Regina Eilish Keating

| Regina Kane | 23 | Irish |Unemployed

[addictiveregina]

lostsadie:

Everly glanced up at her with a half eyeroll at her comment. Surely, she would have gladly allowed Regina to win the title if it meant she didn’t have to live under a fake identity. She always felt she was looking over her shoulder, for the law to find out she was a fraud, for old enemies turning up, even old friends like Regina, because they were a risk to her remaining hidden. She just had to hope it was obvious Regina couldn’t go around talking about how she ran into Everly. It had to be Sadie. “Yeah totally, babe.” She quipped. “Don’t tell anyone I’m here, okay? If for whatever reason I do come up in some conversation I’m Sadie now.”

Regina shrugged her shoulders gently, looking over at the newly met Sadie for a moment before nodding. “Sure, sure dude. Who would I tell anyway right? It’s cool, I get it. It’s nice to meet you Sadie.” She broke out into a grin, shooting the other a cheeky wink before taking anouther drink of her lemonade. “Anything I need to know about Sadie? Is she as fun as Ev used to be or is she more straight fucking laced.” 

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declankeating:

“Hey, you never know. She could be reasonable like me.” He responded jokingly, nudging Regina’s side. Although in all honestly, Declan could be very stubborn too, so he hoped it was a quality their daughter would outgrow. Declan left his hand on her stomach, feeling the little flutters every couple seconds. Interacting with her before she was even born was the craziest thing, but she knew she was talking to Declan. Or…kicking his hand. It made sense inside his head as he pressed gentle kisses to her stomach. “She’s going to be a night owl like us. I’m not mad about it. At least we’ll already be awake when she starts crying, right?” He teased, giving Regina a small smile. He never in a million years thought he’d be here, married again, having a baby. The first marriage shouldn’t have even counted, but to have the real thing…a woman who didn’t plan on leaving him anytime soon, who was carrying his child, it scared him how excited he was. He was so excited about her name, the name the had agreed to keep a secret until she was born, because it was just too badass and there was a chance someone would copy it. But the minute people heard it, there would be no question she was a Keating. He was lost in thought while communicating with their daughter, but his eyes shot over to her as she said his name. “Yeah, babe?” He asked, raising an eyebrow as he moved up on the bed to be eye level with her. “I love you, too. I was just thinking about it.” He admitted honestly with a smile, eyes glistening as he looked at her. She was so beautiful. “You’ve changed mine, too. You know that. I was nothing before I met you.” Maybe that wasn’t entirely true, because he was an amazing tattoo artist with his own shop. But emotionally, after his ex wife had just ripped his heart out, he was no one. And then Regina came along, sticking with him through the whole thing only for them to be the ones to end up married. “You know that I couldn’t do this with anyone else, right? Marriage, kids…but I look at you, and it all makes sense.” Without saying anything else, he leaned forward to kiss her softly. 

“Pigs could fly too, but i’m not holding my breath.” Regina smiled softly, wriggling her hips slightly to nudge him back without having to move too much. “It’s like she’s communicating with morse code, hilarious but fucking painful, we get it now Princess. You can stop for the night.” The mother spoke to her stomach, craning her neck slightly so she could see it before winking at her husband, starting to laugh lightly. She nodded though, raising an eyebrow. “Well at least when you’re awake, I like my sleep so you can rock her instead of sketching how about that?” Her tone was of course joking at this point, a twinkle in her eye. There was no way she’d ask him to constantly forgo his drawing time to hold the baby, just some of it, after all they were going to share things that was always a given. Otherwise neither of them would be getting any sleep. She shuffled on the bed slightly, moving to lie on her side so the two of them were facing each other, but Regina could let her eyelids droop as they wanted to, because otherwise she’d be falling asleep sitting up which would cause hell on her back. “I love you more than anything.” She whispered, tracing her finger across his cheek, up it again, then down the top of his nose. “You’re so handsome.” It was like the woman was drunk, the tiredness intoxicating her so whatever popped into her head came out of her mouth without a second thought, if she’d realized it was happening it would have made her laugh, but she was none the wiser. “Don’t be silly, you were amazing before I met you. Just not as amazing.” She smiled slightly, a lazy grin that only used half of her mouth, curling up at one side. When he pressed his lips to hers she let her eyes flutter closed, kissing him back softly. “Well you don’t have to do it with anyone else, you just need to do it with me.” She whispered against his lips, kissing him again for a moment with a contented flutter in her heart. One she always got when the two of them, well three of them, were together just like this. 

