeing it, bots are All The Fuck Over old posts, etc)? I have primarily kind of shifted websites, but I debate making a new blog someday and will probably end up going through with it. I’ve still been writing Misty all this time, there’s zero muse death going on, it’s just hard to split focus. If I do, it’ll presumably be a pretty small, chill affair, and I’d try and pluck out some of you from whoever’s left following me/I Remember And Is Around Still.
For the record I’m super down to write via like, dis.cord or anything if we wrote before, and if you’re ever interested you can drop a line and I’ll shoot info over. If/when I remake, on the off chance it isn’t under this same url with this one archived I’ll throw a note up here.
acadiian:
For what it’s worth!
Tentatively alive! Gone so long tumblr went and, uh, nuked my blog a little bit (updates have the site on fire here and if there’s an obvious xkit-y fix I’m not seeing it, bots are All The Fuck Over old posts, etc)? I have primarily kind of shifted websites, but I debate making a new blog someday and will probably end up going through with it. I’ve still been writing Misty all this time, there’s zero muse death going on, it’s just hard to split focus. If I do, it’ll presumably be a pretty small, chill affair, and I’d try and pluck out some of you from whoever’s left following me/I Remember And Is Around Still.
For the record I’m super down to write via like, dis.cord or anything if we wrote before, and if you’re ever interested you can drop a line and I’ll shoot info over. If/when I remake, on the off chance it isn’t under this same url with this one archived I’ll throw a note up here.
For what it’s worth!
Tentatively alive! Gone so long tumblr went and, uh, nuked my blog a little bit (updates have the site on fire here and if there’s an obvious xkit-y fix I’m not seeing it, bots are All The Fuck Over old posts, etc)? I have primarily kind of shifted websites, but I debate making a new blog someday and will probably end up going through with it. I’ve still been writing Misty all this time, there’s zero muse death going on, it’s just hard to split focus. If I do, it’ll presumably be a pretty small, chill affair, and I’d try and pluck out some of you from whoever’s left following me/I Remember And Is Around Still.
For the record I’m super down to write via like, dis.cord or anything, and if you’re ever interested you can drop a line and I’ll shoot info over. If/when I remake, on the off chance it isn’t under this same url with this one archived I’ll throw a note up here.
Hmmm. Are people alive.
From humble hillbilly stocks, she’s been a witch since birth. Her power and humanity separating her from everyone around her. In fact, those around her tried endlessly to destroy her in order to mask their own evil purposes. Yet she rose from the ashes stronger than ever, more fully realized. A living testament to the greater ideals of our coven. Power, compassion, and uniqueness.
“ the thought of being in love is blinding. ” ( from Edward maybe? )
“That’s more apt than you think it is,” Misty replies, and not flippantly; glimpses of his written work are few and far between, but she knows him to be as perfectly particular about word choice as any decent poet ought to be. She knows him to be a better than decent poet, in fact, based as much on the way he carries himself as written evidence. More importantly, she knows him to be a cynic, and trusts this sentence runs no deeper than is immediately apparent.
One corner of her mouth twitches, a persistent need to smile that she indulges only while her head is turned toward the book in her lap. There’s plenty to smile about, but she’s convinced herself he would somehow know, innately, that just this once it was nothing to do with a story, or the weather finally permitting open windows, or his dog’s relentless charm. Months prior it was pulling teeth to linger in the same room, and here they are, sharing a sofa. Companionable. One sidelong glance perfectly captures the tragedy of him. It feels terribly close, for a person’s worth of empty cushion between them.
“It’s quite a change. An intense one, especially for more…isolated sorts.” She’s no more experienced than he is, of course, but would wager she trusts herself more. Not enough to look at him, god forbid risk eye contact, but enough. “But you adjust. It becomes normal. Comfortable.” Exactly half a second’s glance is stolen, and for that exact half second there’s a full beam on her face, gentle and terribly hopeful, before she reels it in and returns to not-reading. “You might surprise yourself. Give it time.”
