For the Glory

When I was young I thought that money was the most important thing in life; now that I am old I know that it is. [ An independent RP blog for Team Rocket Serena. Read rules and about.] Selective | Multiverse | Dark Blog

[adminxsadique]

ceciditxheros

{ ♛ } - "Mon coeur..." My heart. Serena was sappy but she was a woman in love and it was hard to be other wise. Her face brightened at the sight of the other before strutting over. Ignoring the looks she commanded as she walks up to the execs side. Keeping her head tilted down a bit as she smiled, being so bold as to gently grab his hand. "How are you this morning, have you been well? How are your pokemon? Hopefully well."

     Look how her face was bright and her eyes twinkled for the man whose heart was black. This was love even if the love returned was never as romantic as she would wish.

[shiirakeru]

"No,

you don’t understand. It is impossible.” It was different for her after all. She wasn’t like the others, not like Serena. "You’re human.. loving comes naturally for you. It is different for me."

And she owed it to Pryce for stripping her of her humanity. He has given her too much, training her to be the best. It was because of him that she received her title. It was because of him that she became worthy of being Giovanni’s daughter. But with it, he took everything. It never once bothered her, knowing that she always had Silver and Giovanni and all the things that came with it.

But meeting this girl, what ifs had invaded her head, making her want more than what she has. It was a wretched feeling, seeing someone have something one can never have.

She brought her hands to her face, surprised at how her eyes reacted. 

"Even if I found someone.. I know I will be lying. I wouldn’t know how to react to things as real as love.. I will have to play a role. I wouldn’t even know I found them already. I am not real, I cannot love, I cannot be loved."

[adminxsadique]

{ ♛ } - She cared.

     Dear god did she actually care as she looked at the woman who so firmly believed she couldn't love. Who believed it was a lost cause that she of the walls she have built. Serena could never claim to understand as they come from two different worlds even if they now converged. Realizing that while she didn't have the others luxury she had that freedom and ability of emotions.

     To love someone wasn't difficult it came naturally and willingly with arms and eyes wide open. Frowning as Blue seemed to start crying and part of her wanted to reach out and hug her. Try and comfort the other but was that truly her place? Especially when she cause her superior such pain?

    "That's not true, regardless of what has happened to you or the struggle you have experienced. Even if you play a role you're gonna find someone and I'll even help you. I refuse to believe that you can't find love."

[lordgiratina-moved-deactivated2]

adminxsadique

→ “You know what’s fun? Getting visitors.” He said with a sarcastic tone. “Well, not really, but it gives me a chance to devour someone~”

[adminxsadique]

     "I would prefer you keep your cannibalism to yourself, I can just leave if you really desire so." Serena stated, honestly startled cause what the hell was this person and why was he threatening to eat her? It was only curiosity that brought her here now her hand were on the pokeballs at her waist.

[artsy-hime]

For adminxsadique and ceciditxheros. 

{This is also for a book cover and I used Serena and Red as the characters even if they don’t look much like it. I’m sorry if i butchered them}

[thelightofsinnoh-archive-blog]

outofsteel; Sooo just added some blogs onto this thing and rearranged some as well. Again I’m always on Hikari but other blogs are in rotation on who I dedicate a whole day too. Also decided that some days will have two blogs, but note this means I’ll be jumping between them.

   So if I’m not on one blog PROBABLY on the other one. So here you go.

Friday: crimsoneyedlegend

Saturday: ein-finsterer-idealist

Sunday: thelovelytomboymermaid

Monday: silentcharge

Tuesday: adminxsadique | corruptionofthetruth

Wednesday: maitredetective / hare-sora

Thursday: Whatever mood strikes or unused blog

[thelightofsinnoh-archive-blog]

outofsteel; Going to bed now. Good night!

[shiirakeru]

She wanted it,

the warm and the giggly. She wanted what she read in books and what she sees in movies. But what the other told her was something she could not do. To open herself to them, to talk, to bond.. to be hurt. How could someone allow themselves to be hurt? Those were the things she couldn’t do, even if she wanted to. She never liked anyone enough to want these, she never liked anyone the way Serena liked Red.

              And for this, she envied her. She was Blue, she could have               anything she wished for.. and yet she envied the girl who was               nothing but a toy to fuck.

And even if she did, she wouldn’t know. She’d never know. Everyone is different, she said, and Blue knew that. It was why she wore so many masks. The masks were there so she could… be normal. She wouldn’t know how to act if not for the masks. 

There was no real Blue to start with… so what was she to offer anyone? She was nothing but a collection of masks and roles, it was what made her efficient.

And it made her scared. Again and again, she made herself forget what she was. She immersed herself fully, sometimes, to the roles she played— the perfect Executive, The Evolver, Giovanni’s daughter.. but they were all roles. She was nothing. How was she to have someone, when she herself is nothing?

"It is impossible then." she said slowly, eyes burning.

