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One drunken night with your best friend turned into a habit. Messy, filthy, addictive.
No strings. No feelings.
At least that's what you tell yourself.
Jakeâs mouth was on yours before you could even talk yourself out of it. Your fingertips thread through his dark hair, back pressed up against the bathroom sink of someoneâs shitty frat house.
âJake, youâre drunkâŠâ you whisper, words slurring as his hands find your thighs, pushing up the fabric of the sheer dress you wore that night.
His hands roughly turn you around to face the bathroom mirror. You catch a glimpse of yourself, cheeks burning, pupils dilated wide.Â
âSo are youââ Jake replies with a drunk chuckle. His accent vibrates low and deep in your ear. Your brain is turning to mush as his large hands push the fabric of your dress up past your hips.
His pants are already unbuckled as he stands behind you. His white jacket was tossed carelessly to the floor.
âIs it so wrong to fuck my best friend at least once in my lifeâŠâ Jake confesses, the scent of alcohol lingering on his lips.
You chuckle. Maybe it isnât so wrong to have sex with your best friend at least once.
That's what you thought when you were both drunk off your asses.
That one night turned into two. Then two turned into moreâand as time went on, you found yourself waiting for a different side of Jake to come out when no one else was around.Â
Jake 10:43 pm
So are we just going to pretend that I
didnât just have the best sex of my life
with you at that party?
You 10:45 pm
Was it? I mean I wasnât expecting you
to be so fucking huge.
Maybe I manifested itâŠ
Only for your messages to go back to homework reminders the next morning.Â
Over the years, Jakeâs seen you at your absolute worst, throwing up in bushes after one too many shots of tequila, crying in the bathroom because of a shitty breakup.
Heâs also seen you naked more times than you can count.
But thatâs what friends are for, right?
So, of course, he offers to stay and help clean up after hosting a birthday party at your apartment.
The sound of glass in the sink and running faucet water fills the silence between you. He helps you load the dishwasher and take out the trash.
The contrast of the quiet compared to the noise of the party before gives you a minute to breathe.
After a few moments of tidying up, the apartment is left in pristine conditionâthanks to Jake.
âThank you for helping clean up. I appreciate it,â you say with a soft voice, wiping your hands dry with a white dishrag before tossing it aside. You glance around at your space, no longer covered with red solo cups and paper plates.Â
The apartment was now dimly lit by a small lamp, the air quiet yet charged.
Jake looks you up and down, tearing his eyes away from your body in that same sheer sequined dress, knowing this isnât the time to complicate things.
âThatâs what friends are for,â Jake says playfully, walking by and ruffling your hair in the process. He walks through the kitchen to the living room, plopping down on the couch with a soft sigh.
âComfortable?â You ask playfully as you join him. The TV plays soft music in the background helping to ease the sharp tension.
Since you and Jake started hooking up, you both agreed there had to be some ground rules.Â
Rule one. No making out.
Rule two. No staying the night.Â
Rule three. No catching feelings.
All those rules have been kept intact throughout all these weeks. A little foreplay, fiery sex, then before Jake can crash for the night, heâs out the door.Â
The two of you told yourselves the rules were just in place to keep things casual. But you know thatâs not the full truth.
The rules were made to eliminate something else.
 Risk.
The risk that this could turn into something more, the risk that this could change the way you see each other.
The risk that this could throw away all these years of friendship like it was nothing.
You haven't even kissed him since that first night you hooked up.
 And the thought of doing it again makes your palms sweat and your heart race.
âYeah, comfortableâŠâ Jake says, waving you over with a soft smile. Gently patting the cushion next to him, inviting you closer.Â
Your heart races, your mind reminding you of how things usually go after this.
You hesitate before sliding next to him until your bare thighs are pressed against the denim of his.Â
Youâve done this enough times to know exactly where this is going.Â
âSo how much did you drink during the partyâŠâ You ask as he leans in. Your eyes locking with the wide brown of his. Jake's breath falls warm against your cheek as his hands hesitantly reach out. Still unsure if you really want this.Â
âNot a single drop. Iâm completely sober,â Jake confesses.
There it is. That familiar sharp tension thatâs just begging, aching to be broken. Like a tight rubber band just begging to be snapped.Â
You open your mouth to say something, anything. Anything to distract you from the fact that Jake wasnât looking at your tits or your thighs.Â
He was looking at your lips.Â
âJake, Iââ you choke out, voice shaking before itâs immediately cut off by the feeling of his lips on yours.
Your breath catches, and your eyes widen at the impact. This canât be happening.
This is breaking a rule.Â
Jakeâs hands find your hips, softly pulling you into his lap as he brushes his lips against yours. Soft, hesitant, like he knows this is wrong just as much as you do.Â
But you donât fight it.Â
You lean in, hips barely moving against his own as your fingertips tangle in his dark hair. Mouth moving against yours with a soft, calculated rhythm.Â
âWe shouldnâtââ Jake gasps, his mouth hot as it pulls away from yours. A moan slips past his lips as you subconsciously grind your hips against his.Â
Your hands find his broad shoulders, gripping them tightly for support. You gasp, heart racing in your chest from the arousal and the intensity of the moment.
âStop, stop stopâŠâ Plays over and over in your mind like a broken record.
âWe shouldnât. Jake, the rulesââ you gasp into him, choking back a strained moan as his hands softly find the hem of your sheer sequined dress, pushing it up your thighs just an inch.Â
âFuck those stupid rulesâŠâ Jake whispers, his lips easily finding yours again, perfectly slotting with your own.Â
âYour lips taste like heaven,â Jake whispers between heated kisses, his hands warm against the bare skin of your thighs.
You let out a sigh of relief as he kisses you again, hungry, hot, like he's been waiting way too long to do this.
Your hands grab at the collar of his shirt in an attempt to anchor yourself in one way or another.
Jake's hands slide up your body to your waist, rough hands skimming over the glittering fabric as it bunches dangerously high on your thighs. His large hands pull you into his muscled body even more.
On instinct, Jake pushes past your parted lips with his tongue, moaning as he explores the warmth of your mouth. His hands only grip you tighter as his tongue drags against your own.
âJakeââ You whisper against his lips before He closes the distance instantly. Jake's mouth finds yours again, hot and hungry, without a care, hunger overtaking his thoughts.Â
âJakeââ You gasp again, slightly firmer, your palms finding his chest to stop him before he can kiss you again. Not because you don't want him to.
But because of the risk of what you know will happen if you do.
Jakeâs brows furrow at your breathless plea, there's a pause, like you're both trying to figure each other out.
He exhales, letting his head drop to the crook of your shoulder. His heart beats hard in his chest as he aches to hold himself back.
You feel warmth pulsing between your thighs. This is wrong. This is Jake. Your Jake.Â
The Jake that threatened to beat up your shitty exes, the Jake that never let you walk behind him on the sidewalk. The Jake who always texted to make sure you got home safe.
âTell me to stop, tell me to fucking stop and I swear Iâll leave out that door right now,â Jake says his voice raspy like heâs reached a breaking point of no return.Â
His breath comes in sharp pants as he rests his head against your shoulder, holding you close like that would convey all the things he can't quite put into words.
Heâs not sure when things changed from physically needing you, noâhe doesn't physically need you.
And that's the harsh truth.
It terrifies him more than you know.
Jake trembles against you, his breathing rigid because just like you, he knows this changes everything.
Those rules were like a shitty dam built between the two of you in a weak attempt to stop this moment from happening.
âPlease,â You whisper, the sound barely audible over the sound of the TV in the background. It's the only thing grounding you in the moment and reminding you that this is real.
And when you donât say no? The shitty dam breaks.
Jake kisses you again, barely holding back a deep groan in his throat. His chest vibrates against yours as he lets his hands slide to the back of your thighs, closing any distance left between your bodies.
âIâyouâŠfuckâ Jake gasps between kisses like the feeling of his mouth can communicate better than any words.Â
Jake pulls you closer. His thick bulge ached behind the zipper of his jeans. You gasp he lets his soft lips drag across your jawline. His hips grinding up into yours. The friction of your soaked panties against the denim of his jeans pulls another moan from you.Â
With no hesitation, his hands slide the hem of your dress pushing it up so it pools at your waist.Â
âHoly fuckâŠâ Jake whispers as he pulls away from your skin to look between your bodies. His fingertips brush against your wet panties, thinner than the stupid rules you tried to put in place to keep this from happening.Â
âYou likeâŠsoaked,â Jake says, his voice deep with want as he pulls the damp fabric to the side. His fingers run through your folds, your cheeks burning with heat. Too far gone to care.Â
âKissing the way you do has that effect on meâŠâ You confess, voice barely loud enough for Jake himself to hear.
Jake curses again, drawn out and deep as he plunges a finger into your aching hole. You grip the back of the couch tightly in an attempt to keep yourself from slamming back down onto his hand.Â
You pant as he shoves another finger in deep with ease, your slick dripping down his hand to his wrist as he finger fucks you. How mouth agape, parted with awe.Â
Your fingertips dig harder into the edge of the leather couch as he finds your clit, circling it with a maddening pace as you moan straight into his ear.Â
âFuck JakeâŠâ you whimper as you ride his fingers, shame completely thrown out the window as the wet sounds echo off the walls.
Your thighs are scorching as you grind into him more, knees digging into the couch cushions on either side of him.Â
âThese are in my fucking wayâŠâ Jake whispers. His voice is husky as he helps pull your drenched panties down before pulling you back onto his lap.Â
Jake moans as his hand rubs your pussy through the folds, slick, wet, hot. His hips shuddered, his bulge twitching, aching to be freed from his jeans.
You reach down between the mess of your bodies to pull the zipper. Your bottom lip tucked between your teeth as you push down the fabric of his jeans and boxers, just enough to free his aching cock.Â
Jake letâs put a moan of satisfaction, throwing his head against the couch as you stroke him. His hips fighting not to buck up into your hand.Â
Jake is huge, his tip swollen and leaking from leaving a damp spot on his jeans.Â
âJake you're hugeâŠâ You gasp, your hand looks tiny as it wraps around his cock.Â
âYou can take it. I know you can.â Jake says, his eyes full of desire as he looks down at you. The scent of sex already filling the air, his fingertips still sticky from playing with your pussy.Â
You grind down onto him, bare skin on skin as Jake helps to keep your dress out of the way. Pussy lips dragging against the outside of his cock. The slick friction is erotic, the sounds of deep moans falling from both of you.Â
You line yourself up with him. His large tip notching in your glistening hole. The stretch is already making your brows furrow.Â
Jake guides you like second nature. Gently holding your ass to support you on his lap.Â
âTaking me so well already. Fuck youâre gorgeous like this.â Jake praises as he helps guide you down onto his cock.Â
The stretch burnsâbut itâs quickly replaced by pleasure as he slides into you, hitting every spot that makes your toes curl.Â
Your forehead rests against his as you fully sink onto him with a deep groan of satisfaction. Jake groans, his moans growing deeper and more erotic.
âSo much Jakeâso fullâŠâ You wince as you start to slide up and down his thick length. The wetness is smoothing your ride.
Your hands slide from the back of the couch to his shirt. You grip it tight trying to find a good rhythm.Â
âThatâs it...thatâs what I like to see. Good fucking girl.â Jake praises, with a soft smack to your ass before sliding to your hips to help guide you up and down. The slick sound of him entering you and the slap of skin on skin fills the room.Â
You smirk at his praise. Riding him faster, harder, the feeling sends pleasure waves throughout your entire body. Heâs so deep, itâs making your vision blur.Â
The swollen tip of his cock kisses your cervix with every slam down onto his lap. The sound of heavy panting fills the space between you.Â
Your thighs burn from the effort, pussy clenching around him as he thrusts his hips up off the couch to meet you in time with your thrusts.Â
âFuckâŠfuckâŠso fucking deep baby..not gonna be able to pull outâshit,â Jake mumbles as his lips messily find your own. Breath shaking between each messy, uncoordinated kiss.Â
Jake watches you ride him through his dark bangs. Heâs completely lost in the sight of your tits bouncing in that dress, the way you pull on him with every move.Â
âLook how you fitâŠfuck youâre made for me. No one else can take all this fucking cock baby.â Jake caresses. His hands are still guiding your hips. His cock twitching inside your warm walls.Â
âShitâŠJakeâŠIâmâgonna fuckââ you gasp, moans tearing through your throat between words.Â
âGonna cum baby? Want you to cum all over my cock? Squeeze me good, I fucking need it..â Jake grunts, his fingertips digging into you hard. His breath is shaky as he twitches inside your heat.
His hand slides between the mess of fluids between your bodies, sweat and arousal. His fingertips brush across your sensitive clit. Rubbing small circles, helping to push you over the edge.Â
âJake I'm gonna fucking cum..gonna cum in your lap Jake...â you whimper desperately, your thighs burning, stomach scorching even more as he pushes you over the edge. You moan into his shoulder as the feeling of release fills your body. Wave after wave of arousal coats his lap and soaks his jeans.Â
âOh my godâŠHoly fucking shitâŠHolyââ Jake mumbles as he watches you fall apart. Heâs never seen you come this hard, never felt you come this hard.Â
Jake rocks into you, everything slippery, and hot as he picks up the pace. You clench him tighter as you ride out the rest of your release.Â
âCum inside me JakeâŠplease Jake,â you beg through glassy eyes. The last thing you want is for him to pull out, to lose the pleasure and warmth.Â
âGodâŠâ Jake whispers under his breath as he spills into you. Hips rocking underneath you as he paints your insides with his hot release.
Soft moans fall from his lips as the pleasure tears through him, filling you up in the best way possible.Â
You lie limp on top of him, his body going boneless under you as you cling to each other completely breathless and out of words.Â
The only sound that fills the room is your breathing mixed with his. The TV paused from inactivity. The soft sound of the dishwasher in the kitchen starts to bring you back to reality.Â
Neither of you speaks. Thereâs too much to say, a filthy mess between you.Â
âI think we only have one more rule to breakâ Jake whispers, his voice like a knife cutting through the silence.Â
You glance at him trying to read his expression. His cheeks flushed, lips swollen, eyes glassy. His dark hair sticks to his forehead from the sweat, his shirt clinging to his body.Â
kate's note: Thank you guys for reading! I wanted to try something different this week and write something a little filthy and short since my fics usually run on pretty long! I'm so weak for campus Jake I could literally write about it forever. Also Bed Chem is and will always be a Jake song for me.
SUMMARY. summer, 1983. you work at reeltime video, alphabetize tapes, and fall in love with stories too big for your small town. park sunghoon, campus heartthrob with a members only jacket and a habit of returning late tapes, is the last person you'd expect to work the summer shift beside you. but then he does. and one thursday, he climbs through your window.
CONTENT. slowburn, virgin!reader, experienced!sunghoon, first time sex, praise kink, mutual pining, falling in love over summer, 1980s nostalgia, video store setting, hurt/comfort, miscommunication, window climbing scene, rom-com tropes, soft smut, emotional climax, sunghoon in love and desperate, mentions of readerâs first time, safe but descriptive intimacy, lots of feelings
WORD COUNT. 7,890
FROM ALANINE. thank you so much for waiting! <3 this is the product of my steve harrington brainrot all because sunghoonâs english name is steve. lmao
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Week One, Summer, 1983.
People had a lot of dreams when they were younger.
There were loud ones: become an astronaut. Win an Oscar. Move to New York. Share a kiss or two with their partner as they walk in the City of Love.
And there were quiet ones: learn to play the guitar. Own a dog. Kiss someone in the rain. Feel seen.
You never really knew where you were. You thought that maybe youâre in the middle ground, somewhere in between the loud and the quiet dreams.
Youâve always wanted to become a filmmaker.
At the age of four, while most of the children your age clutched toy cars or dolls and played pretend, you sat wide-eyed in the living room thinking about how colors blended like watercolors while watching The Sound of Music. You didnât understand the story then, but you understood awe.
It was then when you said you wanted the blooming feeling in your chest to be what you felt everyday.
At the age of sixteen, your heart soured for John Travolta in Grease. Not because he was perfect, but because he danced like he meant it and wore heartbreak like a leather jacket. You rewound the tape more times than you could count, just to watch Sandyâs transformation. You liked that love could be theatrical. Big. Loud. And a world full of music.
Still, most days, you were small. You watched people the way you watched your movies.
You worked at ReelTime Video not because it paid well, but because it felt like it was the closest thing to your dream: shelves lined with stories, whole worlds trapped in plastic cases. You looked after each day, not minding you were working during summer, because you got to smell old film sleeves, listen to the soft whir of rewinding tapes, observed the way people wandered the aisles like they were searching for something more than a movie.
And then he walked in.
Park Sunghoon.
Campus heartthrob. Ice hockey team captain. Meticulously known for his Ray-Bans, his Members Only jacket, and the trail of girls who giggled whenever he passed by. His hair was swept up the same way John Travolta had it â that easy, voluminous coif with a single curled strand falling just so against his forehead, like it was placed there by a stylist, not sweat and effort.
He wasnât the kind of boy who borrowed films from a small-town rental shop. But he came. Every week. A different girl on his arm each time. Sometimes they chewed gum loudly, leaning into him. Sometimes, they twirled his car keys like they were the ones driving. He never returned the tapes on time, though. He always owed a late fee, and he never apologised. And still, he got away with it, because he smiled like a boy who never needed to ask for forgiveness.
The first time you saw him walk in, you nearly dropped the E.T. VHS you were reshelving. Not because he was beautiful â well, he is gorgeous, but that wasnât the point.
It was because he didnât belong in your world. He was Top Gun, all American swagger and golden-boy confidence. You were Cinema Paradiso, quiet and tucked behind the reels, watching people fall in love with stories that werenât theirs.
Still, maybe it was the contrast that made you notice him more. Or maybe it was the way he barely looked at the movies, just gestured toward whatever his date picked, only to drift toward the horror section alone, hands in his pockets, humming something you couldnât hear.
You told yourself not to care. You werenât like the girls on his arm. You never walk around with poofy, curly hair with dangling hoop earrings (you tried doing it once). You were the girl behind the counter who sorted VHS tapes by genre and alphabetised the Star Wars trilogy twice a week. You were practical. Not necessarily bright. You had things to do, movies to make, dreams to follow.
Still, you found yourself looking forward to the bell above the door jingling each Friday night. Even when you knew he wouldnât look at you. And when he did, he mispronounced your name each time, regardless of whether you have your name plate plastered on your chest as if it were a badge on your vest.
You usually dreaded Thursdays.
Itâs the day that feels like a buffer more than Wednesdays. Itâs usually the limbo of doing something and doing nothing. You were currently sitting behind the counter, sipping on your watered down strawberry milkshake when the door chimes again, quieter than usual.
You think itâs just another customer who comes to check what you have on display, because you shuffle the options every Thursday, so people could beeline to it on a Friday afternoon and rent the films.
Youâve just finished bending over the drama section, re-slotting Kramer vs. Kramer on a milk-grass gray sky with the hum of the fan behind the counter and the overwhelming pressure of the stack of tapes that need re-shelving.
The strawberry milkshake tasted so sweet as you neared the bottom of the cup, and it was when you were busying yourself with trying to suck in the strawberry bits when you heard it: the unmistakable shuffle of footsteps that stop too quickly, too awkwardly. You glance up, squinting through the narrow gap between the shelves.
And you freeze.
You even had to check the calendar by your desk to check whether today was a Friday, because Park Sunghoon is standing before you, wearing a navy blue vest that coincidentally matched yours. And when you racked your gaze down, there was the embroidered ReelTime patch stitched crookedly above the left chest.
Then, you blink.
He looks annoyed. Not cocky, not smug. He looks gutted.
You waited for the usual smirk, the quip, the mispronunciation of your name when he met your gaze.
But instead, he groans.
âShit,â he mutters under his breath, dragging a hand down his face, âPlease donât tell me Iâm working with you.â
You blink again. You stare a second longer, as if squinting might make the image disappear. No such luck.
âI⊠donât think Iâm mentally equipped for this,â you say flatly, straw still in between your lips.
He gestures at you, âThat makes two of us.â
You slide your milkshake away like it might combust in your hands.
âWhy are you here?â you ask, slowly standing up, âDid you get lost looking for your reflection or something?â
âDid they hire you for your customer service?â He deadpans, shooting you a look.
You open your mouth to retort, but then the bell above the door chimes again.
Two sharply dressed adults step in, and the temperature drops ten degrees. His parents. You know this without being introduced. The posture, the judgment, the expensive perfume that doesnât suit the musty, tape-sleeved air of ReelTime.
You step out from behind the counter, clutching the corners of your vest like a shield.
âMiss Y/N?â the man says, voice precise, smooth, like itâs been filed down to a razor edge, âMr and Mrs Park. We spoke briefly on the phone.â
âI think you spoke to my manager, actually,â you squirmed.