[addictiveregina]

lostsadie:

“About a year,” She answered. Her ex husband hadn’t ever brought her any harm, at least not directly or intentionally. Fact was that he just played a dangerous game and Sadie got caught up in it herself, as fearless and wreckless as she could be. Especially before she had the wake up call of actually being shot. She took in a deep breath and shrugged. “Not sure.” She answered. “Like I said, I just have a lot of enemies now. Don’t really have a number to put to it.”

“Fucking shit face...” She muttered to herself, not really sure how to react to that. “I thought I was wild but you fucking took the prize away from me didn’t you. Had to outdo me.” The girl smirked her signature lazy smirk, stretching slightly in the chair before taking anouther sip of her tangy lemonade. “So what you fucking came back to London to find me so I could protect you, you are so cute.” The conversation was a heavy one, but Regina didn’t want to get weighed down with too much stuff because she was already feeling incredibly fragile in general. 

[heikkibun]

@mxrileythomas @anakinhxli @rapperkon @veracoynefischer @thepoetdustin @addictiveregina - I am always there for you, even when no one else is. Love you all dearly. —Aina, Heikki

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Month eight...okay so....has a human ever fucking exploded from being pregnant?  #bumpdate #eightmonths #hurryupbaby

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reesespieces86:

“If you weren’t carrying my favorite tiny human, I have a feeling we’d be wrestling quite frequently. We wouldn’t even need eye shadow because we’d have constant black eyes,” she snickered, though she knew the chances of every laying a hand on her friend - pregnant or not- was pretty much slim to none. Don’t get it twisted, the girl may be small, but she could fight and take care of herself, though she knew she’d never have to with Regina since they shared a sense of sisterhood that was rather hard to come by on a day-to-day basis. “Of course it is. It’s the only human I know who is shorter than me. Therefore they’re my favorite by default.” Once the kiss was blown, she threw her hand up in the air to catch it. “Man, I haven’t been kissed in a while. I’m going to save this and cherish it, only to be used on one of those dark and lonely nights when I’m feeling a little frisky,” she winked, sliding her hand over her sides in a somewhat sexy fashion before acting like she was stuffing something into her back pocket. “Ah well, you know I only say it how I see it. But I don’t need you opening up the damned flood gates and flooding the flat, so I’ll try to keep my compliments to a minimum. Though I must warn you - I make no promises,” the brunette said, holding her hands up in mock surrender. “You think a restraining order is going to stop me? Oh love. That’s adorable. You know how stubborn I can get when I want something. I can get locked up and I’ll find a way to escape and see that child. I can promise you that.” A warm smile spread over her features while Regina spoke about how the baby was kicking and how the parents were already in love with the bundle of joy that would make its grand debut before they knew it. The girl deserved this happiness and she was glad that her friend was being blessed with something good for once. “I still have yet to feel the kick. How’s it feel from the inside? Does it hurt as much as people put on?” When the conversation turned back to her, she sighed, and just nodded her head. Although the split was mutual, Reese still wished that there was a way that it could have gone differently, but everything happened for a reason, and although at this time they couldn’t love one another as a couple at least they could love one another as friends. She simply shrugged her shoulders, not really wanting to talk much about it, given the fact that she was finally in the mindset to try and move on and not let her heart yearn for something that she wanted but could no longer have. At her statement, she smirked, and nodded a bit. “You’re right. I’m just going to do me for a while. Maybe even forever, but that’s neither here nor there,” she stated, waving her hand dismissively. “I’ll dust myself off, move on, and hold my head up high. Always have. Have to anyway. If I don’t look up, I’ll never see anything,” she laughed.

