feel too much .

sometimes i feel everything . others are numbing . can't seem to find an inbetween . it's all or nothing . i never , never , never said that i wanted . i never , never , never said , that i wanted . never wanted to be here now . one foot in the grave other on the ground . i can't process what i'm feeling now . this skin i could do without . i never wanted a body . i never , never , never wanted a body .

[aiknshamelss]

wckdgames​:

       in all the times they’d done this , rydell was sure that he’d never seen this sort of reaction from boo , not even the first time he confessed his feelings to her , but he imagined it was more to do with the acceptance of her family , the appreciation for all she’d done for them from someone on the outside , thanks she’d never really gotten from her parents . perhaps in that moment he got his answer , before she’d even given her verbal response , rydell knew he was right to wait , right to do this here than before . 

he lifted himself up from the ground , leaning into boo and deepening their kiss slightly , his hands lifting to brush away the tears that spilled down her cheek still . they melted into one another , resting back against the other , their arms wrapping around one another – clinging to each other before rydell finally pulled back slightly to breathe , his head bowing against boo’s own ,  “  wanna  put  your  ring  on ?  ”  he chuckled breathlessly ,  “  I  really  do  love  you .  ”

      boo had to admit that they were nice words to hear . she wanted to pretend that everyone elses opinion didn’t matter , and it shouldn’t have , but it got to be a lot with a lot of people feeling as if they had any say when it came to the rabbits or feeling as if they had any right to try and judge boo and how she raised her family . she didn’t know what she was doing half of the time . all she ever wanted was for the kids to have a better life than she did and to hear ry say it meant more than what he probably realized . she knew being involved with someone like her wasn’t easy but knowing that he was all in , no matter what , filled her with a sense of relief .

she stayed close to rydell , an arm slipping around his shoulders as she kept him closer to her . boo knew that she wouldn’t have been able to accept this before . she wasn’t ready then but she knew that she was ready now . for a moment , the ring was forgotten about until ry broke the silence . she smiled , ‘  yeah , i  want  to  put  the  ring  on . ‘ she looked back at ry , pushing some of his hair back , ‘  i  know . ‘ that wasn’t something boo was ever going to question . and maybe that was part of the reason what archie said got under her skin even if it shouldn’t have . ‘ i  really  do  love  you  too . ‘

[aiknshamelss]

wckdgames​:

      he grinned , figuring the other didn’t really expect a reply to that , before watching as deacon stood up and offered up his hand . matteo didn’t really hesitate to take his hand , groaning quietly but doing so anyway , he’d never really been much good at turning people down , at least , not people he cared for . the two made their way towards the others who were dancing , matteo reached back and took his last few pulls from the cigarette and tossed it aside , turning back to face deacon when they blended in among the rest of the already very much drunken party goers .

       deacon grinned as matteo didn’t seem to argue against it but he didn’t really expect him to . ‘  don’t  be  a  baby , ‘ he hummed at the grown before walking towards where everyone else was dancing . it was a party .  it was time to get drunk and make bad decisions or at least loosen up a little . ‘  you’re  not  a  bad  dancer  ,  matteo , ‘ deacon hummed as he brought the other in closer .

[aiknshamelss]

wckdgames​:

       vee tilted her head to the side ,  “  nah ,  but  I’ll  let  you  know  if  that  ever  goes  into  motion .  ” she took a sip from her drink and nodded towards boo and rydell , who seemed to be disappearing back into the rabbit household , not exactly a surprise considering the two of them lived very much up to boo’s name .  “  a  little  birdy  tells  me  that  aspen  and  avery  aren’t  going  to  be  the  only  ones  getting  married ,  ” she tipped her head to the side ,  “  in  fact ,  I’m  fairly  sure  they’re  going  to  be  one  of  three .  ”

      deacon followed vee’s line of sight , gaze falling on rydell and boo . ‘  oh  shit ,  seriously ? ‘ he wasn’t exactly close with rydell but he definitely knew of the relationship . he was pretty sure everyone knew of that relationship and it was about damn time something happened there . ‘  one  of  three ? shit .  if  that’s  the  case  then  everyone  around  us  is  about  to  get  hitched . ‘

