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[ an independent, private / mutuals only, and 18+ blog for a reworked version of DC comics's MERRYMAKER who is otherwise known as ANASTASIY LAZAREV. selective and semi-literate, as well as literate! the mun's name is autumn, uses she/her pronouns, and is 24. mature themes such as murder, terminal illness, blood and gore (though i won't be writing the gore part in such a way that it's extreme, DW), discussions of a mentally ill parent / PTSD, suicide, body horror, and self-harm will be included in this account. therefore, i ask that you please keep that in mind before deciding to interact. ]

this account was made in 2024 and will explore themes such as the search for belonging, family curses, love and sacrifice, the inner struggle of faith / spirituality, ethical dilemma's, desperation and moral ambiguity, the power of fear, war is bad, fatherhood, and ostracism.

| CARRD. | PROMPTS. | HEADCANONS. | CHARACTER STUDIES. |

[agapestricken-a]

OOP- so, this blog has officially been archived, you all! you can now find anastasiy over at @dichotomiess ❤️ i just thought i would let you all know because in a weeks time, i'm probablyyy going to delete this account BUT i wanna give everyone time to follow him over there for those that want to

[agapestricken-a]

OOP- so, this blog has officially been archived, you all! you can now find anastasiy over at @dichotomiess ❤️ i just thought i would let you all know because in a weeks time, i'm probablyyy going to delete this account BUT i wanna give everyone time to follow him over there for those that want to

[agapestricken-a]

OOP- so, this blog has officially been archived, you all! you can now find anastasiy over at @dichotomiess ❤️ i just thought i would let you all know because in a weeks time, i'm probablyyy going to delete this account BUT i wanna give everyone time to follow him over there for those that want to

[agapestricken-a]

OOP- so, this blog has officially been archived, you all! you can now find anastasiy over at @dichotomiess ❤️ i just thought i would let you all know because in a weeks time, i'm probablyyy going to delete this account BUT i wanna give everyone time to follow him over there for those that want to

[agapestricken-a]

OOP- so, this blog has officially been archived, you all! you can now find anastasiy over at @dichotomiess ❤️ i just thought i would let you all know because in a weeks time, i'm probablyyy going to delete this account BUT i wanna give everyone time to follow him over there for those that want to

[dichotomiess]

an independent, private, and 18+ multi-muse blog featuring MISAO KANADE and ANASTASIY LAZAREV.

written by autumn! mature themes such as murder, depictions of blood and gore, mental illness, organized crime, body horror, and self-harm do apply to this account — so please keep that in mind before reaching out to interact.

[agapestricken-a]

OOP- so, this blog has officially been archived, you all! you can now find anastasiy over at @dichotomiess ❤️ i just thought i would let you all know because in a weeks time, i'm probablyyy going to delete this account BUT i wanna give everyone time to follow him over there for those that want to

[absolmemes]

☾ tension action prompts.

hostility, provocation, you name it. featuring both actions and scenarios where tension can fester; add +reverse to reverse the roles.

