Letters To The Infinite

Hey I’m a college student who just enjoys writing my feelings out and figured maybe some others would take comfort in my writing. I would really appreciate any likes or comments!

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And with tears streaming down my face

“Could you please live forever? I could live you forever”

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I’m homesick, and you feel like home.

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We forget that we are just animals living in a world created by humans.

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Honestly, just love. Love everything. Love everyone. Love being alive. That’s it. That’s the poem.

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You look at me as if you do not know that the love I feel for you permeates every fiber of my being.

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I don’t believe in a god. But god I hope there is one. I would do anything to see that woman again.

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Life is just a series of losses. That… and how we deal with them.

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It is terrifying to risk being seen. It is even more terrifying to have never tried.

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I’ve realized that the reason I am so upset about us ending is because with you, I was truly myself. And the fact that it wasn’t enough terrifies me. But I’m pretty cool… someone will realize that. And if not, at the very least, I do.

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I wish things would have been different, but I wouldn’t have changed a thing

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I wish I could say that I didn’t hate you for how you made me feel but I can’t. I wish I could let you go with love. My heart wants to do nothing but understand you. My mind realizes that at some point understanding is no excuse for the way I was treated. I wish I could say that I didn’t love you. Despite my mind begging me not to, my heart longs for the girl who once made me feel so safe and seen. I wish I could say that I hate you, but I know if it came down to it and we were alone talking the words coming out of my mouth would be straight from my heart and not my mind.

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I attach value to the way you view me. I forget that my value comes not from your perception of me, but is inherent within myself.

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You’re the only person who comes through immediately when my phone is on do not disturb.

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I really try not to think about you if I can help it, but you always find a way to seep in. An inside joke I make that no one else laughs at but you, a post that I have no one to send to, or feelings that I don’t feel comfortable sharing with anyone else. Even when I don’t think about you, it’s really still about you.

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I miss you. Not just you, but the version of me that you brought out. There is a piece of me that only you have the key to unlock, and I miss that feeling terribly some nights.

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With you my inner child feels safe. You lay your hand on my chest and I can feel that boy melt at your touch. The way he lets the weight of the world slide off his shoulders when you’re around. The way he relaxes at your very presence. You see the boy I used to be, and you don’t make me feel like less of a man because he is still part of me.

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I see beautiful things and my first reaction is to share them with you. I find that they are less beautiful if not seen through you as the lens