DISINTEGRATING.

❝ there's always a lighthouse, a man, a city. — when the time comes on the last day, when they start to come down. will you just run away? ❞ AL. 26. ❛ survivor ❜

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SIENNA:

Sienna still remembers the day she met little Rhea, Sienna was just ten years old and Rhea was just a tiny little baby but she remembers the excitement that she felt when she got to hold her but yet how scared she was she would drop her. That same day she promised herself she’d do her best to be the BEST friend that little girl ever had and now six years later Sienna didn’t regret that promise one bit, she had found her partner in crime, her best friend, her SISTER. “ Thank you because I am pretty sure the words ‘grounded’ went through my aunt’s head and I have never been grounded in my life. Your mom was quite worried to and you know I don’t want her to worry too much”. The excitement on Rhea’s face when she mentioned the cottage made Sienna’s whole day – wait no it made her whole YEAR. Seeing her so excited was what she wanted, she never wanted that little smile to fade of her face. “ Correction, OUR cottage. And you know your mom does it only to protect you but hey my seventeenth birthday is coming up, ask her if you can stay then.” she spoke with a small shrug as they approached the cottage. “ Go in, I made some adjustments, stringed up a few more of those christmas lights and found a few more flowers. Oh also I found a TON of books”

“Mama worries all the time over other things, Sienna. I think she’s worrying about something else today too so you’re safe.” It was a matter of fact — and it wasn’t just her mama too, it was both her parents. Rhea was a naïve little girl especially when it came to most things but survival was a word that she has heard before and has grappled with. The monsters that they spoke of weren’t so much of a mystery but a rarity to see, as with water — but Rhea preferred to see the light in all of it and at its centre? At its centre was Sienna ; her blonde flowing hair was enough to shine a light on multiple universes, Rhea bet. “That’s a good idea! Sienna, you have to tell me when your birthday comes so I don’t forget! I can make you something too, from me!” She beamed and it was fixed on her face as she stepped into Sienna’s — no, THEIR — cottage. “Wow.... It’s so pretty!” Rhea ran to the lights, touching them gently and holding them in her hands. “Will you read the books to me? Pretty please?” 

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ARES:

Another laugh escaped his lips , it was so easy to forget your worries in the presence of your loved ones. “ At least I am trying not to be annoying. ” He kissed her cheek quickly, knowing what the reaction of their daughter would be. Ares never thought he would need to show his love or affection but now it was something natural. Apollo’s words were true , sometimes he was trying to lecture them but it wasn’t because he thought he knew it all. Apollo’s lessons were more valuable however Ares was always afraid. His girls were stronger than he would ever be but they were good-hearted. They were giving second chances and they were seeing the good in everyone , something he could never do. That’s why he was afraid that someone would  use them or hurt them. The only good thing about him was his love for them. Without it , there was only darkness in his heart. “ Your lessons are better than mine. If she learns something useful , it will be from you. ” He spoke with pride , eyes focusing on his daughter. “ Is that so ?” he raised one of his eyebrows as he leaned down to pick her up.  " Can we ? Do you think that Sienna is willing to share you with me ?“ Ares thought that it was better if they didn’t tell her exactly what it was like while she was young. Of course , he would never lie to his daughter but she was still too young. He promised to himself that one day he would tell her everything , even the truth about him. Because she deserved to know what an amazing person her mother truly was. Ares nodded as he heard Apollo’s words , his smile slowly faded. Most of his days were spent looking for supplies or anything that his family needed. His daughter didn’t know but he always watched her sleep when he came back home. ” I promise I will try to be around more often. There are other things which require my presence as well but we will talk about it later.“

Surely, there were things in this world that were still worth it to cherish. The list has become smaller and smaller every year, whatever was on it decaying along with the world around them. Not this family — not her love for Ares or Rhea, for her best friends and the daughters she has taken under her wing officially or no. The smile on Apollo’s face broadened and after all these years, physical affection between herself and her significant other sent her a wave of fluttery, almost youthful feelings. “That’s true. Neither Rhea or I could admit it but you can get annoying. It’s still a mystery to me — here I was, thinking you didn’t even know how to smile.” She was teasing, of course, with her laughter ringing like some bell. It echoed on in the way that Rhea wrinkled her nose, an aria of ‘ewwwwwwww’ coming from her. “My lessons? You’re sugar coating it, Ares... she barely listens to me.” Though it didn’t hurt to HOPE, didn’t it?