✧ sender grips receiver's wrist long enough to make a point. ✧ sender laughs in receiver's face. ✧ sender grabs receiver by the collar. ✧ sender refuses to break eye contact with receiver. ✧ sender "accidentally" bumps into receiver and doesn't apologize. ✧ sender grips receiver's jaw. ✧ sender pulls receiver back by the waistband. ✧ sender shoves receiver into a surface. ✧ sender clenches their fists at receiver. ✧ sender tilts their head condescendingly at receiver. ✧ sender straightens to their full height in front of receiver. ✧ sender follows receiver outside after a blow-up. ✧ sender gets in receiver's face and won't back off. ✧ sender cracks their knuckles while holding eye contact with receiver. ✧ sender lowers their voice when receiver raises theirs. ✧ sender blatantly sizes receiver up. ✧ sender stares silently at receiver. ✧ sender presses on receiver's bruises. ✧ sender shoulder-checks receiver hard enough to knock them off balance. ✧ sender bumps receiver's cue while lining up a shot at a pool table. ✧ sender knocks receiver's phone out of their hand. ✧ sender kicks receiver under the table. ✧ sender wipes something off receiver's face. ✧ sender corners receiver and refuses to give them space. ✧ sender drags receiver into a bathroom to talk privately. ✧ sender pins receiver while roughhousing. ✧ sender deliberately spills their drink onto receiver. ✧ sender begrudgingly tends to receiver's injury. ✧ sender challenges receiver to a drinking game. ✧ sender steps closer every time receiver tries to disengage. ✧ sender is stuck sharing a bed with receiver when the motel overbooks. ✧ sender has to work overnight watch duty with receiver. ✧ sender challenges receiver's story and makes them prove it. ✧ sender competes with receiver at a shooting range. ✧ sender argues with receiver while trying to put up a tent. ✧ sender is trapped with receiver in a stopped elevator. ✧ sender challenges receiver to arm-wrestle. ✧ sender and receiver are snowed in overnight together. ✧ sender is stuck with receiver on a stalled ferris wheel. ✧ sender tries to one-up receiver at carnival games.

[5anctified]

» SACRED AND TERRIBLE AIR. dialogue and action prompts pulled from and inspired by robert kurvitz’s novel, sacred and terrible air, using group ibex's translation. mature themes ahead. change as you see fit, detective.

dialogue.

i hate this country.

it would go against everything i believe in.

who doesn't love the company of monsters?

i don’t care what you think, i want your truth.

you have to work quickly, tie up all the loose ends before it’s too late.

well, you beat him up, didn’t you?

this world of yours in its current form is one hell of a shithole.

it’s only a tool for me. i myself am only a tool.

i was just fifteen then, i was so stupid...

i left a bad impression.

that'd be why you smell like a flower!

i can't hear you, some pig keeps squealing.

we've got to take action, immediately!

i lost her. that's what happened.

it wouldn’t be very chic of me to call three hours earlier than agreed.

i must have caught a little cold.

the things i do want to remember, i don’t remember.

you don't understand, i'm leaving today.

are you sure we're at the right place?

party's over. go home.

you are never alone. you have yourself!

how is he so hardcore?!

where did you get my number?

it's good to know that you're still cool.

this is my crown jewel! this is the apple of my eye!

you always listen to me, don't you.

i could give you some slick answer, but it would be too cruel.

you and your taxis. i'd rather walk.

do you want me to make you some tea?

listen, be a good man, tell me what it is.

i feel like... i don't know how to feel.

everything is still possible for this world.

when i do my job, i don't do it for the rule of law.

the need for closeness is just so deadly.

where do you want to flee from then? countries are enormous.

i sincerely hope there will be a next time.

it's beautiful when you believe in a person.

i put my heart into what i do.

i love the world, every last atom of it.

action. switch sender and receiver’s places as you please.

pale. the sender and receiver stand in a dense fog, the clearest thing in their view being each other.

rideshare. the sender and receiver ride a speedy and rough taxi together.

meet again. the sender and receiver meet again at a formal reunion party.

found. the sender discovers that the receiver keeps forged documents for travel.

meat grinder. the sender catches the receiver as they are on the brink of passing out.

dinner. the sender and receiver eat a meal as they work through documents, the surface a mess of plates and paper.

shoreline. the sender waits to meet up with the receiver at the beach on a grey and windy day.

memories. the sender and receiver find an old trinket that immediately hits them with nostalgia for their shared past.

tune-in. the sender and receiver hear devastating news as it comes on the radio.

rest. the sender crashes and spends a few days in the receiver’s residence.

rain. the sender huddles under the receiver’s umbrella as they walk through a downpour, sharing the space.

corner store. the sender accompanies the receiver as they stop by a corner store to get change.

escape. the sender and receiver anxiously wait for the next train, knowing that people are on their trail.

