Another shot at having a blog about this stuff

Pronouns are they/it Hello and welcome! Unless you're here to start a pointless fight that would be a waste of both our time. If that's the case get out of here. Icon is a baby doll edited in front of the Anti-Contact pro-Para pro-Transid (ACPT) flag.

[acpt-babydoll]

Done. I’m logging out again.

I’m going to be an age regressor/ageweird and dollkin. Who has a bunch of other weird shit going on.

It’s not fully accurate. It’s not what I should be.

But at least then I’m not searching “contact” on people’s blogs to find out if they’re buddy buddy with child predators or hem-haw-ing about the definition of consent.

That’s not a thing that’s supposed to happen in spaces.

That’s not a thing that happens in dollkin spaces.

My blog will remain up. With this as my pinned.

I’m sorry I’m so fucking angry.

[acpt-babydoll]

My transharmed feelings are coming back because it’s Father’s Day tomorrow and I don’t want to send a card. I don’t feel anything on any of the holidays for parents (Mother’s Day or Father’s Day) and I haven’t for a long time.

I want to be abused, yeah. I want to be because if it was worse I would be allowed to do low/no contact. Rather than being evil to them. They didn’t do anything wrong. They never did anything wrong. I’ve threatened to leave before. I either get called heartless or get a three paragraph text begging my forgiveness if only I would listen. Not that they deserve my threats anyway.

But it’s not my community.

Not when I can’t use the tag without seeing an account with posts by a chrono 14-year old asking how to find a MAP to date. And a pro-c liking said post. And there’s no fucking pushback. Because calling a spade a spade is harassment now. And so is calling a predator a predator. “Oh but there’s so much nuance in contact stances” die in a fire. No, seriously. Die.

It’s not my community. Not if it won’t protect itself. Am I transharmed at all? The tag and spaces don’t represent me. I want certain things. But not in the way they want it.

Same with transage. I’m someone with a fluid internal age. That one’s even more certain. But in the past I’ve been called bigoted against my own community. For saying transage kids can’t date chrono kids. For saying what the community used to constantly make clear. Nowadays I’m living in a 4chan psyop made real.

I’m sick of this. I want to be transid. I want to. I want to make silly little bracelets and collect plushies and act like a kid. I want to casually refer to myself as a doll. I want to watch old British television. Stuff like that. And I do want darker things too. And I’m not transrace or transabled, but I do want to support them.

But the transid community was fucking betrayed when we were coalesced together by the radqueer community. By someone who from the beginning wasn’t willing to cut out the predators. And why would they? They were one of them.

I’m tired. I’m so tired.

[acpt-babydoll]

I’m back!

I needed a break.

[acpt-babydoll]

And… I want to leave again. I’m so fucking exhausted.

I should not have to scroll what should be one of my tags for my community and feel like I want to bang my head against the wall.

I’m tired.

But I can’t leave.

People tell me my account is a breath of fresh air for the few of us who actually care about abuse. I don’t want to take that breath away.

But I don’t actually care. I don’t do anything about it. There’s nothing I can do. I’m tired. I’m so fucking tired.

I’m sorry for subjecting you all to this.

[acpt-babydoll]

I’m back!

I needed a break.

[acpt-babydoll]

I think I’m going to take a short break from this blog. I don’t know for how long. I just need a short break. Thanks for being understanding.

[cutecoredotcom]

Can someone yap about their transid/para/etc headcanons to me? It can be any characters even ones i don't know :happy:

[dem0ngutzz]

Toshinori Yagi/ All Might is TransAmerican

Hizashi Yamada (Present Mic) and Nemuri Kayama (Midnight) are MAP/YAP (the Mic headcanon is from a dream I had and I thought it was so weird it's canon to me)

Shouta Aizawa isn't a MAP in my headcanon even tho proship Mha ships him with all his students lmao (peace and love keep shipping)

Izuku Midoriya is an AAM and practically begs Toshinori to date him.

