matt solís

Matt Solís. 24. Chicago native. Your local barista that invented latte art. Snake mama to my ball python, Coco. Still figuring shit out like everyone else.

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text ✉️ solane

REAGAN: when it comes to my baby-ness, some people will find me aggressive. it's FINE. as long as they know i'm baby.

REAGAN: OR, because I know I'm going to get wrapped up in watching a bunch of hallmark Christmas movies this season (because you're soft) the least you could do is be scared with me in front of the tv. i'll protect you!

REAGAN: ALSO i'm gonna swing by starbucks today just to look at you in your cute little green hat and apron!

REAGAN: and then i'm going to order a blackberry cobbler frap which you'll have no idea how to make ❤️

MATT: I should've never sent you "I'm baby" memes. I became Victor Frankenstein and created a monster I shouldn't have :\

MATT: I grew up being heavily Catholic, very few things scare me. But I'll comfort YOU, ya scaredy cat

MATT: IT'S NOT CUTE. I HATE MY JOB LOL

MATT: Green is my color, but at what cost :(

MATT: Also I'm going to send you the most loving fuck you rn pls hold

MATT: 🥰🖕🏼

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text ✉️ solane

REAGAN: You're 100 percent correct.

REAGAN: I'm ALWAYS baby 😠😠

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REAGAN: anyways, this is some sort of double entendre because as 'ur baby' i need you to watch spooky things with me. like now

MATT: Whoa

MATT: What an aggressive baby

MATT: I think just watching you be aggressive is spooky enough for me

[ssweeneys]

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text ✉️ solane

REAGAN: Give me your recs of the best American Horror Story seasons! Make sure you have proof!

REAGAN: I’d also appreciate ways to not feel like a total wimp and get through a single episode without turning it off to feel less scared.

REAGAN: I really thought I was more of a badass.

MATT: ur baby

[streetsmartstevie]

In case folks missed the memo, I’m back in action from my shop swap in Cali. It was both the best and worst couple months of my life– got to meet a lot of great artists, networked, got started on the sleeve that I’ve always wanted, and lived with my best friend. Downsides? My best friend is a damn slob and San Francisco is a bitch to bike around. God, those hills murdered my legs. 

Either way, it's good to be back in NYC. How are other folks doing? Excited for Halloween party season?

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So you can fuck around and start getting YOUR sleeve done, but fuck my sleeve huh. Just bounce and leave to San Francisco and leave Matt looking basic. 

I’ll remember that. 

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YES, I lost my old job. YES, no other coffee shops wanted to take me in. YES, I I work at Starbucks now. YES, they make me wear the stupid green apron and hat. YES, they don’t appreciate my coffee artistry and the fact that I practically invented latte art. And yes, I hate my job. 

Mind your business.

[pucker-sauce]

Ya girl back on the scene. Ladies get at me!

Also, feed me…

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Still so needy, I see. 

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text 📲 m&ms

MERCEDES: It's come to my attention that I don't have a Halloween costume and this is a problem.

MERCEDES: The possibilities feel too endless. Help. I will pay in songs and lullabies.

MATT: Depends

MATT: How slutty do we (you) want to get?

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texts ✉️ solane 🤧

REAGAN: Actually, I think it might've even made us closer. Or stronger. Not you know. This. If you told me, I mean.

REAGAN: You can miss me all you want. I'm glad you do.

[...]

REAGAN: Is it helping? I mean, I know you might not change your mind about any of it. But I really do hope you can figure it out. Not for me, or us. For yourself, really.

REAGAN: Because I really do want you to be happy even if it's not going to be with me.

MATT: Maybe

MATT: I'm not. It makes all of this that much harde| [deleted]

[...]

MATT: Idk yet. I'll let you know if it is. We're mostly just trying to pinpoint how and why I've come to feel this way and how to undo it. It's a lot. Overwhelming.

MATT: I think I'm taking a break on love for a bit. Not in the headspace for it.

MATT: Or any availability in my heart for it [deleted]

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texts ✉️ solane 🤧

REAGAN: I honestly don't think I could ever hate you.

REAGAN: Unless you bought gas station flowers.

[...]

REAGAN: I don't have any resentment. I have a lot of other feelings, but it's not hostile. It's not resentment. Mostly I just miss you. And some other things. But they're not really against you.

REAGAN: I'm not either. I've mostly just been drinking wine and demanding Harper watches golden girls reruns with me and trying to gas myself up on my own.

REAGAN: But really, you could've just said it. I wouldn't of judged you and maybe we could've found ways for you to understand more about what you're feeling.

MATT: That's fair haha

[...]

MATT: I miss you too. I know I shouldn't since I broke up with you, but I do.

