Well unless baby p comes in 1 hour and 20 minutes looks like my valentines baby is going to be a March baby.
Thinking about the induction coming up is traumatizing in itself, the fear of uterine rupture terrifies me. Frankly I’d still rather wait to go naturally, even if I’d have to live in the hospital for all the extra monitoring they want to do. I don’t feel ready to have him yet because clearly our bodies aren’t ready to separate yet. I want that to be a decision made by nature and pray it would be as idealized as I need it to be to not be traumatized all over again.
I’m tired of being treated like a ticking time bomb when the rates of still birth are still so low. I cry at least once a day about the trauma I’m already anticipating or have faced already.
