Time is an illusion. Everything is an illusion. The world. The physical plane. The dimensions. There's so many lies and nothing matters in the end. How long has it been? I dont know. I found this. Funny enough. I actually found my old phone. Who knows when ill get signal or charge again when it dies. Dont forget me. Im here. Im always going to be here. Im stuck between time and reality. Its so funny. Atleast I have you. Maybe someone will come across my account and will talk with me. Or maybe ive finally gone crazy and im hallucinating a phone and this. Not far from being possible.
I'm sorry for not updating the journal, I've been - sleeping? But I wasn't sleeping I wasn't here I just got back, I don't know how to explain it. Ny hearts racing, I'm writing this down now immediately after so everything can be as accurate as I can get it.
I went back to the medieval era. On my own, no one but it wasn't like a dream, it wasn't like auto pilot it was like I. ME. MYSELF I went back there. I don't know how to explain it, I'm fucking terrified right now am I going crazy?
I woke up in the woods, like I went to sleep a little while after the last entry and I woke up in this woods, I walked through the woods in the clothes i wore to bed (:/ please okay sometimes you're too tired to change into pajamas okay). I was in my socks, just walking through it.
I came across a cabin, it seemed like no one was there but it looked ..old ... Very old and there were clothes out. I grabbed those and the shoes I saw but what confused me the most was the sword I saw through the window. I RAN.
I continued making my way through the woods and ended up at a village, it didn't seem..too bad at the start, I walked in
23 August.
Ok this is getting weird right now I was in the middle of writing that and I was just sucked into another time time loop I don't know how to explain it
I was going back and forth between all the different things like like different times I don't know I don't know. I'm voice typing this out right now because I don't know how long I have until it happens again it's it's insane. It's been like 10 minutes for me but it's been two days in real life this is wild
And that's excluding the time I was being I was asleep for. I'm so I don't know what to think of this I don't know what to think of this I genuinely do not know. I would appreciate help and if anyone has any suggestions send them my way please
I just woke up not too long ago 😅 I think my tea looks weird
Like there's clumpy little bits inside of it :/
I didn't really sleep last night, I fell asleep.... I actually don't know what time I fell asleep at, the night was fuzzy?
But
I did end up falling asleep! Which I don't know if I should be glad or not.
I was alone this time, no Snow, No Robes.
It was just me and it felt like, I was suffocating. Slowly. Just slowly.
I felt dreadful, like something was there with me and it was absolutely no fucking good, I couldn't see anything, I couldn't hear anything but I knew, I knew. You know that feeling you get just a few seconds before something dangerous happens. That was happening, that feeling was just prolonged continuously. That feeling, that was what was the issue.
I knew something, maybe even someone else was there.
I was frozen, stuck, like you know sleep paralysis?!! IT WAS LIKE THAT. I couldn't move, only my eyes. Stuck there and I wasn't awake. This place was just complete fucking darkness.
And then, with nothing else happening I woke up.
And here I am 😑
Yeah no there's something definitely wrong with my tea I think it's the milk.
Hey so I figured out how to use dividers and stuff, make I did more research into Tumblr and I thought of ways to make it cooler 😎. If anyone has any suggestions on how to make it more cool tell me, I'm still new to this 🫤 want my journal to look as awesome as ever!!
But anyways.
I fell asleep last night again, right after the last blog, the second one. I can't explain what happened, the figure. From the stream dreams when it started Remember? Let's call him...Robes? I don't know, he wears them and i think that has a night right to it. He was standing in front of me, but we were walking. Through a building of mirrors?
But it didn't look normal.
In the mirrors there was so many different people, so many different faces. I've been thinking of drawing them out. Do you think I should? I think I might.
We were talking, just walking and I was staring into the mirrors, some people were dying, some were wars, some where people being crowned king or something along those lines.. victories, all sorts of things.
I looked forward, he stopped.
There one screen that he was looking at.
Mine. It was before this started, just before it. I was baking in the kitchen.
I couldn't understand it?
What did it mean.
What IS he.
This was too much.
And before I knew it, I was awake again.
🫤 anyone else ever had dreams like this before??
Uhm, hey. Adrian here again. I feel asleep around 12pm but I kept waking up in between the sleeping, for a few seconds. You know like, moving your pillow, adjusting yourself, taking the blanket of you. Stuff like that. But the dreams I had were weird, I had two separate dreams that I can recall. I'll write down which one's I remember and in order.
