well it just seems my dad says something and I cry a lot lately hahaha how is he so capable of making me hate myself more than I already do..the reason I’m so insecure and feel so ugly is because of him. He says these little comments here and there and I think and think and think about them. He makes me feel like I’m the fattest person in the world and makes me feel bad for eating anything at this point. I’m just trying to live and he’s always there saying things he thinks helps in some fucked up way. He’s to blame for my body insecurities I mean society too but my whole life he’s always had something rude to say. Everyday I think about being less fat and I say less fat because let’s face it I’m never going to be skinny not like what my brain sees. My entire teenage years to now this thought has always been there making me feel badly about myself, reminding me I’m not pretty but it all steams from my dad and his words. Words that hurt and cut deeply which he is so unaware of. Spoiler alert dad I already know how fat and disgusting I am, thank you!
