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heera. 24 delhi

[afeemi]

i really do hate my life and myself. but then, i will be better

[afeemi]

when i finish my masters finally, and become smarter, and what not, i will be ok. but what if they don't let me finish my ma... has anybody heard of somebody finishing their ma in a central uni in 5 years .... what if they kick me out . wauw

[afeemi]

things i need to buy -

black skintight top

black long skirt

black socks that go until knees

black boots (new ones, these are all worn out, been wearing for 3 years or so)

black scarf/shawl

[afeemi]

had bad coffee yesterday which was overpriced. i felt so bad leaving it but also i could not drink it at all. niloufer is my enemy now.

did not read the entire weekend because i wasn't alone but like i can't be mad about it, love is adjustment i think.

i will be seeing my parents on saturday.

i need to buy a couple staples but it will have to wait

i will read in office today

walked out of dhurandhar on friday that was also a huge waste of money and time like i left right after interval idk why i went. i will tell u why i went. bf came after so long and with so much difficulty and i got nervous and i was like i need to become a jester immediately and keep him busy and entertained so i took him to the worst movie possible i really dont understand myself sometimes

[afeemi]

i hope my leave gets approved i want to go home peacefully

[afeemi]

getting outed as a local pervert because of images on my screen in the office

[afeemi]

ma is alone in delhi right now and she is feeling restless and unwell. we are the same. need to see her soon so that it all gets balanced and then i don’t have to go back home for 8-9 months

[afeemi]

took cough syrup to fall asleep. 11:20. by 12 i want to disappear into my dreams

[afeemi]

next year you will grow in a way you haven’t yet and it is going to be scary. i recommend braiding your hair and wearing sturdier shoes and getting a backpack for everywhere. do not forget to remember and wallow in nostalgia while you’re alive, it is one thing that matters that cannot be postponed. whatever can be postponed doesn’t matter

[afeemi]

this lolita lempicka dress is made for me

[nonporous]

[afeemi]

these are the most beautiful photos in my gallery

[afeemi]

Adult Children - we repeat our parents’ mistakes in a manner that is explainable to us, but the inner parent nags in private, and more so when you are out and people are witnessing you

[afeemi]

i love kids so much man i see young girls and i feel so emotional . i think i will volunteer teaching at my boss’s foundation later on

[afeemi]

failure is the first step towards success and i am a baby in my mirror stage

[afeemi]

woke up late for this work thing and i feel so ready to simply cry. everyday feels tougher in ways that makes the previous day’s self reassurance come undone

[disgustinggf]