âWell, she said youâre one of the storeâs most efficient hires,â Mrs Park chimes in with a rehearsed smile, âAnd weâre hoping you can help Sunghoon adjust to thisâŠenvironment.â
âEnvironment?â
âThis store,â Mr Park says, âWeâve arranged for Sunghoon to work here until school resumes. A bit of structure. Accountability. You know that.â
Your gaze drifts to Sunghoon, who looks like heâd rather chew glass than be standing here.
âAnd you want me toâŠâ
âKeep an eye on him,â Mrs Park answers, too quickly. âMake sure he shows up on time. Stays out of trouble. Make sure he learns the value of responsibility.â
âI donât need a babysitter,â Sunghoon grits out, throwing you a pointed look.
âBut you sure act like you do,â you mutter. His eyes narrow at you.
Mrs Park clasps her hands together, âThis is going to be such a wonderful experience, sweetie,â she says as she looks at Sunghoon. And you look at Sunghoon again. Vest wrinkled. Arms crossed. Standing beside a cardboard cutout of Princess Leia.
Yeah, youâll be needing another milkshake.
Week Two.
Sunghoon was still annoying.
Still insufferable. Still looked like he belonged in a Leviâs commercial instead of a two-bit video rental store that smelled like plastic wrap and cherry lollipops. Still insufferable. Still wore his Members Only jacket like it was part of his soul. Still hated clocking in at exactly 2:00 PM every Thursday and Saturday.
But there were small things you noticed now.
Like how he always adjusted his watch when he passed the âStaff Picksâ shelf. Like how he sighed every time he lifted the VHS flap to check if a tape is rewound, only to mutter, âPeople are the worst.â
And how, without fail, he hummed Footloose under his breath while reshelving tapes. Always Footloose. Every. Single. Time. Sometimes offbeat, sometimes too loud. Sometimes just the chorus, or âkick off your Sunday shoes,â on repeat like a vinyl is stuck in his head.
âDo you even like that movie?â youâd asked once.
âNever seen it,â he replied flatly, then whistled it again two minutes later.
Sunghoon still rolled his eyes when customers asked questions. Still leaned against the counter with a dramatic groan like the mere idea of alphabetising rom-coms would kill him. Still called out, âYour boyfriendâs back!â every time someone in a varsity jacket walked in.
But he still showed up. He worked, albeit not enthusiastically, but still, he worked.
Sort of.
Still, that day, like most, passed in the lazy predictable rhythm of summer. Dust motes floated. The fan above the counter spun. Your strawberry milkshake that varied in sweetness each day melted too quickly.
You were halfway through sorting returns when the bell chimed. A delivery guy walked in, carting a box labeled in thick black marker: REELTIME VIDEO â SUMMER SHIPMENT.
A gasp like someone proposed to you rang in Sunghoonâs ears, âSomeone get engaged?â He asked, not even looking up.
âSummer shipment,â you whispered, darting from behind the counter like you were in a scene from Chariots of Fire, âItâs finally here!â
âWow,â he said flatly, âCanât wait.â
You didnât even hear the sarcasm.
You opened the box like it was sacred scripture, âWarGames,â you breathed, âScarface, The King of Comedy. Flashdance! Risky Business! Oh, my god, Valley Girl!â
âI feel like I should care,â Sunghoon says as he stretches after tossing Rambo into the action shelf without looking, âBut itâs hard when youâre naming titles like theyâre your kids.â
âTheyâre better than kids,â you said, holding up Flashdance to the light like a relic, âThey donât cry, and they donât ruin your career.â
He snorted at that. A quiet, surprised kind of laugh. You didnât look up, too enamored with glossy tape spines and crinkled plastic.
âYouâve been waiting for that leg warmer movie, huh?â He asks, peering over your shoulder, finally curious.
âItâs Flashdance,â you deadpan, âItâs about passion. Dreaming. Being told no and doing it anyway. Itâs the most alive a filmâs ever felt.â
He leaned against the counter, âIs it the dancing that gets you?â
You gave him a look, âItâs everything. The grit, the sweat. Sheâs a welder by day and a dancer by night. She gets rejected and still dances her way to that audition like the stage was made for her.â
Sunghoon hummed, âSo, you like underdogs.â
You opened your mouth to correct him, but realised he was right, anyway, âMaybe.â
He watched you with that unreadable look again, the one you were starting to realize wasnât disinterest. It was the look of someone watching something they didnât quite know how to name.
âYou always this weird about movies?â he asked.
âIâm not weird. Iâm passionate.â
âTomato, tomato.â
You stuck your tongue out at him and went back to cataloguing.
He didnât go back to Footloose this time.
Not yet.
He just stood there, watching you carefully stack your sacred films, his fingers drumming against the counter, just listening.
And something about that silence felt less like boredom and more like paying attention.
Week Three.
It was Tuesday. Sunghoon didnât work Tuesdays.Â
Youâd already counted the till, re-shelved Fame for the fourth time, and were halfway through a rewatch of Before Midnight Strikes on the tiny TV behind the counter. Summer heat clung to your skin like a second shirt. The fan buzzed overhead, spinning warm air in lazy circles.
You werenât expecting the bell to chime.
So, when it did, you looked up out of instinct, not excitement.
And there he was.
Sunghoon, in his usual cream polo and khakis, Members Only jacket slung over his shoulder, Ray-Bans tucked in his collar. No shift vest. No clipboard. No pencil on his ear. Just him, standing there awkwardly, one foot halfway still out the door like he hadnât made up his mind about being here.
In one hand: a greasy brown paper bag. In the other: a pink plastic cup with a striped paper straw poking through the lid.
You blinked, âHas there been a change in schedule?â
He gave a shrug that didnât match the way his ears turned the faintest shade of pink.
âRelax,â he said, walking toward the counter, âI just passed by the corndog stall around the corner. Got hungry.â
You raised a brow, âSo you bought two corndogs?â
He faltered for just a second before holding the bag out to you.
âI thought maybe you forgot lunch again,â he muttered, âAnd, I donât know, youâre always drinking that strawberry sludge.â
Your eyes dropped to the milkshake in his other hand. Condensation trailed down the sides like it had just left the freezer. It was your favorite milkshake place. Moore Milk, please! It even had the striped straw that you had to fish out from the strawholder because you wanted the straw to match the drink.Â
Moore Milk, please! is a whole street away from ReelTime, and three blocks away from the nearest corndog stall. And instead of opening your mouth, you kept it shut. Cheeks tainted a faint pink.
So, he filled the silence, in the way he always did when words made him uncomfortable, âLook, itâs not a big deal, I just ââ he broke off, setting the drink down in front of you without meeting your eyes, ââI was hungry. Thatâs all.â
You stared at the milkshake. Then at him.
His hair was mussed from the sun. His shirt had a slight wrinkle on one shoulder. He hadnât shaved, and you could see the faint beginnings of stubble on his jaw. He looked like someone trying not to look like he cared.
You took the corndog gently, fingers brushing his, âThanks,â you said, voice quieter than usual.
âI didnât poison it,â he said.
âI know.â
You sat back down behind the counter, taking a tentative sip of the milkshake.
It was cold. Perfect. Your heart twisted. Sunghoon lingered, watching you sip, then fidgeted like he was about to turn back toward the door. But before he could leave, you said, âDo you want to help me sort the new horror titles?â
He paused. Looked at you.
âYouâll let me mess with your sacred alphabetizing system?â
âTemporarily.â
He smirked, âIâm in.â
And just like that, something softened. Not all at once. But it was enough. Enough to know he didnât just pass by the stall. Enough to know he remembered.Â
Week Seven.
There was something between you and Sunghoon.
You never talked about it, never touched it, never named it aloud. But it existed.
It existed in the way he handed you your strawberry milkshake in all of your shifts. Surprising you with a different flavor every Wednesday for variety. Sometimes, itâs chocolate, sometimes, itâs banana. Sometimes, Sunghoon argues the banana split is the best because itâs all flavors in one.
It also existed in the way your fingers brushed while re-shelving The Breakfast Club, and neither of you moved. In the way he watched your lips move more than the screen during each post-shift movie night every Friday. It existed in the way he leaned back a little further on the beanbag, spreading his legs wide enough for your knee to bump his, then didnât move when it did.
Nothing had happened. But something had almost happened, enough to shift the gravity a little when he walked into the room youâre in.Â
It started with a broom.
You were sweeping near the front counter, music drifting from the tiny stereo wedged behind the register. The usual mellow summer tape youâd made of OSTs and hits from rented movies. Sunghoon was half-heartedly dusting the shelves, mostly poking at cobwebs and muttering about how rental stores were doomed once someone figured out how to play movies from home.
You twirled the broom like a mic stand, turned to him dramatically, and started belting out Hopelessly Devoted To You with exaggerated hand gestures. Sunghoon stared, then scoffed. Then, in the most unexpected twist, grabbed the mop and joined you.
âGreat,â he said, feigning dread, âWeâve officially lost it.â
You gave him your best power ballad eyes, and he rolled his. And just like that, the two of you were sweeping and lip-syncing like it was your last night on earth, brooms-turned-microphones, exaggerated spins, mock drums and guitars. It was stupid. And fun. And so very you.
Then the tape shifted, the soft synths of Take My Breath Away began to play.
Sunghoon blinked at you from across the room, mop held upright between his hands like he forgot he was holding it.
Something in the air has changed.
You laughed nervously, half-turning away, but then you heard the slow drag of footsteps. When you looked again, Sunghoon was walking toward you, a half-smile tugging at his lips, not teasing, not smug.
Just soft.
He offered a hand.
âDance with me,â he said, like it wasnât a big deal.
You hesitated, âWhat, right now?â
âWell,â he gestured around the empty store, âI donât see anyone else.â
You laughed again, but it came out shaky. Still, you placed your hand in his. And under flickering fluorescent lights, with old tapes watching from the shelves and the air faintly smelling of dust and lemon cleaner, you danced.
Not well. Not smoothly.
But real.
He rested his hands on your waist like heâd done it before. You looped your arms around his neck like it was the most natural thing in the world. Your bodies swayed, your heart pounded, and for a moment, one fragile, fluttering moment, it felt like the rest of the world had faded into grainy static.
His forehead nearly brushed yours.
You wondered if he was going to kiss you. You think he almost did.
But then the track changed. And like all almosts, the moment passed.
The gravity shifted after that, until now.
Itâs Friday afternoon.
Sunghoon is already out front, manning the register. Youâre at the back of the store on a stepstool, reorganising the top row of the Action shelf and untangling an old promotion sign. You canât see much, not with the shelves dividing the store, but you can hear the bell chime faintly. Then, loud, boisterous voices that donât belong here.
âYo, Sunghoon! No freaking way, man. This where youâve been hiding?â
You pause, grip stilling on the corner of a Lethal Weapon tape.
âDude, seriously,â another laughs, âYouâre working here now? Thatâs hilarious.â
Sunghoon exhales, âWhat are you guys doing here?â
âPicking up a horror movie for Soojin. Remember her? Back in town for the weekend. You knew that, right?âÂ
You freeze.
Then a sarcastic, ââCourse he knew. Probably the first to know.â
Your fingers tighten on the shelf as the first guy cackles, âMan, what even happened to you? You used to be the guy. Now, youâre pushing tapes and punching timecards. No girls, no parties. You parents really put you on a leash, huh?â
âShe dumped him,â the other says, matter-of-fact, âFinals week. And boom: grades dropped, Coach lost it, now heâs stuck here. This is, what? A redemption arc?â
âShut up,â Sunghoon mutters.
âNo, for real, though. What was her name again? That chick you work with. Kind of cute in aâŠweird way?âÂ
You feel your stomach twist.Â
âDonât.â Sunghoon says sharply.
âOoh, touchy. Is she your little VHS rebound?â
You donât wait for Sunghoonâs reply.
You slip off the stepstool. You press your back against the shelf, quietly inhaling, blinking away the sting behind your eyes.Â
Whatever he was going to say, if it was ever meant to defend you, it wouldnât matter. You knew you werenât part of his world. You were just the convenience, the detour, the fixer-upper project until Soojin came back.
You pull yourself together. Smooth your expression like a tape cover. And when you step out from the back, you act like you didnât hear a thing.
Week Ten.
It happens on a Wednesday.
Youâre behind the counter, giggling with half a burger in your hand and mustard at the corner of your mouth.
Sunghoonâs sitting on the floor of the employee side of the counter, one leg stretched out and lazy, the other bent as he picks fries from the paper bag like heâs selecting jewelry.
Youâd caved and let him convince you to try that greasy burger joint down the street after a full week of him whining about how âyou canât judge a burger till itâs falling apart in your hands, Y/N.â
The fries are too salty. The cola is flat. The burgerâs a little soggy.
And itâs perfect.
Sunghoonâs grinning at you like you said something funny, or maybe heâs just laughing at the mustard on your face. And for a second, the store feels like your own tiny, flickering universe.
And then the bell over the door rings.
You glance up. You donât recognise her at first.Â
Sheâs standing in the entryway like she stepped off the set of Heathers. Hair glossy and curled, cardigan folded neatly over her shoulders, high-waisted skirt pressed flat without a wrinkle. Not an ounce of sweat on her despite the summer heat.
Her eyes sweep the shop. They land on you first, then him.
You feel it in the air when she recognises him.
âSunghoon?â she says, a little breathless.
He turns his head, still chewing, mid-fry, then pauses, âSoojin?â
You blink.
Thatâs Soojin?
The Soojin? the one his friends mentioned with lowered voices and locker room guilt? The reason his grades plummeted and his parties peaked?
âOh,â she says, blinking fast before offering a polite smile, âI didnât know you were working here now.â
Sunghoon stands, brushing crumbs off his vest, the same ReelTime navy as yours, âYeah, long story.â
And now sheâs looking at you. She doesnât smile, not quite. But she does tilt her head just enough for it to feel like a judgment.
You wipe your fingers on a napkin, suddenly all too aware of your frizzy hair and ketchup-stained uniform, âHi, Iâm Y/N,â offering your name, too fast.
She repeats it back. Perfectly.
âI didnât know Sunghoon had coworkers,â Soojin says, still smiling.
âSheâs the best one here,â Sunghoon mutters beside you, still chewing on the last fry. And you look up at him, startled. He doesnât meet your eyes.
âI was just passing by,â Soojin says, âThought Iâd check in. You werenât answering my calls.â
âWell, Iâve been busy,â he shrugs.
Soojin nods, gaze dropping to the food wrappers. Then the way youâre both sitting too close. Then the way your straw is in his cup, âOh,â she says, âWell, I should go.â
âYou sure?â you offer, too quickly, too brightly, âYou can stay a while! Hang out with us! The fries are the only ones left from mine. We already ate our burgers. I can order from the place and have you both catch up?
Soojin blinks, âOh, thatâs⊠okay.â
Sunghoonâs watching you now. Not her. You feel it.
But you kept going.
âItâs sweet you dropped by,â you say, âHonestly, you two would look good together. Still do, I guess.â
His brow furrows.
You ignore it.
âAnyway, heâs here around most days, you know where to find him.â
Soojin leaves soon after. You return to your seat, pretend your burger hasnât gone cold. Sunghoon doesnât sit again. Instead, he tosses his last fry into the trash and says nothing.
The thing is, you meant to move on quietly.Â
Like a soft fade to black â no fuss, no sound, no lingering close-ups.
You werenât supposed to bring Soojin up in conversation like she was the solution to Sunghoonâs loneliness. You werenât supposed to smile while doing it either. But deflectionâs a hell of a drug.
âShe still likes you, you know,â you say too cheerfully one afternoon, arms crossed behind the counter at ReelTime as you watch Sunghoon restock tapes with half a brain cell, âSoojin.â
Sunghoon doesnât even look up, âYeah?â
âYeah,â you hum, reaching for the tape gun beside the register, âSheâs come in three times this week. Didnât even check the horror section, which I know she likes. Just hovered around the rom-com aisle until you showed up.â
âHmm,â
You frown, âYouâre not flattered?â
Sunghoon sighs through his nose and mutters something about âYouâre weird,â before shoving Risky Business back onto the shelf a little too hard.
Over the next few days, you commit to the bit.
You recommend movies Soojin might like. Tell Sunghoon he and Soojin âlook good in the same frame.â Point out something new in Soojinâs look and nudge Sunghoonâs side at the same time and ask him if he thinks sheâs gone prettier.
Sunghoon becomes quieter every time.
More offbeat. More detached.
At one point, you say, âYou still talk to her more than me these days.â
He snaps. âThatâs because you keep pushing her into my arms like itâs a goddamn school play.â
You freeze.
But instead of confronting that truth, you deflect again. Shrug.
 âShe likes you, Sunghoon. Iâm just trying to help.â
He doesnât reply.
He just walks away, tossing a tape onto the return bin with a little too much force.
Itâs past closing when Soojin finally leaves.
She lingers by the counter for a moment too long, smiling sweetly at you, eyes flicking to Sunghoon in the back whoâs restocking tapes like they havenât been talking for the past thirty minutes.
âIâll call you,â she says to him, casual. âIf youâre free, Saturday.â
He nods, distracted, not even looking up.
And then sheâs gone. The bell above the door jingles, and silence falls like a dropped reel.
You start to clean up. Avoid his eyes. Focus on the register drawer like itâs full of gold. You sense him still standing in the same spot. Unmoving. Like the silence is louder than he can bear.
âYou done playing cupid?â
His voice slices through the quiet.
You flinch, fingers stiff on the edge of the drawer.
âI was just helping.â
âBullshit.â
You turn slowly. Heâs standing by the horror shelf now, arms crossed, brows pulled together in that way he gets when heâs trying not to yell.
âSunghoon ââ
âWhy are you doing this?â he asks, âWhy do you keep pushing her at me?â
You shrug, trying to smile. It doesnât reach your eyes, âYou guys were good together.â
His expression hardens. âThatâs not an answer.â
You start organizing receipts. Anything to keep your hands busy. âI donât know what you want me to say.â
âI want you to stop acting like weâre not ââ He stops himself, jaw clenching. âLike something didnât happen.â
Your heart stutters. âNothing happened.â
His eyes snap to you. âDonât do that.â
âDo what?â
âLie.â
You bite the inside of your cheek. His voice is hoarse now. Raw.
âYou think I didnât notice the way youâve been acting?â he says, voice lower now. âYou wonât meet my eyes. You swapped shifts. You barely talk to me unless itâs about her.â
âYou should be with someone like her,â you blurt out. âSheâs â sheâs pretty, and perfect, and you dated before ââ
âI donât want someone like her!â His voice breaks on the last word. âI thought you knew that.â
You stare.
And then you say it. Quiet. Trembling. Cruel in how much you mean it.
âI was just your rebound, wasnât I?â
The silence is brutal.
Sunghoon shakes his head like heâs been slapped, âYou think Iâd waste this much time being around you if you were just that?â
âYou needed to get back on track. Get serious. Your parents asked me to look after you, remember?â You try to laugh, but it wobbles, âMaybe thatâs all I ever was. Someone to keep you stable until you got your girl back.â
âYou think thatâs all this was?â he asks, incredulous.
You donât answer.
He walks toward you, stopping a foot away. His voice drops, âDo you even see what youâre doing?â
âIâm doing what youâre too scared to do,â you whisper.
Sunghoonâs eyes flash, âWhich is what?â
âChoosing someone who makes sense.â
That shuts him up.
Youâre breathing too hard. You can feel your pulse behind your ribs.
But he doesnât say anything else. Not a single word.
So you gather your things. Your tote bag, your walkman, your silence.
You donât look back when you walk out the door.
You donât see how he runs a hand through his hair and stares at the register like he wants to throw it across the room. You donât see how he stays behind long after your shift, just⊠stuck there, under the sick buzz of fluorescent lights, with too many things left unsaid.
He doesnât walk you home.
Week Twelve.
You scoff when you hear Take My Breath Away play in your walkman. Youâve plugged your earphones in while you were scanning different College brochures on your desk, desperate to get out of this town and finally away from everything.
Itâs the last week of Summer.Â
Which means, itâs the last week of avoiding close proximity with Park Sunghoon. Last week of glossing over his name when someone mentions ReelTime. The last week of pretending you didnât start falling for the boy who hummed Footloose under his breath and brought you milkshakes just because.
You tear your gaze from a brochure of NYU and look at the clock. Itâs well past 10 PM. The house is quiet, and you know your parents have gone to bed. You wish you could say the same for your thoughts.
Lately, theyâve been louder than ever.
You tell yourself this is better. That all you did was reset the distance that shouldâve been there in the first place. That he was always meant to go back to his world: varsity jackets, old money, perfect girls with perfect hair â and you were meant to stay in yours.
Still, when the tape clicks and rewinds, you donât press play again. You stare out the window instead.
And thatâs when you hear it.
A faint tap. Then another. Like pebbles. You narrow your eyes and push the curtains aside. And you nearly choke.