Even with her parents’ constant lectures ( after all, in the mind of a child, everything seemed to be AGAINST her and her wishes ), the reality of it all was still hidden from Rhea. She nodded at her father’s inquiry, “Yes! I know she’ll be okay with it because she’d love to hear the stories too! Did you know she made me a jacket? I hope it’s pink — or purple... maybe blue... I just want it!” Rhea smiled and although it faltered as she understood her father’s words, it only served as a way of support. “I understand, papa.” She nodded, “You don’t have to be sorry. I’m just glad that you’re here with us even if it’s not everyday. Some of my friends... they don’t have papa’s like you and I feel bad... so it’s okay, really!” 

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SIENNA:

@apollolittle

“ Okay so this can either get us in – no wait let me correct that, it can get ME in trouble but it can also be really cool so come on” Sienna spoke not letting go of Rhea’s hand, she had picked her up from her house a few minutes earlier HOPING that this time she had told her mother where she was going, sure they were always and everyone knew that but Sienna knew that didn’t stop Apollo from worrying, Rhea was still a little girl and even under Sienna’s care there was always a risk of something happening and she didn’t want to do anything to harm her or put her in any danger at all. “ I got you something as well so we’ll stop by the cottage first, it’s going to be a long day so I hope you told you’re mom that you went out with me, you did right? I don’t want another family meeting about how I’m dangerous” a laugh escaped her lips as she messed up the little girl’s hair. “ No really I’m serious I don’t want your parents getting mad at me”

Rhea looked up to Sienna a lot — as much as a young girl her age could stomach a love so pure and kind for older girl. She couldn’t remember a life without her in it and she thanked Auntie Acacia and Auntie Indie for the friendship they had with her mother otherwise the duo of Rhea and Sienna would be complete. She never knew Auntie Acacia though but she knew she was as much of a beautiful person as her best friend was. She shook her head, “No, no. They won’t be mad at you this time, I promise! I told them that I was going to be with you all day so they can’t get mad at you then.” Rhea squeezed the blonde’s hand as they walked along, the excitement about to burst in the way that she smiled so brightly. “We’re going to the cottage? YES! I missed your cottage a lot and I wish my mom let me stay there for longer — then we could have a sleepover!” 

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ARES:

It was funny , wasn’t it ? How  life changed for both of them. Ares remembered the times when he always tried to  lecture her and make her believe that she was living her life in the wrong way. If only he  had known that Apollo understood life better than he did back then , things would have been a lot different. Even thought it was hard for him to admit it or say it out loud , he still regretted the fact that he betrayed her. Gladly , life gave him a second chance and he was trying to make it up for his mistakes. If Apollo didn’t forgive him , he would probably be the same person he was before. A man without a real purpose , a man who was never truly loved. His smile grew as he heard her words - she was right again. But both of them knew that he would agree with their daughter in the end. It was hard for him to say no to Rhea. Even though he was trying to teach her a lesson or two , she always got exactly what she wanted. “ We both know that I will agree in the end. I am trying to teach her how to negotiate.” he whispered softly in her ear as he focused his eyes on Rhea again. “ But Sienna is your best friend , isn’t she ? I am sure she will keep you company. Don’t you think that it will be better if it is just the two of you ? I am sure you have your little secrets.”  he winked at his daughter as he turned to Apollo again. “ Do you know what this is about ? She never wanted me there.” It was truth , when their daughter was with their best friend , her room was a forbidden territory.

Despite their troubles, despite the disagreements that came upon them, Apollo found herself to admitting that it did them more good than anything else. If Ares hadn’t confessed, they wouldn’t be here right now — it was hard to imagine what life would’ve become and what it would’ve done to her. She had never truly told him the truth of her feelings, of what she thought — Apollo Little, who was so used to hiding things from people, would stay the same even when it came to the man she loved and the daughter she would protect with her life. She smiled and her words were the beginning to a small banter, “Some things don’t change, I see. You and your need to be teaching us all the time. I’d like to see what she learns and how she’ll use it.” God forbid it would actually happen — she was far too young. 

