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i just fixed a typo 7 months after the fact

#going through old writing is......... painful #ooc

thinking abt revamping this blog ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ ??

#bc i just........ love galra so much #too much #ooc

redbonded.

it’s PISSING him off: how composed thace is, how easy he makes it seem, & above all, how out of control keith feels in contrast. like a piece of string, unravelling at the fibres — brittle & DEFECTIVE. but no one LOOKS at him the same ; they don’t see the red paladin.

❛ because – LOOK at you ! it’s you, and the blades and – the fact that this alliance is HANGING on a thread because you’re all GALRA ! it doesn’t MATTER that i know what’s important because the minute they see me trade in my bayard for the blade they’ll —- ❜

his fists tremble, shame pushing his fingernails into the skin until arms collapse to their sides. the buildup of air in his lungs forces its way out of his nostrils. his adam’s apple works at his throat, slow & scared & full of remorse. his remark, nothing short of an offence to thace, pulls back behind a cage of teeth, but it’s already settled like wood to a bonfire: sweltering, consumed, & a little to late.

❛ they’ll distrust you ? HATE you ? would you blame them ? ❜ & though the dregs of something barely sweeter than animosity –— a blaze of hackles striping between his shoulder blades, a different kind of arc QUAKING under his skin than the hot steam cracking keith’s –— tingle at the base of his skull, he feels UNDERSTANDING more clearly than anything else.

❛ i’m well aware of what being a galra implies, paladin. usually the purple gives it away. ❜

open palmed, he beckons. dismissive. ❛ as it is, i never said anything about them seeing you. i’m offering to TEACH YOU , because someday it might save your life, or someone else’s. but if you don’t want to learn, say so. i’ll spend my time elsewhere. ❜

#( & verse : main -- divergent )#( & redbonded -- 01. )#( gosh keith u need a TIME OUT )#redbonded

cfmusings-blog

I don’t mind not getting a happy ending if it means ——————–

you get yours.

#( & field notes -- musing )

he's getting very irate that thace keeps working despite being advised several times to sit down and take a break. antok was personally losing patience quite quickly, so he does the next best thing by leaning his forehead against thace's shoulder. heavily.

❛ –— antok. ❜ it jumps off his lip with a BARKING lilt, the growling cadence enough to be a loose warning. he has to heft his shoulders, muscles plying like a river over stone, to balance antok’s weight. his elbows flex, dropping, to tug his claws from the console, if only to make room for an exhale.

❛ that isn’t going to work. ❜

#( & verse : main -- divergent )#praevaliduum

‘ you are good enough. that includes all of your decisions & flaws & strengths. you are doing great. ’

MEME

there’s a ROLLING in his gut like the dark waters at the PIT of an ocean spinning until they’re black & useless, rotted salt. he’ll never be able to shake the jeering sensation of GUILT from between his shoulders, of the way it teases with a ruthless relentlessness.

… he doesn’t WANT to shake it. he likes the reminder.

❛ –— that’s a nice SENTIMENT , i suppose. but i need to do BETTER . good enough doesn’t win wars, antok. you know that. ❜

#( & encryption -- ask )#( & verse : main -- divergent )#( thace voice : sure jan )#praevaliduum

spctlessminds

this meme is based on this wonderful positive blog.

‘ be patient. ’ ‘ healing takes time. ’ ‘ i hope you have a restful night & go to bed knowing that you are loved, because you are. ’ ‘ i just wanna cuddle you before bed & hold your hand while we sleep. ’ ‘ i want to giggle as you wrap me in a big bear hug. ’ ‘ if something makes you happy then you are never too old for it. ’ ‘ let yourself grow past the inhibitions which are holding you back. ’ ‘ live life unapologetically. ’ ‘ mistakes are okay. everyone makes them. it’s okay to forgive yourself. ’ ‘ never be afraid to stand up for yourself because that it super important. i know it’s scary, but you & your feelings matter. ’ ‘ no matter what happens, it’s going to be okay. ’ ‘ no matter what your goal is, no matter how far you have gotten, you will make it one day even if it’s a long way off. ’ ‘ please don’t give up. ’ ‘ repeat after me: everything will be okay. ’ ‘ repeat after me: we are going to get through this. ’ ‘ sometimes things take time. ’ ‘ things will work out, but good things take time. ’ ‘ you are & always will be enough. ’ ‘ you are alive, you deserve love, & you will be okay. ’ ‘ you are good enough. that includes all of your decisions & flaws & strengths. you are doing great. ’ ‘ you are good. you are not your mistakes. you are a good bean & i believe in you. ’ ‘ you are valid & deserving of love. ’ ‘ you deserve all love, kindness, hugs, & puppies in the world. ’ ‘ you do not need validation to survive. ’ ‘ you made it this far & you deserve it. ’ ‘ you will heal. ’ ‘ your body & soul are a work of art, a masterpiece. ’ ‘ your life is okay. you aren’t doing it wrong & you don’t have to question everything you do. you’re doing wonderfully, i promise. ’ ‘ you’re allowed to let yourself be happy. even if you’re dealing with shit, you’re allowed to live your life. you aren’t required to put your life on hold while you are going through other bad things. ’

