Ai | adult | dn, hsr, mr, tpodg, alnst, kaguya, aa, etc. | they/she/he | I enjoy reading into characters, relationships & parallels. I do writing & other stuff. rumor goes that I have an utterly useless prophetic power.
audhd, cluster b+c, ocd, etc. please keep this in mind when you see my neurodivergence & mental disorder headcanons
I am very awkward lol
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about my blog:
I write stuff (#own writing, #own analysis). sometimes I also draw (#own art) and do other things.
I sometimes post and reblog content that are 18+ or may be considered "problematic". usually I try to tag them (#nsft, and '#[content] cw' when applicable) but they're not always consistently tagged, so watch out.
I like Death Note, HSR, Magia Record, ALNST, BAB, TPoDG, 2ha, PMMM, Kaguya-sama, Ace Attorney, among other things.
I sometimes use pronouns for characters that differ from the ones they use in canon and have trans hcs for characters where their genders differ from canon. see the next section for details.
I believe in:
my trans hcs where they are the same genders as in canon (e.g. transfem firefly, transfem feixiao, transmasc shi mei) are NOT shown on here.
generally speaking, I'm open to - or at least not against - other interpretations either! these below are just what I myself believe in the most.
nonbinary trans woman sunday (she/her, he/him; brother [to robin], otherwise mostly uses only fem or gn terms) (however sunday is a repressed egg in most depictions and denies all of this heavily)
genderfluid transmasc lesbian robin (he/she/any; sister [to sunday], otherwise uses a mix of gn, masc and fem terms) (robin is closeted to most or all people in most depictions)
trans woman aventurine (she/her; mostly prefers fem terms only) (aventurine is closeted to most or all people in Dream Note AU & some, but not all, of the other depictions)
transfem light yagami (light is a repressed egg in most depictions and denies all of this completely)
nonbinary transmasc hotori yuzuki (egg in the sense that hotori isn't fully familiar with the concept of being trans + unfortunately lives with a hypercontrolling twin sister who very insistently pushes them back into the closet)
anything u think about YOUR life after 10pm is bs to be ignored. anything u think about a character’s life after 10pm should be posted about online and expanded on for paragraphs. :)
Confessions on the brink of death a character accepts out of kindness because it won’t matter soon anyway, but then the other person doesn’t die, the other person expects them to carry through on their promise to love them and gets angry when they try to back out. Blackmail held over someone’s head just to force them to flirt and make romantic advances on another person, so it looks like they wanted this relationship. Talks about marriage and happily ever afters together as a threat. “I love you, I love you, I love you” as a violation that you’re expected to smile at and be grateful for, because you’re supposed to want to be loved. noncon romance.
adding to this: feeling love against your will. love forced on you by some power beyond you. love that you know you wouldn’t feel if you weren’t blessed (cursed) by it. love that you don’t want and is ruining you and that everyone keeps praising you for feeling. love that everyone around you gets mad at you for rejecting anyway. love that’s made so overpowering that it wipes out any semblance of “you” that there is to make way for a thing that will love someone back.
funniest part of this post is how many people reblog it tagged something like “this sounds aromantic” or “op not to derail but aromanticism” and like well guys you’re never going to believe why i find forced romance such a horrifying concept-
i kind of miss when headcanon lists were more of a thing? i wasn't around for it but i stumble on a lot while digging up older fandom stuff and it seems like these days i only see them for xreader specific scenarios.
it's always so fascinating and heartbreaking when a character in a story is simultaneously idolized and abused. a chosen prophet destined for martyrdom. a child prodigy forced to grow up too fast. a powerful warrior raised as nothing but a weapon. there's just something so uniquely messed up about singing someone's praises whilst destroying them.
(discovering in her 20s "romantic jealousy" is a thing that real people feel irl and not exclusively a cliche fictional construct found in romance stories)
Sunday: this desire to possess, which transforms human bonds into property, is another illusory cage produced by our society & sign of man's estrangement from humanity, wher
Wonweek: jfc girl
Sunday: (“Private property has made us so stupid and one-sided that an object is only ours when we have it – when it exists for us as capital, or when it is directly possessed, eaten, drunk, worn, inhabited, etc., – in short, when it is used by us. Although private property itself again conceives all these direct realisations of possession only as means of life, and the life which they serve as means is the life of private property – labour and conversion into capital. In the place of all physical and mental senses there has therefore come the sheer estrangement of all these senses, the sense of having. The human being had to be reduced to this absolute poverty in order that he might yield his inner wealth to the outer world.”)
no one:
nobody:
absolutely none:
???: what if The Picture of Dorian Gray was about dialectical materialism and it's literally the most perfect thematic and narrative parallel imaginable to *check notes* modern China?
I am a strong believer that declawing and defanging a character to be more palatable for a ship is one of the most unromantic, unsexy things ever. A character consciously choosing to be gentle and kind despite their vicious tendencies and sharp attributes? Now that is peak romance, absolutely sexy as hell