[...]

MATT: I'm trying to understand. Talking to my therapist about it. Though I could easily curse Freud or smth.

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texts ✉️ solane 🤧

REAGAN: You told me why you broke up with me and I think it's a valid reason, but a frustrating one that I really wish I could help you with but I cant, apparently. Not like you'd let me anyways.

REAGAN: And my sincerest apologies for the nudes. I apparently do that when I'm sad. Sad and intoxicated. It's unlike me.

[...]

REAGAN: Definitely not happy. I've been moping all day, thank you very much.

REAGAN: A horrible reminder that you broke up with me? Yes. But that wasn't exactly my choice.

[...]

MATT: I just didn't want you to hate me, okay? Most of my relationships always end with some sort of resentment towards me and I just didn't want that from you.

MATT: Should I have addressed all this a little more carefully? Yeah. But what other way could I say it? I'm not the poster child for proper coping mechanisms with feelings.

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texts ✉️ solane 🤧

[...]

REAGAN: You're the only other ex I've wanted to text. This is weird and I hate it.

REAGAN: Happy would be six months, Matt.

[...]

REAGAN: Sorry.

REAGAN: For saying that.

[...]

[...]

MATT: Yeah

MATT: You should be fucking sorry for that

MATT: First I tell you why I really broke up with you and later on you send me a drunk nude. And now we're here in this really weird space. And NOW you tell me "happy would be six months?"

MATT: Nothing about this is exactly "happy"

MATT: It's just a horrible reminder.

MATT: So please

MATT: Don't.

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texts ✉️ solane 🤧

REAGAN: I'm sure it is.

REAGAN: Doesn't mean you had to dump me, though. [DELETED]

[...]

REAGAN: I can say all I want, and I will. It's true, anyways.

REAGAN: I don't think anything is really going to make it easier. Especially not today.

[...]

MATT: Right.

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djjeffries‌:

i always thought the mature thing to do in a relationship is let the other person make the decisions that affect them but i’ve also never really had a solid or successful relationship so you should take my advice like a grain of pepper tbh. 

anyway, i hope you’re doing okay matt. even without a rad haircut.

Neither have I, so I’ll take a pound of pepper from you, DJ. 

I am doing okay, though. A lot better, really. 

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TEXT ✉️ get yo mackie on

MATT: Depends. Am I allowed to laugh at the children?

JACKIE: Hell yes.

JACKIE: And when the instructors dance in between the kiddie sets, you best better clap for your girl.

JACKIE: Me. I'm talking about me.

MATT: Wow what an attention whore, Jackie. The recital is for the KIDS.

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TEXTS || MATVIE

EVIE: I've never claimed not to have a bias, Matt. In fact I've been quite open about it and when she 'ghosted you' I was sympathetic. I don't agree with every decision Lara's made, but I will always be her biggest supporter.

EVIE: This is not a competition. At least, I never intended it to be and to be frank if it's become one that's down to you. All I wanted to do was clear the air. Tell you my truth and let the past rest.

EVIE: This may come as a shock to you, Matt, but our feelings and experiences do not have to align for them both to be valid.

EVIE: I'm painfully aware my brain can be intimidating. All I can say is that it's clearer now more than ever that what one may consider an asset another may feel is all they have going for them.

EVIE: You know what? Let's just both agree we've been intimidated by each other and move on.

[...]

EVIE: I'm not going to dictate Lara's relationships. I have opinions and I'll always share them because I feel that communication is the most important part of all relationships but I will never attempt to control her friendships. That's unhealthy and not my place.

EVIE: I don't mean this to sound rude, but any worries I've had about you in the past have been left there. I know the only people who can ruin this relationship are Lara and myself.

[...]

MATT: Let the past rest? I'll believe it when I see it. Because I highly doubt you can let go of these "facts" about me that easily. Can't let sound data go or whatever.

MATT: Also, I'm really curious what your brain thinks about the whole "move on" bit because like

MATT: Is it "move on" as in ignore each other's existence or is it lik e

MATT: "move on" and do the other thing?

MATT: And that's all I'm gonna say because I've typed too much for you :)

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texts ✉️ solane 🤧

REAGAN: I’m sure it’s awful.

REAGAN: Its valid. You’d work on it. Unless you would never want kids even if you would allow yourself to. Which is fine. But I don’t think that’s the case.

REAGAN: I don’t see any chance of you doing that. You’re too caring and protective and loving.

[...]

REAGAN: You sure have meaning to me. You’re more than enough. You’re kind of like, everything.

MATT: It's just...complicated.

[...]

MATT: Don't say these things, Reagan. You're not making this any easier.