#( & data stream -- meme )

celestialtype.

There’s some immediate part of her which bears its teeth; which GROWLS at the suggestion of a GALRA seeking to understand her, TO KNOW WHAT IT IS SHE FEELS. How dare he condescend at her!? She smothers the sensation, but only barely; she is trying to trust their allies, and such is hardly likely to be assisted by using her prejudice as a SHIELD to allow her her own —— weakness? Brows furrow; frustration blooming, yes, but more than that. Is he RIGHT?

She spins her staff within her fingers, the movements idle; she notes the digits shake just so and marks it down to exhaustion. “— I don’t believe I’m weak.” A pause, and when she manages to drag her words from her throat to her mouth once more, voice is UNCHARACTERISTICALLY small. “But I am…afraid to be helpless. I was helpless to save my world. I was helpless to save my father. And I was helpless to save Shiro.”

The staff stills in her hands, grip tightening; knuckles strain beneath bruised flesh. “Can you not understand why I would wish to ensure to myself that I am strong?”

❛ i do understand. but i think there’s strength in knowing your limitations, too. ❜ his throat jumps in a quick swallow. determination harbors the flex of his brow, bowing out over the sharp glint of his eyes.

❛ kolivan used to say : sometimes the greatest challenge is knowing when to stop. i’m not as wise as he is, but i like the sentiment. everything gets a little easier, i think, once you acknowledge that nothing is ever entirely in your control. ❜

he lifts his hand, claws uncoiling in a domino pattern. ❛ the princess of altea, zarkon, a drazil –— no matter how hard they try, no matter how strong they get, will never be able to change the past. that doesn’t make them helpless. it makes them fools for continuing to try, when there’s a future still in front of them. ❜

#( & verse : main -- divergent )#( & celestialtype -- 02. )#( everyone needs a lil tuff love from thace )#celestialtype

praevaliduum.

when he feels the pressure on his shoulder, what was left of the tension leaked out of his muscles in the form of another sigh that he made obvious with the way he leans back into his seat. “ don’t get too comfortable now. would hate for you to go soft after all this time. ”

he reaches up to scratch behind his own ear, letting out a short grumble as he had. “ whatever this fate has in store for us — we’ll be prepared, i’m sure. i would expect no less. ” and who KNEW what it would have in store for them? it was only by some miracle that they both made it out of what was meant to be their deaths. they couldn’t afford to slip up now. not now after surviving and thriving.

“ …but, you are right. a moment to relax should not be taken for granted at any time. ” antok shrugs his opposite shoulder slightly, turning his head up towards the ceiling for a brief moment. “ …and here i thought, you never knew what sitting down meant. you’re always busy with SOMETHING. ”

❛ i’m still learning. ❜ his bristled PAST doesn’t settle easily in this world. most days he is a coat of thorny PRICKLES all over the caps of his shoulders & over the curl of his spine. only now do they lie flat, smooth. antok is a comfortable warmth, curled like this.

thace is careful not to let his eyes close too long.

❛ i don’t think it will surprise you to learn that empire soldiers don’t get very many vacations. not even the high ranking ones. ❜ he exhales the thought lamely. his breath is on the decline, muffled slow & soft in the crescendo of antok’s shoulder. ❛ besides –— i like being busy. ❜

–— it keeps the ghosts quiet.

