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Random snippets of my mind, usually in verse/chorus form.

[aculamd]

#oddlyrelevanttoday #inthebeginning #poetry #anantisuicidesong

[aculamd]

A good example of how I see this blog of mine. It looks and feels maybe 10 years old at this point....

[aculamd]

Blindsided by the truth? Reactionary process Living life just for you? Occultlike practices

It’s not the moon Or even the stars It’s what’s inside your head That closes these bars

A watery grave To enslave Chain me up once again The mess I made A big mistake Beat me down once again

[aculamd]

Wash you away with the snow Nothing I say you wanna know Purge you out of my mind Gotta do it one last time

Pure as the snow we both know is a lie But I can wipe the slate clean if you know What I mean With my minds eye Even so you tell me to go so why Should I try?

One more lie To get you out of my mind

It’s a hoax A witch’s spell

[aculamd]

9/16/14

The sweat on my brow

The blood on my fingers

The shirt on my back

The thought that lingers

Mean nothing to me

Everything

Means something to me

Mean

Tone knob full throttle

Keep that shit bright

To see through this haze and 

Get my head on right

The dishes I clean

The bills that I pay

The children I hear scream

Cannot run away

Fortress of Solitude

Keep thinking

Fortress of Solitude

[hunterraiehorror]

Re-blog if you're accepting anonymous asks from anyone about anything

[aculamd]

7/28/2014

I met the ghost of Christmas future It burned Tore out my insides Left me with no soul And I wondered If it was for me If I truly believed If I could let it be My reaction was offensive But it was pure in intent I'm just trying to break free Find a future of content True happiness they say With a person you choose But can the polygamist cure This evil monogamists heart I look into the future I see only sadness Of giving up for comfort Yet driven to madness all the same It's all how I choose to respond Yet feelings are all that remain Hollow

[aculamd]

6/27/14

This doesn't seem to work All I can muster is the smirk That sends you into fits That makes you say out loud How proud I am of me How I could possibly be So mean to my face Laced with the anger you hold Towards the sun, or whatever bold New disaster is headed your way Today is the day I lose my self Deep within the thoughts The silence The masquerade

[aculamd]

2/19/07

I feel alive. Life is moving

All around me. And I am

Stagnant. Blew it.

I smell the heat

Each and every time

Subliminal

Lashing out this time

You could count my mistakes by the calendar

Full moon time

You can see how I've moved the parameters

I feel alive

[aculamd]

4/29/06 10: and 40 past the hour (5:46 am)

Into obscurity

Further and further into oblivion

It's the cheesy love song

And it's got you by the strings

Cheesy love song

No more North and South

Now it's East and West

5:57

6:05

"Walk away with that"

What the fuck is that?

All one word, no punctuation

[aculamd]

3/25/14

You can meet your maker

Anytime you choose

And fulfill this morbid

Death wish you have

Or you can play nice

With everyone else

Here in the sandbox

And keep to yourself

You do your parents proud

Chew with your mouth closed

Love me

Obey me

There is no other way

The joker lady commands

And relates her convo with the christ

Trust me

Praise me

Or you can just play nice

Like everyone else

Here in the sandbox

And keep to yourself

[aculamd]

5/1

To make the comfortable

This uncomfortable

It won't get any better

Any time soon

To make your head

Turn slightly right

To send a chill

Up your spine

To question

Ask why

When you cringe 

In wild bewilderment

Unbridled confusion

When you finally understand you

Are no longer in control

There I'll be

Singing love songs

Confusing you more

[aculamd]

5/23 8:45 A.M.

Listening to the extreme

Part of my mind

Listen for that gleam

That crazy look in your eye

Choose joy the sign said

Registered in my head

I just wanna vandalize

Or maybe I just realize

What is in store for me

_____________

Lunchtime

_____________

I'm a creature of habit

[aculamd]

10/16/06

The words you spoke were heavy

Yet simple to understand

The words you spoke weren’t many

Your demand my command

Connotations

Implications

Complications

Instigations

The words you spoke were heavy

Yet simple to understand

Problems arisen can be many

If we get out of hand

What you say is what I feel

What you feel is what you said

And I still say this can’t be real

We must stay within our head

You do know what you said?

[aculamd]

2/28/2007 28 on the 28th

Awesome friends that 

Just don't do it

She's my brother

I'm her sister

Tell me a story 

And or a secret

She's another

Try to keep it

[aculamd]

5/24/07

Might as well be on Mars

I'm no longer breathing

I'm no longer thinking

Might as well be on Mars

I'm no longer sleeping

I'm no longer eating

This Two-headed monster is no King Ghidorah

My only fear is that i'm  gonna bore ya

Indecision conservation

Another mental masochism

Is there something that i'm missing?

The red liquid love leaves my veins

Create the flood extinguish the pains

I'm no longer caring

I'm no longer sharing

I no longer understand

Might as well pee on bars

[aculamd]

2/03/13

How did time escape me?

Throwing us to the wolves

My negation predates me

Turning into food

The thought of happiness

Is foreign and unsure

And I have it

Do I speak the language?

Explosions of inane aptitude

Drawing upon a bad attitude

Time moving forward at a steady pace

Slow and steady wins the race

Not sure what I'm up against

Other than me

It's like I'm seventeen

Oh February, how you mock me