꧁poetry sentence starters꧂
from the first 70 pages of “whiskey words & a shovel” by r.h. Sin
“ you’re so used to being mistreated. ”
“ you’ve gotten so used to being hurt that happiness scares you. ”
“ who robbed you of innocence? ”
“ who was your first? ”
“ and the saddest part of all? you’ll cling to the good memories, as if there were any. ”
“ the pain will always be there. ”
“ so many people are setting the bar really low. ”
“ you get what you allow. ”
“ i was never what you wanted. ”
“ i was just the one you settled for. ”
“ you’re an experience. ”
“ meet me here. ”
“ you were never the one. ”
“ this was never love. ”
“ you were simply necessary. ”
“ i had to be hurt by you. ”
“ i hope you find what you’re looking for. ”
“ i hope you find the truth. ”
“ and that’s how they control you. ”
“ our version of living feels more like death. ”
“ i understand you. ”
“ i was forced to survive in your absence. ”
“ i was faced with the realization that I never needed you. ”
“ you’re always apologizing. ”
“ one day I’ll stop listening. ”
“ we grew apart.”
“ we stopped trying. ”
“ i’m trying to get better. ”
“ i’m trying to get better at walking away from unhealthy situations. ”
“ i struggle with the idea of anyone loving me unconditionally. ”
“ sometimes I wish you waited for me. ”
“ i got tired of going through the same shit with different people. ”
“ it’s not your fucking fault. ”
“ you can’t change a man. ”
“ the thought of being in love is blinding. ”
“ bargaining using sex. either way you get screwed. ”
“ the memories hurt the most. ”
“ sometimes i get tired of thinking about the things that i don’t want to think about. ”
“ sometimes i get so fucking tired. ”
“ tonight, you’ll be the death of me. ”
( * & . A MILLION LITTLE THINGS / SENTENCE STARTERS .
‘ you might not have been able to save them , but you sure as hell saved me . ’
‘ you are not the best part of my life … you are my life . ’
‘ delicious , delicious . that man is delicious . ’
‘ he’s like a chocolate george clooney with a caramel gosling center . ’
‘ look at you being the bigger man . i mean , smaller bigger man . he’s taller . ’
‘ i know this sounds crazy , but that is not the worst thing that ever happened to me . ’
‘ i’m happier than i’ve ever been and i’m not playing by the rules anymore . ’
‘ it’s perfectly normal to change your shirt fifteen times before going to play video games . ’
‘ you say everything happens for a reason . i can’t find a reason for this . ’
‘ it absolutely kills me that i wasn’t there for you . ’
‘ that was one time . and i’m sober now . ’
‘ happy birthweek is not a thing . ’
‘ i truly believe everything happens for a reason . the challenge in life is to find that reason . ’
‘ it’s not that i don’t want to live . i just don’t want to live like this . ’
‘ i dare you to go steal her mic and sing ‘ ( insert song here ) ’ . your version , wrong lyrics and all . ’
‘ i have so many feelings that i can’t process because i’m too ashamed to admit that i have them . ’
‘ when i first met you , you said what you needed was a time machine . where would you go if you had one ? ’
‘ sometimes i get really sad for no reason . actually , a lot of times . ’
‘ i tried . i tried to be the man you taught me to be . i tried not to ask for help . ’
‘ you’re allowed to be angry . you’re allowed to feel whatever it is that you feel . ’
‘ i can’t do this . i can’t hurt you . ’
‘ if you’re in there , can you just knock three times please , so that i know that you’re still alive ? ’
‘ listen , i’m sorry . i tried . i can’t not care . ’
‘ not that you need my permission , but you deserve to be happy . ’
‘ you’re right , i don’t know what i’m talking about . ’
‘ i always thought the next apartment i would rent would be for us . ’
‘ i have seen porn flicks with more plot twists than your love life . ’
‘ maybe you should stop taking shots at me and get them back . or is it your plan to stand there and do nothing and lose them forever ? ’
‘ you’re always so fast to assume that it’s my fault , but guess what ? you don’t know ! ’
‘ you know what life is really about ? friendship . you and me . right here . yeah , us . that’s what it’s about . ’
‘ of course i’m scared . i thought you of all people could understand that . ’
‘ dare me to do anything and make it really hard . ’
‘ i was here , dammit , until i wasn’t . ’
‘ you can’t worry so much about tomorrow that you forget to live today . be here . ’
‘ it’s got to be the hardest thing i did in my life . ’
‘ sometimes you can’t do the fun thing – the thing that makes you happy . you have to do the right thing . ’
‘ whatever we did , whatever happened , we also created a life . ’
‘ how can something so small cause so much pain ?! ’
‘ the thing is i don’t have time to be angry because i have to use up all of my energy to make sure that he is okay . ’
‘ you’re not the boss of you anymore . ’
‘ slight problem . he found the pregnancy test . ’
‘ just because you’re scared , doesn’t mean you shouldn’t do it . ’
‘ there’s nothing you can say to change the fact that i love you . ’
‘ this is your baby . it’s just , it’s too much . we hurt too many people . ’
‘ it’s bad enough you wrecked your marriage but don’t try to wreck mine . ’
‘ you may think you have a bulletproof relationship , but so did i . ’
‘ wow , i don’t want you to take this the wrong way , but i really wish you hadn’t met me . ’
‘ you don’t get it . i know you think i’m distant . i am just trying to survive . ’
‘ there’s a history of ‘ we don’t talk about that ’ in my family . ’
‘ as bad as it seems , there is good and you will find it . i promise . ’
( * & . A MILLION LITTLE THINGS / SENTENCE STARTERS .