[agapestricken-a]

thinking about him again and telling myself i NEED to be active here, so like... what kind of content would you like to see from me here? would you like for me to talk more about how ana is when in a relationship (and that's totally not me trying to attract more shippers to this account JSJSJ oh no.. 👀 but if you want to ship... PLS feel free to let me know), orrr maybe his relationship with raisa — his daughter — or some unknown third thing that i can't think up right now, but that i can imagine will come to me sometime?

[agapestricken-a]

A, D , E,I ,L,N

'NSFW alphabet' prompts.

AHHH, hello, my friend! thank you for the ask and sorry for how late it is... unfortunately, i feel like my muse for anastasiy only comes around sporadically JSJSJ BUT anyways, i see what you did there with this, so i'll go ahead and answer it in the order of daniel's name (; TEHE

D = Dirty secret (pretty self explanatory, a dirty secret of theirs):

you know, it took me a little bit to come up with this one, but i think that a dirty secret that anastasiy has is that he would / does like things that kind of blaspheme against god. and by that, i mean he would like saying that another person is like a god to him because that would technically be sacrilegious, as well as treating them like a god in the way that like jesus himself washed his disciples feet and stuff maybe? i'm not sure, but i think perhaps the biggest sacrilegious thing that anastasiy would be into is like having sex in a confession booth or anointing them with oils like he is worshipping them once more.

A = Aftercare (what they’re like after sex)

honestly, overall, anastasiy is what you might expect him to be — and i say that in a good light, because he is known for being one of my kinder characters, BUT in general... he is about as close to the 'gold standard' as one might get to receiving aftercare. anastasiy will provide his partner, even if they are just in a more casual sexual relationship, with closeness after they both are finished and do this through holding them, cuddling them, whatever it seems they might need right after. he will typically then offer them something to drink as its very important to stay hydrated, of course, and either run them a shower or a bath (depending on their preference!).

this is something that he may join them in if they are up to having him with them. but yeah, UHHH, with all of that said? anastasiy is really good at providing his partner/s with aftercare and giving them everything they need to be comfortable afterwards, especially if they engaged in some more hardcore types of play like shibari bondage and stuff. so, a lack of aftercare is not something that will make a character regret sleeping with ana, that is for sure.

N = No (something they wouldn’t do, turn offs)

to be honest, there isn't a lot that anastasiy WOULDN'T be willing to try with the right partner, but the 'no's' that he does have are things he's pretty strict about. this includes absolutely no scat stuff, nothing with urine, UHHH - no roleplaying with a teacher / student dynamic or any sort of age-play and nothing involving using blood as lube. so, yeah. anastasiy is pretty open to everything else LOL

I = Intimacy (how are they during the moment? the romantic aspect)

interesting question, interesting question... see - i would like to say that anastasiy would be the perfect picture of romance, but i think it just kind of depends on the partner he is with. because sometimes, yeah, ana might be with someone who prefers a more dominant partner who isn't so gentle OR he might be with someone alternatively who likes to be kind of a (affectionately) pillow princess / prince + likes for their treatment to be reflective of that in the way that they are worshipped, so TBH, anastasiy tries his best to mirror his partner in most situations. thus, it varies between different partners because everyone has their own thing, you know what i mean? but in the case that, hey, maybe he's with someone who he doesn't have an established bond with yet or he's having a one-night stand...

this man right here tends to be gentle and romantic. like, he will kiss every part of his partner's body and give them soft little nibbles on the skin before leaving marks on them, kind of gentle. its also important to note that this will not turn anyone else into a zombie (him biting someone else, i mean) as you quite literally have to consume a part of him to do that so it'd pretty much have to be done on purpose.