Because Park Sunghoon â almost six feet of campus golden boy in a hoodie and wind-tousled hair â is clumsily scaling the trellis outside your window. One sneakered foot slips before he catches it again with a hiss, âShit.â
But it isnât just that heâs climbing.
Itâs the way he looks â rumpled, raw, real.
His hair is down. Ungelled, unstyled, unruly. Not swept up the way he usually wore it, that John Travolta coif you always secretly admired. Instead, it falls naturally over his forehead, soft and wild, like he didnât even check the mirror before rushing over.
And you canât lie, it does something to you.
You fling the window open, âWhat the hell are you doing?!â
âIâve been calling for days,â he pants, gripping the ledge, âYour mom is terrifying.â
âYouâre going to fall and break your stupid legs ââ
âWell, itâs too late to back out now, is it?â
And then he hoists himself over, lands with a thud on your carpet, and straightens up with all the grace of a boy whoâs desperate, messy, and in love.
You step back.
Heâs never looked less like the Park Sunghoon who walked into ReelTime on week one. And never more like someone you could actually lose your heart to.
âYouâre insane. My parents are downstairs ââ
âYou think I didnât consider that?â
âWhy are you here?â
âTo break my legs, probably.â
âSunghoon, you shouldnât be here.â
âI know.â
âMy parents could kill you.â
âI know that, too.â
âSo why are you here?â
And he looks at you, really, really looks at you.
The kind of look that strips you bare, pulls all the air out of your lungs, and replaces it with something heavier. His voice is lower now, steady in the way it always is when heâs saying something that might hurt.
âBecause you were so convinced that I would pick Soojin over you.â
Your throat tightens.
âY/N,â he says, like it aches to speak your name, âYouâre not â Jesus, youâre not some detour.â
You try to look away, but his voice tethers you in place.
âYouâre not just some summer phase Iâm using to bounce back. Youâre not the girl behind the counter who alphabetises tapes and gets left behind when the year restarts.â
You whisper, âYou donât know that.â
âI do,â he says, stepping forward, closing the gap, âBecause I was supposed to go back. To parties, to old habits. But then you happened, and it stopped being fun to pretend.â
Your heart clenches, âSunghoon ââ
âYou kept trying to push me back to her. And I kept letting you even if it was against my will. Because I thought maybe thatâs what you wanted. I thought maybe you didnât see me like I saw you.â
âI do,â you whisper, âI just didnât want to be the girl someone settled for after everything else didnât work out.â
âYouâre not,â his voice breaks on the words, âyouâre the girl I fell in love with without even realising it.â
The words hang in the air like static: thick, heavy, electric.
Your mouth parts slightly, but nothing comes out. The room is too full of what he just said. Of everything heâs trying to mean.
He presses on, voice hoarse, as if if he stops now, he might not say it at all.
âI didnât want to,â he admits, a breathless, broken laugh escaping his lips. âGod, you were so annoying. You alphabetized everything. You had a favorite genre, for Christâs sake. You wouldnât shut up about Bette Davis monologues. You made me try milkshake flavors I didnât even know existed when all I used to run on was beer and Gatorade.â
He exhales. His eyes are glassy under the pale yellow light of your bedside lamp, but they never once leave yours.
âBut you alsoââ
He swallows.
âYou also made me look forward to every fucking Thursday.â
The way he says it â like a confession, like a goddamn prayer â nearly knocks the breath out of your lungs.
And suddenly itâs too much. The weight of it all presses against your ribs, spills into your fingertips. All the quiet Thursday nights, all the awkward shared glances over worn VHS cases, all the strawberry milkshakes and alphabetized aisles, all the waiting. All the almosts.
You take a sharp inhale.
And your voice, when it comes, is just a breath, shaken and soft, like the beginning of something too big to name.
âPark SunghoonâŠâ you begin, barely holding yourself together, ââŠthere are still so many films I want to watch with you.â
âNot just on Thursdays. Not just after shifts, or during summer. Every day. Every stupid day of the week. Morning, noon, and night. I want to watch every movie with you; the good, the bad, the cheesy ones that make us groan, the ones you hate but pretend to like because I love them.â
His breath catches.
You reach for him slowly, like youâre afraid this is still a dream, and rest your palm against his chest. His heart is beating like a drum.
âI want to make time stop in the middle of a scene because weâre laughing too hard,â you whisper, âI want to fight over who gets to rewind. I want to sit with you in quiet, sunlit rooms with nothing but stories playing between us.â
You smile again, watery but certain.
âI want my forever to start at the end of a movie we never finished.â
And thatâs all it takes.
Sunghoon kisses you like heâs trying to make up for every word he never said, for every late tape and every moment he pretended you were just the girl behind the counter. His hands hold you like youâre precious. Like heâs terrified youâll slip through his fingers if he moves too fast.
You kiss him back with everything youâve got all the ache, all the yearning, all the love that bloomed quietly on slow Thursdays and bloomed louder every day since.
And to you, it feels like the movies. But not the dramatic, perfectly choreographed kind.
No, itâs more like Cinema Paradiso: nostalgic and aching, sweet with something too big to name. Like the kind of kiss you rewind just to feel again. A kiss that feels like a promise and a farewell all at once.
Itâs the kind of kiss that belongs in a scene youâd always watched from behind the counter. The kind of kiss you thought was just acting. Itâs the kind of kiss that feels like music swelling beneath dialogue. Like Maria running across a field in West Side Story. Like Audrey Hepburn in Funny Face when the Eiffel Tower lights up. Like Mollyâs hands over Samâs in Ghost, quiet and grieving and impossibly full.
Itâs the kiss that changes the plot.
And when his hands hold your face like heâs afraid heâll wake up from this, you realize something: You are the girl. The girl in the movies. The girl he chose. The girl heâs kissing like the credits havenât even started yet.
Sunghoon kisses you like heâs been meaning to for weeks. Not like a boy kissing a girl, but like a man finally finding something that makes him believe in softness again. Like heâs spent the whole summer terrified of shattering you.
His lips move slowly against yours, once, then again, deeper, like heâs trying to memorise the shape of your mouth. You feel his hand skim the edge of your jaw, the pad of his thumb grazing your cheek like heâs checking if this is real; and your hands slide into his hair â itâs still down, mussed and ungelled, nothing like the cool boy who strutted into ReelTime on Week One.
Gone is the boy with Ray-Bans and swagger. In his place is someone real. Someone who showed up. Someone who stayed. And somehow, impossibly yours.
The kiss deepens, but never loses its carefulness. Thereâs no rush to it. No fire threatening to consume. Just a warmth that sinks into your skin, slow and steady, like sunlight on an old filmstrip.
His hands find your waist, pause there. You nod, and thatâs all he needs.
You move together like youâre learning. Like youâre figuring out choreography only your bodies know. Your fingers tremble slightly as they work at the buttons of his shirt. He helps, tugging the fabric away, and when it catches on his wrist, you both dissolve into soft laughter.
The lamp casts gold over the curve of his shoulder. You memorize that color.
You sit back on your knees and tug your own shirt off. He looks at you, not with hunger, but with wonder. Like youâre a scene he wants to rewatch a hundred times and still never fully understand.
He reaches for your bra strap with slow fingers. You nod again. It slips down your arms and pools on the sheets, forgotten.
He doesnât move. Doesnât pounce. Just looks.
"Youâre beautiful," he says, like it hurts.
Then he leans in and kisses your shoulder, the slope of your neck, the hollow beneath your ear. His lips are soft and deliberate. Your skin feels like itâs been marked with a thousand commas, a story in motion.
And all the while, the music hums on. Take My Breath Away floats like a secret, like a vow.
"Tell me if anything feels off," he whispers, "Please. I mean it."
You nod. But more than that, you reach for him, wordlessly asking him to stay close. You lie back on the bed. He follows. He kisses you again, deeper now, his hands mapping the places between your ribs and hips like he already knows them, like heâs just tracing the familiar.
You fumble with your shorts. He helps. Thereâs a clumsy tangle of limbs and laughter as he gets caught in your blanket, and you muffle a squeak against his chest. Itâs messy. But itâs yours. Itâs real.
When youâre bare beneath him, he pauses, "Are you sure?"
You search his eyes. Theyâre so open, so full of something that can only be called care.
"Iâm sure."
His throat bobs, "We can stop. Anytime. I mean it."
You reach up, curl your fingers into his hair, and kiss him. Thatâs your answer.
Still, when he lines himself against you, he doesnât push. He waits. He kisses you again, softer, even slower than before. His hands are everywhere but nowhere inappropriate: stroking your jaw, cupping your shoulder, steadying the thrum in your chest.
And then, carefully, he begins to ease in.
You gasp. Not in pain, not in fear. Just surprise. The sheer unfamiliarity. The weight of something new. He freezes, "Breathe," he whispers. "Youâre okay. Just breathe."
And you do. You breathe through the strangeness. The burn. The impossibly close sensation. He kisses you through it, murmuring into your skin. His hands never stop moving, never stop checking, steadying. He lets you set the pace.
Your hips tilt. And he moans, soft, muffled against your collarbone.
Thereâs a rhythm now. A gentle give and take. A story written in touches.
Your room is small, but tonight it feels like the center of the world. You clutch at his shoulder. He pants your name into your neck.
You tighten around him, and he falters, whispering brokenly, "Thatâs it. Just like that. Youâre okay, sweet thing. I got you."
âFuck, I canât control my m-moaning, my parents would kill me if they h-heard me,â
He laughs softly before kissing you, and you moan into his lips.
You feel it rise. That golden, breathless tension that thrums between you like the rising swell of a final act. Itâs warm and full, not just in your chest, but everywhere. In the way your toes curl into the sheets, in the way your breath stutters beneath his mouth, in the way your body sings with the closeness of him. It coils, slow and insistent, like the crescendo of a score youâve heard a thousand times but never truly listened to. And when it breaks, it doesnât shatter.
It melts.
Your world folds inwards. Breath caught in your throat, your eyes squeezed shut, mouth parted in something soft and reverent. It steals the air from your lungs and leaves something heavier, something sweeter behind.
And when you fall, you fall like a reel unraveling. Unspooling. Whole.
Sunghoon follows with a quiet, stuttered groan. One that makes your skin erupt in goosebumps; his arms caging you in like he couldnât bear to let you drift even an inch away. He presses deeper, breath warm on your neck, hips slowing to ride out the aftermath. You feel everything. Every quiver. Every unspoken word. Every thud of his heart where it meets yours.
Then, silence.
But not an empty one.
Just the soft, mechanical hiss of the Walkman spinning over, the gentle rustle of the sheets settling around you like an exhale. The occasional clink of his ring against the metal zipper of your pillowcase. The hush of his breath on your skin.
And then, finally, the quietest thing of all: the way he doesnât let go.
His arms donât fall slack. His body doesnât shift away. Instead, he molds closer, nose brushing your temple, lips leaving feather-light kisses across your cheek, your jaw, the tip of your nose.
And then, your mouth.
âYou okay?â he murmurs, his voice sandpapered at the edges.
You nod, your cheek brushing his shoulder.
âYou?â
He lets out a short laugh, breathless, wrecked, dizzy, and buries his face into the curve of your neck, âI think I saw the gates of heaven.â
You laugh too, the sound escaping you in a hush. You roll slightly, your knees brushing his thigh, one of your hands still tangled in his hair. Your room is dark now, save for the soft glow of your bedside lamp and the faint fuzz of the tape rewinding back into silence. You reach out and brush his hair from his eyes, still a little winded.
âThis doesnât change the way I think about Top Gun, by the way,â you murmur.
âOh?â
"Maverickâs still my first love."
He groans, flopping onto his back like youâve wounded him, âAre you serious right now?â
You smile, pressing your cheek to his shoulder, eyes closed, content, "Dead serious. And it doesnât change the fact that Grease is better than Footloose. Or that you still alphabetize everything wrong."
He snorts. âOkay, thatâs just low.â
You continue, grinning now, "And Iâm still going to charge you late fees."
Sunghoon shifts, propping himself up on one elbow so he can look at you again, his expression half-exasperated, half-captivated.
"Anything else, sunshine? Wanna kick me while Iâm already love-drunk and naked in your bed?"
You laugh softly. That sleepy kind of laugh that only comes after something real and rare. The kind of laugh that feels like a secret.
And then, quietly, the words youâve been carrying since that first shared movie shift, since the first time he mispronounced your name, since the first time he handed you a milkshake and asked your opinion:
âWellâŠâ you drawl, playing coy, âI feel like no one could top the story of the male protagonist falling in love with the second lead who hid herself behind the counter of an old film rental store.â
His eyes crinkle with that crooked grin, the one that never fails to melt something inside you, âSaid male protagonist is as handsome as I am?â
You purse your lips, pretending to consider, âLet me think about it.â
He scoffs, nudging your hip with his knee beneath the sheets, âUnbelievable.â
But your smile softens. You reach out, tracing a finger down his bare shoulder, memorizing the realness of him. How close he is. How chosen he feels.
âLetâs just say,â you murmur, voice quieter now, more honest, âeven if there were a hundred more movies to watch... Iâd still pick this one.â
His breath catches.
And without saying another word, he leans in and kisses you again.
Slow. Sweet. Steady.
Like heâs promising to show up for the next scene, and the next, and every one after.
hii! i wanted to request a kinda suggestive werewolf sunghoon x reader who's surprisingly not scared of him. him having a soft spot for her and soft dom vibes but not literally smut!! tyy love your work âĄ
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PAIRING. alpha, werewolf!sunghoon x fem!reader
CONTENT. suggestive content (15+), supernatural elements, possessive behaviour, emotional tension, implied claming/mating themes, implied dom!sunghoon
WORD COUNT. 1,646
AUTHOR'S NOTE. thank you so much anon for this ask! i enjoyed writing this. <3
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You always felt him.
Literally, he hovered.
From your classes in Statistics to the Library, there was always a looming presence you seem to feel settled deep within your bones, along with two golden glowing eyes that you kept catching in the corners of your vision. He didn't just stare, he bore into you.
Not with curiosity, but with something that felt like it was meant to scare you. Or test you. Or both.
Others kept their distance. Some changed directions entirely when he passed by. You'd seen it too many times: people shrinking in on themselves when he turned the corner, heads ducking low like his gaze might burn right through them.
People were always warned of Park Sunghoon.
The first time you heard of him, you told yourself that you were keeping your distance. It was the safest option, and you wanted to graduate soon enough without the mess that involved creatures like his kind.
But distance, as it turned out, was not something Sunghoon allowed. It was something that he didn't accept when it came to terms to you.
He never spoke to you directly, not at first. Just lingered. Not like a ghost. More like a storm-cloud. Predictable in the way he hovered outside lecture halls, sat two rows behind you in the library but never once opened a book. You'd leave a study room and find him leaning on the vending machine outside. Not watching. Just there. As if he had nowhere to be.
It wasn't flirting. It wasn't even subtle. It was instinctual. Primal.
Yet, there was something oddly reassuring about the weight of his gaze. Something steady about the way he stood in your periphery. Silent, still, simmering. It made your fingers twitch on your pen. Made your spine straighten. Made you aware of yourself in ways that had nothing to do with fear and everything to do with being seen.
Rumors always preceded Park Sunghoon. Alpha-in-the-making. Fourth of the original seven. Strongest tracker in his lineage. Cold, efficient, cruel when provoked. He was never supposed to lead.
But legends rarely ask for permission.
When the former alpha stepped down, it was Sunghoon who took the mantle. Not the eldest, not the loudest, not the one everyone expected. Just the one everyone knew better than to challenge. He didnât fight for it â well, mot publicly. The title bowed to him. Or maybe the others simply knew they wouldnât win.
Even now, months into the semester, people still talked about it in hushed tones. The unexpected rise. The hierarchy shift. The quiet ruthlessness behind those amber-lit eyes.
It wasnât romantic. It was possessive. Careful. Constant.
It was maddening.
Because you knew what it looked like when a wolf was circling.
And still, Sunghoon couldn't find himself to come near you to tell you what was it that he wanted from you.
Like right now, while you were in the Campus Library, working on something that you wanted to finish so you could doze off in your free day tomorrow. You felt his gaze prickle your skin, the coldness of the night seems to have heightened because of his presence.
You didn't have to lift your head to know it was him. The way the air shifted. The way your body registered it before your mind did, like the way trees brace for thunder before it breaks
You kept your eyes on the paper in front of you, your handwriting steady, though your heartbeat had started to crawl up your throat.
"You know I know you've been following me, right?"
Your voice doesn't rise. It doesn't even waver. It's barely a murmur, a thread pulled between your breath and the silence that cloaks the library like a fog. But it's enough.
The chair across from your creaks. You glance up, and he's already there: Park Sunghoon, in all his brooding, broad-shouldered, bone-carved glory. Head tilted, but not surprised you spoke first.
His gaze doesnât soften. It never does. But it quiets, like winterâs first snowfall, and somehow thatâs worse, âAnd here I thought I was being subtle,â he says, voice low, rough-edged velvet.
You blink, âHovering outside my classrooms? Sitting across the room in every place I go? I think subtle left the building the moment you glared at my Statistics prof for keeping me overtime.â
His mouth twitches. Almost a smile. But not quite.
"What do you want, Sunghoon?"
That gets his attention.
His golden eyes flash with something. Not surprise, not amusement, but something older. More reverent. Like the very idea of your courage is something heâs memorized and replayed.
"You're not afraid."
He says it like a challenge.
Like a discovery. Like a slow-burning fact heâs only now willing to say aloud.
You hold his gaze, even if your fingers twitch slightly beneath the table, âShould I be?â
That earns you something close to a chuckle. Low, almost breathless. But not unkind.
"Most people don't look me in the eye," he murmurs, "They flinch, they avoid. They cross the street before I even get close. But you keep holding your ground."
You shrug, trying to play off the way your heart thuds painfully against your ribs, "Maybe I just have bad instincts."
His eyes glint, "Or maybe you're the only one with good ones."
He leans in slightly. Not enough to breach propriety. Just enough for your breath to hitch and your thoughts to scatter like startled birds.
âYouâre curious,â he says, tone velveted with something darker, âYou wonder why Iâm always there. Why I hover.â
Your silence betrays you. And he sees it.
âYou wonder what it means,â he says, his voice nearly a purr now, âYou wonder what Iâd do if I got too close.â
You straighten. âDonât flatter yourself.â
Sunghoon smirks, slow and knowing. âToo late.â
You hate how warm your ears feel. How your skin tingles under his stare like itâs trying to memorize the weight of it.
Then his voice drops, rough and dragging like smoke, âYou ever read about my kind?â
You blink, âIn textbooks. Legends. The usual.â
He hums, âThen you know what happens when we find someone who calms our instincts.â
You open your mouth. Close it again. Because no, you hadnât gotten that far. Most of what youâd read had been vague folklore: cryptic warnings, dramatized rituals, blood and moons and whispered prophecies.
He doesnât wait for you to answer.
âWe circle,â he says, âWe linger. We stay close. Not always because we want to.â
Your throat goes dry, âWhat do you mean?â
He watches you for a moment, eyes flickering down. From your throat, to your collarbone, to your hands curled on the table like youâre trying to hide how they tremble.
You notice his gaze. And you tried to say something, but nothing comes out.
âIâm not some rabid thing, Y/N,â he says, and his voice is cool, but thereâs heat underneath it, âI can control myself.â
A pause.
âBut that doesnât mean I donât want.â
Your stomach flips.
And he knows it. Of course he knows it. That slight, infuriating tilt of his mouth says as much.
âYouâre interesting,â he muses, âYouâre smart. Brave. I bet any other wolves would want to get their hands on you, but they have to go through me."
Your breath catches. Not because of the words, though those alone are enough to short-circuit your nervous system, but it's because of the way he says them. Low, certain. Not a threat, a truth.
They have to go through me.
As if itâs already a given. As if some invisible line has been drawn around you, and heâs etched his name into the perimeter.
You stare at him, pulse pounding in your ears like war drums, âWhy?â you manage to whisper.
He doesnât flinch. Doesnât look away.
âBecause you feel like mine,â Sunghoon says simply.
And it hits like a freight train.
The thing is: heâs not even close to you. Still seated across the table. Still giving you the illusion of space. But you feel him everywhere. The press of his stare on your lips. The heat blooming low in your belly. The ache in your palms from curling your fingers too tight to stop the trembling.
He leans back, like he can sense the tension climbing your spine.
âDonât worry, pretty,â he murmurs, voice so casual it almost makes your skin prickle, âI wonât take anything you donât offer.â
And somehow, thatâs what undoes you. Not the power in his stance, not the quiet authority in his tone, but the restraint. The way he gives you the choice, even as he coils around your senses like smoke.
Your mouth opens, again, like maybe this time, youâll say something clever. Something that will even the playing field, ground you back into the present.
âSunghoonâŠâ
He rises.
Tall. Solid. Radiating something ancient that brushes up against instinct, that tells you to flinch or flee, but you donât.
You really don't want to.