[adminxsadique]

{ ♛ } - Oh the irony of thinking that Blue had everything, yet Serena possessed the one thing the other couldn't obtain. In this moment it felt like they weren't two rocket members or even two people who had fought. Just two girls that envied each other for having the things they each didn't have. 

     As tears formed in the Executive's eyes, for the first time Serena was reminded that in the end of the day... Blue was still human. Only a human being could feel so scared, can be so distressed, and long for the things so desperately. Yet was forced to wear a mask and play so many roles with so much on her shoulders. Fearing being hurt and closing off to others.

     Funny how only now did Serena finally remember that despite how the other may act she still felt pain.

   "Blue...?" She whispered, looking at the other concerned and almost in disbelief. Yes the other was difficult, unpredictable and a time bomb but there was always someone, "No... I don't believe it's impossible."

   These weren't empty words, or a way to try and get onto the others good side. She honestly believed it wasn't impossible as despite everything there always someone. "You can find someone Blue, no... You will find someone, you'll find someone who will make you feel comfortable. Who can help you find what makes you feel like this. I don't believe it's impossible."

[shiirakeru]

Love?

It was another thing she didn’t understand. She’s read countless novels, but she did not get why someone would act so stupid for the sake of the wretched word. And here is another person, giving her all to someone who only saw her as nothing but a hole to fuck.

"You love him so it’s fine? It’s stupid."

But she wanted to understand, to know what it felt like to be stupid for someone, to know how it feels to hope for another’s affections. She knew she’d never have this, she wouldn’t allow it. She wasn’t capable of something so… human. 

"What does… it feel like, though?" she looked away, hoping the glaze in her eyes would go away. “How do you start to love someone?" She loves Silver, truly, she’d give him her life if he wished it, but it was because circumstances had thrown the two of them together. She wanted to know if.. what if she had someone different? She has lots of people who’d come to her if she’d only say the word, she could pick one. "Why him?" Perhaps there are certain criteria and requirements to be met.  

[adminxsadique]

{ ♛ } - The expression and confusion on the others face had been expected as many are always shocked. Few could even try to comprehend her feelings and usually cause of their own. She smiled at the other as Blue stated how it was stupid to love and be fine. It was almost like a child, one who didn't understand something like that.

"I know."

   What the other asked next surprised her, now her own gaze turned fully to the young woman. Though Blue had since looked away as if afraid of something. A question on how it felt to be in love, how to start to love someone and why him. Serena hummed softly in contemplation as no one ever truly asked the why. It seemed like Blue really wanted to know and the glaze look was not lost on her.

    "Love isn't so simple, it can make you feel warm and giggly. Like you're on a cloud and nothing can bring you down and all you want to do is stay at their side." That was the good things, the taste of love that made you feel so much joy in their life. Though as it was shown it can hurt as well as she keeps trying despite the high possibility of only being hurt.

     "How...? You have to open yourself to them, you have to be willing to risk getting hurt and open yourself to them. Talk to them, bond with them, do many little things together and sometimes... It just happens. Before you know it all you can think about is them and Red found me when I was at my lowest. He made me feel beautiful and like someone that was worth more then to be thrown away." She had a sad smile on her face as she looked forward back to the couples. To those happy and joyful couples who would have a wonderful Valentines day while she's still just hoping to be seen as more then a fuck.

     "I wish it was easier to explain but that is what love is to me and how it happened for me..." Finally she looks back at the other, she knows the other never had someone to truly call her own. All those men she flirt with, the games played, yet Serena could see the other never got to close. Never felt that spark or shown such a desire but the fact the other was asking had confirmed such thoughts. 

     "...Love can't be forced upon, nor is there a kind of criteria to make it so as everyone is different."

[adminxsadique]

"I love making you squirm."

a really long, but categorized, ask meme

{ ♛ } - "Oh really now? Do tell me more?" She questioned as she looked at the other curiously.

[adminxsadique]

outofrockets; Let it be known that Serena is a full in love that knows that Red probably doesn't see her beyond that of a toy. And this fucking kills her yet she just keeps trying to stay with him cause he does show her kindness. So she clings to those small moment of actual kindness and how he seems like he cares. Ignoring that he calls her just a toy, even though she would never be just the one, and all that willing to jump if he says so.

This song is probably her theme song in that situation.

Reason I would sometimes hope someone come along and help her move on or something not that Red would be pleased but-

[shiirakeru]

"I don’t understand why you put up with him. You don’t seem to be after a promotion, so why? Aren’t you wasting your time on someone you can’t even put your faith in? If he can’t give you what you want, why bother?"

[adminxsadique]

{ ♛ } - "Well he isn't always bad, sometimes he can be really good to me. Usually when least expected. But you have a point, why would I stick with him? Why do I waste my time when all he wants is a toy to play with? It's not so simple as just drop it because I'm unsatisfied..." It felt a bit embarrassing as she wasn't sure the other would think her reasons were valid.