Dream 1 ;
It seemed to be a Victorian area? Like Victorian London? I think I was in Victorian London.. I remember seeing the Big Ben off in the distance..
I was occupied by a white haired woman with red eyes, she was beautiful I'd honestly have to say. I remember her name being Snow, it suited her I thought. We were walking down the street, it seemed like a normal day. I didn't think much of it, Snow walked into a morgue, I followed her inside like I assumed I was supposed to. I didn't understand why we were there but.. I knew that we had to be there, and I can't figure out why now? Once inside she talked to the staff, she somehow managed to convince him to show us the body, I wasn't really paying attention, they were talking away from me you see. Snow motioned me to follow her and I did. The guy took out the body and left us.
Get this.
Not only was the mother fuckers skin in patches multiple fucking colors, purple and fucking green like STITCHED ON. It's teeth were razor sharp and it's nails were more like claws, sharp and long. It had a humanoid figure, it's nose being caved in though - as if it's head was smashed in. I couldn't help but feel sorrow for this creature. Dead, and such a brutal way to go.
I can't understand it now but I also DO.
What I don't understand is why was that my natural reaction? Sorrow, I had no idea what it was AND IT LOOKED LIKE A FUCKING MONSTER
But.
It was dead.
That. Was the first dream.
Dream 2 ;
Mire. He's frequent. He almost seems like a close family figure truthfully. We were playing poker and Mire was talking abit about his past. I'll write out the dialogue here.
Mire: Yeah, it's been awhile since I've last seen my old friends.
Me: Your old friends? Why don't you tell me about them?.
Mire: oh, ha, Salem and August. Fuck it was one hell of a ride we did crazy shit together, Salem's sister almost fucking married the enemy man.. at the time it was a massive thing now? Not so bad you know?
Me: yeahaha (I don't know at all but steal his money.)
Mire: Me and August fighting caught against pirates, FUCKING PIRATES ADRIAN! it was so much fun.
I win the match.
Mire: ah shit, here. You know you should play against Salem, I'd love to see that.
Okay, Hello. I'm Adrian. I've been having these, weird like experiences but they don't actually happen if that makes sense? Like sometimes I have these dreams when I sleep of the past or sometimes what seems to be the future?? And I'm.. really not sure how to feel about it. Most of the time I don't know who I dream of, hell I don't even know what to make sense of any of it, it makes ZERO fucking sense. It's been really stressing me out for the past few weeks. I don't know what to make out of it, I suppose I should get to where it first started?
06th of June. Around Two months ago, I started having this weird - reoccurring dream. It was - me was standing in a room but in front of me was a - figure? Someone standing in robes it seemed? I couldn't make out their face it was dark, dimly light but there was one thing I could make out.
In the middle of us was a stream - floating and around the height of around - 6 inches and it expanded on - past my vision, I didn't look to the side. What I could focus in on was - everything? Eras, times, people, flashing through the stream almost like - they were swimming within it. It was calm it was... Good? Nice? I felt - at peace.
I don't know how to explain it. I kept having this dream again and again but each time I got closer to the stream, as if it was pulling me in?
I remember it, like it was yesterday but it's so... Fuzzy at the same time.
23rd Of June. Around Two weeks after it started, I had the dream again. Instead this time the stream was right in front of me, I reached my hand out to touch it and I did. I touched it and heavens sake I wish I didn't. I don't know how to explain it, it's like every moment, every SECOND, past, present, future I LIVED it. It just, flashed before me and I can remember it - but I CAN'T. It's like, it's on the TIP of my tongue and I just, CAN'T get it. When you're trying to remember someone's name, you know the first letter but not the rest! When you only remember the beat to a song. It's fucking TORTURE in it's FINEST. I HATE IT.
And since then? The dreams haven't stopped.
It's currently the fifteenth of August. Around a month and a half after it started.
People, I see people, I recall them but when I wake up I don't remember them. I've been thinking of starting a dream journal, maybe after I dream I post it on the blog to keep crack of everything? To have this as a little...notes place I suppose that I can always access.
Maybe I'm going crazy?
I don't know.
Has anyone ever experienced this before?
Dreams, of the past and maybe the future that don't even MATTER to YOU as a person! I can't explain it. Maybe I just have an active imagination but I don't know... These don't feel like dreams.
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