Her father was right in everything he said and for a good second, Rhea was stumped in her arguments and the girl even stopped in her tracks as she staggered from one foot to the other. “She is but... but sometimes, it gets —” What was the word that she heard her mother use once? “Dull...? Sometimes, it’s not so fun when we talk about the same things. We can talk about the old world and stuff! Please?” 

The old world, of course. Apollo looked at her daughter then at Ares with a shrug. “She’s a curious little kid and I don’t know what she and Sienna talk about but it seems she wants to know what it was like before all of this.” Have they ever talked to Rhea about it? Once or twice, but not in depth — Apollo didn’t really see a point in it. “Or maybe that’s her excuse because she just misses you.” 

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THEO:

The little girl’s familiar voice immedietly put Theo at ease. She watched as Artie ran to greet his friend, following slowly behind. “Hi, Rhea! Don’t worry, you’re alright. I just thought you were someone else.” 

Arthur didn’t hesitate as he ran towards his friend, waving excitedly. “Hey Rhea!” He stopped in front of the young girl and smiled. “I’m playin’ pirates, wanna join?” Artie didn’t wait for an answer before handing Rhea a stick and running back towards the house. “Come on, we’re under attack!”

Theo watched the kids for a moment before turning to greet her old friend. “Apollo,” she greeted, embracing the other warmly. She wasn’t close to many people these days, but Apollo was a constant, something Theo could trust. “It’s good to see you. How’ve you been?”

A smile that was nearly impossible to hold back appeared at the sight of her daughter running towards her friend in full speed. It was a relief that Rhea found so many good people to keep her company, children who taught her things that perhaps her own parents couldn’t. Apollo made her way towards her old friend, “Theo. It’s good to see you too. It’s been quite a while and things are going fine. Nothing terrible has happened yet and we haven’t seen that many raiders or walkers around.” Yet another thing to be relieved about though, of course as with many things, it was different for other people. “How are you and Artie?” 

As Rhea skipped towards Artie with a grin as wide as ever, she couldn’t help the giggle that was elicited as she took the stick and ran after him. “Look out, Artie! Someone behind you!” In an attempt to save him from the imaginary pirate, she ran fast as she waved the stick in the air, mimicking the sound of a man falling off the ship and into the waters below. She shrieked, “Protect the treasure!” 

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MAMA:

Vanessa watched the mother and daughter together, an adorable pair really. She couldn’t have been happier than Apollo had found a calling within motherhood and that she’d gotten the opportunity to be bless with such a darling little girl. She leaned begrudgingly on the cane that she’d had to rely on more and more as she observed their little chat before interrupted them. As far as Vanessa was concerned it couldn’t have happened to a more beautiful young soul. When they’d first met Apollo was so meek and yet so wonderfully kind and generous. To see her flourish in such a way was a joy to behold. Though at the time Apollo probably wouldn’t have agreed, Vanessa very much believed that the young woman was instrumental in V.A.’s success. The test of time proved too much of course, but Apollo did amazing things for the camp and for its people, to the point where Vanessa couldn’t help but admire her.

“Hello sweetheart and hello to you too little lady.” Mama said as she slowly made her way over, smile still as bright as ever. “And what have you two been up to today?” The older woman asked, always interested in hearing children’s views and perspectives. They were so unshaped by the world, their opinion still very much above all responsibility and darkness that could possibly rest on their shoulders. Vanessa had spent the day having conversations with traders about water and the lack thereof. Not very pleasant conversations, but she did what she could to see that Cheyenne was not going to turn into some kind of battleground for necessities. “Any stories for Mama?” Though their time was precious and most kept to a fast paced life style, Vanessa preferred to allow for breaks. For times to share days with other people and just simply talk as if the world wasn’t slowly crumbling around them. 

( @apollolittle )

Mama would always have a special place in Apollo’s heart and never had the woman forgotten about her. Even when the V.A. fell to the raiders and time had tried to wipe away or rewrite the memories, Mama’s guidance was present in her life — and she passed it on to Ares, to Indiana and Theo, to her daughter and the friends she had made through her friendships. It was what allowed them to have hope and to remember that there were people in this world who were still as beautiful and supportive as Mama ; the leader of their camp and the woman who showed Apollo that she was MORE than she truly believed herself to be. It was all thanks to her. “Hello, Mama.” She smiled brightly, softly pushing Rhea towards the older woman. “We’re doing okay, a little tired but it’s all good. How are you? You know, if there’s anything you need, we’re always here to help — as always.” 

