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Do u wanna keep our logs on here or do u wanna add me somewhere else!

add somewhere else is good! i’m rarely on tumblr

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i’m looking for someone to keep me accountable while i loose, preferably around 15-18, i’ll also help motivate too!!

my cw is 36 kg

and my gw for rn is 32 kg

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“But your body deserves to be nourished”

My gigantic mass of fat does not deserve anything 😭

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okay!! finished “he’s to us” by becky abertolli and adam silvera (sorry i know i spelt one of their names wrong) last week and i’ve been trying to really think of the right words for this book review, but i cant. This book has left me speechless. It has such a good touch of realism and the most unrealistic love at the same time. This book made me want to believe that love in story books are based on real life, not just something people make up to make them feel better. For me personally, this book makes me think so much about the world, and how we end up where we are and who we are with. The plot of the story and edging most definitely did NOT disappoint. The character development from the first book to the second really captures what it’s like to grow up, do lead your life into different directions. This book also depicts what it means to really be inlove with someone, and that love really isn’t something you can force. The book tells a story that shows many different kinds of love. Platonic, unrequited, true love, and family love. Something that everyone should experience in life and I loved it. It’s definitely a 5/5 in my book.

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ITS NOT FAIR

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starting a new sims game today i hope they look better then the last ones i made

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he’s just like me

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i just finished “what if it’s us” by adam silvera and becky albertalli and just wow. I didn’t know how much a craved a cringy romance until now. ITS SO GOOD HOLY SHIT?? it has a great sense of hope and realism with corny romance and amazing friendships. The bonds between the characters and friends is something that i desperately want and hope for others in life and jt have a great depiction of platonic and romantic love. The book overcomes the feelings of heartbreak and the feelings of overcoming a past relationship and listening to yourself when you need time to process. and from the other perspective it shows how hard and complicated a first relationship can be and that you can just be a huge mess and still find a way to work past your messes and try a do over and that relationships don’t work if one person isn’t trying to make it work. I keep ranting and ranting because i have no one who wants to listen to my thoughts on this book. I saw the most of myself in Bens character and the way he thinks is very similar to my own and i can’t wait to see more of him in the sequal. if you’re looking for a cringy cheese but still sad and sentimental romcom to get you thinking about love and relationships then this book is for you. But be prepared for the harry potter and broadway references because they are there and they are detailed, i understood them because i am an ex- fan of harry potter and i also love musical storytelling like broadway but it’s not for everyone so keep that in mind.

what if it’s us is a 10/10 book for me i loved it dearly

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the urge to block everyone and pretend like i don’t exist is really tempting rn

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i’m going to go take pictures but i’m so scared bc i’m wearing a short skirt so you can see my legs. I HATE MY LEGS

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i wish i was pretty

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it has been a longggg time sorry about that but ANYWAYS i finished infinity reaper by adam silvera and ITS SO GOOD this series is insane i loved it so much i would 100% recommend if you like the idea of superpowers and queer things. the love triangle is so good i’m team ness all the way and brighton needs to stop oml he’s so annoying i can rant about him for days he’s horrible. But anyways it’s a great book and series i would highly advise you read it and i’m back!! after like 8 months..

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having to go to civics knowing that a girl in that class caused me a anxiety attack, 4 panic attacks along with an ongoing depressive episode is really fun

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help my hands are so shaky 😭

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my body dysmorphia is going up with every breath i take and it’s making me feel sick

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🚨SPOILERS TO THE FIRST TO DIE AT THE END

this page tore me into two but then apologized and i did forgive it.

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i finished “the first to die at the end” last night and wow. it was amazing, i loved connecting all of the characters to “they both die at the end” and seeing all of the parallels. I would say that this book has a lighter ending then “they both die at the end” it was so beautiful everything about it, the representation of love, the lessons you learn from each point of view. It was an amazingly sad book and i loved it.