E = Experience (how experienced are they? do they know what they’re doing?)

whenever it comes to experience, anastasiy doesn't have the most because he isn't like... i don't know. a sex god or anything LMAO like he just doesn't / hasn't had sex very often in the past and this is due to him just mostly having a low to regular libido, along with him not entering a lot of relationships (his main one was with dannika, raisa's mother, during his life). but ana is experienced enough with things like bondage as well as kinks that he can commit to them with confidence because his relationship with dannika sort-of set him up for that (that is when he learned that he enjoyed being tied up and also tying up other people, after all haha). he also knows generally how the mechanisms of sex itself work, of course, as well as how to give good oral with all sexes.

though i have to say, whenever it comes to sex, he is slightly more experienced with those who were born AFAB. this doesn't mean that anastasiy isn't willing to try to learn things he doesn't know how to do, though, such as give analingus (he's never done it before jsjsj) or deep-throat someone. he has given oral to both sexes through eating out women / femme people and sucking people off, however, as previously mentioned - and he will never not lack enthusiasm behind his actions! and sometimes, that is all you need to have fun with a partner.

L = Location (favorite places to do the do)

as previously mentioned, anastasiy hasn't had sex a lot of times, BUT he has gotten up to some adventurous things with dannika in particular and that was having sex in a tent, as well as having sex in the bath / shower, along with in a public bathroom once. but he would say that his favorites probably are having sex in the bath because it is so intimate and just regular ol' bed sex haha.

[crownmemes]

Secrets & Lies Sentences, Vol. 8

(Sentences for those that lie, conceal, and seek the truth. Adjust phrasing where needed)

"You have a secret. Once I learn what it is, you may be of use to me."

"It's not a lie if it's going to come true eventually."

"What didn't you tell me?"

"Does it hurt? The truth you keep hidden?"

"Doubt is not a pleasant condition, but certainty is absurd when it is built on a lie."

"If you come with me tomorrow, you're going to see things. You will not feel the same about me."

"If the world's going to end, why keep secrets?"

"That's a very tragic story. I wonder how much of it is true."

"I know you don't like it, but there are still things about my past I don't want you to know."

"I guess I haven't been totally honest with you..."

"The more we learn, the more we question - and the more we question, the more we see through the lies perpetrated upon us."

"Walking in unannounced is a good way to get yourself killed."

"I go by several names. I doubt any of them are your concern."

"We wouldn't want any of your guilty little secrets coming to light, would we?"

"No one wins if the truth comes out - including you."

"You don't seriously expect me to believe this?"

"When were you going to tell me? Did you think people weren't going to notice?"

"Would you rather I lied?"

"Ah. I was hoping you weren't going to ask me that."

"Please believe me when I say that there are some things it is better not to know."

"Listen, there's something I have to tell you. It's something I've been hiding. It's going to seem a little weird, but I think you should just try to keep an open mind and not judge right away, okay?"

"Lies are always sexier than the truth, but unfortunately, I've had enough this week to last a lifetime, so why don't you just tell me the truth?"

"Who are you really serving? Because it's never been me."

"Once the truth is out, you have to face it."

"What good is faith when it is a lie?"

"I've never enjoyed deceiving you."

"Whatever it is you think I am, I'm not."

"What if something else is going on? Some other agenda we don't know about?"

"Truth, like surgery, may hurt, but it also cures."

"What I am about to say will not sit well with you, and at the end of the telling, you may wish you had not asked for it."

"It's always the little lies that get us in the end, isn't it?"

"I know this all sounds insane, but how does any of what's happened today make sense if I'm lying?"

"I am not what you think I am."

"The truth can't be wrong, even if it is ugly."

"I love you, but you wouldn't have loved me back if you knew."

"Why are you such a liar? Is it a medical condition?"

"We went looking for truth, but found only lies."

[milkmemes]

TESTING THE CHEMISTRY

Sentence Starters for muses that are just testing their chemistry and haven't committed to anything yet. Adjust pronouns as needed.