Rhea looked up at Mama with a certain glimmer in her eye, the excitement too much for her heart to handle. Just like her mother, she had love for Mama that could fill a whole ocean — if she truly knew how large of a body of water it was. “I do, I do, I do! So many stories. Sienna and I went out on this walk together maybe two or three days ago and she told me things about the things before. Well, she heard it from somewhere else I think but she told me anyways. Mama... what was your favourite television show?” 

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ARES:

He stood still for a few minutes wondering when he got so lucky. Appreciation was unknown for him before , always wanting more than he could have.  Luckily Apollo taught him what really mattered in life.  Love was stronger than the anger he once felt.  He became stronger because of his girls who were now standing in front of him.  When he heard Apollo’s warning he remembered why he came back home earlier. He was afraid. Afraid that someone would hurt the only people he truly loved. The raiders weren’t a real threat anymore , he couldn’t remember the last time he saw them. However, there were people he once hurt and he was sure that they were going to come back , sooner or later. They tried to teach their daughter to be more cautious but she never saw how ugly the world could be. They tried to shield from the evils of the world but sometimes he wondered if it was the best they could do. Looking at his daughter , he realized how pure she actually was. She didn’t know how cruel or malicious one could be and he hoped that she would never have to. A slight smile appeared on his lips as he slowly approached them. He wrapped his arm around Apollo’s as he focused his eyes on the little girl. “ It depends. If you listen to your mother , I promise that I will.”

Sentiments meant so little to a girl who grew up recreating every thing from her own identity to her memories nearly every time another student asked her about her past — and it surely meant nothing when the outbreak came around. It was difficult to create or hold any sort of attachments except for Indiana or Mama ; but how could anyone blame her when they were the people who she had been around for so long? Anyone who knew what had happened between her and Ares would also wonder how they ended u together and with a daughter. None of it mattered anymore, not when forgiveness was an arm’s length away. It was another topic for another day, how well she trusted Ares Riddle of all people with her life — right after knowing his true intentions... but he had changed and that was alright with her. A smile crept on her features, moving closer to him as she whispered in his ear. “Humour her — you know how much easier it would be for the both of us.” She shrugged, “Or we leave her with Sienna and tire her out so she falls right asleep when we get home.” 

Rhea’s voice rang — didn’t any other child’s? “I am listening! Now please promise me you’ll stay! Mama will leave me alone when she’ll be with Auntie Indie and Sienna and I won’t have anyone else to talk to.” Was that a pout, the puppy dog eye look? “Please?” 

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THEO:

If Cheyenne had been a silent city before Theo left, it was a ghost town now. It was rare that she saw anyone outside the new camps; scouting alone was dangerous, and most of the loners kept to themselves. The general quiet helped put Theo’s mind at ease about letting her son play outside. After all, what could really happen? 

The young woman watched from the porch as Artie ran around the open space, playing some kind of game in some other world. God, what Theo wouldn’t give to be that innocent again. The wind fluttered the pages of her open book, calling her attention back to the words that almost -not quite- distracted her from the rest of the world. Just as she reimmersed herself in the book, something else caught her eye: a stranger. “Artie! Vuelvas aqui!” She called, never taking her gaze off the newcomer. “Can I help you?” She asked slowly, reaching for the bat at her side.

Apollo had suppressed a great deal of things when it came to Theo — it was a runs of trials and errors, how to best keep the thoughts far away from her. She knew that she couldn’t afford to let them stay there to the point where Apollo would’ve been forced to act out on it. Theo had been her friend for so long and she wondered... that perhaps if she had said something about her own feelings then the other woman wouldn’t have left the city of Cheyenne a long while ago. It felt a little too empty without Theo’s presence anywhere and knowing that she was here, Apollo hoped that it meant forever. Sure, supplies were scarce but something could be done. 

