to the stars who listen

"You want to fly away but, your roots keep holding you down."

[addisonxoconnell]

[female & she/her] Welcome to Aurora Bay, [ADDISON O’CONNELL]! I couldn’t help but notice you look an awful lot like [DAKOTA JOHNSON]. You must be the [THIRTY-FOUR] year old [THERAPIST]. Word is you’re [OBSERVANT] but can also be a bit [DETACHED] and your favorite song is [CIRCLES BY PIERCE THE VEIL]. I also heard you’ll be staying in [AURORA BAY DRIVE]. I’m sure you’ll love it @aurorabayaesthetic

warnings: mentions of suicidal ideation, parental abandonment, miscarriage

basics:

full name:  Addison Renee O’Connell

nicknames:  Addy, Ida, and Teddy used exclusively by her siblings

gender:  female  

pronouns:  she/her

sexuality:  heterosexual

aesthetics:  a lingering hint of perfume in every room she visits, a never-ending supply of notebooks and pens littered throughout her house, small lamps of warm light shining in corners to hide her messy life

age:  34

date of birth:  april 1 1990

zodiac sign:  aries

residence:  aurora bay drive (due to her husband)

occupation:  therapist

appearance:

faceclaim:  dakota johnson

height:  5’7

build:  slim athletic build with most of her strength in her arms and legs

eyes:  blue

hair: dark brown

piercings:  both lobe and upper lobes of ears, nostril stud, and a navel piercing

tattoos:  left arm sleeve, ‘777’ tattooed above her right antecubital, 'bite me' tattooed on her butt cheek, 

other distinguishing features:  though her siblings look more like their mother, Addison looks most like her father

style:  she’s very much into jewel toned colors and goes for more comfort than what’s in fashion. In a way, she’s settled nicely between the all black attire of her brother and the brighter colored attire of her sister

personality:

traits:  observant, melancholic, thoughtful, quiet, aloof/detached

labels / tropes:  the caim, the metanoia, 

mental health:  up in the air if she’s honest 

physical health:  the only reason she’s where she’s at physically is because yoga and kick boxing keeps her emotions in check 

likes:  French style hot chocolate, knitted blankets, yoga on the beach, weekly personal spa day at home, pastel highlighters, and the months of October and November 

dislikes:  the overwhelming smell of alcohol when someone drinks too much, the brightness of the afternoon sun, her parents, and cold food

fears: turning into her mother, spiders, her husband leaving her, and too small spaces

hobbies:  reading smutty romance novels and fantasy novels, daily word search puzzles while she drinks her morning coffee, half ass attempts at knitting which end up as an incomplete project collecting dust, smoking at least one pack a day (she’s supposed to be quitting)

skills:  considers herself an average yoga master, decently good at surfing, knows how to make homemade pasta and usually pairs it with her homemade alfredo sauce, 

quirks:  when nervous she twirls whichever ring she finds first on her hand, she needs coffee before any interaction with anyone including her husband, she likes to keep some money in her wallet just in case something goes wrong with her card

family:

mother:  Janey O’Connell

father:  Keith O’Connell (deceased)

siblings:  Arkin O’Connell & Eden O’Connell

birth order:  Arkin, Addison, then Eden

spouse / lover:  soon to be wc

children:  none (has had 3 miscarriages)

pets:  a cat named Lady 

notable close relatives:  Nikki Keaton, Erica Manning & Serena Keaton

faves:

ice cream flavour:  brownie batter

time of the day / night:  early mornings

weather:  rainy weekends

breakfast food:  yogurt parfait 

dinner food:  salmon alfredo pasta

colours:  teal and gold

wanted connections:

Childhood friends

The best friend who's been there from the start

Her own personal trainer at the gym 

Her usual tattoo artist that she will only go to 

Her girl gang 

Neighbors

People she does yoga with in the mornings

Her own therapist 

Her current husband (it will end quite messy) 

Her high school ex boyfriend (a love will blossom here in the future)