Himiko Toga is attracted to everything like wowie

Mha hyperfixation ftw

-Cecil

[m3lodywuvzsylv3on]

this is tag game-able sooo

ash Ketchum is a PermaKid and zoophile/pokephile and Transfem and she’s dating latias. Shes pansexual for Pokemon and aroace for humans, and shes poly and dating multiple Pokemon like chikorita but latias is her main girl. And she can understand pokemon because her dad is Mr Mime

Latias is a PermaKid but in a 100000 year old loli dragon that’s also pedophilic for ash way, and a humanophile

Delia Ketchum, ash’s mom is a zoophile/pokephile + pokemap (attraction to baby pokemon which is a term Melody made up) and she raised her husband mr mime from an egg

mr mime used to be an AAM and he’s a humanophile and amorohuman

@acpt-babydoll @fanged-chuni @carnal-stray @h0p-4nd-h1d3 + open tags!!

[acpt-babydoll]

Ooh.

Okay, I will die on the “transspecies Fluttershy” hill. Specifically transitioning to be a plant. She “jokes” about it too often for it to be a joke. Also transnonverbal and transAACuser. They literally hate talking anyway, let them have it. Also Fluttershy is nonbinary and enbian/nln because I want her to be.

Pinkie Pie hoards transids as a coping mechanism. Like, a lot of transids. I know I reblogged someone’s headcanon of a hoard for her, I could go back and find it. But, just, transids for fun and coping.

Also as far as paras go Applejack is a dendrophile (attraction to plants, there’s literally an episode where she’s weirdly and almost romantically close with one of her apple trees) and Twilight Sparkle is an incestophile.

Moving away from My Little Pony… I cannot be convinced Steven Grant from the MCU is not some sort of paraphile.

He at minimum supports them. He literally talks about how thinking about a bad thing doesn’t mean you’re destined to do it. He talks about how we shouldn’t murder children because they might hypothetically commit a crime in the future. Which, like, a lot of Big 3 paras discover their attraction as minors.

His debate with Harrow in the second episode is just “you can’t murder people over thought crimes”. Spiritually he’s one of us. Anti-contact and anti-abuse paraphile.

One of the reasons he’s a F/O crush of mine is that I genuinely think I could tell him my zoosadistic fantasies and he would just… shrug and be cool with it.

I don’t know who to tag so just whoever wants to participate can.

[n3cronico]

TransID stamps

(Requests are always open unless I state otherwise!)

[acpt-babydoll]

I mean, I didn’t make any of the userboxes in my pinned.

So sure. Go ahead. Do what you want with them. Make it your own.

[radqueer-princess]

I think everyone has at least ONE transID but don’t acknowledge it/call it a transID…

[meatgutz666]

THIS

All those ppl that are like "I used to put only one contact lense in my eye so it seems like i have Heterochromia"

"I used to lie about certain allergies because it felt right"

LIKE THAT'S A TRANSID Y'ALL

[acpt-babydoll]

Tip for transnationality people who love Beanie Babies!

Look at the Beanie Babies that were produced to be specific to your home country! You can see a lot of cool ones!

Plus if you want to practice the language of that country (if it’s a different language than what you currently speak) you can practice on the poems on the tags!

(This might be just a post for me and no one else)

(I had an autistic special interest in Beanie Babies as a chrono kid)

(I could probably have infodumped for hours about the first Beanie Baby ever produced or the most expensive Beanie Babies ever sold or various versions of the tags or you get the idea)

[acpt-babydoll]

👕: What outfit(s) do you think fits your paraphilia(s)? Describe it or show pictures!

I spent a while thinking about this. Because it’s actually kind of hard.

For autophreniaphilia something purple. That or brownish-orange, but purple is an infinitely better color than brownish-orange. I say these two colors because they’re the two colors of the clothes I’ve been given in the past at psych wards. Something purple, but with bright jewelry or something. Since the flag is really bright and I want to pay homage to that.

Zoosadism is harder to come up with something for. For some reason I keep thinking khaki or denim shorts? No reason in particular. The flag has a really beautiful shade of green, I’d like to have a shirt in that. With lots of pockets

[radically-soup]

I find it so odd that anti's will make specifically anti radqueer alternatives of explicitly radqueer terms.