Rhea was the first to spot them and she looked back to her mother for a sign to continue walking. She didn’t seem to take notice of the boy’s own mother and when she saw the bat, she immediately stopped before yelling. “It’s me, Auntie Theo. It’s Rhea and mama! I just wanted to play with Artie and she said you’d be around here! Please don’t hurt us.” 

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( @indianastokely ) 

Eighteen years have passed and it seemed as though nothing has changed for Apollo and Indiana ; their friendship has remained intact regardless of how tough the circumstances have become, they saw each other struggle and accomplish so many things and they saw one another become mothers. Apollo never believed in fate ; it was nothing but a foolish thing that gave people false hope ; but in Indiana, NOTHING was impossible. “How are you doing?” It was the first question she asked, it was always the first question she asked. She stepped aside for Rhea to come running to her mother’s best friend. “Indiana, I hope you’re ready to spend a whole day with this kid —” 

Her footsteps were clearly audible, as if she was stomping her way to Indiana in anger. Rhea didn’t exactly know what that feeling was ; not when all her life she was HOPEFUL. Who taught her that? It was hard to tell — but it could’ve been Sienna ; Sienna, who was the first person she asked for. “Is Sienna here? She told me that she was going to give me one of her cool jackets so I begged mama to come here quick. Auntie Indie! How are you?” 

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( @aresriddle ) 

There wasn’t much that Apollo could expect from a girl of her daughter’s age ; rowdy and curious, always running towards where she hears life to be without so much of a second’s thought. They’ve taught Rhea as much as they could without giving her nightmares, without making her think that there no longer was hope. “Rhea...” A mother’s warning, calling out for her as Apollo watched her skip down the street. “Be careful, you don’t want to run into someone bad.” Bad, the raiders — or the walkers ; but when was the last time her daughter saw one of those? 

“Okay, mama!” Rhea was certainly much more livelier and the smile on her face was indescribable ; a happiness in being able to see both her parents together in this day and age, to be free and what did she use this freedom for? To see her best friend — Rhea had grown to love Sienna like a sister ; did her parents understand? She hoped they did ; since sometimes, all they seemed to be was mad at her. “Will Auntie Indie be there too? Do you think I can ask her to braid my hair like she did last time? Will Papa stay this time?” 

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( ‵ ares:

It was funny, seeing someone care about him as much as the fragile girl in front of him did. She probably thought he was one of those people who would do anything to save someone else. Ares was never one of those people who would neglect their own well-being in order to save the others. If the girl even thought he cared about her so much he would let himself die, she was even more foolish than he thought. He was not sure if there was any care to begin with. Sure, he enjoyed spending time with her but he wasn’t certain if it would be the same if she didn’t provide him with supplies. It was hard for him to understand if he actually cared about someone in this world besides himself.  The girl could never understand how wrong she was. His decisions would never end up killing him. They were taken very carefully. Every decision led to a better outcome for him.  He would never take a decision which would harm him in a way. Even his current decision not to run away, was better than what the girl suggested. The chance of getting caught was higher than the one of him dying of a minor wound.  “This would never happen.” He was trying to reassure him but he also wanted her to understand that he would never be the cause of his own death. All he did in his life was connected to his survival. There was no chance for him to ruin it now. “ I want to.” The reason behind his actions would remain unknown for the girl. Even if he wanted to, he could never tell her that he doubted her skills and he didn’t want the raiders to notice them because of her clumsiness.   He was following her closely, making sure she won’t fall. He learned how to climb at the age of six. His father wanted him to win every stupid contest in the school and he needed all of the required skills in order to do so. Of course, his skills got better when he joined the military. Trees became the most comfortable shelter when he wanted to stay unnoticed. When they almost reached the roof, he heard a noise.  “ I did.” His eyes focused on the ground where he saw a rider. The other was probably trying to hide but his cover was exposed by the noise of the  leafs beneath his feet. “I am sorry but you need to be faster because we don’t have the luxury of time anymore.” His voice was steady and calm as he loaded his gun. A second later a shot was fired and the rider who blew up their cover was dead. Ares would never spare his life even if the other was not trying to kill them. He was a raider and it meant he was danger. They didn’t have time, that’s why he stepped on one of the other branches and jumped on the roof. He turned, in order to face the girl. “Jump, Apollo. I will catch you. “

