The Active Artist

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Anonymous

Thank you to the anonymous message I received this morning. You reminded me why I don't use this site anymore. Cheers!

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The Horizon

A fresh start and new beginnings are on the horizon...

Big change is coming...

17 Days

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Opted for fruit instead of wedding cake... Starting the new year making good choices!

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The Bride and me minus a collective 200 lbs since the last time we saw each other in 2007. The perfect way to spend NYE. Happy New Year! 2012 is going to be my bitch!

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Al's Beef Chicago Dog... It's easy to make room in your daily points for unique dining experiences.

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Chicago Deep Dish @ Giordano's... Sooo worth it!!!

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At BWI airport on my way to Chicago for my friend Kristin's wedding on NYE. Decided against the 16 point breakfast combo of McD's McGriddle and Hash browns and went for the 6 point Jamba Juice smoothie. Best way to start a challenging week is to start it in the right mindset. Going to be in Chicago until the 1st, then down to Boca to thaw out and visit my Jewish grandparents til the 5th. Going to attempt to update as often as I can. Oh, btw... Did I forget to mention I'M BACK ON TUMBLR! I know I've been away for a while, but I needed the time off. Yes, I'll be honest, I've definitely gained some weight back. Still 75 lbs lost. Time to get back to the basics. Track my food and blogging. 3 month goal: Back to 100 lbs lost Lots of developments in my life, but that will have to wait for another post. Can't wait to share with everybody. Thanks for all the support. Feels good to be back.

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In Pain, But So Worth It

I've been sore all day. The muscles in my legs definitely need time to heal. Considering 6.2 miles was the longest distance I had ever run before yesterday's half marathon, I'm surprised I'm not in even more pain.

I went to work today and it was really nice to hear from all my coworkers, including Liz, how proud they were of me. Didn't really expect that. It was nice. And I've got to say, the overwhelming amount of love I've gotten from my tumblr family has been amazing.

I'm back, stronger than ever!

(working a double shift tomorrow, so I doubt I'll get a chance to post a race recap until Tuesday)

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2 Years Home

2 years ago, today, I moved home from California, where I had lived for 5 years. I left all my friends and everything I had known. Moving home to live with my parents was filled with uncertainty. I was a new person out in California. Somebody with hopes and dreams. It would have been very easy to get depressed and eat myself even further into obesity than I already was. In fact, for the first few months, that's what I did.

But then, I realized, with the help of my Aunt that this was an opportunity. An opportunity to transform myself into who I always wanted to be. I chose to seize that opportunity. 2 years later I can now proudly say that I am a half-marathoner. It was just 7 months ago that I ran my first 5K in Baltimore with my twin brother. Today, I did this alone. I pushed through every mile, never stopping. 

I know that I said my only goal was to finish the Half Marathon, but I lied. My secret goal was to finish in under 4 hours. Well, my official time was 3:48:01!

Considering I haven't ran in almost 2 months, I'm pretty thrilled about my time and pace. I beat 5 guys in my division! Small victories, but victories none the less!

So, after being home for 2 years I can now say that I have ran 5Ks, a 10K, a Warrior Dash, and now, a Half Marathon! I've lost 90 lbs, and I will get back to being 100 lbs down and more. I've found my inspiration again. I cannot wait to see what year 3 has in store for me.

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13.1 Miles... Officially a Half Marathoner.

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1st Half Marathon Tomorrow

Tomorrow I battle all the odds to become a half-marathoner. Longest distance I've ever done was a 10K, less than half the distance. I haven't trained. I'm scared out of my mind. But I'm determined to finish and that's all that matters. If I have to walk the entire thing I will, but no matter what, I finish. Time is irrelevant. 

(Elevation Chart)

(Course Map)

(What I'm racing for... well, the half-marathon version)

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Refusal To Quit: Countdown To My 1st Half Marathon

I've been pretty quiet the past couple of months. There's been a lot of personal turmoil going on with my weight loss efforts that put me in a hole I've been struggling to get out of. What I've been keeping quiet about was the Baltimore Half Marathon coming up. I never really got to train for it like I had planned and a month ago I decided I wasn't going to do it. 

I think deep down inside I knew that as it got closer to race day it would be harder and harder to quit. So, of course, a week before race day I decided that even if I had to walk the entire thing, on October 15th I would be participating in my first half marathon. 

5 days from now I'll be waking up, pulling on my sneakers, and heading out the door to complete my first half marathon. For me, it's more than just a half marathon. It's a slap in the face to bring me back to the reality that I'm not done losing weight yet. I have a long way to go before I get to a comfortable weight. 

It's time to see what I'm made of. Conventional? No. Smart? Not really. Inspirational? For me, yes. It's time to become my own inspiration. 

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Weigh In Week 73: Getting Better

SW: 354.6 Week 73: 265

Current Weight: 263.6

Weekly Change: - 1.4 lbs   Total Loss: -91 lbs 

I made some good changes this week. Rather than eating the cheaper, less-healthy options at work (Applebee's), I spent a couple extra dollars and made the healthier Weight Watcher's option. It clearly paid off. Less bad snacking this week and began to reintroduce more fruit into my diet. 

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Weigh In Week 72: A Really Bad One

SW: 354.6 Week 71: 260.6

Current Weight: 265

Weekly Change: +4.4 lbs   Total Loss: -89.6 lbs 

Talk about a slap in the face. It's very possible that a lot of this is just a fluke brought on by the fact that I drank the night before a weigh in which I never do, but whether or not that's the case, I need to get back in fighting shape this week. 