“We can still wrestle if you want little lady, bring it on i’m ready for you. I have a load of additional pounds on my side.” She cackled, although a sick feeling rippled through her stomach since holding the extra weight wasn’t something she was pleased she was holding, but said nothing just running her hand over her stomach gently. “I’ll give you a black eye now bitch.” The fighting talk was purely banter though, Regina didn’t have a very good relationship to any of her blood family so Reese was as close to having a sister as she had anymore, she loved her like one, so she wasn’t going to inflict any pain on her if she could help it. She hoped the smaller woman knew that despite what she said pretty much every time she opened her mouth. Although the next words from Reese did make her laugh, properly belly laugh, but there was a hint of the truth in it, she was pretty small and the baby was smaller than her at least. It made Regina’s eyes water slightly it was so funny, her hand going to the corner of them to wipe it away a little. “Jesus fucking piss sticks that was awesome,  awesome and so very true. The baby will be smaller than you for at least….well a month…so enjoy it while it lasts right?” Her tongue came out of the corner of her mouth as she wiggled it around a little, finding the whole situation very amusing. In fact it was relaxing her a little bit, being able to let her hair down and just breath for a second, she wasn’t thinking about her weight in that moment, or having to give birth, or how she had no job, she was just focusing on how funny she was finding everything going on in their conversation right now. “Oh baby, you want to be kissed like that again? You know i’ll make out with you anytime you need to let off some steam, Declan wouldn’t mind, he knows I only really have eyes for him and i’ll be just helping you out.” She flashed her a deft wink, blowing more kisses across the table. It truly was surprising that the two of them had never done anything physical at all, just because they both loved having a good time so much, Regina normally ended up at least making out with all her friends at some point. At least when she’d been a little more wild that is. Maybe it would come back again in a couple of months. “It hurts like a fucking bitch, If I didn’t love this kid I’d be punching it back overtime it kicked. It used to be a flutter but now it’s full on, mostly at night which Dec thinks is cute and funny. I just think it’s an abuse of power.” The smirk on her lips told anouther story but that was neither here nor there. “Next time it kicks i’ll let you know, you can feel it. You’ll feel how strong it is against your hand, imagine that was your ribs.” Eyebrows raised she nodded approvingly at the statement about moving on, it was a grown up way to look at it and although she’d never say it out loud before Regina wasn’t the ‘mother’ of her friends she was incredibly proud. It was a girl after her own heart who could see that dusting herself off would be the best way to deal, not harping after something that wasn’t coming back. “Good girl, you fuckin’ show him and all that empowering shit.."

[addictiveregina]

lostsadie:

She nodded and shrugged apathetically. “I mean I know if you’re trying to file a divorce and the other person is nowhere to be found, you can try a few months to reach out, sometimes newspaper mentions or mail if they can find you, but if you don’t hear back after so long a lot of the time they’ll push it through. Guess it depends on the circumstances, though.” She mused before shaking her head. “Honestly doesn’t matter though, I’m not associated with the name I was married under now anymways. As long as nobody I’m hiding from finds me I’m good.”

“How long have you been gone?” She asked bluntly, but Regina wanted to know what kind of danger the girl was in because not only was she her friend, or used to be, but it sounded like her husband was an utter maniac and she didn’t want to inflict that on her child by default. Even if she didn’t say that out loud, for once. “So how many people are you hiding from?” Looking at the dark brown haired girl in front of her she frowned a little, her mind flashing back to the nights they used to spend out on the town together high off their faces so they could hardly remember anything in the morning. “Fuck man...this is some crazy shit.” 

[addictiveregina]

lostsadie:

She took in a breath when Regina harped on her for not properly telling the story. She didn’t really want to recount it in detail, what was the point? “Yeah, we moved to Bristol and got married. Then he started moving guns, then a lot of people got shot up at our New Years Eve party because we made a lot of people very angry.” She explained as she massaged her temple with her middle and forefinger while hunched over the table. “Well, we didn’t officially get divorced. I just ghosted on everyone when I got out of the hospital, but I assume he’s put through the paperwork by now.” She answered as she leaned back in her chair and crossed her arms over her chest.

“Fucking bloody shit.” Regina marveled, not really sure how she’d be able to cope if something like that had happened at a party she threw, then again she’d probably caused peoples deaths before thanks to the drugs she would sell them, hardcore drugs like cocaine and heroin, not just the more innocent weed. “Wouldn’t you have heard if he’d put the paperwork through? Like, you’d have to fuckin’ sign something as well, it’s not a one way divorce.”  She didn’t want to sound negative, because she was glad the girl she’d once called a friend had gotten away from such a toxic environment but at the same time she was doing what she did best and telling it exactly how it was. 