This was the reason why her mother despised every delinquent that made themselves known in their small, tight-knit neighbourhood. They were nothing but trouble and her brother had wondered so many times before of their intentions — Apollo could easily be proven to never be a part of these children groups because she was a model student, the daughter that Mrs. Jamison across the street wished her child was like. Climbing up trees and jumping on roofs weren’t a second nature because she did NONE of these things. As the gun sounded and the blonde watched the raider fall back, blood so evident that Apollo was frozen, she realized how much danger they were in — even more now. Even if she didn’t know much about surviving in a zombie-infested city, she knew that the sound of a gun was the easiest way to draw attention to yourself and anyone else who accompanied you.

She didn’t have to be told twice to do it and perhaps it had more to do with the fact that she was now in a state of panic ; a thought that her brother most likely repeated on his mind the night that the intruder got past their security measures ( in all quite honesty, Apollo had told them multiple times it was FAULTY ) — she didn’t want to die. A leap of faith, quite literally, was all it took and Apollo nearly stumbled but as her body hit against the roof, her hands were claws as she made herself comfortable. If they were going to be here for a while, then might as well. “I’m okay.” Truth. “You couldn’t catch me even if you tried — not with an arm like that.” Lie. Apollo gritted her teeth, staring at Ares with some sort of astonishment. “I’m glad you have good aim but maybe next time, please warn me if you’re going to shoot someone. Are you — are you okay?”

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— hellstate task 023 ( dystopia ) !!

basics. 

name: apollo little. 

age: forty four. 

children: rhea indiana little-riddle ( 6 years old ). 

community: tba. 

faceclaim: rinko kikuchi. 

short biography. 

she isn’t a forgetful person but when the past begs of you to let them go, you let them go. apollo’s a bird let out of her cage — no fear, no worries, not any more than could make her into an unfit mother. the life of a family woman seemed more like a dream of a seventeen year old robbed of her own but she’s here ; standing with them, caring and loving. no one benefits from the disaster that this place has turned into but if you find happiness... you have to thank something, right? 

others. 

hAPPIER ,, so M UCH , hAPPIER. 

the worRLD IS SHIT BUT HER LIFE ISN’T !!! she has peopLE who support her more than she could ever think of !! 

she has a famiLY ?? and rhea is so tiNY but literally fiGHT her cos that kid will get evERYTHing she wants regardless of what her father saYS ,, she makes sure of IT. 

which means .. dnt .. mess with her .. pls .. she isn’t so *eliza voice* helpless anymore .. she can do things .. w/o crying or dying inside .. she’s Kinda Tough. 

ages beautifully .. can u tell. 

connections. 

ARES RIDDLE — there came a time in which apollo wished she had never met him. a vivid memory of every regret she could think of, betrayal somewhat becoming her best friend. but she FORGAVE him nonetheless because that is the lesson her mother taught her ; people made mistakes and she had given ares multiple chances before, another one wouldn’t hurt. apollo loves him for more reasons than she can say, much less admit. 

INDIANA STOKELY — apollo hasn’t had a best friend in her life who stuck around for so long and she jokingly swears that now, with ares and rhea around, it’s much harder to decide who she loves the most. indiana is who she loves FIRST, she promises ( proven by how her first born is named after her ). 

THEO MARTINEZ — family is important, it always has been. theo has been a part of hers for years, almost as long as the former woman in apollo’s life is. there’s a moment in which she realizes that she should’ve said something years ago but with children to take care of, unsaid feelings were the least of their worries. artie, fortunately enough, has been a good friend to rhea just as theo has been to apollo.  

MAMA HENDRICKS — to be added. 

SIENNA STOKELY — the daughter of the stokely sister that apollo wasn’t quite as close with. the young girl has found a mother in indiana, as well as apollo ; rhea has begged her constantly to be with sienna and there’s not much that apollo could do about it. the girl is a good role model, minus her recklessness and dangerous antics. sienna is like a second daughter to her. 

