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[agirltiredoftakingeveryonesshit]

I'm on empty. I know I have things to do, and I have to keep going, but I am on empty. I have nothing left to give.

[agirltiredoftakingeveryonesshit]

I have 2 brothers 1 is inlove with a woman who has cheated in him multiple times and told him she's not in love with him but he's her best friend and he does ABSOLUTELY EVERYTHING for her the other is in a relationship with a married woman but it's okay because she's just staying with him for her child and a place to live. But somehow, a girl i dont even reciprocate feelings for, buying me a bouquet of flowers is the worst thing ever to my family.

[agirltiredoftakingeveryonesshit]

I was 12.

It was my safe house, we went to my neighbor on the next streets to get away from my father's abuse.

He held ice packs to the bruises where my father hit me.

He cleaned up my cuts from playing to hard outside.

He held me and made me feel safe from the pain I was too young to understand.

Then one day he became the person who added to to the pain.

It went from being held and safe to my hips forced into the bed.

I tried to turn away and laugh it off because I didn't understand

I was a child.

He forced my hips into the bed again and I froze.

Just get through what ever is about to happen.

He may have been only 3 years older than me but he knew things I didn't.

I was a child.

It went on for months.

I was some kind of practice toy for his older girlfriend.

It only stopped when she told him she was pregnant.

A teenage pregnancy ended my assaults.

But it was only the beginning of the pain of a secret I would carry for the rest of my life.

The thoughts come to me when I least expect It.

I can still feel is cum on my ass cheeks.

I still feel his grip on my hips.

I still remember walking to the bathroom pretending nothing happened and cleaning my self up.

I was a child.

Only 12 years young.

With pain I was too young to understand.

A secret I've carried for 15 years

Longer than my age at the time.

I feel this pain every day.

I can never trust again.

Never let a man put his hands on my body again.

[agirltiredoftakingeveryonesshit]

I just like saying hey to you.

[agirltiredoftakingeveryonesshit]

What are the odds I find out my abuser is having a child during sexual assault awareness month. Fml. Why can't he just be living a miserable life he doesn't deserve a beautiful wife and beautiful children when he put the fear of men in me at the age of 12!! I trusted him!!

The last time I heard he was having a child I spent the night crying alone in a mosh pit at an In This Moment concert. Fuck! I just want him to be miserable. He doesn't deserve happiness!

[lilmoth95]

[swagpaws]

i think its very exhausting to have to exist every single day

[agirltiredoftakingeveryonesshit]

Currently avoiding going to sleep because I don't want to wake up and start the day where we put my grandmother in the ground.

[kalpico]

i hate that i’m so absent as a person. i don’t start conversations. i can barely maintain them. i’m so weary and spaced out all the time to the point where i can’t even keep up small talk and i’m just so disappointed in myself

[agirltiredoftakingeveryonesshit]

Someone I used to be friends with recently tried to rekindle or friendship and my response was to tell her still suck so she shouldn't want to be my friend and then just stop replying to her messages. I told you I suck!

[homunculus-argument]

a child with an undiagnosed mental illness: I think I need help. I struggle with things nobody else seems to be struggling with.

a parent who never got diagnosed for the exact same mental illness: Oh sweetie. EVERYONE struggles with that :)

[agirltiredoftakingeveryonesshit]

I just want to feel something other than anger and sadness!!

[agirltiredoftakingeveryonesshit]

How does one react when there brothers high school sweetheart who you fully thought would be your sister-in-law and make you an aunt messages you telling you she just engaged.... And its not to your brother.

[agirltiredoftakingeveryonesshit]

My parents didn't know how to handle their emotions or properly handle things and then decided to have 3 kids and now we are 3 more adults in the world that don't know how to handle their emotions or properly handle things. Fuck.

[agirltiredoftakingeveryonesshit]

Quick question. What's it like not to hate yourself?

[achingchest]

the hardest part about leaving toxic people is that you know when you leave, they won’t chase after you. they won’t be begging on their hands and knees for you like you would have done for them. they’ll just let you walk away, never even look at you in their rear view mirror, and move on like nothing has changed. and it’s terrifying, because you’ll finally have to come to the cold hard realization that they never cared if you stayed.

[agirltiredoftakingeveryonesshit]

Does anyone else play the role of little sister with everyone they meet? Everyone I meet feels the need to protect me and acts like they can't do "bad" things when I'm around. I am an adult too it's okay I'm a big girl you don't need to protect me.