i wish i were dead

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i love you, i do. but i can't bring myself to love you like you love me, and it hurts. i wish we were just friends again.

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I want to kill myself

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I JUST WANT SOMEONE TO GIVE A FUCK ABOUT ME! TELL ME YOU LOVE ME! GIVE ME ALL YOUR ATTENTION! I KNOW IM SELFISH BUT I NEED IT! I NEED TO KNOW! I NEED TO FEEL LOVE! I NEED TO HAVE A REASON TO KEEP LIVING PLEASE

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I know you have a personality disorder and so do I but I still don't know what causes you to blame me for everything that upsets you. I can't stand the guilt anymore.

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Nobody cares about my triggers and my ptsd. I hate w*ed because my dad abused it and ended up abusing me with his irresponsibility and everyone tells me to get over it but I didn't have a fucking dad I had to constantly ask my mom why doesn't he come home and where is he and why did he leave me and I want to die because everyone tells me to stop being scared of a fucking plant but I didn't choose to feel sick when I think of it!! I didn't ask for any of this shit and I want to die.

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im sorry. i know my excitement gets annoying. im sorry about that. im sorry for having trust issues. im sorry that im a burden. im sorry that im fat and ugly. im sorry for being worthless. im just so sorry. please forgive me. ill change. i can change. just please dont leave me. i dont care how toxic you are anymore. without you, id be alone.

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At one point I didn't care how much you destroyed me you could have wanted to set me on fire and I would have asked "do you need a lighter" as long as you were fixing yourself I didn't care God, I honestly would have done anything for you and I think that's why, i think it was the fact that I put your feelings before mine every single time even though you were a bad boy I knew you weren't a bad man

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No matter how many times you say you wish I was dead, no matter how many times you wish pain on me or for me kill myself and rot away, I can just never bring myself to wish it back.

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Why is it that you leave me crying all night while you rest peacefully and in the morning you act as if nothing happened? I am not angry with you, I never could be. My brain just thinks differently now... I'm more scared of you leaving me now...

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(Suicide ment) My best friend jokes about wanting to commit suicide a lot and I try to help but they get so pissed when I take it seriously but I can't help it and I don't want them to get hurt... I'm really scared that one day they'll will stop joking idk if you can give me any help or advice but I'm so worried and I can't handle the feeling that they will one day die and I'll think they were joking..

i’m so sorry anon!!! i’m not really sure what to say- maybe try telling your friend this?? i know that i make a lot of suicide jokes, but when my friends told me it made them uncomfortable i dialed it down a lot because i care for them and want them to be comfortable!!!

all you can do is be there for your friend, and try telling them exactly how you feel. i really hope everything works out!!!

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i recently cut things off with my "best friend" and it's been. Horrible. he was so abusive to me and i hate myself every time i miss him because i know he never cared about me. my other friend doesn't like me anymore and she constantly tells me that they're not talking about me behind my back but i have a feeling that they are. she didn't like me before we all split and now she never talks to me. says she's always busy. i don't know what to do. i want to die. i don't have anyone else to talk to.

i’m so sorry anon ):

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i want to be dead. youre gone and i can't find any reason to stay.

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I swear I can be better. I can be what you want. Just accept and love me and I can be it. I can be happy and what you want just say you want me. Please. Please. Please love me

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i recently realised that it's just me. me against the world with no one else to defend my corner. i am so alone.

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Why did you have to go so soon? We all knew it was coming but you're gone all i want is you by my side again.

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You're gone forever, but these scars still remain.

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Just thinking about what you've done to me makes my hands shake and my chest ache. I'm so scared of you, who taught you to hate so much? I didn't deserve your anger. God, please promise me you won't hurt her too.