‘ you might not have been able to save them , but you sure as hell saved me . ’
‘ you are not the best part of my life … you are my life . ’
‘ delicious , delicious . that man is delicious . ’
‘ he’s like a chocolate george clooney with a caramel gosling center . ’
‘ look at you being the bigger man . i mean , smaller bigger man . he’s taller . ’
‘ i know this sounds crazy , but that is not the worst thing that ever happened to me . ’
‘ i’m happier than i’ve ever been and i’m not playing by the rules anymore . ’
‘ it’s perfectly normal to change your shirt fifteen times before going to play video games . ’
‘ you say everything happens for a reason . i can’t find a reason for this . ’
‘ it absolutely kills me that i wasn’t there for you . ’
‘ that was one time . and i’m sober now . ’
‘ happy birthweek is not a thing . ’
‘ i truly believe everything happens for a reason . the challenge in life is to find that reason . ’
‘ it’s not that i don’t want to live . i just don’t want to live like this . ’
‘ i dare you to go steal her mic and sing ‘ ( insert song here ) ’ . your version , wrong lyrics and all . ’
‘ i have so many feelings that i can’t process because i’m too ashamed to admit that i have them . ’
‘ when i first met you , you said what you needed was a time machine . where would you go if you had one ? ’
‘ sometimes i get really sad for no reason . actually , a lot of times . ’
‘ i tried . i tried to be the man you taught me to be . i tried not to ask for help . ’
‘ you’re allowed to be angry . you’re allowed to feel whatever it is that you feel . ’
‘ i can’t do this . i can’t hurt you . ’
‘ if you’re in there , can you just knock three times please , so that i know that you’re still alive ? ’
‘ listen , i’m sorry . i tried . i can’t not care . ’
‘ not that you need my permission , but you deserve to be happy . ’
‘ you’re right , i don’t know what i’m talking about . ’
‘ i always thought the next apartment i would rent would be for us . ’
‘ i have seen porn flicks with more plot twists than your love life . ’
‘ maybe you should stop taking shots at me and get them back . or is it your plan to stand there and do nothing and lose them forever ? ’
‘ you’re always so fast to assume that it’s my fault , but guess what ? you don’t know ! ’
‘ you know what life is really about ? friendship . you and me . right here . yeah , us . that’s what it’s about . ’
‘ of course i’m scared . i thought you of all people could understand that . ’
‘ dare me to do anything and make it really hard . ’
‘ i was here , dammit , until i wasn’t . ’
‘ you can’t worry so much about tomorrow that you forget to live today . be here . ’
‘ it’s got to be the hardest thing i did in my life . ’
‘ sometimes you can’t do the fun thing – the thing that makes you happy . you have to do the right thing . ’
‘ whatever we did , whatever happened , we also created a life . ’
‘ how can something so small cause so much pain ?! ’
‘ the thing is i don’t have time to be angry because i have to use up all of my energy to make sure that he is okay . ’
‘ you’re not the boss of you anymore . ’
‘ slight problem . he found the pregnancy test . ’
‘ just because you’re scared , doesn’t mean you shouldn’t do it . ’
‘ there’s nothing you can say to change the fact that i love you . ’
‘ this is your baby . it’s just , it’s too much . we hurt too many people . ’
‘ it’s bad enough you wrecked your marriage but don’t try to wreck mine . ’
‘ you may think you have a bulletproof relationship , but so did i . ’
‘ wow , i don’t want you to take this the wrong way , but i really wish you hadn’t met me . ’
‘ you don’t get it . i know you think i’m distant . i am just trying to survive . ’
‘ there’s a history of ‘ we don’t talk about that ’ in my family . ’
‘ as bad as it seems , there is good and you will find it . i promise . ’
( * & . A MILLION LITTLE THINGS / SENTENCE STARTERS .