âCareful,â he drawls, âIf you say my name like that again, I might start thinking you want me to claim you.â
Your breath hitches. And itâs obvious. Written on your face, etched into your silence.
His grin stretches out wider.
âIâll see you around,â he says, backing away like he didnât just set your entire world on fire. Like he didnât leave the scent of his promise wrapped around your throat.
He turns, disappears into the far end of the library, and it takes several seconds before you realize your fingers are still curled around your pen like a lifeline. Your heartâs still hammering.
â love grows, where my rosemary goes. | psh. (PREVIEW)
PAIRING. jock!sunghoon x fem!reader
SUMMARY. summer, 1983. you work at reeltime video, alphabetize tapes, and fall in love with stories too big for your small town. park sunghoon, campus heartthrob with a members only jacket and a habit of returning late tapes, is the last person you'd expect to work the summer shift beside you. but then he does. and one thursday, he climbs through your window.
CONTENT. slowburn, virgin!reader, experienced!sunghoon, first time sex, praise kink, mutual pining, falling in love over summer, 1980s nostalgia, video store setting, hurt/comfort, miscommunication, window climbing scene, rom-com tropes, soft smut, emotional climax, sunghoon in love and desperate, mentions of readerâs first time, safe but descriptive intimacy, lots of feelings
WORD COUNT. 7k-ish
RELEASE DATE. july 19, 2025
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âI⊠donât think Iâm mentally equipped for this,â you say flatly, straw still in between your lips.
He gestures at you, âThat makes two of us.â
You slide your milkshake away like it might combust in your hands.
âWhy are you here?â you ask, slowly standing up, âDid you get lost looking for your reflection or something?â
âDid they hire you for your customer service?â He deadpans, shooting you a look.
You open your mouth to retort, but then the bell above the door chimes again.
Two sharply dressed adults step in, and the temperature drops ten degrees. His parents. You know this without being introduced. The posture, the judgment, the expensive perfume that doesnât suit the musty, tape-sleeved air of ReelTime.
You step out from behind the counter, clutching the corners of your best like a shield.
âMiss Y/N?â the man says, voice precise, smooth, like itâs been filed down to a razor edge, âMr and Mrs Park. We spoke briefly on the phone.â
âI think you spoke to my manager, actually,â you squirmed.
âWell, she said youâre one of the storeâs most efficient hires,â Mrs Park chimes in with a rehearsed smile, âAnd weâre hoping you can help Sunghoon adjust to thisâŠenvironment.â
âEnvironment?â
âThis store,â Mr Park says. âWeâve arranged for Sunghoon to work here until school resumes. A bit of structure. Accountability. You know that.â
Your gaze drifts to Sunghoon, who looks like heâd rather chew glass than be standing here.
âAnd you want me toâŠâ
âKeep an eye on him,â Mrs Park answers, too quickly. âMake sure he shows up on time. Stays out of trouble. Make sure he learns the value of responsibility.â
âI donât need a babysitter,â Sunghoon grits out, throwing you a pointed look.
âBut you sure act like you do,â you mutter. His eyes narrow at you.
Mrs Park clasps her hands together, âThis is going to be such a wonderful experience, sweetie,â she says as she looks at Sunghoon. And you look at Sunghoon again. Vest wrinkled. Arms crossed. Standing beside a cardboard cutout of Princess Leia.
PAIRING. idol!sunghoon x staff, fem!reader
SUMMARY. you work behind-the-scenes for one of the biggest kpop companies in the industry, belift, and you have a secret: you run one anonymous X account to vent every frustration and grudge about the company's visual ice prince, park sunghoon. he finds this account and instead of reporting you... he starts flirting?
CONTENTS. enemies to lovers (e2l), SUNGHOON IS DANGEROUSLY FLIRTY. slowburn, praise kink, hair pulling, dom!sunghoon, dirty talk, light marking, reader is teased into begging, mentions of big dick sunghoon hehe, oral (f receiving) p in v, unprotected sex (pls dont; reader is on the pill, BUT STILL). a bit of angst if you squint, there's a bit of power imbalance, semi-public sex. body worship. she fell first, he fell harder. MDNI.
WORD COUNT. 10.9k (i genuinely thought it was 20k)
AUTHOR'S NOTE. hi, iâm back! and with lots of fic ideas i hope you enjoyyyy. hnggg. i really have no other stuff to say. HAHAHA. hope you like it <3<3
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It starts, as most mistakes do, with a tweet.
You're more of a background poster than anything. An anonymous handle with a blurry profile pic which you've taken while you were out in the Han river, barely 300 followers, and two things everyone can piece together if they pay attention:
One, you work at BELIFT.
Two, you work closely with ENHYPEN.
Too close, maybe. Close enough that you retweet clips of Jungwon being the cutest cat-like leader you've ever met. Close enough that you've ranted about Heeseung's additional ad-libs and last minute line changes, praised Ni-ki's professionalism at 3 AM, and the most damning of them all, tweeted far too often about how Park Sunghoon is the human embodiment of a soft-launch breakup.
Your followers think you're just funny. That you're just playing a bit. That maybe you're a delusional fan with a production job fantasy.
There had been a lot of replies to your tweets every now and then, asking if you really work in BELIFT and for ENHYPEN, or if Heeseung really does have a girlfriend. Some have the audacity to even question whether you really work in BELIFT or you're just another person acting like you do in order to have X engagement.
You even remember the time you've landed into one of Sunghoon's protection teams, saying that you were setting him up, and you laughed to yourself while you're checking the outfits lined up for Sunghoon in the music shows.
Like every anonymous poster, you don't reply. You never do. But still, the page grows.
ENGENEs aren't sure what to make of you. Your tweets toe the line between sarcastic slander and genuine devotion. It's not exactly hate, it's more like aggravated admiration. Like the kind of loathing that only forms when someone sees too much of a person. Sees past the polish, past the performance.
Especially when it comes to Park Sunghoon.
The ice prince of BELIFT, the company's visual jewel â oh, and your most consistent headache.
You don't actually hate him, but you sure as hell tweet like you do.
You were just off the set when your next mistake happens.
A Manila folder is tucked under your arm, barely holding on with pitch revisions and last-minute cue cards, some of which crumpled from being tossed back and forth between departments. A black mask hides half of your face, and your bucket hat hides the rest.
Safe to say, you look like a ghost in the mirrored lobby glass.
It's 2:07 AM, and you're on your third iced americano of the day and second mental breakdown of the week, and it's Monday.
The music video shoot ran longer than expected, again.
Jungwon's scenes needed reshoots. Heeseung's hair was frayed and pink at the roots even if he had his roots retouched eighteen hours ago. The harness used in Sunoo's wire-flying scene was too tacky.
And Sunghoon?
Well, Sunghoon, of course, had notes.
"It feels stiff, the camera blocking doesn't match the beat. I look bored, too."
You were bored, you think. And he looks not even short of perfect â albeit bored, perfect, still. But no one ever tells him that.
Because Park Sunghoon, for all his breathtaking angles and God-tier lighting, is never, ever satisfied. And worse, he somehow knows exactly when to glance at your direction when you're rolling your eyes behind the monitor.
It's always the same. You glare, he smirks, you look away.
Later, you tweet. And tweet.
[nuguhasdoubts]
park sunghoon blinked at the script today like it owed him money. he's so unserious for someone that pretty.
10 likes. One reply. You scroll.
[nuguhasdoubts]
heeseung gives you a small nod and you feel seen. sunghoon stares into your soul and suddenly you're 12 and being picked last in PE again.
35 likes. Four replies. One quote tweet: "this is the most specific kind of hate ever," it read, and you snort.
[nuguhasdoubts] 2:15 AM
no way he asked for natural lighting only during a night shoot. the director blinked five times. i blinked six.
[nuguhasdoubts] 2:16 AM
i hate that they still found a way...
[nuguhasdoubts] 2:21 AM
"can we do that again?" no, park sunghoon, we cannot. i've been standing for ten hours my spine ha sfolded like origami.
[nuguhasdoubts] 2:24 AM
he said thanks to everyone. do i forgive him?
[nuguhasdoubts] 2:31 AM
he walked past me and smelled like money and that another 13. and he is a tamburins endorser. still, i almost forgave him. almost.
You slam the X app shut at exactly 2:35 AM, just when you finish scrolling through your timeline and finish the read. Your phone's screen gives in to black, and for a moment, the smallest, briefest moment, it feels like silence.
But then your phone buzzes again.
And again, and again.
A cascade of notifications light up the cracked top corner, your battery bleeding at 8%, like it's crumbling under the weight of your life. You paid no mind, it could be one of those For You notifications built in to X's system depending on your tweets and interactions.
So, you stuff your phone deep into your jacket pocket and don't look back.
The night smells like asphalt and boiled coffee. The streets are empty now, save for a few flickering lampposts and a stray cat peering out from behind a row of parked scooters. You walk with your hand-me-down PRADA bag from your manager slung over one shoulder and the Manila folder hugged to your chest like it's an extra organ you're afraid to leave behind.
You've just wrapped a eighteen-hour shoot.
Eighteen hours of whispers through earpieces, running cables, resetting blocking, coordinating the makeup crew when Jay's contour got smudged, as well as rushing down to the pantry to get Jake his iced americano because his sugar was crashing.
Eighteen hours of explaining that no, natural lighting at night doesn't work that way, Park Sunghoon.
You almost laughed when he asked it. But he'd been so serious, too serious, and so of course, they made it work anyway.
You don't even remember when the grudge started.
Maybe it wasn't even a grudge. Maybe it was just a slow, quiet erosion of patience. One missed cue at a time. One more perfect shot that had to be redone because Sunghoon found the camera blocking off from the center just a tad. One more request that, had it come from anyone else, would've been given not much attention, but from him? It became gospel.
The elevator is quiet when you step in, except for the gentle ping of each floor and your own reflection staring back from mirrored walls. You look exhausted, hair damp from humidity, lanyard still looped around your neck â a stark contrast from the tall, sleek, glass gleaming in the dark of a building that looks like it should be filmed, not lived in.
It's part of the HYBE executive housing arrangement, a perk they throw in for long-term staff or those tied to core artist departments like production, creative, and management.
You'd wanted to cry the day you moved in. Not because you were happy, but because you really weren't.
The 27th floor smells like jasmine from a diffuser that someone in HR probably chose to help boost employee morale. You unlock your door with a fingerprint and step into a condo that's too clean, too white, too empty.
The living room is minimalist, with floor-to-ceiling windows and an unobstructed view of the Seoul skyline. All cold lights and late-night neon blinking somewhere in the distance. There's a record player you bought on impulse last year. It sits untouched on the console. You never really had time to use it.
You drop your bag onto the couch. It's beige. You should feel proud. This is what people your age fight for. A stable job. A sleek place in the city. A title under one of the most powerful entertainment companies in the world.
But most nights, you stand here and feel like you've wandered into someone else's life.
You studied music and dance because you were in love with movement. You loved the language it conveys, the hush before a curtain rises. You loved creating. Not cueing. Not directing for one hair strand to be curled on Jake's forehead to recreate Zayn Malik's hairstyle. Not adjusting the lighting angles so it could highlight Jay's jawline. Not keeping a lot of vitamin products just in case Sunoo forgets his.
You became a production assistant because it was your foot in the door â but now the door feels like a wall.
And somehow, in the middle of all that, he exists.
Sunghoon.
The boy with swan limbs and dagger eyes. The boy who lives your dreams without knowing he's holding them.
Sometimes, you bother to hate him. Not really, though. But there are times that it's enough to make it through another twenty-hour shoot where he asks in the middle of one scene to have his Tiktok redone because it doesn't feel like it's the one.
Everyone bend over backwards, because he smiled at the end of it.
You hate that he's the personification of everything you've ever wanted, just born with it in his palm. You hate that he's also charming and polite. And once in a while, he bothers to say thank you, and when he does, it sounds so sincere.
So, you conclude that you hate that you can't actually hate him.
You roll over and finally plug in your dying phone. You have new notifications from X. You exhale through your nose, jaw tense.
Tomorrow, you'll deal with it.
But tonight, you lie in an apartment for your loneliness, thinking about the boy who doesn't know he lives in your head rent-free, and the dream that somehow slipped from your gasp and landed in his.
You wake up to the sound of your phone buzzing against your nightstand like a trapped insect.
You ignore it.
You drag yourself out of bed. Shower. Coffee. Outfit. You pull your production lanyard over your head and loop it twice so it doesn't swing. Your tiredness presses into your muscles like wet sand, but you move through it. You always do.
You don't look at your phone.
Not when you button your black trousers. Not when you tie your hair back. Not when you slip your HYBE identification card into your back pocket, not when you slide your keys and hand cream into your bag like it's any other day.
You go down to the lobby and sit awkwardly on the sofa near the vending machine as employees pile up in the lobby with their own things to look after.
There were a lot of discussions and complaints. You hear someone saying that there'll be a remix for SEVENTEEN's title track from a Western label. Another employee is too busy contacting production for Hobi's scheduled Tiktoks with other idols of HYBE.
The shuttle pulls up just in time for call just before you could know about every idol group's business.
By the time you reach the elevators of BELIFT, your phone buzzes again. Fifth time this morning.
You've ignored every single notification since the moment you stepped into the lobby. You had to. If you let even a single one in, you might've screamed. Out loud. In front of security.
You're already late, not scandalously late, but late enough to get the side-eye from the senior stylist who believes the world runs five minutes earlier than your clock does.
The lift opens. You barrel into it.
Third floor, fitting.
Dress rehearsals, new concept. New accessories. Another hell.
You mutter apologies as you push through the crowd of stylists and interns hauling rolling racks. Your arms ache from last night. You barely slept.
You turn the corner toward Studio B, prepping the lines in your head for the morning checklist, when someone stops you.
"Hey," says Jiyeon, one of the production coordinators, "Sunghoon has asked for you."
You blink. Once, twice. "What?"
"Sunghoon said he wants you to check something about his outfit. Costume issue or something. He's in the dressing room."
Your stomach dips.
"Why didn't he tell stylists directly?"
Jiyeon shrugs, "He said, and I quote, 'Can you get the girl with the blank face and the shiny clipboard? She'll know what I mean.'"
Your face twists, "Did he actually say I'm blank-faced?"
"Verbatim."
You blink, "And you still came to get me?"
"He also said please."
"Okay?"
"It's the first time he's done that," Jiyeon reasoned.
"Right."
You adjust your headset, sigh, and head toward the solo dressing room.
When you push open the door, he's already there, sitting on the edge of the couch in sweatpants and the teaser outfit. One arm draped lazily over the backrest, the other, fiddling with a button.
You stare at him from the doorframe like he's sprouted a second head.
He blinks up at you. Tilts his head, and then had the audacity to smile.
Park Sunghoon does not smile at you. Not unless he wants something. Not unless he's being paid. Not unless he's being insufferable.
"There she is," he says, stretching slightly, arm flexing against the couch as he drops the half-undone button, "Miss Blank Face with the clipboard. I was starting to worry you hate me that much not to go."
You blink, "You called me for a costume issue."
"Did I?"
You glared, "I have three stylists on stand-by. If this is about layering or fabric, I suggestâ"
"Nah," he interrupts, rising to his feet in one fluid, confident motion, "This is more of a you thing."
The hell does that mean?
Your eyes flick over his outfit. Teaser fit: A white shirt, goggles hanging on his neck, beige cargo pants that are unbuttoned, his face lacking the needed peach makeup you specifically requested the makeup department. Still, it's nothing that needs your attention.
Still, you walk over, pulling the clipboard from your side and adjusting your headset.
"Okay, walk me through what's wrong."
He hums and walks toward you, slowly.
You notice now that his hair's still slightly damp, curled at the ends like he's fresh out of the wash and has rushed to set. But Sunghoon never rushes. He meant for the undone, wet look. He still looks fucking hot.
You hate him.
His cologne is faint but there, something woodsy and clean, and with a citrus edge that makes your already-dulled nerves ring with alertness.
Sunghoon stops in front of you. Too close.
He bends slightly at the waist, dramatic, exaggerated, inspecting.
"What's wrong," he echoes, as if thinking over your words, "Well, I've been thinking."
"That's never good."
He grins, "Funny. So, I've been thinking. Maybe I've been unfair to you."
You blink for the nth time today, "Huh?"
"You do a lot around here. You coordinate, direct, remind everyone when Ni-ki is wearing pink when he doesn't like pink. You work hard." He pauses, tilts his head, eyes dancing, "Even with a blank face."
You resist the urge to launch your clipboard at him.
He continues, utterly unbothered, "I think I misjudged you. Or maybe, we start off the wrong foot.. or, well, maybe I'm just starting to see you in a new light."
You squint, "Is this a bit?"
"Depends. You into roleplay?"
You stare.
He smiles wider.
The smirk now spreads over his face like butter on warm toast â easy, practiced, dangerously self-aware. As if he knows exactly what he's doing.
You've seen Sunghoon flirt before. He does it when the cameras are off. He knows how to bat his lashes just enough for things to go his way, how to draw people in like gravity with the perfect mix of boredom and beauty.
Usually, you've seen him give it to anyone else he deems worthy enough to give him what he wants. But this? This is directed at you.
Which is impossible. You're just a production assistant.
You narrow your eyes, "Do you need something, Sunghoon?"
He taps his lip, "Just wondering why someone might say I smelled like money and Le Labo and... what was it? Oh," he leans in, "Regret."
You freeze. But your face doesn't move. You've trained for this. You've worked backstage during entire album rollouts with less than four hours of sleep. You've sat through re-edits of comeback trailers frame by frame. You do not crack under pressure.
You kept your expression neutral.
"Sounds like a weird comment."
"Exactly," he says breezily, circling you like a shark, hands crossed while toying with his lips, "There was this thread. So dramatic. Really makes me wonder what I did to deserve that kind of hate. Or maybe..." He glances back at you, "Admiration. Hard to tell, isn't it?"
Your pulse thuds in your ears, "Must be some fan account."
"Oh, definitely a fan." He stops. Smirks.
You grit your teeth.
He knows.
But he won't say it out loud. Not yet. Not while he can watch you squirm.
You tuck your clipboard back under your arm and square your shoulders, "If you're done wasting my time, I have three racks to coordinate and a backup battery dying in the hallway."
He leans closer again, just a breath from your ear, "You know," he mutters, voice all sugar and daggers, "I never minded the hate. It's the interest that's flattering."
You step back, "Get dressed."
"I am dressed."
You point at the goggles hanging on his neck, "Fully. And you have makeup in ten."
He grins, but he lets you go, for now.
You don't rush as you leave, you don't want to give him the satisfaction. But the second you close the door, your back hits the hallway wall and your fingers tremble.
The convenience store near HYBE is quiet at night, save for the humming of refrigerators and the distant buzz of the fluorescent lights overhead. The world outside still feels far too loud, too fast â but here, it feels suspended. Dim. Air-conditioned.
You sit at one of the corner tables, hunched over your bibimyeon like it holds the answers to your crisis. Your microwaved sotteok lies abandoned in its bowl, skewers askew like bones after a fight. You haven't touched it.
You're still scrolling.
Your thumb keeps twitching over the heart button, just to see what tweet comes next. It's like watching your own downfall unfold one quote tweet at a time. Funny, devastating, strangely intimate. People keep dissecting the phrasing, the tone, the way your thread reads less like a joke and more like a diary entry.
You're a meme now.
You take a long sip of your watered down iced latte.
The convenience store is nearly empty. Just a tired cashier scrolling on his own phone behind the counter, and a guy in a hoodie a few aisles down browsing the ramyeon shelf. You don't pay attention. You can't. Not when your screen lights up again.
[shnprod]: do you think she's like actually into him?
[prodheegy]: is this user setting sh up again? lol
[sunoology]: so is this a real life au?
[jakewonbitz]: she's acting like she's really a hybe employee lmao
You want to crawl out of your skin.
You bury your face in your hands and groan quietly, elbows braced on the table. You consider deleting the account. Hell, maybe you should delete your entire identity.
You don't even notice the hoodie guy approaching until you hear the clink of a canned drink being set beside your food.
"That bad, huh?"
You nearly drop your phone.
Your head jerks up. A guy in a black cap, mask, and a loose hoodie sits across from you like it's the most casual thing in the world. His eyes are familiar, moles too familiar, but they're crinkled in amusement. Mischievous.
"You always look this haunted after scrolling your timeline?â he asks, stirring the cooked buldak in the cup.
You blink, "Do I know you?"
He tilts his head, mask hiding his mouth, but you see the smile in his eyes.
"No," he says, "but I feel like I know you."
Your stomach drops.
You snap your laptop shut â no, not your laptop, your phone â your phone, you idiot â and immediately swipe out the X app. Too late. He's already seen the screen. Maybe even the notifications section you're scrolling through.
You scramble, wiping your hands on your pants like that'll fix the sweat suddenly slick on your palms.