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( ‵ theo:

Apollo’s shyness confused Theo, but she let the thought slide. Whatever was going on, she was sure the other could handle it. And if she couldn’t, Theo would be there for whatever she needed. The question made the girl hesitate, her smile slipping just slightly from her face. It was a question she’d been avoiding, as it that would somehow make winter go away. “I dunno.” She shrugged. “I think I can manage, but I’ll let you know if something comes up.” At least she wouldn’t have to weather the cold alone. Theo nodded, relieved at the change of topic. “Yeah, I get that. At least with the walkers you always know what they’re going to do.”

If there was one thing that Apollo knew about Theo, it was that she was alone. She was aware that she didn’t have a camp to go home to every night like Apollo did — was it lonely? The blonde had wondered many times before if going rogue would have been the best choice ; but the trouble would’ve been that she knew NOTHING of how to be resourceful. All she knew was how to be helpful. “Yeah, that sounds good. Anything, really — you know I’m always somewhere. You can come by the centre too, they won’t mind.” Hopefully not. She nodded, “And with what those raiders are capable of, it’s terrifying if you ask me. You didn’t run into any trouble with them?” 

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absent-minded / abusive / addicted / aimless / alcoholic / aloof / anxious / arrogant / audacious / has bad habits / bigmouthed / bigoted / blunt / bold / callous / childish / cruel / cursed / dependent / dishonest / disloyal / disturbed / dubious / egotistical / envious / erratic / fanatical / fickle / fierce / finicky / flirty / gluttonous / gruff / gullible / hedonistic / humourless / hypocritical / idiotic / ignorant / illiterate / immature / impatient / impious / impish / incompetent / indecisive / indifferent / infamous / intolerant / judgemental / lazy / lewd / liar / lustful / masochistic / meddlesome / meek / megalomanic / naïve / nosey / obsessive / oppressive / overambitious / overemotional / overprotective / overzealous / paranoid / peevish / perfectionist / pessimistic / phobic / rebellious / reckless / remorseless / rigorous / sadistic / sarcastic / sceptic / seducer / selfish / self-martyr / self-righteous / senile / shallow / smart ass / solemn / spineless / spiteful / spoiled / squeamish / stubborn / superstitious / tactless / temperamental / theatrical / timid / tongue-tied / unlucky / unpredictable / untrustworthy / vain / weak-willed / withdrawn

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( ‵ mama:

“You know that smile could brighten this whole camp, glad to have you as a carer, Apollo.” Vanessa was always discerning when it came to the people she found herself working with. There was always good to be found, it just so happened that most did show case there good very openly. Whether it was appreciated or not was a different story entirely. “Of course. In truth we’re in the same boat on that one. Might organise a sit down for everyone. Just an hour or so. You think the raiders would give us that?” They wouldn’t, but her grin assured the blonde that she was joking. Though she did like the idea of some kind of sit down with the camp; she always had been a sucker for community gatherings. “Doing okay. Okay is fine, but it’s not exactly stellar, is it? Anything I could do to bump that up a little for you, honey? All requests are valid.” That was something Vanessa wanted to make sure of, she wanted people to feel heard, no matter what they were saying. She’d dealt with some characters in her life time and that had the good, the bad and the ugly. But she believed that everyone deserved to be listened to, because she knew it was the only way she was going to be able to help them. “Me? I’m doing great. I like being busy, so all of this is suiting me just fine. Thank you for askin’”

It wasn’t as if the rest of her fellow camp mates were ungrateful — but Apollo knew better ; they were busy and they didn’t have to go around saying thank you for every little way of arranging. But it did throw her off to hear someone say that they were glad to be here. She had been so used to blending in with the shadows and letting the spotlight shine on other people. It was what made her humble — that and being able to see the world in a way that she wasn’t a part of it. Her brother’s favourite joke was calling her by the name of some god, someone LOOKING in instead. Apollo nodded to Mama’s ideas — she wasn’t that god though, only one to adhere to. “I think it’s a good idea and I’d love to be a part of it. Maybe if we get to know each other a little bit more, we can come up with more ways to better the camp so no one gets left behind or something.” The blonde wanted to say no, that there was nothing else that could change an OKAY to STELLAR. “If I find any way, I’ll make sure to tell you. I think it’s just the nerves — I’m not used to the walkers and the raiders. A little scared easily.” That was... some of the truth. Apollo was trying to tear away a layer of herself but it was difficult ; it was UNUSUAL.