❛ If you keep standing that close, I’m going to assume you want something. ❜

❛ Great, now I’m thinking about you. Thanks. That’s exactly what I needed. More chaos.❜

❛ You always do this… get under my skin without even trying. ❜

❛ Tell me the truth ...did you miss me, even a little? ❜

❛ I’m not nervous around you. I just—okay, no, that was a lie. ❜

❛ I wasn’t expecting you to show up… but I’m not complaining. ❜

❛ Do you practice being this distracting or is it natural talent? ❜

❛ You know you don’t have to impress me, right? I already see you. ❜

❛ Was that a compliment, or are you just trying to confuse me? ❜

❛ If you’re trying to make me flustered, it’s working. Unfortunately. ❜

❛ Do you trust me? Don’t overthink it. Just answer. ❜

❛ You keep saying you don’t care, but your face says otherwise. ❜

❛ I didn’t know you could smile like that. It’s… different. ❜

❛ Sit with me for a minute. Just… don’t make it weird. ❜

❛ You give me the exact kind of trouble I pretend I’m too mature for.❜

❛ Why does everything feel so awkward when it’s just us? ❜

❛ Be honest—do you like being around me, or am I imagining that? ❜

❛ You’re staring again. Should I be concerned or flattered? ❜

❛ Quit pretending you don’t notice me noticing you. ❜

❛ One more step closer and I’m charging you rent. ❜

❛ We’re not flirting. We’re just… talking intensely. Right? ❜

❛ Are you hitting on me or are you just like this with everyone? Because I need to mentally prepare. ❜

❛ I’m not saying I’m into you, but I am saying you’re making it incredibly difficult not to be.❜

❛ I swear, if you blush again, I’m going to start asking questions. ❜

❛ Why do you always show up exactly when I need someone? ❜

❛ Don’t act like you don’t like it when I tease you. ❜

❛ If we keep doing this, people are going to get the wrong idea. ❜

❛ You make everything feel like it means more than it should. ❜

❛ You didn’t have to come find me… but you did. ❜

❛ Tell me what you’re thinking. No deflecting this time. ❜

❛ I swear, sometimes it feels like you’re daring me to react. ❜

❛ Why does it feel like we’re having a conversation without saying anything? ❜

❛ I’m not nervous. You’re just… very close right now. ❜

❛ If we crossed a line, would you even tell me? ❜

❛ Don’t look at me like that. You’re going to make me laugh. ❜

❛ I swear, you bring out the strangest parts of me. In a good way. ❜

❛ Come on, scoot over. I’m not sitting way over there. ❜

❛ Stop smiling at me like that, I’m trying to be serious. ❜

❛ You know me too well. It’s honestly terrifying. ❜

❛ You didn’t have to wait for me… but thanks. I mean it. ❜

❛ If you tell anyone I got sentimental, I’m denying everything. ❜

❛ Honestly? Being around you makes everything feel lighter. ❜

❛ Don’t look at me like you’re impressed. You’ll ruin your reputation. ❜

❛ I can’t tell if you want to fight me or kiss me. Don’t clarify. ❜

❛ You’re infuriating… and unfortunately interesting. ❜

❛ If you step any closer, you’re going to find out how much self-control I don’t have. ❜

❛ I hate that I notice you, even when I’m trying not to. ❜

❛ I said I didn’t like you. I never said I could ignore you. ❜

❛ Why do you always show up when I’m at my worst? Trying to gloat? ❜

❛ Don’t flatter yourself. I’m only staring because you’re being weird. ❜

❛ One day, I’ll figure out why you get under my skin. And I’m not sure I want the answer. ❜

[agapestricken-a]

"Seeing you like this hurts"

hospital prompts.

mental health was not something that anastasiy had talked to lestat about ever since they got together — and this wasn't out of fear or anything, actually, but rather because the topic had never actually really come up. but now that ana was laying in a hospital bed, with his partner sitting beside him in a chair and holding his hand, it felt like it was a massive elephant in the room considering that that was why he'd been admitted. oh, and poor raisa (his own daughter) had been the one to find him with blood pouring down his arm as he'd slashed it deeply with a knife because he felt like there was 'bugs crawling underneath it.' yeah... so, needless to say, ana supposed that he wouldn't be leaving the hospital without at least one new prescription to add onto his one for clinical depression already. but that was besides the point.