He gestures lazily toward your tray, "Mind if I join? Looks like your sotteok's crying for company."
You scowl, "There are seven empty tables."
"I like this one," he says, and finally pulls his mask down just enough to sip his canned coffee.
Park Sunghoon.
Of course.
You inhale sharply, "What are you doing here?"
"Late last minute run for Outside. I'm also craving tteok and buldak," he sips again, "you?"
You look at him flatly, "Avoiding a mental breakdown."
He hums, "Same."
You narrow your eyes.
He props his chin on his palm and lets his gaze settle on you like he's waiting. For what, you didn't know. But it unnerves you.
"Rough day at work?" He asks.
"Could say the same about yours."
"Oh? Did I cause you a problem?" He grins.
You curse under your breath, but you school your expression anyway, "I don't know what you're talking about."
"Right," he says, biting back a smile, "but if you did happen to be the anonymous X user who's been tweeting about my glow and expensive cologne, I'd say your taste is... complicated."
You nearly choke on your own breath.
"I didn't say glow," you hiss, "I said smelled like money and Another 13, which is â"
"An oddly specific compliment, don't you think?" He cuts in, eyes sparkling.
You gape at him.
"You're delusional."
He leans forward, resting his elbows on the table, "Sure, but if you were her â and I'm not saying that you are â you're kind of funny. Intense. Unhinged, if you will."
"Thanks?"
"I like it," he says, easily.
You want the ground to open up and swallow you whole.
But you wipe your mouth with a napkin, inhale slowly, and grab your phone like it might shield you from the embarrassment.
"You're not funny," you say, standing up.
He stands, too, "You're blushing."
"I'm going to kill you."
"And tweet about it later?" He adds, raising a brow.
You march toward the exit. But still, behind you, you hear the soft tap of his sneakers as he calls out, low, sweet, and dangerously smug: "Don't forget to add the part where I said please."
You shove the door open.
"Park Sunghoon, you're up,"
The sound engineer barely glances your way as he gestures toward the mic stand. You stand to the side with a clipboard in hand, the checkboxes already half-filled for Jungwon and Heeseung. You're just assisting, nothing more. Yet, you've told yourself that three times now.
But then he strides in, all calm confidence and sweat-slicked neck, and your grip on the clipboard tightens.
"Hey," he grins.
"Hey," you replied, stiff.
You pretend to scan the equipment checklist, heart already quickening. His mic pack is in place, corn snaking down under the hem of his shirt. Too much movement and it'll slip. And of course, just as the engineer starts toggling the frequency, the mic shorts.
"Hold still."
"I'm always still," Sunghoon murmurs.
You crouch slightly, trying to get a grip on the cord slotted against the curve of his back, just beneath the tucked hem of his shirt. The mic pack is wedged awkwardly under his belt, and to fix it, you'll have to â you sigh, instead.
You reach around, fingers grazing his waistband.
Sunghoon tenses under your touch.
"You nervous?" He asks, voice a low murmur in the mic, only audible to you.
"Shut up,"
"Your hands are shaking," He remarks.
"I said shut up."
"So you do like touching me."
You jab the mic pack into his lower back, hard.
He flinches slightly, but you know there is a grin plastered on his face.
"You're cute when you're mean."
You move to step back, but suddenly, his hand gently, lightly, brushes your wrist. The touch is barely there, but it startles you all the same.
Your eyes snap to his. He's watching you. And he's looking at you. You pull your hand back like you've been burned, "There," you say stiffly, "fixed."
"You sure?"
"Yes."
"Because I think I need a little more adjusting." His voice dips, suggestive.
And you nearly drop the clipboard.
The engineer calls out from behind the glass: "Perfect, signal's steady now."
You take a full step back. Sunghoon lets you go this time.
As he takes position for his mic test, you catch your reflection in the mirror beside the recording booth. Your cheeks are flushed. His are not.
But he turns, meets your eyes once more, and then.. he winks.
You almost broke the glass.
It's been two weeks since the convenience store incident.
So, it means, it's been two weeks since Sunghoon took an interest in making your life a living hell. By being mean to you? No. Worse. By flirting with you on each set and only you could hear it.
It's two weeks of faking indifference as he winked at you during rehearsals, smirked when he passed you during call time, and offered annoyingly specific compliments like: "New hand cream?" or "Didn't peg you for a lemon girl."
Two weeks of dodging any mention of that thread on your timeline.
You thought maybe â just maybe â the storm was passing. That the account would die down again. That people would forget. You'd even muted your own username, turned off DM requests. Held off from posting anything remotely unhinged, despite the itch in your fingers every time Sunghoon so much as breathed in your direction.
You thought it was over.
Until now.
Busying yourself with a sweet, rare pocket of silence as you stood outside the styling lounge while fanning yourself with the lighting cue sheets, you pull out your phone.
And there it is. A notification.
A quote tweet from an account you don't recognise.
But first, the tweet that started it.
[yuniecore]: @.nuguhasdoubts if ure really from belift, what do u think is sunghoon's type? end all the gf stans rn
Well, you shouldn't entertain that.
But your finger hovers. There's already traction on it â likes, bookmarks, a couple dozen QRTs. And then, you stumbled upon a quote tweet from a zero-follower account with the handle "icedamericano07", a white dog icon, and no header.
[icedamericano07]: bite. brains. knows how to handle wires. doesn't take my shit. @.nughuhasdoubts, what do you think?
You freeze.
No. No way.
You read it again.
The phrasing. The cadence. The cockiness.
Knows how to handle wires? Your fucking clipboard almost slips out of your hands.
You open the profile: no name, no description, no tweets other than this one. But you know, you know, you know it's him.
[nuguhasdoubts] on Direct Message:
you're actually sick in the head.
[icedamericano07] on Direct Message:
sick? no. curious? absolutely.
you didn't answer the question.
am i wrong?
do you know how to handle wires? đ
You stare at the screen like it just slapped you.
[nuguhasdoubts] on Direct Message:
this is workplace harassment.
i could report you.
[icedamericano07] on Direct Message:
and say what? that i guessed your burner account from how you described my cologne too accurately?
please.
you're one exhale away from writing a sonnet about my jawline.
You slam your phone face-down on the nearest surface and inhale so deeply you almost see stars. But... you can't help but admit that there's a strange thrill. Like the person you've been screaming about in anonymity knows and instead of retreating, he's daring you to keep going.
[icedamericano07] on Direct Message:
just admit it.
you like me.
[nuguhasdoubts] on Direct Message:
i tolerate your existence. barely.
keep dreaming.
A pause. And then,
[icedamericano07] on Direct Message:
then let me give you better material to tweet about.
Your mouth goes dry.
You slide your phone back into your back pocket like it's cursed. Then storm into the studio like your shoes are on fire. But as you pass by the mirrors lining the wall, you catch your reflection: flushed, breathless, and worse, smiling.
It happens after a brutal Friday run-through.
You're coming down from twelve straight hours of lighting cues, sound checks, and last-minute styling disasters for ENHYPEN's Walk the Line tour. The studio's thinned out. Most of the staff are gone, only a few stragglers left packing up cables and costume pieces.
You've unhooked your headset, pulled your hair down, and wiped your face with the only half-clean tissue in your bag. You're exhausted. You've barely eaten. You ache everywhere â especially your back and the sharp crook of your shoulder where the production clipboard had dug into you all day.
You slump onto the edge of the stage, legs dangling, sipping from a lukewarm water bottle. That's when he finds you.
"Thought I'd find you here," Sunghoon says, voice low and lazy as he crouches beside the platform edge.
You don't even look at him, "Congratulations."
"What's my prize?" He murmurs, inching closer until his knee brushes your thigh.
You scoff, "A slap, probably."
His laugh is warm. Daring. Annoyingly smooth.
"I'll take my chances."
You finally glance at him.
He's still in his post-rehearsal sweatpants and hoodie, hair damp from the shower, exposed skin glistening just a bit from the leftover heat of the day. He looks like he should be in a magazine ad for bad decisions and good lighting.
You shift your leg, and he doesn't.
He raises an eyebrow, "You always look this uptight?"
You bristle, "Excuse me?"
"Your shoulders," he says, reaching over and ghosting his fingers just over your back. You flinch.
"You're wound up like a tripwire."
"I've been on my feet for twelve hours."
"You're always like this," he hums.
"Maybe because someone's always provoking me."
He grins, "You're tense."
"No shit."
"Let me help."
Your head snaps toward him. He doesn't flinch, doesn't smile. His gaze is steady. Confident. Dangerous.
"Let me loosen you up," he says, low.
Your heart slams against your ribs, "You're out of your mind."
"Am I?" he murmurs, leaning in.
His palm presses to your back, hot and wide and deliberate. Not high enough to be inappropriate. Not low enough to be excusable. Just maddeningly right.
"This is a game to you."
Another shrug, "Isn't it fun?"
You blink, and yet, your breath catches. You should leave, you should get up, push him away, throw your empty water bottle at his head.
His hand slips slightly lower, "You have a choice," he says, "Say no, and I'll leave. Beg just right, and I'll help you."
Your pride should take the way out, but your body.. your body aches. You've been holding tension for weeks. In your muscles, in your bones, in every sarcastic tweet and every hissed comeback and every moment he's stood too close just to make you feel it.
You don't say anything.
And maybe that's enough.
Because Sunghoon exhales, moves behind you, and with maddening slowness, slides his hands over your shoulders. He massages, presses, kneads. Firm, skilled like he's done this before, like he's good at this.
He leans in, "Relax," he murmurs, hot breath against your neck.
"Don't get used to this," you snap.
"I wouldn't dare."
You felt his fingers work down your spine.
And that's how it happens. One moment you're letting Park Sunghoon rub the knots out of your spine in the dim stage after-hours. And now, he guides you slowly onto your back against the stage floor, cushioned by the jacket he shrugs off for you. The silence is tense, electrified, only broken by your breathing and the faint creak of the floor beneath you.
When he kneels between your legs, you suck in a breath.
He looks up, "Still with me?"
You nod.
"Words."
"Yes,"
"Good."
He peels your trousers down slowly. Painfully slowly.
Not rushing, not fumbling â like he knows what he's doing and he knows you'll let him. Like he's done this in his head a dozen times already.
You shudder when the fabric hits your ankles, your back pressed against the cool steel railing at the side of the stage, spotlights dimmed, the rest of the venue swallowed by shadow. You're hidden here, but it makes it worse. Every sound, every breath, every filthy noise is amplified in the quiet.
It's 11:47 PM, and you're letting Park Sunghoon, the man who's made your job ten times harder, the man who's cocky and smug and always, always gets under your skin, kneel for you.
You hear the soft shuffle of his hoody as he makes himself comfortable. Your underwear is still on, it's the last thing protecting your sanity. But he drags his knuckles over your thighs so softly, it makes you ache. He hooks a finger in the waistband and pauses.
"Still good?"
"...Yes," you whisper, "I'm fine."
You're really not.
You're dizzy. You're humiliated by how much you want this. How your body is trembling with anticipation even when your brain is screaming: don't you dare make this mean something.
This is Sunghoon. And this is better than admitting what's been rotting in your chest.
Because if he touches you like this, it's fine, right? It's fine because he doesn't mean it. Because he's just playing a game. Because it's him, the man you can't stand.
So, it can't hurt you.
He kisses the inside of your ankle. Featherlight. Then a little higher, again, and again. His lips trail up your leg like he's marking a path. He alternates, your left thigh, then the right â until his mouth presses to the crease where your thigh meets your hip.
You jolt.
And all the while, you keep your eyes fixed straight ahead. Because you can't look down. You don't want to see the way he watches you. You don't want to see if there's pity, or curiosity, or anything that might crack you open.
It's easier in the dark.
It's easier when you don't see him.
Because he's everything you're not. An iced, golden boy. Loved. Gorgeous, gifted, perfect. He has what you lost: center stage, applause, the confidence of someone allowed to dream.
You hate him.
You hate that you don't, really.
And your panties are soaked. He sees it. You know he sees it because he lets out a low, almost reverent sound, like he's praying under his breath as his thumb drags over the damp fabric.
"This wet for me?" He asks, genuinely curious, like he's still not convinced it's real.
Oh, you badly wanted to scream.
Then, tongue flat, he licks you over your panties. A bold, slow stripe. And had the courage to hum.
"Cute," he says, and your breath catches, "you taste desperate."
You slap a hand over your mouth. He smirks. You feel the smugness even without looking down. And then, he peels the fabric to the side. A beat of silence.
You can hear the way you're wet, the quiet obscene sound of his breath brushing your soaked folds. He exhales like it's smoke: slow and deliberate.
His thumb spreads you open.
Then, his mouth is on you.
His tongue flattens against your clit in one slow drag, then circles it with calculated precision. Fast once, then slow, then again, like he's testing what makes you twitch. Your grip on the railing tightens, and you accidentally let out a soft moan.
Hand sliding behind your thighs, anchoring you in place as he eats like he's trying to memorise how to unravel you. And god, he's good. Too fucking good.
He alternates between flicks and sucks, rolling his tongue, then locking his lips around your clit to suck gently, then harder. It's like he's experimenting, showing off.
Your hips buck, and he groans into you â on purpose â sending vibrations through your core. It's disgusting how fast your body responds.
"You like that? he asks, voice hoarse between licks, "Didn't think someone with such a smart mouth could be this quiet."
You almost choke on air.
Then his hand comes up, just one, sliding down the front of your thigh, fingertips dragging over your skin like he owns it. He presses two fingers into you slowly. Testing, stretching. Just enough to curl inside you as his tongue keeps working.
Your knees buckle, "Sunghoonâ"
He freezes.
Then he drags his mouth up and looks at you, eyes dark, "Say it again."
You shake your head, humiliated, and in return, he presses his fingers deeper, making you gasp, "Sunghoon!"
His lips are back on you in a heartbeat. And then you're unraveling, thighs clenching around his head, mouth falling open in a silent cry as your orgasm crashes into you. The tension shatters. You come with a full-body tremble, your hips jerking helplessly into his mouth as he keeps licking, greedy and relentless, like he doesn't want to stop.
And, really, he doesn't.
He licks you through it and after it. Slow, gentle strokes to your oversensitive clit that makes your thighs twitch and your fingers claw at the railing for mercy.
Finally, he pulls back.
He wipes his mouth with the back of his hand. His lips are glistening, his cheeks are flushed.
You're panting, drunk, dazed, wrecked.
And he has the audacity to smirk.
"Thanks for the prize," he says, cockily and devastatingly handsomely.
You stare at him, wide-eyed.
He shrugs like it's no big deal, "You looked like you needed a release."
You don't speak, you can't.
Sunghoon stands, wipes the corners of his mouth again like he just finished eating lunch, and steps away. Hands in his hoodie, whistling. And then: "See you tomorrow," he says, already walking off.
And you're left there, shaking, heart in your throat, wondering what the hell just happened; and why your body still aches like he barely scratched the surface.
It's been three days.
Three whole days since Park Sunghoon dropped to his knees in the shadow of a stage that had once only echoed with your voice calling lighting cues and ruined you.
Three days since he looked up at you through his lashes with that insufferable glint in his eye, tongue dragging over your soaked underwear like you were dessert after a sold-out show. Three days since he made you come with nothing but his mouth and his smug persistence.
Three days.
And now?
Now he's normal.
No, worse than normal â he's professional.
He walks through the halls of the tour venue like he owns them, and he kind of does. The Walk the Line tour is halfway through its Asian leg, and Sunghoon is still very much the ice prince on stage. The sweet-faced visual in every behind-the-scenes clip, the golden boy who laughs in rehearsals and delivers lines with lethal charm on live broadcast.
He nods at staff like you don't exist. Like he didn't taste you and leave you shaking. Like you weren't a real thing. Just another part of his routine.
"Morning," he says when he passes you in the hallway on the second floor.
No wink. No smirk. Not even a pause.
Your breath stutters, "Hey,"
But he's already gone. No backwards glance. No tension in his shoulders. Just air between you. A silence so loud it swallows the past whole.
You even try to rationalise it.
It was just one night. Not even a whole night. It was fifteen minutes, to be exact. That's how fast he has made you come in his mouth.
He's an idol. You're a staff. You have a clipboard and a headset and no business letting anyone, least of all him, crawl between your legs when your ID is still swinging around your neck.
You try to tell yourself it didn't matter. That it was a tension release, a temporary unraveling, a misstep that the both of you would walk away from untouched.
But you are touched.
Everywhere.
Your body still aches with phantom heat. Your lips still press together when you pass the dressing room where it happened. Your stomach still twists when you catch his scent on the stairs â that stupid expensive fragrance that always clings to the collars of his hoodies.
And worse? He knows.
Because sometimes, he spares his time to look at you. Just for a second. A flicker of a glance. Like a hook, just enough to tug at the thread holding you together.
In rehearsals, when he's practicing formations. You're crouched in the tech booth, reviewing cue sheets, and then his gaze skims right over his monitor and lands on you. You freeze, he doesn't even blink.
When you hand off a chain correction for the stylists during makeup, he takes it, touches your fingers too long, and thanks you like he always does, sweetly, almost innocently.
But it's a game. And you're losing.
He doesn't even flirt anymore, not like before.
No sly whispers about your lips, no jokes about how cute you look when your clipboard shakes. He doesn't bait you during mic checks or complain about his in-ears just so you'll come closer.
He asks other people now. Always polite. Always charming.
Two months later, you're seated in the staff corner during the pre-recording run of Walk the Line in Jakarta. Coffee half-finished. Cue sheets wrinkled. A setlist spread across your lap like armor.
The world around you blurs, stylists touching up roots, dancers rushing in and out, interns double-checking security barricades.
Then, he slides into the seat across from you.
No warning.
"Hey," he says, casual, "You've been quiet."
Your breath catches. You don't meet his eyes. You fiddle with the edge of your script. "Not sulking, are you?" he adds, voice low enough for only you to hear.
You inhale sharply, you refuse to bite. But your knuckles tighten over your pen.
"I've been working."
"Didn't know work required you to ignore me."
"That implies I acknowledged you to begin with."
He lets out a soft, faux-offended gasp, "Ouch."
When he stands, crumpling his coffee cup in one hand, he adds over his shoulder: "You taste better when you're annoyed."
Your jaw goes slack, and you even barely process his retreating figure.
What does he even want at this point?
That question bugs you each day, that's why when you spot him alone on the balcony behind the rehearsal room, leaning against the railing with his hoodie up, phone in one hand, you took your chances.
You were going to ask: What was that night? Why are you still playing?
But then, he looks up and smirks. Like he knew you were coming, like you're already predictable.
"Need something?" he asks, cocking a brow up as calm as can be.
You flinch and walk away.
And that night, that night you try to draft a tweet. Something vague, sharp, cathartic. Something like your old self before all this mess. But everything comes out wrong.
Too raw, too revealing. Too much like someone who cared.
You delete it all. You stare at your screen until it fades to black.
It's pathetic, the way you look for him.
You should be reviewing lighting logs or updating the asset board for the upcoming comeback for DESIRE:UNLEASH. You should be sleeping, crying, screaming into your pillow. Anything but this.
But here you are, behind the rehearsal studio, under the sliver of moonlight that pools on the balcony concrete like spilled milk. Looking for a boy who only ever leaves you aching.
And there he is.
Like the last time, he's leaning back against the railing, hoodie on, phone in hand. Like he isn't the reason your world's been spinning sideways for weeks.
He doesn't even look surprised when he hears your steps. Of course, he knew you'd come.
You hate that he's beautiful even like this. You hate that you still want him anyway.
"Of course, you're out here."
He looks up, just his eyes, no real shift in his posture. And then â God, that smile. That goddamn smile.
"Could say the same about you."
You walk over slowly, carefully, as if daring yourself to get close might make the moment more bearable.
Well, it doesn't.
He tucks his phone away, gives you a once-over, casual and amused, "You gonna scold me? You look like you're about to yell."
Really, damn you, Park Sunghoon.
"I might," you declare, teeth clenched.
He laughs, "Should I be scared?"
You pause in front of him, cross your arms, and for a second â you don't say anything. You just look at him.
At the boy who ate you out like a secret. At the man who walked away like it never happened. At the person who sees all of you, but keeps his eyes closed.
You inhale sharply, "What do you want, Sunghoon?"
"Right now?" he drawls, pretending to think, "Maybe a drink, a nap? A massage would be great â"
"I'm serious, Sunghoon."
"So am I," he says, breezily.
"I don't get you," you begin, and your voice is steady, for now, "You flirt, you vanish, you tease, and then â"
Your breath hitches.
"Then you touch me like I'm more than that, and pretend that it didn't happen."
He doesn't say anything.
You glance sideways, searching for his face under the low hood, but he doesnât look back. Just presses his lips together like heâs stifling a laugh.
You feel your chest tighten. âYou think this is funny?â
âNo,â he says, softly. âJust familiar.â
Your heart stutters.