#( & verse : main -- divergent )#( & praevaliduum -- 04. )#praevaliduum

ooc. spring cleaning + hw day ! but i’ll be on IM if you want to chat :)

#( & mission debrief -- ooc )#( unless i die )#( bc i have so much latin to translate i might actually die )#( lingua latina me mordet in gluteo maximo )

ooc. this is roughly 92% of my skype interactions

#( & mission debrief -- ooc )

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mm boi

I would kill you. ✧ I would physically hurt you. ✧ I would attack you unprovoked. ✧ I would manipulate you. ✧ I dislike you. ✧ You annoy me. ✧ You scare me. ✧ You intimidate me. ✧ I hope I intimidate you. ✧ I pity you. ✧ You disgust me. ✧ I hate you. ✧ I’m indifferent toward you. ✧ I’d like to get to know you better. ✧ I’d like to spend more time with you. ✧ I’d like to be friends with you. ✧ I’m unsure what to think of you. ✧ I’m unsure how I feel about you. ✧ You are my friend. ✧ You are my best friend. ✧ You are my mentor. ✧ I look up to you. ✧ I respect you. ✧ You are my hero. ✧ You inspire me. ✧ You are my enemy. ✧ You make me happy. ✧ I want to protect you. ✧ I would fight by your side. ✧ I consider you an equal. ✧ I think you are beneath me. ✧ I think you are above me. ✧ I would lie for you. ✧ I would lie to you. ✧ I would sleep with you. ✧ I would sleep by your side. ✧ I would hug you. ✧ I would kiss you. ✧ You are family to me. ✧ I would die for you. ✧ I would kill for you. ✧ I would trust you with my life. ✧ I would trust you with my most precious belonging. ✧ I would trust you with a secret. ✧ I would trust you with my biggest / darkest secret. ✧ I love you (platonically). ✧ I love you (romantically).

#( & encryption -- ask )#( thace voice : i would do literally anything for u )#luxiteleader

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:o !

I would kill you. ✧ I would physically hurt you. ✧ I would attack you unprovoked. ✧ I would manipulate you. ✧ I dislike you. ✧ You annoy me. ✧ You scare me. ✧ You intimidate me. ✧ I hope I intimidate you. ✧ I pity you. ✧ You disgust me. ✧ I hate you. ✧ I’m indifferent toward you. ✧ I’d like to get to know you better. ✧ I’d like to spend more time with you. ✧ I’d like to be friends with you. ✧ I’m unsure what to think of you. ✧ I’m unsure how I feel about you. ✧ You are my friend. ✧ You are my best friend. ✧ You are my mentor. ✧ I look up to you. ✧ I respect you. ✧ You are my hero. ✧ You inspire me. ✧ You are my enemy. ✧ You make me happy. ✧ I want to protect you. ✧ I would fight by your side. ✧ I consider you an equal. ✧ I think you are beneath me. ✧ I think you are above me. ✧ I would lie for you. ✧ I would lie to you. ✧ I would sleep with you. ✧ I would sleep by your side. ✧ I would hug you. ✧ I would kiss you. ✧ You are family to me. ✧ I would die for you. ✧ I would kill for you. ✧ I would trust you with my life. ✧ I would trust you with my most precious belonging. ✧ I would trust you with a secret. ✧ I would trust you with my biggest / darkest secret. ✧ I love you (platonically). ✧ I love you (romantically).

#( & encryption -- ask )#( thace voice : i barely know u but i would die for u )#flamerought

✧ (slides this @ u)

B^ )

I would kill you. ✧ I would physically hurt you. ✧ I would attack you unprovoked. ✧ I would manipulate you. ✧ I dislike you. ✧ You annoy me. ✧ You scare me. ✧ You intimidate me. ✧ I hope I intimidate you. ✧ I pity you. ✧ You disgust me. ✧ I hate you. ✧ I’m indifferent toward you. ✧ I’d like to get to know you better. ✧ I’d like to spend more time with you. ✧ I’d like to be friends with you. ✧ I’m unsure what to think of you. ✧ I’m unsure how I feel about you. ✧ You are my friend. ✧ You are my best friend. ✧ You are my mentor. ✧ I look up to you. ✧ I respect you. ✧ You are my hero. ✧ You inspire me. ✧ You are my enemy. ✧ You make me happy. ✧ I want to protect you. ✧ I would fight by your side. ✧ I consider you an equal. ✧ I think you are beneath me. ✧ I think you are above me. ✧ I would lie for you. ✧ I would lie to you. ✧ I would sleep with you. ✧ I would sleep by your side. ✧ I would hug you. ✧ I would kiss you. ✧ You are family to me. ✧ I would die for you. ✧ I would kill for you. ✧ I would trust you with my life. ✧ I would trust you with my most precious belonging. ✧ I would trust you with a secret. ✧ I would trust you with my biggest / darkest secret. ✧ I love you (platonically). ✧ I love you (romantically).

