“i’d kill them,” she wasn’t even afraid to admit it, because.. unlike jones, unlike betty, she couldn’t care less. “they wouldn’t get that far. they’d be dead before they could even think of getting that threat out. there aren’t many people out there that i’d do that for, but.. for bret, i would. no matter” and she wasn’t even afraid to admit that - of course not.. she found for what was hers, she always had, she always would, even if that meant getting her hands dirty, every now and then. but… wasn’t that what jones was trying to prove? damn him. so, instead of answering his question, she simply smiled. “you’re too smart for your own good, you know? not that you would have ever caught me admitting that, back in the day, but.. it was nice to have someone over at stonewall who wasn’t a true and complete idiot. someone who was.. a challenge. i guess it’s always us, the quiet ones, who are the biggest threads, um?” she paused, looking over at him with a smile, because.. it was true. they were more alike than he probably realized, weren’t they? both writers, both had come from difficult backgrounds, both had something to prove and… both had someone they’d do anything for. yes, very much alike. “right back at you, jones, right back at you. like i said.. nice to talk to someone who doesn’t make my head hurt with all of their idiotic stuff.” and yet, at his words, she grew quiet for a moment, looking over at the distance for a moment. “maybe. maybe not. bret agrees, he says that i could, but.. i don’t know. i’m meant to be like my mother in everything else, so.. who was to say that i wouldn’t be as bad as her? and i can’t risk that, i can’t.. i can’t put my daughter in danger just like that. i promised bret that i’d do everything i could to.. to get her back, but.. i’ve been stalling. and that’s why.” wow, talking to someone was truly… therapeutic, but.. donna had never taught she would be doing it with one of her great enemies. at least… that was what she thought he was. maybe not. “it’s not, is it? i hate this damned book contract and everything i’ve had to do to get it. true, i like everything else that comes with it, but.. everything i’ve had to give up, in order to get it.. it’s exhausting. i’m exhausted. and bret, he.. he’s so determined, this is all he wants and.. i can’t, for the life of me, bring myself to tell him that.. it’s unlikely it will happen anytime soon,” tom griffin had warned her it would be a difficult procedure, but.. she hadn’t brought herself to tell bret, not yet. and yet, at his words, she lifted an eyebrow. “you could.. do that? you’d help.. help me? jones, i.. you could have been dead, because of me. i planned on you being dead.. all because of that contract. why on god’s name would you do that? i imagine betty won’t be too pleased.” and yet, she needed to know. “august 12th. six years ago. i can pay you for this, you know? you don’t have to do it for free. i mean, i wouldn’t dream of it, after all.. we’re not friends. but if you do.. i suppose i could wave the white flag. as long as betty doesn’t try anything, of course.”
“ I know you would Donna and perhaps because I still somehow believe you are a wise person, you’d understand Betty’s reasons too..’ he explained, it was not an attempt at manipulating her, far by it. All he tried to do was to find a consensus between them, they could not let their teenage rage and the foolishness they’ve shown to destroy the new chance they got once they came to this new lace. “ Why do you think you are meant to be like her? You are not meant to be anything. Everything you are today is based on your own choices, you have a saying in this Donna. You are no longer dependent on your mother and you can live the life you want.” And he hoped her choice would be better than her mother’s. “ I will help you. I will not help the woman who tried to kill me. I will help the woman who wants the best for her daughter. I believe that this woman deserves my help. I do not want your pay. I will find her.” He said determined to do exactly as he promised. “ Betty won’t. As long as you don’t. It is as simple as that.”