âI want to hate you,â you confess. The words leave your mouth before you can stop them, before you can dress them up in sarcasm or hide them behind a bitter joke, âI want to hate you so bad. Because you ruin everything. You ruin me.â
His brows knit, finally, but he still doesnât interrupt.
âI hate the way you look at me like you already know what Iâm thinking. I hate that I donât even know what Iâm thinking anymore. I hate that you're everywhere â the damn rehearsal room, the elevator, the breakroom, the f ââ
You stop.
âBut mostly,â your voice lowers, cracks, âI hate that you touched me like you meant it. And then walked away like you didnât.â
You both stand there for a long, loaded second. The wind lifts your hair. Somewhere inside, a faint bassline from another studio vibrates through the floor.
âI didnât ask for this,â you whisper. âI didnât ask for you.â
Sunghoon turns to you, finally, slow and unreadable. He takes you in: eyes drifting from the trembling fists at your sides to the way your jaw clenches like youâre holding yourself together with glue and prayer.
And then he smirks.
âThatâs not what your tweets said.â
Your chest caves.
âFuck you,â you breathe, and it hurts. God, it hurts, how fast the ache rushes in.
âYouâre really going to turn this into a joke now?â you ask, barely holding the cracks together. âYou think quoting my tweets makes you clever? You think it makes this easier?â
âI think youâre the one who made it complicated,â he says.
Your eyes sting.
âAnd youâre the one who kept playing the game.â
Sunghoon shrugs, âYou were playing too.â
âIÂ stopped!â you yell, too loud, too suddenly. You catch yourself, voice dropping again. âI stopped when I realized none of it meant anything to you.â
He looks away.
âYou want to know the worst part?â you ask, shaking now, your fists clenched so tightly your nails dig into your palms.
He doesnât answer.
So you keep going. Because now, you canât stop.
âI canât even trust myself anymore. I walk into a room and youâre there and suddenly Iâm stupid again. I let you do that to me and I didnât even ask why â because I thought maybe, just maybe, it meant something. Maybe I wasnât imagining it. Maybe you looked at me and actually saw me.â
Silence. Long. Agonizing.
Finally, he says, softly, flatly, with nothing behind it:
âI donât do real.â
You flinch like he slapped you. And for the first time in weeks, you have nothing left to say.
No jokes. No comebacks. Just the steady collapse of something inside you, like the floor gave out.
You nod.
âRight,â you whisper, âOf course you donât.â
He looks at you like he wants to say more. His throat works around the words. But whatever they are, he swallows them.
So, you nod again. And walk away.
And this time, he lets you. And thatâs the worst part.
Because you wanted him to follow.
The days blur after that.
You don't cry. Not like you thought you would. Not in the way you expected: no gasping sobs into your pillow, no dramatic tears behind the studio monitors. No, instead, it settles in quieter. Colder. Like frost.
You keep your head down. Do your job. Show up early, leave late. Laugh when you need to. Answer questions. Avoid him.
Always, always avoid him.
You stop using the staff pantry, too many memories. Too many shared glances across the coffee machine. You choose the service elevator now. Keep a spare headset in your pocket in case someone says his name in the group channel.
Even when he's nearby, you pretend he isnât.
And to your own disbelief, he does the same. At least, on the surface.
You catch him once â just once â watching you across the stage while Jungwon rehearses his solo. He doesnât smirk. Doesnât look away either. It unsettles you.
The teasing is gone. The grins. The little traps. Nothing. Just a vacuum where he used to exist. You try to tell yourself this is better. You try.
But itâs 1:13 a.m. now.
And your apartment feels too quiet.
Youâve had your phone on Do Not Disturb for three hours. You havenât checked the nuguhasdoubts account. Youâve ignored three separate texts from your production groupchat, one passive-aggressive reminder from the schedule board, and two attempts from Sunoo to FaceTime you âjust because.â
There was so much more than he let on, you think. Thatâs the way Sunoo has always been, always ahead of everyone in ways that you couldnât understand how he does it. Maybe, heâs empathetic â or, maybe, heâs just too nosy. But you think heâs empathetic, itâs Sunoo.
Youâre curled on the couch in sweats, face bare, hair tied up, a bowl of congealed kimchi stew on your coffee table.
You try watching something: a rerun, a music show, a mukbang, but everything reminds you of him. Of them. Of the life you orbit but can never truly belong in.
Your apartment, a perk of working under HYBE, is too pristine for how worn you feel. White walls, modern fixtures, perfect view of the Han River; and none of it feels like yours. Youâre just a tenant here. A ghost with a staff badge and too many secrets.
Your hand twitches toward your phone. Then away. Then toward it again.
You turn it over.
One new text.
[unknown number] 1:15 AM.
i'm outside. just five minutes.
if you hate me after this, i'll leave for good.
Your pulse slams through your chest.
You sit up. Walk to the door.
Your knees feel wrong. Like someoneâs replaced your bones with glass.
You press the button for the camera feed. The screen flickers.
And there he is.
Sunghoon. Standing under your buildingâs awning. Hoodie pulled up, rain soaking the hem. His sneakers are wet. His shoulders are hunched like he's bracing for impact.
Your fingers hover over the buzzer. For a second, you tell yourself: donât do it. He doesnât deserve this. Then your heart says:Â but I still want to hear what heâll say.
And you buzz him in.
The intercom clicks off.
Your hand falls to your side.
Your chest feels like it might cave in.
You leave the door open for him.
Just a crack.
The door swings open with a soft creak, rain still whispering against the windows behind you. He steps inside like heâs trespassing. Like this space might reject him.
His hoodie is soaked through, dripping water onto the hardwood. His shoes are ruined. But itâs not the mess that unsettles you â itâs the look in his eyes. Heâs not smug. Not cocky. Not teasing. He looks like heâs searching for something, and terrified he wonât find it here.
You donât say anything at first. Just toss a towel to him. Not kindly.
âDry off before you ruin the floor.â
He catches the towel one-handed. Rubs the back of his neck, slowly, like he's trying to buy time.
You cross your arms, back rigid, âWhy are you here, Sunghoon?â
âIâŠâ His voice is cracked from the cold, âBecause I didnât know where else to go.â
Your jaw tightens, âThatâs not an answer.â
He drops the towel onto your kitchen chair. Looks at you. Really looks at you.
âI didnât think youâd open the door.â
âI almost didnât.â
âI wouldnât have blamed you.â
You fold your arms tighter, âYouâre not here to make peace, are you? Youâre not the type.â
âNo,â he says quietly. âIâm here because I havenât been able to sleep. Or eat. Or exist right since you walked away.â
You kept quiet.
âI canât think straight, I canât even rehearse properly, my mind keeps looping back to the balcony, and the look on your face like Iâd just torn you open and smiled about it.â
âYou did,â you whisper, voice small, sharp, âYou looked me in the eye and said you donât do real. Like I hadnât already given you everything real about me.â
âI know,â he chokes, âAnd I wanted to say I didnât mean it. But I knew Iâd sound like a liar.â
âThen why come now?â you demand, shaking, âAfter all this? After weeks of avoiding me? After you made me feel insane for wanting you?â
Silence. Just the sound of rain ticking against your glass balcony door.
Then, with a breath:
âBecause I realized Iâm not scared of you breaking me,â he says, âIâm scared that you already did.. and I let you go anyway.â
Your mouth parts, but no sound comes out.
âI thought keeping it casual would protect us. That I could make you laugh, keep you distant, pretend I didnât care,â he continues, voice rising now, âBut then you stopped talking to me. You stopped smiling. You looked through me like I was no one. And I swear to god, it felt like dying.â
You take a step back, âWhy now, Sunghoon? Why only when I walked away did you start realizing any of this?â
He shakes his head, âBecause I was a coward.â
You flinch.
âYou were brave enough to ask what this was. I just kept pretending it was easier to laugh than to admit I gave a fuck.â
Your hands are trembling, âSo, now what? You show up drenched and desperate and say you care? And Iâm supposed to forget how you left me behind?â
âNo,â he says, âYouâre supposed to tell me to leave.â
You blink.
âBut you havenât.â
His voice drops. âWhich means⊠maybe thereâs still something left.â
You hate him for being right.
He steps forward. Rain still clings to his lashes. His voice turns raw, stripped of every mask heâs worn until now.
âI donât want anyone else reading your tweets,â he whispers. âI donât want anyone else getting to look at you the way I have. I donât want anyone else making you laugh the way I shouldâve.â
Tears sting your eyes. You hate that, too.
He exhales, voice low, vulnerable, trembling at the edge of everything heâs ever avoided saying.
âThe showâs over, Y/N. And I still want you all the same.â
A beat.
Your throat tightens, but you donât falter.
You look him straight in the eye and whisper, âIâve stayed for the ending credits.â
The silence in your apartment feels louder than anything else tonight. Not the hum of the air conditioning, not the rustle of city lights outside the window, not even your heartbeat, which has betrayed you too many times when it comes to him, âThen let me make it worth your while.â
And finally, fucking finally, he kisses you. Like he really did mean it. Maybe, he does. Sunghoon holds the sides of your face and kisses you deeply, trying so hard to memorise how you taste because he had done everything to deprive himself off of it. Each kiss translated into: fuck, Iâve always wanted to kiss you since the very first tweet.
You gasped against his lips, letting out a small noise of shock at how intense he is just from kissing you. He walks further, pushing you to the couch before he hovers over you and cup your cheeks as he looks into your eyes, kissing the tip of your nose before he kisses you again, softly, this time. Sunghoon slots himself in between your legs, holding your hand as he kisses the inside of your palm before diving to your jaw, leaving little kisses to his wake as he leans down and to suck on your jaw, leaving marks of ownership as if heâs afraid anyone had the guts to claim you.
âSo beautiful,â he murmured against your skin before toying with the straps of your night gown, flicking it against your skin so faint you almost missed the snap of the fabric against your skin, âIâm really sorry,â he whispers as he pulls your tank top to pool above your breasts, breathing at how he finally had the chance to have you like this: under him, beautiful, vulnerable â and it all boils down to him on how he should win you, again. In the charm that only a Park Sunghoon has.
His mouth envelops around the bud of your nipple, moaning hard at how he tastes the expanse of your skin. He shifts his weight down, focuses on sucking your nipple as his eyes flicker over to you, making sure youâre with him as he finally proves himself to you as he alternates between each nipple.
Sunghoon travels to the valley of your breasts, tracing the tip of his nose all throughout the flushed skin. He kisses down a trail softly to your stomach, kissing over the expanse of it, each stretch mark, each mole that you didnât even know existed there. He travels down and became face to face with your pulsating core. He breaths out, a familiar sight right before him, but this time, heâs not hiding anymore.
âShit,â you breathe out as you feel his breath fanning over your core. He pokes his tongue on the wet patch that has formed on your underwear, groaning as if heâs tasting you again for the first time. He chuckles when he meets your heated gaze, âRelax,â he says, âIâm not going anywhere.â
âYou better,â and he chuckles at your breathy threat.
He hums before licking a stripe over your clothed core, giving you what you want but not exactly the way you want it. It was a while of teasing you, mixing his saliva with the wetness that is evident over the cotton of your panties. And after a while, Sunghoon pulls it down before immediately diving into your clit.
You squeal and immediately tighten your thighs around his face, holding on his hair tightly as he alternated on flicking his tongue against your clit and sucking it hard that whenever he lets it go, a pop is evident between your close bodies. He ate you out like he wanted to prove something, that him in love and eating you out was better than the last time he did so, but evidently in lust. And he doesnât slide a finger inside you. He focuses his tongue and mouth in all the places you needed him.
âBedroom,â you try to say as you tap his shoulder, âplease,â you added.
Sunghoon stopped and grinned at you before scooping you with his arms and carry you bridal style. Both of your heartbeats as loud as it could be, thumping against the vulnerable expanse of your chest. He lays you down softly on your bed with a thump, and itâs almost as if Sunghoon is met with a sudden rush of urgency, he strips himself off his clothes before leaning down again to kiss you.
He grinds his crotch against yours, hissing as his shaft feel the wetness from your core smearing all over him. He presses his forehead on yours as he stayed that way for a deadly, long time. Just his shaft slipping in between your hungry folds, edging the both of you the way you both have played this game for so long. You whimper whenever you feel his tip grazing your hole just a tad, but lose it whenever you feel the drag of it against your clit.
âPlease,â you beg again, âI need you, Hoon.â
âGoddamn,â Sunghoon mutters, as if bracing himself. He perches up, arms on either side of your head before lining his tip against your already throbbing entrance. He pokes the tip of his dick against it, letting out a broken moan as he feels how wet you are. And he eases himself in â too slippery, he thinks â and youâre comfortable just right. You hug his dick snugly but fit him inside easily, it was as if it was a perfect fit.
âSuch a perfect pussy for me,â he groans, âI fit you so well, Y/N,â
He drags each thrust slowly, making you want to feel each vein, each drag, how your walls pulsate around his big dick that even with little movement, bullies your cervix in such a delicious way. Each thrust has his lips hanging over yours, and a small part of you wishes he kisses you while he does, but with each hard thrusts, he is jutted forward, and his lips only graze yours.
âPark Sunghoon,â you called out, âkiss me.â
And his eyes meet yours, before breaking out into a grin and obliges you. This kiss was slow, taking its time. Teeth clashing here and there, tongues desperate to feel each muscle, breaths exchanged in heavy and deep heaves, each meant a confession heavier than the last one. God, amidst all miscommunication and the game you willingly played with him, Sunghoon was a fit candidate to what you know is love.
âI love you,â Sunghoon stutters as his thrust increased, beating you to a love confession that you had unwillingly placed upon the category of competition on who gets to say it first.
Well, youâre glad he said it first.
You smiled before reaching out to wrap your arms around him before cupping the side of his face, and he leans in, kissing the inside of your palm again with his free hand wrapping around the circumference of your wrist, âYou idiot,â you laugh, and he does, too, âI love you, too.â
And then youâre coming, climax crashing into you before you realise that you are coming undone around him. This makes him groan around you, chasing his orgasm, and then: âShit, can I come inside?â
You laugh at him seeking approval, but you nod, anyway. And he comes inside you, pulling you up in a hug, as if he needed your body against him to ground himself in the intensity, and Sunghoon shudders at each emotion flowing out of him. His lips busying itself kissing whatever skin near to his mouth, but his eyes are screwed shut as he lets out breathy exhales, trying so hard not to cry but he does.
Tears staining your back and his sniffles fill the room and you pull him away to cup his cheeks, âSunghoon,â you call him softly.
âIâm sorry, I love you, I fucking do,â he says softly, looking into your eyes, âIâm yours, if youâll have me.â
A smile breaks out from your lips, âYouâre goddamn cheesy.â
âOnly for you,â he chuckles.
And you smile at him as if you placed all the past behind.
Sure, you first thought how crazy it is that everything started with just one harmless thread about him being the man everyone desired to be. You first thought how this is a mistake, how everything was a mistake. That your world didnât belong in his, because his perfection didnât deserve an ounce of taint from your life, but youâve come to realise that Sunghoon is as human as you are.
He was a perfectionist, true, but he was a coward all the same. Masking his imperfection in his continuous strive to become perfect, and this is one of the times that he let himself be imperfect to have the one thing he has deprived himself of: love.
As the night when on, legs tangled with each other as he slept beside you, his mask of indifference and cockiness finally shed off to make you see the boy who only wanted to be perfect to feel the love he thinks he deserve. You brush his hair off his forehead, and place a kiss on his forehead, letting the warmth dissipate.
Cut scene, cut the chase. The curtains are drawn down, the show is over.
SUMMARY. you and sunghoon are both off-limits. you're still living with your ex, and he's off to get married to someone that has been arranged for his family business. but that doesn't stop you both from trudging boundaries when it's just you and him in your own world.
CONTENTS. smut, some angst, some fluff. LOTS OF JEALOUSY. smut with plot. not beta-read. MINORS DO NOT INTERACT.
WARNINGS. lots and lots of jealousy. sunghoon is DOWN-BAD for reader, but the feelingâs mutual. indirect cheating (but not really???). semi-public sex, dom!sunghoon, bratty reader. somewhat mean hoonie. oral (both f and m receiving), p in v, unprotected sexual act (use protection at all times), temperature play, sensory deprivation, slight bondage (just tying up), sir kink (oh yeah baby), spitting kink. use of pet names (wiee). THREE SEX SCENES. (seldom mentions of hyung line: heeseung, jay, and jake) IDK I WROTE THIS BEFORE I COULD FULLY WRITE EVERYTHING.
WORD COUNT. 4.7k
AUTHOR'S NOTE. FINALLY IT'S HERE. belated happy birthday, my hoonhoon! this is my hoon birthday gift for y'all. hope you like it! (did i write two sunghoon smuts already? yes, yes i did.) also, wait for further updates, i might be updating anyone from the hyung line soon! wink wink.
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There was something about him.
Park Sunghoon was the image of something so mysterious â yet, so captivating. His eyes held something deeper than what he tries to convey. You tried to hard to look away, but his actions, his stance â they command attention.
So much, that they commanded yours.
He has been a constant, a regular at the bar that you're working in every weekend to make ends meet. He was the hot bachelor that belonged in the upper VIPs that usually had a secluded room where they could share small talk over top shelf drinks.
Your first encounter with Park Sunghoon was when Byeol called in sick, and that meant you took over her shift as the personal-hired entertainer at Room 130.
"Please, Y/N," Byeol pleaded through the phone, coughing as her voice scratched against her throat, "if I could, I would. I'll take over your shift for the next week. You'll have my pay for tonight."
Now, additional income is something that is very difficult to shake off, no matter how it takes a night that consists of Neoguri noodles off of your schedule.
You wore your signature red cocktail dress, one that hugs all your right proportions beautifully, but not too tight, with a slit that doesn't go too up high on your thigh. Matched with a wave that's swept to the side, it is a no-brainer that the four men of Room 130 didn't even ask where their usual entertainer, Byeol, is.
"What a pretty face," Jake comments as he takes a sip of his armagnac, his eyes travelled down to your legs, but went back to your face, "nice voice, too." He adds.
Sunghoon was late, muttering an excuse that was along the lines of: his mother made him stay for a supposed meet-up with someone.
"Mommy's still on it?" Heeseung jokes, grabbing some of the snacks on the table, shaking his hand to remove the residue of it before pouring it to his mouth.
Sunghoon sends a look over Heeseung's way, making the oldest boy chuckle, "Well, you have to follow mommy's orders, or else, you're gonna whine about how your daily allowance has been reduced to half."
The rest of the boys chuckled, alongside the girls that were in the room to hold them company. Sunghoon was not the most pleased, he knew that Heeseung is right. He has to find a lady or else he will be arranged to a wedding just to keep up his expenditures and his lifestyle.
"Who's the girl?" Jay asks as he places his hand on the small of the back of the lady that sat on his lap, his eyes on the girl that giggled as she kept on tracing the edge of Jay's jawline.
"I don't know," Sunghoon grunted, eager to down a shot that was already on the table, "all I know is I have to find a partner ASAP, or else, I'll be wed to someone I could care less about."
That was when his eyes landed on you, singing a song softly as you held your vintage microphone. His eyebrows perched up slightly, and he smiled to himself.
Now, it has been approximately the fifth consecutive week that Sunghoon had tried to talk to you, alone, on your supposed shift at the public part of the bar.
Sweeping past through sweaty bodies as well as people that are drunk off their minds, Sunghoon was determined to at least know you better. It only took one song and one damn dress to catch Sunghoon's attention.
Lucky for him, he had caught your attention, too.
The thing was, you had a boyfriend â well, a roommate, if you will. Since love was obviously out the window, and that you were trying to sustain each other's stay in your apartment that has its contract nearing its end by the end of December.
Well, another reason was that your then-boyfriend was still trying to win you back.
And while you're certain that you're over him and is keeping him at bay for benefits, he certainly was not, and it somehow was making you guilty that you're somehow leading him on even when it was Sunghoon's face that you think of whenever you press your bullet vibrator against your clit, leaving out broken, breathy moans that underestimated how much you think you're going to moan for Sunghoon if time permits you.
Which brings you to here, a never-ending cat and mouse game that you have established with Sunghoon, who clearly was so head-over-heels for you.
The ordeal was simple: you, one of the bar's beloved entertainers, would finish a song that you sing and dedicate for Sunghoon, but wander off with a smile as you try and find yourself a suitable man vying for your attention. It was effective for you to make him jealous and demand your attention on him for the next hours.
Sunghoon had never gone past the eating only the third base, and Sunghoon was more than willing to eat your pussy on hours end. And you were willing to let him go past that, if only you haven't seen the ring that adorned his left hand, snug tight around his ring finger.
It was a stark reminder of how he was not for you, just how you are starting to become his.
"You sing here often?"
"I do," You'd giggle to whoever this guy's name is, you really didn't know, nor even tried remembering. You were sure it wasn't his name that you'll be screaming in the bathroom stalls of the bar.
