remember to hydrate!

please dni if you are in recovery or do not have an eating disorder! i do not mean to intentionally trigger anyone. it will get better, i promise

[aesthetic-suffering]

you can’t have an ED tumblr without stats right? idk what i’m doing so here goes:

sw: 110 ish? cw: 104 102 100!! gw1: 99 gw2: 95

ugw: 90 ✨🌸💕

(i’m 5’ 4 btw!)

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woah

i really just vanished 😳

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me to myself trying to play off this binge week as recovery: 🤡🤡

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i read some of the replies on my most recent post and y’all,, you’re gonna make me cry 🥺 you’re all so sweet??

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today was hard. i don’t know how much i ate, trying not to care. i hope you guys aren’t disappointed in me or anything

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jeepers! i’ve stared at my body in the mirror for such a long time that i don’t actually know what my body looks like anymore and everything is becoming a blur of fat and self hatred!

^ the title of my autobiography

[aesthetic-suffering]

aahhhh. i knew i was gonna eat a lot today so i wouldn’t call it a binge, but i still feel horrible. probably around 1600+ today 🥲

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going online window shopping was a bad idea cause i thought it would motivate me but all it did was make me have a meltdown over the fact that i can’t get new cute clothes for myself until i drop at least ten pounds :/

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i think the most satisfying feeling in the world is being able to feel the bumps of my ribs even through my thick sweater

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guhh,, i’m over my limit but only by like 200-300 cals. it’s so hard not to binge rn 😭 send help

[aesthetic-suffering]

uhhh nvm y’all i just watched a bunch of pimple popping videos on reddit and i am not at all hungry anymore wow 🤩

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i’m so pathetic when it comes to having an ed... i high restrict for like three days max and then i binge. fmI

[aesthetic-suffering]

guhh,, i’m over my limit but only by like 200-300 cals. it’s so hard not to binge rn 😭 send help

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sending love not only to my mutuals, but also to the people who i’ve followed or have followed me that i don’t know very well. social interaction is hard, even over the internet, but i appreciate all of you just for being there <3

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the amount of discourse and anger on tumblr really stresses me out ;~; i hope y’all aren’t mad at me for not participating in any of it but it gives me major anxiety

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aaah i can’t wait to start my calorie calendar next month! i’m super excited for it cause i need some accountability badly. the first few days of it may not go too well though cause someone i know has a birthday coming up </3

[lovely-angel-mary]

me when i eat -50 cals and am in pain all day to learn i gotta have PIZZA for dinner 😐 I DONT EVEN RLY LIKE PIZZA DUDE WHY WOULD I WASTE MY CALS ON LIKE THE HIGHEST CALORIE FOOD EVER

[lovely-angel-mary]

ok it was kinda bussin

[aesthetic-suffering]

this whole post is a mood Imao

[lightchoccymilk]

if you’re white and use aave, you’re weird. black people have said they don’t like it when non black people use aave, so why do you insist on being disrespectful? fucking weirdo

[aesthetic-suffering]

what is aave?