[addictiveregina]

lostsadie:

Sadie rolled her eyes a little, the move to Bristol had been an easy decision. She was in love and deep in the workings up the underground, and all about following her now ex husband south to continue their drug business. On top of that, living in Bristol meant being near her adoptive parents, and that had been nice for her. She’d grown up without a family and it was nice to have one, even if she had to disappear from them too. “Yeah, they were, right? I didn’t care so much at first, I was just stupid and in love and shit.” She elaborated. “Then I got shot by some of those enemies we made and that was the kicker for me. Grassed what I knew about the other people involved, not my husband or his friends, but enough to get some of it shut down. Only threw people under the bus that deserved it. Afterwards, rather than let the law decide what to do with my I left and I met a guy I know to put a fake identity in the system for me. Birth certificate, credit score and all that.”

Regina had made no pretend that she thought moving to Bristol for a man was a stupid idea, she’d made it clear as day when ‘Sadie’ left, but she wasn’t going to hold it against her now. Not only because she knew now what it was like to be in love with someone that much. Declan could tell her they were moving to Africa tomorrow and she’d be packed before lunch. “Yeah, yeah they were the shit.” A lazy smile drifted across her lips as she allowed herself a moment to remember, sometimes she thought of them as her glory days, other not so much. It depended. “Yeah I feel you man, but you know...love is a powerful fucking thing. Really trippy.” Regina sighed, frowning a little as she listened to Sadie lay out her story. “Exfuckme? You got shot?” Now she had her attention, sitting up as swiftly as she could with her new figure she looked aghast, not liking the sound of that. “Husband? Hold on, you’re like not even telling this properly. You married him? And now you’re what...divorced and you ran away? Fuck.”

[addictiveregina]

lostsadie:

“Lot of shit just happened after I moved to Bristol.” She answered vaguely. It was still hard to go over the exact events that had brought her to change her identity and run, part of her felt like she’d always be looking over her shoulder because of it all. “Married that guy I left with. Remember, my plug for the drugs I sold? Yeah, well he decided drugs weren’t good enough. Sold guns for a bit and a lot of people got hurt, once I couldn’t handle it anymore I left.” She explained as she looked down at her sandwich, not even touching it now that she’d started talking about Bristol. She took in a deep breath and made herself take a bite, not wanting to seem too messed up about it all. “Happened to make some enemies and get my name known being with him though, which is why I’m Sadie now instead of Everly.”

“I told you not to move to Bristol but that’s anouther fucking point.” Aubrey said slightly tongue in cheek, a smirk playing on her lips as she looked across at the other woman, although it seemed like she might actually be being quite serious. “Oh shit, you two got hitched? Thanks for the invite babe.” It was in her nature to make light of everything, but sensing she should pipe down Regina stopped smiling, composing her appearence into something more subdued. Listening carefully to what she had to say. “Guns? Well shit...I dunno why he thought those drugs weren’t good enough because between you and me they were  dope.” She’d taken her own load of them several times, enjoying the high they brought no end. Regina didn’t know how to deal with hearing that Everly was no longer just that, but now was in face Sadie. “So what, people call you Sadie now or somethin’ Fuck a duck.”

[addictiveregina]

lostsadie:

She unwrapped her sandwich before meeting Regina in the eyes when she asked what was new. It was such a loaded question, especially when almost everything was new for her. “Well I changed my name.” She answered. “And my whole identity, actually. Kinda why I wanted to get you alone so I could catch you up.”

“Your name” Regina raised her eyebrow, looking at the woman with amusment mixed with confusion. “Dope, why?” Although the answer seemed to come moments later, making the girl lean forward on the table a little, her elbows resting on its top as she frowned. “Seems a bit fucking drastic, you on the run from some shit or what?” Sure it was steeped in joking, but there was a seriousness with it too. She got what it meant to be scared of someone in the lifestyle they kept, or she used to keep. 

[addictiveregina]

lostsadie:

Everly couldn’t help but laugh at Regina’s words. She certainly had her own way of saying things and Ev had always liked that, it was entertaining and occasionally pretty funny. “His asshole says your welcome.” She joked as she closed the door and flipped on a light switch in the dining area before she sat at the table with her panini and lemonade. 