"I should bo-"
"Then I'd want to book you, privately," Sunghoon cut the guy off, his voice reeking of jealousy and authority as he stood behind you, your back flushed against his chest.
"Ya," the boy raised his voice and poked Sunghoon's blue sweater tank top, "do you mind? We're talking here."
"And I'm talking to her, as well," Sunghoon responded, his eyes crinkling into amusement, "do you not want to talk to me, baby?" He pouts at you, nuzzling his chin to your neck as he leaves light kisses on it, making you gasp.
"I.." You trail off, biting your lip as your eyes moved back and forth between the guy and Sunghoon.
"I'm not wasting my time on this," the guy raised his hands in defeat, backing away, leaving you with the guy that you have tried to flirt indirectly through the night.
"Fancy seeing you here against sweaty bodies," You giggle as you turn around and wrap your arms around his neck, pulling him down teasingly to have his lips over yours, to which Sunghoon growled and pushed his lips on yours, immediately pushing his tongue inside your mouth as his hands dug on the curves of your waist.
"You drive me so fucking crazy," he whispers to your lips, in which you hum as a response. Not a long while after, you're being guided to one of the restrooms, his lips now attacking your neck to leave noticeable bruises that you're trying to cover up before you go to your morning shift at the local library of your town.
He pushes you to an empty restroom, not minding to lock it as he cages you in between his body and the sink. âAre you having fun?â He suddenly asks as he pools your dress up your hips and starts rubbing you through your wet panties, âPlaying with me, are you having fun?â
You looked at him through lidded eyes and nod, âI do,â you say as you bite your lip, spreading your legs wide, âI like it when youâre so crazy for me.â
He grunts and kneels down, pulling your panties down as his nose is immediately wafted off by the smell of your arousal spreading throughout your core, âSo wet for me, the guy did that to you?â He spoke as his thumb pressed on your bare clit, making you shudder.
âN-no,â you squeaked out, holding on the sink behind you, âit has always been you.â
âAlways been me?â Sunghoon chuckles as he blows air to your sensitive cunt, âI donât know, babe, Iâm starting not to believe it given how many times Iâve practically pulled you off against men who are thirsting over you.â
Not leaving you any moment to respond, Sunghoon attaches his lips to your sensitive nub, moaning at your familiar taste that he had been obsessed with.
Moaning his name, you immediately hold on his hair, tightening your grip on his soft, brown-black hair, to which Sunghoon tuts as he pulls away, his thumb replacing his lips as he presses and rubs circles on your clit, âYou donât get to touch me, princess.â
Grasping your wrist, Sunghoon had practically forced your hand off his hair, placing it on the sink behind you to continue his ministrations on your pussy.
âLove this pussy so much,â he breathes out, poking his tongue out to fuck your hole with, âso pretty, could get in this forever.â
You moaned in response, desperate to cum just by Sunghoonâs fingers alone. Instinctively, your hands went to play with your breasts, pulling your dress straps down to pool on your arms, you bit your lip as you pinched and flicked your nipples, mimicking the way Sunghoon does it when he was mouthing your tits instead of your pussy.
Sunghoon looked up at you and smirked, sneaking in a hand between your legs to spread your labia apart, forcing his tongue deeper into you as he shook his head sideways, nose prodding against your clit, mouth leaving out noises, making sure that anyone could walk in the unlocked restroom and catch you both in such sinful act.
With buckled knees, you started to grind on his tongue, your mind dancing on the quick release that you felt was bubbling at the pits of your stomach, âY-you eat pussy so fucking good.â
âThatâs where Iâm best at, babe,â Sunghoon winks at you, pushing his middle finger inside you after tracing your hole with it, âand can you blame me? Your pussy tastes like heaven.â
âO-oh!â You squeaked out, feeling your orgasm could come if Sunghoon continued this. And as if Sunghoon knows how to push your buttons, he adds a second finger, then a third, his tongue now dancing on your clit as he panted against your core.
âFuck - shit, Sunghoon!â You exclaim as you push his face to your core, panting as you whine, eyes screwed shut with your other arm failing to hold on the counter, regardless of how dry the sink it may be, body convulsing as you cum on Sunghoonâs face.
Sunghoon happily licked through your folds, slurping your cum messily and noisily. He stood up with your cum glistening on his lips, his mouth sporting the smuggest grin that made you want to kiss his face silly.
âDamn,â you breathed out, leaning toward his chest to ground yourself.
âWeâre not done yet.â
Needless to say, Sunghoon made sure that you could cum thrice from his fingers and mouth alone.
The following week, you were in the same position â however, instead of your hand holding on the sink, it was Sunghoonâs, with his other hand fisting your hair as he holds you still while he fucks your mouth to prove a point.
âSo f-fucking warm,â Sunghoon grunted, his balls trodding against your chin as he kept on cursing, too lost in the bliss of your mouth taking him tightly, mimicking a virgin pussy.
With blood almost drawn on his lips, Sunghoon lets out a guttural groan as he pushes you against his pelvis, his penis bullying its way on your throat as strings of warm cum painted your throat.
âShould get you jealous more often,â Sunghoon comments as he regains his breathing, âsuch a desperate slut you become once you start reminding me whose pussy my dick belongs to.â
Before you could respond, the tall boy pushes his lips against yours hungrily, tongue immediately poking inside to start a tongued kiss with you, cupping both of your cheeks, he made sure you arenât going anywhere.
âThighs,â you started, too overtaken by lust, but Sunghoon heard it, he held your face with one hand to force you to look at him, âYour thighs, Sunghoon, I want to-â
âYeah? Wanna grind on it, pretty?â
You nod, anything that could have you feeling him against your throbbing core, âPlease,â you pleaded, grabbing his wrist to make you suck on his ring-clad finger, âwant it, so much.â
Sunghoon almost lets out an animalistic growl as he pulls you to one of the stalls. He reaches behind you to lock it before turning around and places the seat down, sitting on it before urging you to straddle him.
Pooling your dress over your lap, you did as you were instructed. Hanging both arms around his neck, you stood up to pull your panties down, the slight string of arousal visible from the cloth.
On the other hand, Sunghoon already had his pants and boxers discarded, his angry cock lay erect against his stomach. You licked your lips and straddled him again, your legs on either side of his thighs, thigh-grinding long forgotten.
Both of you hissed as your pussy made contact with his dick, and soon enough, you were both a grinding mess, your grinds interrupted by humps as you groped your tits, your head thrown back as you continue to moan Sunghoonâs name.
âYeah, moan that n-name, heâs y-yours, isnât he?â Sunghoon hissed, his hair all over his face before leaning down to suck on your free boob that has been exposed from the tubing of the dress that was pulled down by you prior.
âMhm, heâs mine!â You squealed as you hit your high just in the same time as the pale boy youâre sat on.
âFuck,â you chuckled.
âDamn,â Sunghoon said breathlessly before kissing your lips and leaning his forehead against yours.
It was the first time he kissed you on the forehead after hooking up.
Last, last weekâs hookup session with Sunghoon has all become youâve ever thought about as you placed the books on the shelves, pausing every now and then as you daydream of it.
It has been two weeks since Sunghoon had shown up in the bar that youâre working at every weekends.
And while you hoped that he could at least sweep in to wave or send a smile your way. But Friday had gone, so has Saturday, even Sunday - no signs of Sunghoon.
His absence seemed to gnaw on you as you started to search for him during weekdays at your off-duties, but none. No sign of Sunghoon.
And you canât even text him, since he hadnât given his number, and you didnât, too.
Youâve found his Instagram page, but it has never been updated apart from the photo of a golf course which he had posted four days ago. Stories didnât also help, as he never updates his stories. DMs are off, and the only way to contact him was through e-mail.
E-mailing him had crossed your mind the moment it reached Thursday, you were so close to losing your mind that you didnât even care whether or not to message him through his work e-mail, regardless of the possibility that anyone within the network could see it.
âThatâs too much of a thought,â said a voice that startled you. Turning around, you saw the infamous Sunghoon leant agains the bookshelves, arms crossed, mouth adorning a soft smirk that youâve grown to love.
âPlease, I bet youâre thinking Iâm thinking of you,â you snorted as you continued sorting the books, eyes not meeting his as his gaze challenged you.
âWell, I donât even have to bet. I know youâre thinking of me whether you admit it or not,â Sunghoon countered.
âWhat an ego,â you muttered as you rolled your eyes, disappointed by his sudden absence for two weeks, even without giving you a notice as to why.
âWhere are you off to, tonight?â He asked out of nowhere.
âHome, as usual.â
âMy place?â
âNo, what do you mean?â
âYou said you were going home?â
âSince when had your place been my home?â
âAre you willing for it to be?â
âSunghoon, what?â You furrowed your eyebrows at him, looking at him as if he had three heads in one body.
âIâm serious, stay with me.â
âSunghoonââ
âI donât take no for an answer.â
âSunghoon!â
âWhat a noisy librarian do I have here,â Sunghoon smirked, âI like it when youâre noisy though.â
With an exasperated sigh, you pulled Sunghoon at the back of the library, âWhat are you doing, Park Sunghoon?â
âFull name? Ouch,â he placed a hand on his heart.
âSunghoon,â you said through gritted teeth.
âLetâs go home,â he said instead of answering your questions, pulling you by your arm to the direction of his car that has been parked in front of the library.
Now, it was supposed to be just a talk. A negotiation between you and Sunghoon to finally end whatever it was between you both, both your heart and mind exasperated by the uncertainty that was brought about by you and him.
But here you are, biting your lip as Sunghoon kissed you on your neck, alternating between kissing, licking, and sucking, as he kept your hips pinned down by the grip of his hands on it.
âStop moving,â he demanded, looking at you with such fire in his eyes whenever you bucked your hips up onto him.
âNeed you,â you whined out, desperate to grind on him again, this time, you were hoping that it would last long and be much more comfortable than the last time that you did in the stalls.
âI know, sweetie,â Sunghoon smirked before sitting up to grab his black necktie which he had on his nightstand, âThis okay?â He asked as he raised the necktie before you, insinuating a plan that he had in mind.
With a nod and a verbal agreement, Sunghoon wrapped the blindfold around your head before pulling away to see you in your totality: laid back, eyes covered by the velvet cloth of his necktie, and naked â all just for him.
âGod, youâre so beautiful,â Sunghoon comments as he grabbed the cloth ropes that dangled on the edge of the headrest, grabbing it with a smirk, he hoists your arms up, making you gasp, as he tied it to the to the headboard.
He tested whether the knot was tight or just right, before peering down at you and cupping your cheeks as he leaned down to kiss on you.
Adjusting his body, Sunghoon left a trail of kisses from four face down to your nipple, before swirling his tongue around your sensitive nub. Pulling back, he grabbed the cold glass of champagne that sat on the trolley by his bed. Grabbing a small ice cube from the bucket of the bottle, he circled the ice around your nipple, earning a gasp from you.
"Cold, isn't it?" He questioned before leaning down again to give your other breast attention, and after a while, he switched places, giving you the same amount of pleasure from the cold and his warm mouth alone.
He trailed the melting ice cube down your body, making you shiver at how the cold trail was instantly replaced by his warm lips as he kissed you along the wet path of the melted ice cube.
"You and your pretty body," he whispers before grabbing another ice cube again, this time, he placed it on his tongue, letting the cold replace the warmth of his tongue.
Peering down between your legs, he crawled down until he was face near your core, making you sigh in anticipation, it was moments like this that you craved for Sunghoon to speed up his actions. It was no lie that Sunghoon ate pussy pretty good, and sometimes, you think, how good could he be when he finally has his dick inside you?
Sunghoon pokes his cold tongue against your hole, making you squeal as your legs thrashed up in surprise. He grinned as he gave kitten licks to your core, his hands pushing your legs far apart before diving into your cunt.
Moans and groans and the occasional noise from Sunghoon's licking on your core were all that could be heard in his bedroom. He kept his eyes on you, basking in your reactions before he inserted his middle and ring finger inside you, contrasting the coldness of his tongue.
"Fuck! I love your m-mouth," you whimpered out, wriggling from the overwhelming feeling that only Sunghoon had managed to get out from you.
"Always f-fucking my pussy with that m-mouth so, g-good - Sunghoon!" you exclaimed as you came on his mouth without warning, Sunghoon humming as he licked through your folds, mimicking the noise of that a happy man.
He straightened up and freed his aching cock from the restraints of his trousers and boxers, hissing as his dick slapped against his stomach before hovering over you again to tip your chin up for a messy kiss.
Sunghoon licked into your mouth before prodding it open so he could spit into it, "Swallow," was all he said before you closed your mouth and opened it in front of him to show him that you did what was told.
The boy groans as he places his dick in between your folds, setting his pace as he starts from something that's agonizingly slow, drawing out a pained whimper from you.
"Hoonie, want your cock."
"Yeah?" he breathed out, picking up his pace, "you already have it been your legs, pretty."
"No," you shook your head, "want it."
"Want it, where?" he starts to slow down without much thought as he dawns realization to what you said.
"Cock, Hoonie, w-want it inside me."
"Are you sure?"
"Yes, fuck! Please, hurry!" you pleaded, hands pulling against your restraints, "Want it inside me, Hoonie, please!"
"Condoms?"
"No, raw."
"Babyâ"
"Please!"
One beg from you and Sunghoon's heartbeat has already picked up. Before you both even started seeing each other to hook up, you have already established that the farthest you could go with each other is oral. Other than that is off the table, as you have said, you both are completely off-limits.
Sunghoon's chest warmed at the thought of you warming up to him, "Okay, baby," he breathed out, "are you sure?"
"I am," you whined.
He leaned over and removed your blindfold and restraints, letting you adjust before pushing his lips on yours, "Thank you, thank you," he muttered in between kisses as he pulls himself away, prodding the tip of his dick on your throbbing hole.
"I gotta say," Sunghoon chuckled as he pushes his tip inside you slowly, earning a delicious moan from you both, "you're so goddamn pretty, more exceptionally so when I'm inside you."
Sunghoon has a way with words, that's one thing that you made yourself known. That was something about him that you think was what sealed the deal â he fed into your need for constant assurance, even though there were limitations between you both.
"Push it all in," you demanded.
Without another word, Sunghoon pushed himself inside, earning a throaty groan between you both.
"Shit, f-feel so g-good for me, oh, my god," Sunghoon breathed as he pushed his face into the crook of your neck, your arms immediately finding home around his torso.
Sunghoon picks up his pace as he continues on bullying his way inside you, relishing on how your pussy throbs around his dick. With every thrust that he lands inside you, your eyes roll at the back of your head, feeling the pulse of the veins of his dick with every drag.
"God, Sunghoon, Iâ" you cut yourself off with a groan by his ear, cradling his face as he placed light kisses on your shoulder, "Fuck, Sunghoon, so good!"
The boy pulled his face away, prying your mouth open as he spit into your mouth, his cock drilling inside you in the slowest, yet most delicious way. It was as if he was trying his best to memorize how your gummy walls enveloped his dick, in the hopes of making your pussy remember his.
And, to commit this into memory, Sunghoon removes the ring he had clad around his ring finger, reaching for your left hand that hung around your shoulder, and, in a lust-filled haze, he wore the finger around the nearest finger that was accessible to him, he'd fix that later.
Your eyes wandered to the ring that adorned your thumb, before biting your lip and looking at him. Sunghoon already adjusted himself, kneeling straight as he hikes your leg up and places it on his shoulder; and with a roll of his hips, both of you are already a whimpering, moaning mess.
"So f-full, fucking finally," you moaned out and Sunghoon reaches for your other hand to intertwine it with his, "Yeah? Been dreaming of it for so long, huh?"
Tapping your cheek he makes you look at him, "Been dreaming of this, t-too, baby," he says, panting, "been dreaming of d-doing more than just this, too,"
You looked at him with doe eyes, your lips dropping down to his lips, "Kiss me, Sunghoon."
Sunghoon nodded and kissed you, your hips bucking up to meet his thrusts, it was in that moment that only the two of you existed.
"You're squeezing me so f-fucking..." Sunghoon trailed, eyebrows drawn to each other in concentration, "..so fucking good for me, God, I love you."
His hands travelled down to your clit and rubbed circles around it, making you whimper and pull his face to yours, your lips wanting to get a taste of his again.
"Not gonna last l-long, princess," Sunghoon muttered in between grunts, "You close?" He said as he looked at you, searching your eyes for more than just your sign of being as near as he is.
You hum reaching your head up to peck his lips, "M-me too, Hoonie, dick is f-fucking me so g-good," your head attempting to throw back as his tip kept on hitting that sweet spot inside you.
"I love you," Sunghoon whispers as he lets go of your leg on his shoulder, pressing onto your body as he finally lets go of his cum inside you, your release following suit after he kept on thrusting even if he was coming undone inside you.
For a while, you both had stayed in that position, Sunghoon still deep inside you in between your legs, legs weakly wrapped around his body, both of your arms wrapped around his neck as you combed through his hair.
There was a heavy weight in the air, something that demands to be addressed.
Sunghoon lifts his head up, his chin rest against your chest. With a quick kiss on the valley of your breasts, he pulls the hand that had the ring wrapped around your thumb, he kisses your inner wrist, before, with lidded eyes, removing the ring and placing it instead to your ring finger, kissing your palm after a close inspection.
Sunghoon had never been so sure in his life, until now.
"I meant what I said," Sunghoon says quietly, his eyes now trained on your hand, eager to confess that it had always been you all along.
"Sunghoon, we can't.."
"Why?"
"You're going to get married,"
"I called it off."
You looked at him with a gasp, "What?"
"I said I found a partner, I always told you I'll always have you close, right?" he says as he sent you a soft smile, relishing in the hand that played with his hair.
"You're crazy," you chuckled.
"You make me go crazy over you," Sunghoon smiles with his eyes almost close.
"I love you, too, Sunghoon."
And when your eyes both meet, Sunghoon smiled softly, and that was when you both knew â it was where you both are supposed to be.
Sunghoon hums as he wraps his arms around you and pulls you close, this time, sure.
"Stay with me tonight," Sunghoon whispers.
"I'll stay tomorrow, too," you add.
"And on the days after that?" Sunghoon asks, his cheek pressed against your chest.
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SUMMARY. you and sunghoon are both off-limits. you're still living with your ex, and he's off to get married to someone that has been arranged for his family business. but that doesn't stop you both from trudging boundaries when it's just you and him in your own world.
CONTENTS. smut, some angst, some fluff. LOTS OF JEALOUSY. smut with plot. not beta-read. MINORS DO NOT INTERACT.
WARNINGS. lots and lots of jealousy. sunghoon is DOWN-BAD for reader, but the feelingâs mutual. indirect cheating (but not really???). semi-public sex, dom!sunghoon, bratty reader. somewhat mean hoonie. oral (both f and m receiving), p in v, unprotected sexual act (use protection at all times), temperature play, sensory deprivation, slight bondage (just tying up), sir kink (oh yeah baby), spitting kink. use of pet names (wiee). THREE SEX SCENES. (seldom mentions of hyung line: heeseung, jay, and jake) IDK I WROTE THIS BEFORE I COULD FULLY WRITE EVERYTHING.
WORD COUNT. 4.7k
AUTHOR'S NOTE. FINALLY IT'S HERE. belated happy birthday, my hoonhoon! this is my hoon birthday gift for y'all. hope you like it! (did i write two sunghoon smuts already? yes, yes i did.) also, wait for further updates, i might be updating anyone from the hyung line soon! wink wink.
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There was something about him.
Park Sunghoon was the image of something so mysterious â yet, so captivating. His eyes held something deeper than what he tries to convey. You tried to hard to look away, but his actions, his stance â they command attention.
So much, that they commanded yours.
He has been a constant, a regular at the bar that you're working in every weekend to make ends meet. He was the hot bachelor that belonged in the upper VIPs that usually had a secluded room where they could share small talk over top shelf drinks.
Your first encounter with Park Sunghoon was when Byeol called in sick, and that meant you took over her shift as the personal-hired entertainer at Room 130.
"Please, Y/N," Byeol pleaded through the phone, coughing as her voice scratched against her throat, "if I could, I would. I'll take over your shift for the next week. You'll have my pay for tonight."
Now, additional income is something that is very difficult to shake off, no matter how it takes a night that consists of Neoguri noodles off of your schedule.
You wore your signature red cocktail dress, one that hugs all your right proportions beautifully, but not too tight, with a slit that doesn't go too up high on your thigh. Matched with a wave that's swept to the side, it is a no-brainer that the four men of Room 130 didn't even ask where their usual entertainer, Byeol, is.
"What a pretty face," Jake comments as he takes a sip of his armagnac, his eyes travelled down to your legs, but went back to your face, "nice voice, too." He adds.
Sunghoon was late, muttering an excuse that was along the lines of: his mother made him stay for a supposed meet-up with someone.