‘ you might not have been able to save them , but you sure as hell saved me . ’
‘ you are not the best part of my life … you are my life . ’
‘ delicious , delicious . that man is delicious . ’
‘ he’s like a chocolate george clooney with a caramel gosling center . ’
‘ look at you being the bigger man . i mean , smaller bigger man . he’s taller . ’
‘ i know this sounds crazy , but that is not the worst thing that ever happened to me . ’
‘ i’m happier than i’ve ever been and i’m not playing by the rules anymore . ’
‘ it’s perfectly normal to change your shirt fifteen times before going to play video games . ’
‘ you say everything happens for a reason . i can’t find a reason for this . ’
‘ it absolutely kills me that i wasn’t there for you . ’
‘ that was one time . and i’m sober now . ’
‘ happy birthweek is not a thing . ’
‘ i truly believe everything happens for a reason . the challenge in life is to find that reason . ’
‘ it’s not that i don’t want to live . i just don’t want to live like this . ’
‘ i dare you to go steal her mic and sing ‘ ( insert song here ) ’ . your version , wrong lyrics and all . ’
‘ i have so many feelings that i can’t process because i’m too ashamed to admit that i have them . ’
‘ when i first met you , you said what you needed was a time machine . where would you go if you had one ? ’
‘ sometimes i get really sad for no reason . actually , a lot of times . ’
‘ i tried . i tried to be the man you taught me to be . i tried not to ask for help . ’
‘ you’re allowed to be angry . you’re allowed to feel whatever it is that you feel . ’
‘ i can’t do this . i can’t hurt you . ’
‘ if you’re in there , can you just knock three times please , so that i know that you’re still alive ? ’
‘ listen , i’m sorry . i tried . i can’t not care . ’
‘ not that you need my permission , but you deserve to be happy . ’
‘ you’re right , i don’t know what i’m talking about . ’
‘ i always thought the next apartment i would rent would be for us . ’
‘ i have seen porn flicks with more plot twists than your love life . ’
‘ maybe you should stop taking shots at me and get them back . or is it your plan to stand there and do nothing and lose them forever ? ’
‘ you’re always so fast to assume that it’s my fault , but guess what ? you don’t know ! ’
‘ you know what life is really about ? friendship . you and me . right here . yeah , us . that’s what it’s about . ’
‘ of course i’m scared . i thought you of all people could understand that . ’
‘ dare me to do anything and make it really hard . ’
‘ i was here , dammit , until i wasn’t . ’
‘ you can’t worry so much about tomorrow that you forget to live today . be here . ’
‘ it’s got to be the hardest thing i did in my life . ’
‘ sometimes you can’t do the fun thing – the thing that makes you happy . you have to do the right thing . ’
‘ whatever we did , whatever happened , we also created a life . ’
‘ how can something so small cause so much pain ?! ’
‘ the thing is i don’t have time to be angry because i have to use up all of my energy to make sure that he is okay . ’
‘ you’re not the boss of you anymore . ’
‘ slight problem . he found the pregnancy test . ’
‘ just because you’re scared , doesn’t mean you shouldn’t do it . ’
‘ there’s nothing you can say to change the fact that i love you . ’
‘ this is your baby . it’s just , it’s too much . we hurt too many people . ’
‘ it’s bad enough you wrecked your marriage but don’t try to wreck mine . ’
‘ you may think you have a bulletproof relationship , but so did i . ’
‘ wow , i don’t want you to take this the wrong way , but i really wish you hadn’t met me . ’
‘ you don’t get it . i know you think i’m distant . i am just trying to survive . ’
‘ there’s a history of ‘ we don’t talk about that ’ in my family . ’
‘ as bad as it seems , there is good and you will find it . i promise . ’
Florence + The Machine-My Boy Builds Coffins
Sliding back into ‘consider things hiatused’ territory, I suppose. No big personal drama to report, just kind of….not having any fun, and trying to actively lurk while waiting it out hasn’t ever helped. I’ll eventually crop back up.
Sliding back into ‘consider things hiatused’ territory, I suppose. No big personal drama to report, just kind of....not having any fun, and trying to actively lurk while waiting it out hasn’t ever helped. I’ll eventually crop back up.