#( & encryption -- ask )#( undercover bros )#voiidlost

✧ :^)

;^ )

I would kill you. ✧ I would physically hurt you. ✧ I would attack you unprovoked. ✧ I would manipulate you. ✧ I dislike you. ✧ You annoy me. ✧ You scare me. ✧ You intimidate me. ✧ I hope I intimidate you. ✧ I pity you. ✧ You disgust me. ✧ I hate you. ✧ I’m indifferent toward you. ✧ I’d like to get to know you better. ✧ I’d like to spend more time with you. ✧ I’d like to be friends with you. ✧ I’m unsure what to think of you. ✧ I’m unsure how I feel about you. ✧ You are my friend. ✧ You are my best friend. ✧ You are my mentor. ✧ I look up to you. ✧ I respect you. ✧ You are my hero. ✧ You inspire me. ✧ You are my enemy. ✧ You make me happy. ✧ I want to protect you. ✧ I would fight by your side. ✧ I consider you an equal. ✧ I think you are beneath me. ✧ I think you are above me. ✧ I would lie for you. ✧ I would lie to you. ✧ I would sleep with you. ✧ I would sleep by your side. ✧ I would hug you. ✧ I would kiss you. ✧ You are family to me. ✧ I would die for you. ✧ I would kill for you. ✧ I would trust you with my life. ✧ I would trust you with my most precious belonging. ✧ I would trust you with a secret. ✧ I would trust you with my biggest / darkest secret. ✧ I love you (platonically). ✧ I love you (romantically).

#( & encryption -- ask )#( just bros bein bros )#praevaliduum

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¯\_(ツ)_/¯

I would kill you. ✧ I would physically hurt you. ✧ I would attack you unprovoked. ✧ I would manipulate you. ✧ I dislike you. ✧ You annoy me. ✧ You scare me. ✧ You intimidate me. ✧ I hope I intimidate you. ✧ I pity you. ✧ You disgust me. ✧ I hate you. ✧ I’m indifferent toward you. ✧ I’d like to get to know you better. ✧ I’d like to spend more time with you. ✧ I’d like to be friends with you. ✧ I’m unsure what to think of you. ✧ I’m unsure how I feel about you. ✧ You are my friend. ✧ You are my best friend. ✧ You are my mentor. ✧ I look up to you. ✧ I respect you. ✧ You are my hero. ✧ You inspire me. ✧ You are my enemy. ✧ You make me happy. ✧ I want to protect you. ✧ I would fight by your side. ✧ I consider you an equal. ✧ I think you are beneath me. ✧ I think you are above me. ✧ I would lie for you. ✧ I would lie to you. ✧ I would sleep with you. ✧ I would sleep by your side. ✧ I would hug you. ✧ I would kiss you. ✧ You are family to me. ✧ I would die for you. ✧ I would kill for you. ✧ I would trust you with my life. ✧ I would trust you with my most precious belonging. ✧ I would trust you with a secret. ✧ I would trust you with my biggest / darkest secret. ✧ I love you (platonically). ✧ I love you (romantically).

#( & encryption -- ask )#( & yet.... he doesn't think himself above u..... 👀 )#vrepit-sa

cosmicdvst.

❝…It’s a part of me,❞ he comes to answer, gaze holding steady in his resolve; ❝I’m not sure how much, but I…❞ I want to know about the pieces that I can. To finally have something, after stretched years of a cold and empty nothing, he felt starved, and this… this was the moment he’d been famished for.

How could he deny the fruit of knowledge for its stigma?

❝So tell me, what’s it like to be Galra? Before… before Zarkon, what… was it like? Has there ever been another human and Galra cross before?❞ A flurry of question dance of his tongue, effortless in an innate curiosity, and something like fascination shines against violet.

❛ zarkon was already emperor when i was born, and much of our history has been … withheld. most of what i know comes from old stories told by wiser blades, like kolivan. the blade itself is proof that the galra were not always like zarkon. ❜ SENTIMENT rises in a resounding echo ; how much thace would give –— had given –— to know a time before zarkon.

steepled brows drag over the bridge of his nose, & he exhales his contemplation. he has a grim scythe where his mouth should be. ❛ it seems … unlikely. even after earthlings were studied, they were considered too primitive to be a threat, and, likewise, to be of any use. even as a colony, a species that can barely master nuclear power is LAUGHABLE to most galra. ❜

❛ –— the blue lion is what brought the empire to earth. i’m sorry, paladin … i don’t know what could have brought a blade. ❜

#( & verse : main -- divergent )#( & cosmicdvst -- 02. )#( thace voice : jokes on u i actually know 0 )#cosmicdvst

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