lestat, his partner, had told him that seeing him in a hospital bed with his arm all bandaged after being stitched up and being hooked up on an IV giving him more blood as well as intravenuous fluids. and this was because he felt weak even just thinking about what he'd done to himself. god's, how anastasiy wished he could turn back time and just tell himself not to do it, like 'hey, that really isn't a good idea, so please don't do that!' but who knows if he even would've listened to his future self, seeing as his attempt on his life, even if it was unintentional made it quite clear he wasn't completely in the right state of mind. ana could only offer lestat an apologetic smile as he shifted in his hospital bed, pulling the covers over so that he could make an invitation to the other, ❝ yeah... i can't imagine that it felt very good to be receiving that call about me earlier since you're on my emergency contact list. i'm sorry, lestat. i really am so sorry. ❞

anastasiy tried not to tear up as he thought of all the things that could happen as a result of this. because i mean, what if the authorities found it that it made ana an unfit parent or something, even though he really did try his best with raisa and he had made sure she was safe by getting her to stay with her grandmother after the incident? his attempt not to cry was only half-successful as ana did choke a bit on his next words, wiping at one of his eyes, ❝ do you want to... want to come lay by me? it would really help me, i think, to have you not just here but next to me. honestly, i'm not even sure whether they are going to let me out of here like they originally said within 72 hours or not, which is kind of scary. but you'll be here for me no matter what they decide, right? ❞

[agapestricken-a]

AUGHHH... GUYS. GUYS, GUYS, GUYS *says it like that one girl in that bullying video from YouTube (if you know you know)* i JUST got this completed commission back of anastasiy back from an artist on etsy called Steph and i just have to say. it's so beautiful i am screaming FLIPPING TABLES doing all the things!!! so without further ado, i shall present to you the comm from this artist (i'll happily send a link to their page upon request):

[thelonelyempath-deactivated2025]

Hospital Prompts

1. "I know it hurts, love. You'll be okay."

2. "Don't ever scare me like that again."

3. "I'm right here. I won't leave you."

4. "Are you laughing because the joke I told was funny or because you're high on pain meds?"

5. "As soon as I heard what happened, I dropped everything and rushed over here."

6. "Wake up, baby...please..."

7. "I don't know what I would do if I lost you."

8. "Easy, babe. You're gonna pop your stitches."

9. "You know I try my best to be all big and tough for you. But when I saw your lifeless body in that hospital bed, I couldn't stop myself from breaking down."

10. "Hospital food is gross." "I know, but you need to eat something."

11. "When you didn't wake up, I honestly thought the worst."

12. "You hit your head pretty hard."

13. "The call button's there for a reason, sweetie."

14. "Seeing you like this hurts."

15. "I'm gonna die here."

16. "I know you hate hospitals, honey. But this is really the safest place you could be right now."

17. "Please tell me that isn't your blood on your shirt."

18. "Come on...stay with me..."

19. "Can you hear me?"

20. "How bad's the pain right now?"

21. "In case this is the last time I get to say it, I love you."

22. "I'm watching my partner/spouse fight for their life right now, and you're seriously upset because I didn't return one phone call?!"

23. "Is there really nothing you can do? Surely there has to be something..."

24. "Sit still. Let me sign your cast."

25. "I love you. I love you more than anything else in the world. You are the one and only love of my life. That being said, you need to be more careful."

26. "Does it look bad?"

27. "Do you need me to get you anything?"

28. "You're squeezing my hand too tight." "I'm not letting go. The thought of losing you scares the shit out of me."

29. "What have I told you about getting into fights?" "They were talking shit about you!"

30. "You have to let them help you."

31. "I'm not that sick!"

32. "Still hurts, huh?"

33. "I was so worried about you!"

34. "I can't see anything."

35. "I'm not leaving until they kick me out."