“Well good, as long as i’m welcome.” She huffed, moving into the woman’s apartment and sitting down heavily with her lemonade, pushing the chair out quite a way to fit her stomach between it and the table. It was as if she was getting bigger by the second, sending Regina in to a bit of a tailspin whenever she was on her own. “So, what’s fuckin’ new with you mate?” She asked with a sigh. 

[addictiveregina]

lostsadie:

She nodded when Regina answered about her due date, “Must be excited to have your body to yourself again, huh.” She commented before scoffing. “Fun and drama, isn’t that what life is all about these days?” She joked as she approached a town house and walked up the steps while fishing the keys out of her purse. “Here I am.” She said as she turned the lock and held open the door for her friend. 

“You have no fucking idea...” Regina just muttered in reply, because it was true, Evelyn couldn’t even begin to understand how alien this whole thing felt to her, and not just because being pregnant was a new thing. “It’s what my fucking life is all about babe, apparently anyway. Thank Jesus’ asshole, I didn’t want to walk any fucking further i’m whacked.” She sighed, moving inside as the brunette held the door open for her, giving her a grateful grimace. 

[addictiveregina]

reesespieces86:

She rose a brow when the woman before her burst into a fit of cackles and she realized that yet again, she was a victim of Regina’s teasing manor in making her believe that she was actually infuriated with her. “You bitch. If you weren’t carrying my favorite tiny human in there, you know I’d kick you,” she laughed, shaking her head while doing so. “I just meant that I’m short,” she clarified with a roll of her eyes. “You’re beautiful and you know it. Even with that glorious baby bump. Don’t  try and convince me otherwise. It won’t work.” Both eyebrows shot up at the declaration that she wouldn’t be allowed around the child. Though Reese knew not to take that threat seriously. They were far too close to have her just up and deny her like that. “Mm. Well, I’ll just have to be crafty and find a way to get around it,” she spoke, tapping her chin as if she were conspiring up a few ideas. “Eh, I wouldn’t go with a mass text. If you’re not doing a reveal, I’d just wait until they are born, then when you’re ready to share photos with the world, send out announcements of the birth. It’ll be a double surprise. Like Hey! I had a baby! This is their name! But on the downside of that, you’ll get a shit ton of gifts after the birth as opposed to before to help you prepare for their arrival. In the end it’s really up to you and Declan. Regardless of what it has between it’s legs, you know I’m going to love and spoil it. You know that.” Hearing her agree with her about her own behavior before she left, she gave a slight nod. “Yeah, me too. It’s so nice to just be able to have a clear mind and move forward. As for the pieces of my life - okay that may have been more dramatic than I attended. I just meant the worrysome nights I’d be kept awake searching for answers to the countless questions I had regarding important things in my life. Work, family, my then relationship. It was a lot to think about, and when your mind just goes in circles, it can drive you mad. Some questions have been answered, while others have not, but in the end, I’m alright. I think all I needed was a bit of time away to sort everything out one thing at a time rather than tackle everything head on like I usually do.”

“Oh baby if I wasn’t carrying your favorite tiny human then you’d have punched me by now. Wait, is this really your favorite tiny human?” She paused, asking in a serious tone, her hormone addled body finding that incredibly touching, more so than she would have otherwise. Honestly Regina was finding a lot of things a lot more emotional than she would have before, she’d cried more than ten times the amount she usual did, not to mention how gushy she was getting Declan at the moment. She blew the other a kiss across the table, leaning back in her chair with her hands across her budging stomach, a sigh coming from her lips. “Beautiful with a glorious baby bump? You better slow down there before I end up bursting into tears, because I actually will. I’ve been crying more than is probably healthy.” Her tone was a little edgy, not liking to admit what she thought was a shortcoming. Regina didn’t like to cry, where she was from it was a sign of weakness, one that she wasn’t willing to show. “A way around it, that sounds mighty sinister, you might want to be fucking careful about that mate i’ll get a fucking restraining order.” She cackled, shaking her head slightly so her brown hair moved in front of her face. Although she’d thought about all the gifts they might get before the arrival if she announced the sex of the child, because it would be a help to them financially no question, because she felt bad about how much money this was going to cost them as a couple when she herself was earning nothing. Honestly it gave the woman a sick feeling in the pit of her stomach every time she thought about it. “Fucking yeah we’re going to love it. I’m going to love this little shit to death, jesus, I love it when it’s kicking me ot death in the middle of the night of course i’m going to love it when it’s born. Dec is the same.” It warmed her heart how much of a connection her husband and their child already had with each other, when he spoke she kicked,  when she kicked he spoke, it was as simple as that. Regina loved it.  When Reese mentioned her now ex boyfriend Regina sighed, rolling her eyes so she could bite her tongue from all the terrible things she wanted to say about him. They had broken up on an agreement she knew, but it wouldn’t stop her siding with her friend over Chip. “Well.....you can move on now. Take everything with both hands. Tell everyone else to fuck off, right?”

