The world as I see it...

[accordingtorue]

NEW LIFE GOALS

Okay... so people suck! yup that’s basically it, I got no tolerance for b.s. if you are my friend then I take a bullet for u , u are the Meredith to my Cristina. but the plastic girls thing is not mine like do friendships need a DTR are we Meredith/Cristina or are Regina georging here ?! it’s sad how the genuine  things in life became so rare that it surprise u when u meet someone who is not fake like they are a unicorn or smth and not just any unicorn but the one who sh*ts rainbow a sparkling rainbow so I am done.

this cat is my life goal now and Cat/Remote controller are my relationship goals

Queen Cat!

Cat is love....Cat is life

[accordingtorue]

It's funny how

I never learn. Just because you have someone's back it doesn't mean they will have yours. You know movies. Forget about them because they are bunch of lies. The “I miss you" text that has an “I am outside" reply is  a fantasy because they are probably not missing u. If they do they wouldn't wait for u to say it. They would show it. What kills is not what people did or didn't do to/for you. It's your expectations that killed you. You are you and others are themselves so don't expect something YOU would do from someone who is not you. Everyone has their own view their own definition of things so your definition of love, your definition of acts of love is not necessarily what you would receive. You need to accept that. I need to accept that. I need to start learning .... that what I would do for u may not be what u will do for me.

[accordingtorue]

   All my life I have thought about the difference between ALONE and LONELY. And  I came up with this conclusion  being alone is a physical state. Can be noticed visually. Being lonely is a mental and emotional issue. U can't see it with your physical senses.

   I was never really alone but I always felt lonely. I felt I never had anyone who can handle the dark side in me. Everyone liked the bubbly girl with the constant smile. So I kept it locked up in a tiny box that no one can reach but me and every time I was alone I opened that box.

   Lately I opened the box in front of someone. It was such a relief that I kept it open. But it backfired suddenly I am perceived as being dramatic. It was such a disappointment but also a revelation...

  The truth is no one would ever really know what you are going thru or have survived but you. Your scars can only be truly seen with your own eyes when u see your reflections. It's good to let someone take a peak at your little box but never let them open it fully because they are not you. They won't get it

  I was never really alone but I am lonely and I am okay with it.