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Weigh In Week 71: First Week Back On The Wagon

SW: 354.6 Week 69: 262

Current Weight: 260.6

Weekly Change: -1.4 lbs   Total Loss: -94 lbs 

Sorry it took so long to update. I was in DC all weekend away from my computer. I did weigh in this week and it was a pleasant surprise. Despite a labor day weekend full of drinking and bad decisions I lost 1.4 lbs this week. This puts me at -94 lost. It's definitely not where I'd like to be, but I'll take it. 

Weight Watchers is doing their annual "Lose For Good" campaign again. There's 6 weeks left. Last year I donated 45 lbs of canned goods to the local food shelter in honor of the 45 lbs I had lost up to that point. This year I'd like to donate 100 lbs of food in honor of the 100 lbs I've lost. Which means, I have 6 weeks to lose 6 lbs and be back at 100 lbs lost AND I have 6 weeks to collect 100 lbs of canned food. If anybody is interested in donating and would like to send me some canned food, send me a message.

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"Skinnylicious": Cheesecake Factory's New Menu

I tried the new Skinnylicious menu at Cheesecake Factory on Tuesday. It's worth going in just to watch the servers attempt not to crack up every time they say "Skinnylicious". I tried one of the items that didn't actually have "Skinnylicious" in the name, the White Chicken Chili. It was pretty filling and delicious.

My Dad got the chicken soft tacos which looked very good and he said they were great. One thing noticeably absent was any cheese on the soft tacos, but he said it wasn't missed.

My Dad's friend ordered the "Skinnylicious" Burger which was noticeably smaller than any other burger on the menu and came with a side salad instead of fries. He said it was more than enough food though. All of these items for less than 600 calories. From a place known for it's 1000 calorie dishes, you could make a much worse choice. 

It was a bit odd though that they have everything listed as being "under [insert #] calories" but didn't list the individual calories for each dish. I can only assume all the items under 590 calories have 589 calories. 

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Crisis and Recommitment

It's no secret that I haven't been losing much weight since May. As much as I'd like to say that my body just wont let me lose weight, we all know that would be completely moronic. What I have kept a secret is that this past month I've gained back some of the weight I've lost. I'd like to say that it's only a couple lbs, but based on what my home scale says, it's more like 10. I was only able to maintain my 100 lb goal for a week. 

So, here's a little catch up on my weight. The last time I posted a weigh in was August 9th. I gained 0.4 lbs. The following week was the first time I ever missed a weigh in. My 67th week on this journey. The week after that I gained 6 lbs. It was no surprise as I typically weigh myself at home. I didn't post my weigh in. The next week I gained 0.2 lbs. I didn't post my weigh in. This past week I didn't weigh in. I could say that it was because I was out of town this weekend and there were no Weight Watchers nearby, which is true, but I could have weighed in Friday morning. I didn't. 

July 25th I stopped actively posting on a regular basis. I had given up. My eating was out of control and I no longer felt the desire to post. I didn't want to admit to myself that I had thrown in the towel. This past week I tried on my size 44 jeans. They were incredibly tight. They zipped up, but I felt choked by them. I didn't blog about it because I didn't want to admit to myself that I was no longer maintaining my loss, I was gaining. It wasn't just a number on a scale anymore. 

It's important that I address something that happened on August 18th. I wrote a post that seemed to stir a lot of emotions in people. I said that the community I had depended on and relied on had died. Most everybody came to the defense of the community. Few people recognized it as a cry for help from me. It's very easy to support people when they are being successful, it's very hard to recognize when somebody needs your help the most. I know that I have not been the best when it comes to supporting people back on tumblr. I think it just all became a bit too overwhelming for me. To have received so much support when I started this blog and to have seen it die off when I needed it the most upset me. I lashed out. I recognize that what I did was nothing more than another excuse. An excuse I could use for abandoning my blog other than the fact that I was scared to post the truth. I needed help.

There's been a lot of things going on in my life since July. A lot of people don't realize that for a large part of my weight loss my social life, with the exception of a couple people was essentially non-existent. I used this blog as a substitute. A way to connect to people that I wasn't experiencing in my everyday life. In July I joined an adult kickball team. The friends that I have made on this team are a welcome addition to my life. I truly cant remember the last time I've had so much fun with such an amazing group of people. Unfortunately, it also reminded me of a sad truth. While most of these people have jobs and live on their own, I still live at home and I work as a server at Applebee's making very little income. It saddens me that these people who make me so happy also remind me of a sad truth. At the moment I feel trapped in a life going nowhere. This depressed me and I believe it pushed me to a breaking point. It seemed like my weight didn't matter if I was trapped doing nothing with my life.

The past couple weeks I've committed to something I've been thinking of doing for a long time. I'm currently looking into going back to school to get my Master's Degree in the Fall of 2012. Though it disappoints me to have to wait almost an entire year to move my life forward, I cant let my current situation derail the other goals I have. It's time to get back on the wagon. I need to recommit to my weight loss. I need to recommit to this blog, the good and the bad. It seems like I need this blog now more than ever. 

While I don't believe going back to school is going to be a magical cure, it's a step in the right direction. At the same time, recommitting to this blog is not going to magically make me lose 10 lbs. I'm going to have to work extremely hard. It's time. My break is over. Weight Loss Journey 2.0 begins today.