A frenemy in which they have to get along with each other either bc of family involvement or possibly husband involvement 

High school enemies that never really got over the betrayal so they continue to hate each other (maybe a boyfriend was stolen)

Husbands personal assistant (in the future he will leave addison for this woman due to having his baby)

biography:

Addison O’Connell didn’t think she’d live past the age of eighteen. She didn’t know what would suffocate her first - the never-ending grief of a life she’d never get, or the hole left in her heart from when her father left. It does sound quite selfish if you didn’t know the whole story, and you didn’t understand that at one point for a brief second, she did have a piece of happiness before it was ripped away. 

Addison was born three minutes after Arkin. Mostly a surprise for the O’Connell family, as they were certain a baby would fix all of their problems (but not two babies). She grew up as being always waited on second to her brother. He seemed to be the loudest of the two, so he got anything and everything first. Not completely understanding it until grade school, she tried to follow in his footsteps and be loud and demanding as well. This resulted in a spanking and to be quiet. In all of her life, she never tried it again after that. A lesson was learned very quickly and probably wasn’t the best one for her young mind. Things weren’t going to be fair for her. She tried to be jealous of her brother. She tried to want more for herself, but it turned into wanting more attention than anything else. 

Addison did everything she could to make her parents want to love her. She tried cleaning the house after school, doing all of her homework, and even figuring out how to make breakfast one morning (it was burnt toast). It never seemed to work. She was never met with a loving hug or any word of praise. It didn’t matter what she would do because her parents simply didn’t care. A fact that no one else in the world seemed was out of the ordinary. As if everyone avoided their children, when she knew her friends’ parents were completely different. 

It wasn’t until their third child, their third attempt at fixing a horrible marriage, that their father had left. Addison never knew if it was from getting cold feet at having another mouth to feed or another soul to crush. A harsh statement, but as she didn’t feel anything but disgust for the man. It wouldn’t have been right to try to convince herself it was anything more honorable. A father he claimed to be, she didn’t see any resemblance of the fathers of her friends. There could have been a small light of hope that if part of the problem was gone, things could’ve been better for the O’Connell family. It eventually died out, with their mom having two jobs just to stay afloat in the two-bedroom apartment. The added stress meant more nights they’d find their mom passed out, either in the bathroom or sometimes in her bed. It left Addison and Arkin to raise a baby mostly on their own. 

This had more of an effect on Addison as she continued to grow in the same environment that didn’t change if she was there or not. Besides keeping Eden alive and out of harms way, there wasn’t anything else needed from her. Arkin had his own life going on, and he didn’t necessarily need her as much as she needed him. She grew relaxed in her studies, the former high scores were slowly turning into more and more red marks and concerns from teachers. She started to sneak out at night after everyone had gone to bed. She tried to fill the hole her father left with anyone she could convince of being with her. The rumors going around certainly had its own troubling affect on her, but it only served as more fuel to stop trying. 

Surprisingly, she continued her life at Ocean Crest before her brother was able to help turn everyone’s life around. No, she didn’t do any better in school and would be an awful student if college was ever in the future. But, Addison figured out, finally, that things had an effect on Eden and that maybe she might need to set a better example to follow. She could say it was the spite of proving her parents wrong. To show her mother how to actually be one when she wasn’t consumed in her own grief and despair. But two very important people would say otherwise. Her brother and sister wouldn’t have let her leave without them, and she didn’t want to leave them alone in the world. Not after everything they had been through together, it was just about a tradition at this point to stick together. 

The idea of college never really appealed to her, but it was a way out. It was something new and different, and maybe she’d find a better version of herself out there. Which she did eventually find. It took some time and a few new habits gained instead of continuing on bad ones, but Addison O’Connell was able to turn her life around. She decided to become a therapist with the idea of helping people who really wanted a way to be better and not knowing where to start. She doesn’t know how much Aurora Bay might need her, but she wanted to be there for someone else like her. Addison wanted to be that person she never had as a child. 

