vent account

i just wanna feel like someone's listening

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tw

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i do so fucking much for you yet you cant even be there for me when i need you, ever.

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drinkin wine in the shower because my lifes a mess and my best friend is even more of a mess and i dont know what to fucking do 🤘

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proud of how deep i got this

could be deeper though, i might go over it, my blade is kinda shit and dull

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i miss you so much budgie, i wish you got a proper goodbye from us.

when you went, everything started getting worse. it was bad enough already, but it feels like since i lost you, my life's just gone down hill.

at just eleven years old I'd promised myself that if i ever lost you I'd follow shortly after, and i didn't. I'm starting to regret that so very much now.

I'm an adult now, i never planned to be. i didn't think I'd get this far. i didn't think I'd be here without you, but i am, and i hate it.

I'm unhappy, I'm lonely, I'm a mess. i want to see you again, i want to be happy.

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i don't even know why I'm still here

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you're genuinely just never there for me when i need you

you talk big about being there to help if i need it, but fuck me if i actually need it, you've got better shit to do

get fucked asshole

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sometimes i wish you were there for me the way I'm there for you

but you never are and it really hurts

[sslimecat]

y'all ever just see spiders when you're stressed

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every few months like clockwork, suddenly I'm nothing to you again

suddenly I'm a nuisance

suddenly you don't want anything to do with me

i hate it, it makes me feel worthless

it makes me want to die

its not fair

why do you have to put me through so much all the time

i just want some fucking consistency with you

either you don't want anything to do with me or you do

please for the love of god make up your fucking mind

this is killing me

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kiss me, cut me, hold me tight and love me

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can't slit my wrists, its getting too sunny 💔

the upper arms and thighs just aren't doing it for me though, my wrists feel so fucking bare and its driving me up the wall

i can feel a fuzzy feeling where i feel like cuts should be and it makes my chest ache

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bitch took my good knife n now i can barely break skin 💔

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i have work in the morning

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i want a hug, man