"Mommy's still on it?" Heeseung jokes, grabbing some of the snacks on the table, shaking his hand to remove the residue of it before pouring it to his mouth.
Sunghoon sends a look over Heeseung's way, making the oldest boy chuckle, "Well, you have to follow mommy's orders, or else, you're gonna whine about how your daily allowance has been reduced to half."
The rest of the boys chuckled, alongside the girls that were in the room to hold them company. Sunghoon was not the most pleased, he knew that Heeseung is right. He has to find a lady or else he will be arranged to a wedding just to keep up his expenditures and his lifestyle.
"Who's the girl?" Jay asks as he places his hand on the small of the back of the lady that sat on his lap, his eyes on the girl that giggled as she kept on tracing the edge of Jay's jawline.
"I don't know," Sunghoon grunted, eager to down a shot that was already on the table, "all I know is I have to find a partner ASAP, or else, I'll be wed to someone I could care less about."
That was when his eyes landed on you, singing a song softly as you held your vintage microphone. His eyebrows perched up slightly, and he smiled to himself.
Now, it has been approximately the fifth consecutive week that Sunghoon had tried to talk to you, alone, on your supposed shift at the public part of the bar.
Sweeping past through sweaty bodies as well as people that are drunk off their minds, Sunghoon was determined to at least know you better. It only took one song and one damn dress to catch Sunghoon's attention.
Lucky for him, he had caught your attention, too.
The thing was, you had a boyfriend â well, a roommate, if you will. Since love was obviously out the window, and that you were trying to sustain each other's stay in your apartment that has its contract nearing its end by the end of December.
Well, another reason was that your then-boyfriend was still trying to win you back.
And while you're certain that you're over him and is keeping him at bay for benefits, he certainly was not, and it somehow was making you guilty that you're somehow leading him on even when it was Sunghoon's face that you think of whenever you press your bullet vibrator against your clit, leaving out broken, breathy moans that underestimated how much you think you're going to moan for Sunghoon if time permits you.
Which brings you to here, a never-ending cat and mouse game that you have established with Sunghoon, who clearly was so head-over-heels for you.
The ordeal was simple: you, one of the bar's beloved entertainers, would finish a song that you sing and dedicate for Sunghoon, but wander off with a smile as you try and find yourself a suitable man vying for your attention. It was effective for you to make him jealous and demand your attention on him for the next hours.
Sunghoon had never gone past the eating only the third base, and Sunghoon was more than willing to eat your pussy on hours end. And you were willing to let him go past that, if only you haven't seen the ring that adorned his left hand, snug tight around his ring finger.
It was a stark reminder of how he was not for you, just how you are starting to become his.
"You sing here often?"
"I do," You'd giggle to whoever this guy's name is, you really didn't know, nor even tried remembering. You were sure it wasn't his name that you'll be screaming in the bathroom stalls of the bar.
"I should bo-"
"Then I'd want to book you, privately," Sunghoon cut the guy off, his voice reeking of jealousy and authority as he stood behind you, your back flushed against his chest.
"Ya," the boy raised his voice and poked Sunghoon's blue sweater tank top, "do you mind? We're talking here."
"And I'm talking to her, as well," Sunghoon responded, his eyes crinkling into amusement, "do you not want to talk to me, baby?" He pouts at you, nuzzling his chin to your neck as he leaves light kisses on it, making you gasp.
"I.." You trail off, biting your lip as your eyes moved back and forth between the guy and Sunghoon.
"I'm not wasting my time on this," the guy raised his hands in defeat, backing away, leaving you with the guy that you have tried to flirt indirectly through the night.
"Fancy seeing you here against sweaty bodies," You giggle as you turn around and wrap your arms around his neck, pulling him down teasingly to have his lips over yours, to which Sunghoon growled and pushed his lips on yours, immediately pushing his tongue inside your mouth as his hands dug on the curves of your waist.
"You drive me so fucking crazy," he whispers to your lips, in which you hum as a response. Not a long while after, you're being guided to one of the restrooms, his lips now attacking your neck to leave noticeable bruises that you're trying to cover up before you go to your morning shift at the local library of your town.
He pushes you to an empty restroom, not minding to lock it as he cages you in between his body and the sink. âAre you having fun?â He suddenly asks as he pools your dress up your hips and starts rubbing you through your wet panties, âPlaying with me, are you having fun?â
You looked at him through lidded eyes and nod, âI do,â you say as you bite your lip, spreading your legs wide, âI like it when youâre so crazy for me.â
He grunts and kneels down, pulling your panties down as his nose is immediately wafted off by the smell of your arousal spreading throughout your core, âSo wet for me, the guy did that to you?â He spoke as his thumb pressed on your bare clit, making you shudder.
âN-no,â you squeaked out, holding on the sink behind you, âit has always been you.â
âAlways been me?â Sunghoon chuckles as he blows air to your sensitive cunt, âI donât know, babe, Iâm starting not to believe it given how many times Iâve practically pulled you off against men who are thirsting over you.â
Not leaving you any moment to respond, Sunghoon attaches his lips to your sensitive nub, moaning at your familiar taste that he had been obsessed with.
Moaning his name, you immediately hold on his hair, tightening your grip on his soft, brown-black hair, to which Sunghoon tuts as he pulls away, his thumb replacing his lips as he presses and rubs circles on your clit, âYou donât get to touch me, princess.â
Grasping your wrist, Sunghoon had practically forced your hand off his hair, placing it on the sink behind you to continue his ministrations on your pussy.
âLove this pussy so much,â he breathes out, poking his tongue out to fuck your hole with, âso pretty, could get in this forever.â
You moaned in response, desperate to cum just by Sunghoonâs fingers alone. Instinctively, your hands went to play with your breasts, pulling your dress straps down to pool on your arms, you bit your lip as you pinched and flicked your nipples, mimicking the way Sunghoon does it when he was mouthing your tits instead of your pussy.
Sunghoon looked up at you and smirked, sneaking in a hand between your legs to spread your labia apart, forcing his tongue deeper into you as he shook his head sideways, nose prodding against your clit, mouth leaving out noises, making sure that anyone could walk in the unlocked restroom and catch you both in such sinful act.
With buckled knees, you started to grind on his tongue, your mind dancing on the quick release that you felt was bubbling at the pits of your stomach, âY-you eat pussy so fucking good.â
âThatâs where Iâm best at, babe,â Sunghoon winks at you, pushing his middle finger inside you after tracing your hole with it, âand can you blame me? Your pussy tastes like heaven.â
âO-oh!â You squeaked out, feeling your orgasm could come if Sunghoon continued this. And as if Sunghoon knows how to push your buttons, he adds a second finger, then a third, his tongue now dancing on your clit as he panted against your core.
âFuck - shit, Sunghoon!â You exclaim as you push his face to your core, panting as you whine, eyes screwed shut with your other arm failing to hold on the counter, regardless of how dry the sink it may be, body convulsing as you cum on Sunghoonâs face.
Sunghoon happily licked through your folds, slurping your cum messily and noisily. He stood up with your cum glistening on his lips, his mouth sporting the smuggest grin that made you want to kiss his face silly.
âDamn,â you breathed out, leaning toward his chest to ground yourself.
âWeâre not done yet.â
Needless to say, Sunghoon made sure that you could cum thrice from his fingers and mouth alone.
The following week, you were in the same position â however, instead of your hand holding on the sink, it was Sunghoonâs, with his other hand fisting your hair as he holds you still while he fucks your mouth to prove a point.
âSo f-fucking warm,â Sunghoon grunted, his balls trodding against your chin as he kept on cursing, too lost in the bliss of your mouth taking him tightly, mimicking a virgin pussy.
With blood almost drawn on his lips, Sunghoon lets out a guttural groan as he pushes you against his pelvis, his penis bullying its way on your throat as strings of warm cum painted your throat.
âShould get you jealous more often,â Sunghoon comments as he regains his breathing, âsuch a desperate slut you become once you start reminding me whose pussy my dick belongs to.â
Before you could respond, the tall boy pushes his lips against yours hungrily, tongue immediately poking inside to start a tongued kiss with you, cupping both of your cheeks, he made sure you arenât going anywhere.
âThighs,â you started, too overtaken by lust, but Sunghoon heard it, he held your face with one hand to force you to look at him, âYour thighs, Sunghoon, I want to-â
âYeah? Wanna grind on it, pretty?â
You nod, anything that could have you feeling him against your throbbing core, âPlease,â you pleaded, grabbing his wrist to make you suck on his ring-clad finger, âwant it, so much.â
Sunghoon almost lets out an animalistic growl as he pulls you to one of the stalls. He reaches behind you to lock it before turning around and places the seat down, sitting on it before urging you to straddle him.
Pooling your dress over your lap, you did as you were instructed. Hanging both arms around his neck, you stood up to pull your panties down, the slight string of arousal visible from the cloth.
On the other hand, Sunghoon already had his pants and boxers discarded, his angry cock lay erect against his stomach. You licked your lips and straddled him again, your legs on either side of his thighs, thigh-grinding long forgotten.
Both of you hissed as your pussy made contact with his dick, and soon enough, you were both a grinding mess, your grinds interrupted by humps as you groped your tits, your head thrown back as you continue to moan Sunghoonâs name.
âYeah, moan that n-name, heâs y-yours, isnât he?â Sunghoon hissed, his hair all over his face before leaning down to suck on your free boob that has been exposed from the tubing of the dress that was pulled down by you prior.
âMhm, heâs mine!â You squealed as you hit your high just in the same time as the pale boy youâre sat on.
âFuck,â you chuckled.
âDamn,â Sunghoon said breathlessly before kissing your lips and leaning his forehead against yours.
It was the first time he kissed you on the forehead after hooking up.
Last, last weekâs hookup session with Sunghoon has all become youâve ever thought about as you placed the books on the shelves, pausing every now and then as you daydream of it.
It has been two weeks since Sunghoon had shown up in the bar that youâre working at every weekends.
And while you hoped that he could at least sweep in to wave or send a smile your way. But Friday had gone, so has Saturday, even Sunday - no signs of Sunghoon.
His absence seemed to gnaw on you as you started to search for him during weekdays at your off-duties, but none. No sign of Sunghoon.
And you canât even text him, since he hadnât given his number, and you didnât, too.
Youâve found his Instagram page, but it has never been updated apart from the photo of a golf course which he had posted four days ago. Stories didnât also help, as he never updates his stories. DMs are off, and the only way to contact him was through e-mail.
E-mailing him had crossed your mind the moment it reached Thursday, you were so close to losing your mind that you didnât even care whether or not to message him through his work e-mail, regardless of the possibility that anyone within the network could see it.
âThatâs too much of a thought,â said a voice that startled you. Turning around, you saw the infamous Sunghoon leant agains the bookshelves, arms crossed, mouth adorning a soft smirk that youâve grown to love.
âPlease, I bet youâre thinking Iâm thinking of you,â you snorted as you continued sorting the books, eyes not meeting his as his gaze challenged you.
âWell, I donât even have to bet. I know youâre thinking of me whether you admit it or not,â Sunghoon countered.
âWhat an ego,â you muttered as you rolled your eyes, disappointed by his sudden absence for two weeks, even without giving you a notice as to why.
âWhere are you off to, tonight?â He asked out of nowhere.
âHome, as usual.â
âMy place?â
âNo, what do you mean?â
âYou said you were going home?â
âSince when had your place been my home?â
âAre you willing for it to be?â
âSunghoon, what?â You furrowed your eyebrows at him, looking at him as if he had three heads in one body.
âIâm serious, stay with me.â
âSunghoonââ
âI donât take no for an answer.â
âSunghoon!â
âWhat a noisy librarian do I have here,â Sunghoon smirked, âI like it when youâre noisy though.â
With an exasperated sigh, you pulled Sunghoon at the back of the library, âWhat are you doing, Park Sunghoon?â
âFull name? Ouch,â he placed a hand on his heart.
âSunghoon,â you said through gritted teeth.
âLetâs go home,â he said instead of answering your questions, pulling you by your arm to the direction of his car that has been parked in front of the library.
Now, it was supposed to be just a talk. A negotiation between you and Sunghoon to finally end whatever it was between you both, both your heart and mind exasperated by the uncertainty that was brought about by you and him.
But here you are, biting your lip as Sunghoon kissed you on your neck, alternating between kissing, licking, and sucking, as he kept your hips pinned down by the grip of his hands on it.
âStop moving,â he demanded, looking at you with such fire in his eyes whenever you bucked your hips up onto him.
âNeed you,â you whined out, desperate to grind on him again, this time, you were hoping that it would last long and be much more comfortable than the last time that you did in the stalls.
âI know, sweetie,â Sunghoon smirked before sitting up to grab his black necktie which he had on his nightstand, âThis okay?â He asked as he raised the necktie before you, insinuating a plan that he had in mind.
With a nod and a verbal agreement, Sunghoon wrapped the blindfold around your head before pulling away to see you in your totality: laid back, eyes covered by the velvet cloth of his necktie, and naked â all just for him.
âGod, youâre so beautiful,â Sunghoon comments as he grabbed the cloth ropes that dangled on the edge of the headrest, grabbing it with a smirk, he hoists your arms up, making you gasp, as he tied it to the to the headboard.
He tested whether the knot was tight or just right, before peering down at you and cupping your cheeks as he leaned down to kiss on you.
Adjusting his body, Sunghoon left a trail of kisses from four face down to your nipple, before swirling his tongue around your sensitive nub. Pulling back, he grabbed the cold glass of champagne that sat on the trolley by his bed. Grabbing a small ice cube from the bucket of the bottle, he circled the ice around your nipple, earning a gasp from you.
"Cold, isn't it?" He questioned before leaning down again to give your other breast attention, and after a while, he switched places, giving you the same amount of pleasure from the cold and his warm mouth alone.
He trailed the melting ice cube down your body, making you shiver at how the cold trail was instantly replaced by his warm lips as he kissed you along the wet path of the melted ice cube.
"You and your pretty body," he whispers before grabbing another ice cube again, this time, he placed it on his tongue, letting the cold replace the warmth of his tongue.
Peering down between your legs, he crawled down until he was face near your core, making you sigh in anticipation, it was moments like this that you craved for Sunghoon to speed up his actions. It was no lie that Sunghoon ate pussy pretty good, and sometimes, you think, how good could he be when he finally has his dick inside you?
Sunghoon pokes his cold tongue against your hole, making you squeal as your legs thrashed up in surprise. He grinned as he gave kitten licks to your core, his hands pushing your legs far apart before diving into your cunt.
Moans and groans and the occasional noise from Sunghoon's licking on your core were all that could be heard in his bedroom. He kept his eyes on you, basking in your reactions before he inserted his middle and ring finger inside you, contrasting the coldness of his tongue.
"Fuck! I love your m-mouth," you whimpered out, wriggling from the overwhelming feeling that only Sunghoon had managed to get out from you.
"Always f-fucking my pussy with that m-mouth so, g-good - Sunghoon!" you exclaimed as you came on his mouth without warning, Sunghoon humming as he licked through your folds, mimicking the noise of that a happy man.
He straightened up and freed his aching cock from the restraints of his trousers and boxers, hissing as his dick slapped against his stomach before hovering over you again to tip your chin up for a messy kiss.
Sunghoon licked into your mouth before prodding it open so he could spit into it, "Swallow," was all he said before you closed your mouth and opened it in front of him to show him that you did what was told.
The boy groans as he places his dick in between your folds, setting his pace as he starts from something that's agonizingly slow, drawing out a pained whimper from you.
"Hoonie, want your cock."
"Yeah?" he breathed out, picking up his pace, "you already have it been your legs, pretty."
"No," you shook your head, "want it."
"Want it, where?" he starts to slow down without much thought as he dawns realization to what you said.
"Cock, Hoonie, w-want it inside me."
"Are you sure?"
"Yes, fuck! Please, hurry!" you pleaded, hands pulling against your restraints, "Want it inside me, Hoonie, please!"
"Condoms?"
"No, raw."
"Babyâ"
"Please!"
One beg from you and Sunghoon's heartbeat has already picked up. Before you both even started seeing each other to hook up, you have already established that the farthest you could go with each other is oral. Other than that is off the table, as you have said, you both are completely off-limits.
Sunghoon's chest warmed at the thought of you warming up to him, "Okay, baby," he breathed out, "are you sure?"
"I am," you whined.
He leaned over and removed your blindfold and restraints, letting you adjust before pushing his lips on yours, "Thank you, thank you," he muttered in between kisses as he pulls himself away, prodding the tip of his dick on your throbbing hole.
"I gotta say," Sunghoon chuckled as he pushes his tip inside you slowly, earning a delicious moan from you both, "you're so goddamn pretty, more exceptionally so when I'm inside you."
Sunghoon has a way with words, that's one thing that you made yourself known. That was something about him that you think was what sealed the deal â he fed into your need for constant assurance, even though there were limitations between you both.
"Push it all in," you demanded.
Without another word, Sunghoon pushed himself inside, earning a throaty groan between you both.
"Shit, f-feel so g-good for me, oh, my god," Sunghoon breathed as he pushed his face into the crook of your neck, your arms immediately finding home around his torso.
Sunghoon picks up his pace as he continues on bullying his way inside you, relishing on how your pussy throbs around his dick. With every thrust that he lands inside you, your eyes roll at the back of your head, feeling the pulse of the veins of his dick with every drag.
"God, Sunghoon, Iâ" you cut yourself off with a groan by his ear, cradling his face as he placed light kisses on your shoulder, "Fuck, Sunghoon, so good!"
The boy pulled his face away, prying your mouth open as he spit into your mouth, his cock drilling inside you in the slowest, yet most delicious way. It was as if he was trying his best to memorize how your gummy walls enveloped his dick, in the hopes of making your pussy remember his.
And, to commit this into memory, Sunghoon removes the ring he had clad around his ring finger, reaching for your left hand that hung around your shoulder, and, in a lust-filled haze, he wore the finger around the nearest finger that was accessible to him, he'd fix that later.
Your eyes wandered to the ring that adorned your thumb, before biting your lip and looking at him. Sunghoon already adjusted himself, kneeling straight as he hikes your leg up and places it on his shoulder; and with a roll of his hips, both of you are already a whimpering, moaning mess.
"So f-full, fucking finally," you moaned out and Sunghoon reaches for your other hand to intertwine it with his, "Yeah? Been dreaming of it for so long, huh?"
Tapping your cheek he makes you look at him, "Been dreaming of this, t-too, baby," he says, panting, "been dreaming of d-doing more than just this, too,"
You looked at him with doe eyes, your lips dropping down to his lips, "Kiss me, Sunghoon."
Sunghoon nodded and kissed you, your hips bucking up to meet his thrusts, it was in that moment that only the two of you existed.
"You're squeezing me so f-fucking..." Sunghoon trailed, eyebrows drawn to each other in concentration, "..so fucking good for me, God, I love you."
His hands travelled down to your clit and rubbed circles around it, making you whimper and pull his face to yours, your lips wanting to get a taste of his again.
"Not gonna last l-long, princess," Sunghoon muttered in between grunts, "You close?" He said as he looked at you, searching your eyes for more than just your sign of being as near as he is.
You hum reaching your head up to peck his lips, "M-me too, Hoonie, dick is f-fucking me so g-good," your head attempting to throw back as his tip kept on hitting that sweet spot inside you.
"I love you," Sunghoon whispers as he lets go of your leg on his shoulder, pressing onto your body as he finally lets go of his cum inside you, your release following suit after he kept on thrusting even if he was coming undone inside you.
For a while, you both had stayed in that position, Sunghoon still deep inside you in between your legs, legs weakly wrapped around his body, both of your arms wrapped around his neck as you combed through his hair.
There was a heavy weight in the air, something that demands to be addressed.
Sunghoon lifts his head up, his chin rest against your chest. With a quick kiss on the valley of your breasts, he pulls the hand that had the ring wrapped around your thumb, he kisses your inner wrist, before, with lidded eyes, removing the ring and placing it instead to your ring finger, kissing your palm after a close inspection.
Sunghoon had never been so sure in his life, until now.
"I meant what I said," Sunghoon says quietly, his eyes now trained on your hand, eager to confess that it had always been you all along.
"Sunghoon, we can't.."
"Why?"
"You're going to get married,"
"I called it off."
You looked at him with a gasp, "What?"
"I said I found a partner, I always told you I'll always have you close, right?" he says as he sent you a soft smile, relishing in the hand that played with his hair.
"You're crazy," you chuckled.
"You make me go crazy over you," Sunghoon smiles with his eyes almost close.
"I love you, too, Sunghoon."
And when your eyes both meet, Sunghoon smiled softly, and that was when you both knew â it was where you both are supposed to be.
Sunghoon hums as he wraps his arms around you and pulls you close, this time, sure.
"Stay with me tonight," Sunghoon whispers.
"I'll stay tomorrow, too," you add.
"And on the days after that?" Sunghoon asks, his cheek pressed against your chest.
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