[addisonxoconnell]

closed starter for @edenxoconnell

location: eden and amelia's apartment at ocean crest

Addison knocks on the door once she makes it to the apartment Eden shared with Amelia. She's worried that her text came off as far too serious than what probably needs to be. Her brain justifies the sudden emergency when she found herself daydreaming about said thing and nearly spilled the dirty paint water on the floor.

"Hi! I brought emotional support ice cream just in case." It's one large tub of chocolate oreo mixed in.

[sverate]

[rubysue1909]

[addisonxoconnell]

How would your muse react to being abruptly kissed by their crush?

"I truly do think it would be a foot pop moment. If you know, you know. But in all honesty, my head would be screaming in joy because hopefully that means answers would be given. And maybe we could stop tip toeing around each other and just do the damn thing.

Also, I would easily so quickly kiss back. Probably a little too aggressive. But I'd just be matching energies, okay?"

[addisonxoconnell]

🥞 Pancakes - What is their go-to comfort food?

"My go to comfort food? Probably animal fries. I can always tell when miss monthly pain in my ass is coming because I'll seriously veg out on that and a burger with extra onions and a chocolate shake while watching whatever trash reality show I've dived head first into."

[addisonxoconnell]

What does your muse love about their crush / love?

"What do I love? Uh, I'm going to go with like because love feels a little too much like jumping off the bridge and who knows if that word will ever happen.

Anyway... It feels a little too out there to say his hands. I feel like that makes me sound like some horny teenager ready to jump his bones. And if that would ever be the case, no one needs to know. But his hands are always warm and my heart tries to run out of my chest whenever ours brush up against each other.

In a more mature fashion, I like his eyes. Words he doesn't say, you can see them in what his eyes are telling you. I like catching him looking at me. I like being a little more vulnerable with him because I know those eyes won't judge me as bad as others would."

"God, I feel like a lovesick puppy - this might be the death of me."

[addisonxoconnell]

[ TXT ] : tell me a secret you’ve never said out loud. + caleb

[ text ] : is this a serious question?

[ text ] : because if so, what are 3am secrets compose of?

…

[ text ] : I’m afraid I’ll never be good enough for anyone or anything. I’ll be stuck in limbo land while everyone else around me gets the life they want.

[ text ] : you have to give me a secret in return. I can’t be the only one exposing my neck this early in the morning.

[addisonxoconnell]

Does your muse like kisses?

“Oh I love kisses. I love giving and receiving kisses. Regular kisses, neck kisses, forehead kisses, cheek kisses, booty kisses, all over kisses, and maybe some nibbles mixed in there too.”

[oscarwatson]

who: open / @aurorabaystarter where: fired up pizzeria

Oscar didn't often go out to eat because honestly he liked to cook. Sometimes after a long week of dealing with bullshit, he'd grab something to eat. With summer coming up, his classes were all more excited to talk summer plans than anything math related. While normally he could deal with it, after a week, he needed a break from it all. As much as Oscar hated to admit it: there were a lot of students that didn't care about math. There were a few here and there that did, but most of them now were annoyed they had a little bit more of the school year left. The week had been extra tough on him and while Oscar tended to not go out unless it was absolutely necessary—because he hated running into parents, students, or former students—it was necessary today. He let out a loud sigh the moment he opened the door and saw how crowded the pizzeria was. So much for an evening of calm. "Is there a place here that isn't so crowded on a Friday night?" he asked, knowing all too well the answer was no.

[addisonxoconnell]

"Friday night? That's like asking if the ocean has less fish." Considering Addison never really cooks and is one for ordering more takeout than actual sit down restaurants, she knows usually when the right time is to grab said take out. This time is might've not worked in her favor as she looks at the crowd.

"By chance, did you order to go?"

[lucacochrane]

Luca had to admit that paddleboarding was a fairly new one for him but one that had been a quick favorite.

