dysfunctional comfort

i broke my own heart long before you came around

[aestheticdgaf]

it’s like you try everything to fill the void, the impending doom that linger overhead. you try drugs and alcohol, you try seeing friends, you try going to your favorite restaurant. but nothing fills that void; it’s always there.

[depression-and-literature-deact]

A͓̽n͓̽d͓̽ i͓̽ d͓̽o͓̽n͓̽'t͓̽ k͓̽n͓̽o͓̽w͓̽ h͓̽o͓̽w͓̽ t͓̽o͓̽ s͓̽t͓̽o͓̽p͓̽

[aestheticdgaf]

maybe one day i will believe you when you say that you’re sorry..

but for now i do not.

apologies are not going to fix this.

[aestheticdgaf]

so that’s it? i’m just stuck like this for the rest of my life..

[weltenwellen]

Rainer Maria Rilke, Selected Letters, 1902-1922

[aestheticdgaf]

[aestheticdgaf]

my curse in this life is being a lesson for everyone, no one ever stays..

[depression-and-literature-deact]

But nobody ever does...

[aestheticdgaf]

i wrote a letter to you but you didn’t write back, i wrote a song for you probably didn’t listen at all

[aestheticdgaf]

fuck you for making me feel pain like this

[love]

Do you? lyrics by Mumford & Sons

[aestheticdgaf]

i wonder if you get sad when i cross your mind

[aestheticdgaf]

9/17

the day i wanted to die

i almost did it

you wouldn’t have cared

i almost called you

but i knew you wouldn’t pick up

i wanted to die so badly

but i’m here now

and you’re not

but it’s better that way

-the day i wanted to die

[livingfortherainydays]

[clotair]

i wish no one knew anything about me 

[9ohara]

[quietvoiced]

[ojibwa]

[aestheticdgaf]

please,, i can’t handle anymore hurt