Just call yourself transid. Just call yourself transage. Just call yourself trace. Just call yourself transabled.

If you are using transid terms, that are packaged in a different font, you are transid.

[acpt-babydoll]

Being unable to find any good enjoyable zoosadistic fiction out there because so much of it also includes stuff that are massive triggers or squicks (ex. human-on-human rape, CSA, extreme piss or scat content, very detailed descriptions of genitalia). And I’m scared to write my own.

Then I wonder if I was ever a zoosad at all or if I made it up. No idea why I would make that up. It’s not like it makes me sound cool. Just the opposite. It’s just that a lot of the fictional media made to appeal to that crowd very much doesn’t to me.

[dark--friction]

I made a NO-ACT paraphile ask game! I made them so that you could answer some of them without actually needing to reveal one's paraphilia, but still be focused around paraphilias. :)

🍐: What paraphilia(s) do you have? If you have more than one, do you have one that you consider your "main" one? 🎨: What color(s) do you associate with your paraphilia(s)? 🐾: If your paraphilia(s) has an animal mascot, what is it? Do you like it/think it fits? If not, what animal would you choose? 🌿: If your paraphilia(s) has a symbol or non-animal mascot, what is it? Do you like it/think it fits? If not, what symbol/thing would you choose? 🏳️: Do you like your paraphilia(s)'s flag(s)? What would you change about it? 🖋️: Do you have paraphile headcanons/OC's? share them! 🏳️‍🌈: Do you have non-paraphile pride flags/labels? Share them! 👕: What outfit(s) do you think fits your paraphilia(s)? Describe it or show pictures! 👃: If your paraphilia(s) had a scent what would it be? Would it be multiple scents, like a perfume? 🍸: Design a cocktail/mocktail based off of your paraphilia(s)! Or maybe just a drink you like? 🍔: Describe a food or dish that reminds you of your paraphilia! Or maybe just a food you like? 🍦: What does your paraphilia(s) feel like to you? Is it sharp, soft, warm, cold, etc? 🐛: Do you like pokemon? If so, what Pokemon do you associate with your paraphilia(s)? Or which is your favorite? 🎼: Do you associate any song(s) with your paraphilia(s)? 💻: What's your favorite outlet for your paraphilia(s)? 🎉: What does paraphile pride mean to you? How do you celebrate yourself/your paraphilia(s)?

[averagefleurson]

Ever since I realized I'm diaabled, I find it strange that there are so many disabled people who take offense to others wanting to be disabled.

I'm cisautistic (I technically have a diagnosis, I need to get an evaluation from a psychologist because I'm paranoid) and I never thought allistics wanting to be autistic was something bad. As long as they aren't romanticizing autism or having a wildly inaccurate view of us, then I don't gaf.

[kylar-coins]

[acpt-babydoll]

I love logging on to check my notifications!

It’s especially fun when I get to see what new pro-c xenosatanist is trying to defend cisharmful identities in my notes this time! Yay!! /s

I know people will call me a crypto-anti and a fakerad and all that shit for this, but I really think some sectors of the radqueer community took the slogan “do whatever you want forever” and ran way way off the deep end with it.

I’m fucking tired. I know I’m going through one of my phases where I spiral due to xenosatanists and debate deleting my blog because of it even though I know I’ll regret it, but I fucking hate them.

Need to just go mask-off and say how I really feel about pro-cs. Trust me, I know I rant on here, but I really am fucking holding back.

[acpt-babydoll]

Sorry, complaining about this one more time.

Can’t throw a stone in the radqueer tags without hitting a pro-c, a xenosatanist, or other assorted child rape apologist.

Can’t throw a stone in the anti-radqueer tags without hitting a sysmedicalist, someone spouting violent paramisia, or someone crashing out over a literal drawing.

Meanwhile we’re just curled up in our tiny space between the two views trying desperately to gain ground.