When he had first moved to Aurora Bay full time, he had tried surfing - to basically no result. Now, he basically was in a one-sided feud with surfboards, even if they were inanimate objects and had no idea that had kept him from doing anything board-adjacent and stuck to swimming for awhile. But eventually, a combo of living close to the beach and being active had piqued his curiosity.

"Do the leash first, you can pick whichever ankle." He motioned to his own leg, as he was getting his feet under him and twisting his cap backwards. "Then hold onto the sides so it won't float from under you when you put your knees up. Do you want to stay like that first, or do you want to go all the way to standing up?"

[addisonxoconnell]

Addison looks at the leash, not realizing it's what she needs for the board to not float away. In new territory she discovers that her brain doesn't compute as well with things she is used too. The leash makes sense, securing it to the ankle that moves first before she eventually takes the leap to get onto the board.

Surprisingly it's sturdy under her. The thick foam keeps her afloat as she takes a minute to gather her bearings, fingers gliding against the board as she settles into a more sitting position. It's almost too late as she looks over at the paddle in her previous spot. A quick reach that almost has her falling into the waters is able to pick it up before the gentle waves push her out into the open waters.

"I think sitting is okay for now. I didn't imagine this to be as sturdy even though it looks big enough for two. How did you get into paddle boarding?"

[edenxoconnell]

Eden: boy sos is always super concerning with us. Eden: you absolutely can come over! Eden: I'll get some snacks ready @addisonxoconnell

[addisonxoconnell]

addison: well i didnt want it to sound super concerning ya know no need for panic addison: we might need coffee too addison: be there soon xoxo

[caleb-majhi]

Caleb: hey Caleb: I would say I know plenty about paint Caleb: what do you need to know? @addisonxoconnell

[addisonxoconnell]

addison: uh, a lot of things apparently. addison: i'm at the paint store cause i was thinking about painting one of the bedrooms upstairs. addison: i need help deciding on one, color, and two, everything else i apparently need. addison: you feel like helping out your favorite girl? @caleb-majhi

[addisonxoconnell]

FAMILY - what is their family like? what is your ocs relationship to them? does your oc have any siblings?

"I truly don't know how to explain it all so perfectly that it fits everyone how I see them. I, honestly, hold a lot of guilt about my brother and sister. I feel guilty for letting my husband take me away from what I experienced with Arkin and his accident. I feel guilty for trying to heal my hurt while not realizing Eden needed someone in her corner. In a way, I feel so selfish for how things were before now.

Now, there's somewhat a sense of normalcy if there could ever be one in our family. We are all fine now and working towards having a better relationship with each other. I know it sounds silly to try to make up what I lost with Eden but that's what I'm doing even if it's coming off as annoying sister who is blowing up your phone all the time.

Arkin and I always had the twin bond, but now it feels more deeper. And with how his life is turning out, I don't feel as worried about him. I know another set of hands as him in case he falls.

For a moment, there was a time when I didn't see any light at the end. And now with the waters more calm, it's slowly coming into my focus. We are going to be alright and if we gotta do it out of spite then we'll damn do it."

@arkin-oconnell @edenxoconnell

[addisonxoconnell]

37: Is it easier to forgive or forget?

"Well, since I don't do either of those things I can't exactly say. I would think forget considering the brain is known to do that pretty well. I guess it depends on the situation. Would I forgive or forget what my parents did to me? No. Would it be different if someone forgot to pay me back for their doordash order? Yes."

[cyberglittter]

glitterbymaddy

[addisonxoconnell]

🎁 PRESENT - what types of presents would they be most happy to receive? are they good at gift giving?

“I’m more of a heartfelt kind of girl. I don’t need anything flashy or expensive. I would be thrilled if it’s anything I mentioned in passing or if it’s something someone thought I’d need.”

She scrunches her nose at the thought of how she was at giving gifts. Her first reaction is something similar to a sour taste in her mouth. “I don’t know if I’m good at gift giving because I tend to overthink it too much and question if it’s good enough or if it should be something more.”

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