[addictiveregina]

lostsadie:

fbikeller:

“Oh not far at all,” She answered. “I’ve got a good set up near the office just a little this-a-way.” She informed as she turned a corner and sipped on her lemonade again. “So when you due again?” She asked curiously, she certainly looked close to it.

“Okay good.” Regina got breathless faster now she was pregnant, not to mention she was sick as it was, her lungs were under even more staring. “Hmm? Oh, two fucking months.” She held up two fingers, wiggling them slightly. “I’m nearly eight months.” The woman explained, raking her hand through her hair. “You ran into me just in time for the fun and the drama.”

[addictiveregina]

lostsadie:

She laughed and shrugged, “Who knows, guess it depends on how ya’ look at it, yeah?” She joked as she crossed her arms and pursed her lips together while deciding on what she wanted. She didn’t mind covering Regina, she made decent enough money to support herself and occasionally cover her friends meals and whatnot, but she wasn’t going to press it if she wanted to take care of her own bill. “Alright, sure.” She said before ordering a beef and swiss panini and lemonade for herself. “Once our foods ready, want to head back to my place so we can talk?”

“Yeah I guess so.” The woman laughed, this was something she’d missed about Ev, they seemed to get along so easily. Sure it used to be with the help of drink and drugs, but apparently they were able to do it sober too. She looked at her with a raise of her eyebrow, talk back at her place, it sounded ominous but Regina shrugged it off because what was the point in worrying about something she didn’t appear to have any control over anyway. “Sure, sounds good.” She agreed, ordering a lemonade, nothing to eat though. She wasn’t comfortable enough just now. 

[addictiveregina]

reesespieces86:

Reese took a deep breath when she saw the woman crack a smile. The only one that could really keep her on her toes was Regina, because she was a no bull-shit type of girl who gave it to her straight and didn’t hold back. When she was mad, she was mad. When she was happy, she was happy. There was no faking it with her and that’s what Reese respected most about her. “Ah, well if something were to happen, at least there isn’t much of me to skin alive,” she teased. “You don’t have to worry about me leaving for good though. I’ve got a theatre to run, after all. But I promise. I know how it feels to be left. I wouldn’t wish that kind of pain on my worst enemy, I mean you,” she snickered. With the news about the pregnancy, Reese grinned wider, glad that it appeared that Regina was pleased with the result. “Are you going to do some big reveal?” she asked, excited for them. “It was…much needed,” she said with a nod. “You know how before I left, my mind was a whirlwind of thoughts? It was nice just getting out there away from everything and clearing my head. But I’m back now, picking up the pieces of my life that seemed to go to shit, got that all situated, and I’m back to my old self once again.”

Regina burst out into cackles when Reese smiled, seeing that she’d managed to scare her for a hot second which after all was all she’d really wanted. “Oh I see, not much of you to skin alive but a shit load of me to skin alive. I see what you’re saying, fucking bitch.” She uttered with a small smirk, not even noticing all the children that were scattered around, she should probably be watching her language. “Ah yes, your theater, how could I forget. How’s that all going? Everything still standing when you got back or has it been burnt to the ground?” She teased, tapping her fingernails against the table as they chatted. “Oh you mean me do you? Fuck you asshole. I’m not going to let you near the baby anymore.” The girl threatened, an empty threat because the second she was born Regina would want her best friend somewhere nearby to come and see her. They’d need to coo over her together, that was for sure. “What? Fuck no, i’m not american. Probably just like...i dunno...is a mass text a good enough way of telling everyone?” Declan would never agree, plus she was only half serious about that being the way anyway. “Before you left your mind was in the shitter, i’m glad it’s better now though, because I didn’t know what to do with you. Picking up the pieces of your life?”