     "I love him, and I just keep hoping that eventually he will understand that. It's stupid yeah, especially since I know how he is so maybe I'm just a dumb fool. But that's just how it is, maybe my feels will change maybe he'll push the button that finally makes me stop hoping. But for now I just keep trying.." 

     Why was she telling the other this? She didn't know maybe she just desperately wanted to talk to someone. Maybe she was just really lonely that she's willing to talk to the one that destroyed her hair and threatened her. Being lonely is in her opinion worst then being hurt.

[adminxsadique]

"I want to fuck you until you’re raw and shaking."

a really long, but categorized, ask meme

{ ♛ } - "Oh my, but then how will I be able to work after wards?" She questioned playfully, amused at the others words. Though she knows that he definitely would try to do so if tempted enough.

[adminxsadique]

"Oh shit. I didn’t mean to trip you I swear, I’m sorry." (Hooker!Emma)

a really long, but categorized, ask meme

{ ♛ } - “I-It’s fine! Didn’t get hurt or anything,” The young woman assured a bit flustered over the misstep. Her Delphox, Cerise, had been walking at her side so the psychic was able to use it’s ability to keep her from actually falling. But still that was a bit embarrassing in a annoying way. Though this was just some stranger and she rather not make a scene, “I probably should have been looking a bit more where I was going. So don’t fret.”

[guardianoflumiose]

"Oh, uh, thanks."

Emma’s profession was at least somewhat hidden, though only by the fact that her fur coat was pulled tightly around her body to hide the lack of proper clothing underneath. Mimi ran up to her side and watched the Delphox suspiciously, ears raised fully.

"Uh, heading to Red’s bedroom?" she asked bluntly, noting the direction the woman had been going. "Cause I’m pretty sure he’s… done, for a while."

[adminxsadique]

{ ♛ } - “Oh…? But I’ve been invited so I’m pretty sure he isn’t that done.” Serena mused, looking at the other curiously as it seemed like the other was heading there as well. At least it seems like it as that could be the only reason for the other doing go.

   Cerise blinked and looked at the Meowstic with it’s ears perked forward also a bit suspicious. Though said nothing as it simply scoffs, it’s trainer now curious about the stranger. Especially since she mentioned Red, “Are you heading to his room too?”

[adminxsadique]

{ ♛ } - Glances at the other kind of knowing that look but had to question. “You don’t have a cute Valentine’s either?”

[shiirakeru]

"I have plenty… but i’m not interested. Aren’t you going out with Red? Or does he not do these kinds of things?"

[adminxsadique]

{ ♛ } - "Heh it's kinda of... Complicated. He's not really what you would call a huge romantic, and expecting him to is putting way to much faith in him. So no fluffy or cute valentine here, he probably would just want to fuck if anything on that day. If he's not out doing whatever."

[adminxsadique]

{ ♛ } - Heavy sigh as she sees all these cute valentine couples, like wow they are really cute. She wants one.

[shiirakeru]

Just awkwardly stand beside her, sighing as well.

[adminxsadique]

{ ♛ } - Glances at the other kind of knowing that look but had to question. "You don't have a cute Valentine's either?"

[adminxsadique]

"You’re cute and I’m horny. You thinking what I’m thinking?"

a really long, but categorized, ask meme

{ ♛ } - “Hmm, well then where would you like this in the office, the bed room, or just right here and now.” She questions a flirtatious expression on her face, more then willing.

[justrpmemesandmusings]

Capture Bonding/Stockholm Syndrome/Lima Syndrome Starters

"Okay! Okay. You’ve got me. I’m not going anywhere"

"You’re going to do what I say from now on?"

"I’ll chain you up again."

"Please don’t chain me up."

"Don’t make me do this. Please."

"Do you think I want to hurt you?"

"I wouldn’t have to hurt you if you listened."

"I’m hungry."

"Just for that, you’re going to pay."

"I didn’t mean to."

"I’m sorry."

"Sorry doesn’t fix it."

"What are you doing with that gun?"

"I’m going to shoot you, dummy."

"I’m having company so I’m going to have to lock you up."

"You know I love you."

"No you don’t. You can’t love. You’re a fucking psychopath!"

"Kiss me."

"You don’t have to go."

"I…I think I love you."

"You didn’t have to kill him/her!"

"I wasn’t going to let him/her touch you!"

"If you love me, let me go."

"What are you doing?"

"I’m setting you free."

"You’ve been so good lately. You’ve earned new privileges."

"Please don’t leave me. It’s cold."

"The chain’s too tight."

"You’re hurting me!"

"Stop squirming!"

"You’re all mine, aren’t you?"

"I’m yours."

"That hurts!"

"Why are you doing this?"

"Do I have to have a reason to take someone as pretty/handsome as you?"

"Why me?"

"You don’t have to kill them."

"You’re going to kill them for me."