[aiknshamelss]

wckdgames​:

      it seemed to do the trick , emery was distracted enough to take his leave and angel didn’t hesitate to give the other an encouraging smile . they left the area while frank mumbled something under his breath and tried to grab another drink , only to be promptly urged away by somebody else . angel settled into a free seat and sparked up , handing it over to emery right away ,  “  yeah ,  yeah ,  s’a  –  s’a  good  party ,  nobody’s  dead  yet ,  definitely  say  that’s  a  win ,  how  are  you  doing ?  ”

      emery happily took the joint , taking a hit before handing it back to angel . he breathed out , almost wanting to chuckle . ‘  the  night  is  still  young . ‘ he looked back at him , ‘  my  money  is  on  archie  or  alec  getting  decked  in  the  face  next .  ‘ he would actually put money on it although by the looks of it , it seemed as if boo was keeping her distance which was probably a good thing . ‘  frank  is  frank . ‘ he figured he didn’t need to give more of an explanation than that . everyone knew how frank could be .

[aiknshamelss]

kcnziejcns​:

“exactly! plus, it’s your party. what kind of person would i be if i didn’t offer and raise my own toast?” in her drunken mind it made sense. “so to you,” she pointed out as she held her own cup up, “and ya know, your wonderful life and all the future stuff to come ahead and your happiness.” well, she tried.

    amusement touched avery’s face for a moment . ‘  thank  god  that’s  a  party  toast  and  not  a  wedding  reception  toast . ‘ he raised his cup up before taking the shot , enjoying the way it burned all the way down . ‘  regardless ,  thank  you . ‘

[kyrumption]

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[aiknshamelss]

wckdgames​:

        there wasn’t really anywhere else he’d be tonight , he was sure it was the same for kieran , their best friends were engaged and that deserved a celebration . josh knew his initial reaction wasn’t necessarily the best , but he truly was happy for the two of them , and he could only hope they both knew that , especially given that he hadn’t always been the number one supporter of their relationship – but nobody ever really made avery happy like aspen did . josh glanced up at kieran when they spoke , his lips spreading into a smile , taking the joint from them ,  “  can  say  that  again .  ”

      a grin touched kieran’s lips , nudging josh lightly . ‘  you  good ? ‘ everything seemed fine , or at least , now it did . kieran didn’t bother to bug josh about the night before when they figured out about the engagement but they figured that they would ask regardless . ‘  something  tells  me  avery  and  aspen  might  dip  their  party  early . ‘ it wouldn’t have been surprising . they had a feeling the two would dip for some alone time eventually .

[aiknshamelss]

wckdgames​:

       matteo laughed , nudging the other when he pulled on his hair , but welcoming the gesture all the same ,  “  I  wanna  see  you  more ,  ” he pointed out , shrugging his shoulders ,  “  now  I’ve  told  you ,  you  gotta  do  it ,  ” he took a few more pulls before handing the smoke back to deacon and looking over at the people still dancing ,  “  you  dance ,  right ?  ”

    ‘  why  do  i  have  to  do  it ? ‘ deacon reached for the smoke , ‘ i   never  agreed  to  that . ‘ he grinned as he looked ahead of himself , ‘  yeah  i  dance . ‘ he took a pull from the cigarette before moving to stand up , holding a hand out for matteo to take  . ‘  come  on .  no  more  sitting  on  the  side  lines . ‘

[aiknshamelss]

kcnziejcns​:

she was right, this was huge, who knew when this would happen again anytime soon? “true,” she pointed out before truly complimenting her, “you did great.” for now, it was fun, but not too crazy, it was just the right amount fun before everything went awol as the drinks continued to pour. “yeah, too long, i’m sorry i haven’t really texted or whatever. i’ve just been working really, trying to finally save up some money. what about you? i’m sure i’ve missed so much.”

      '  it’s  fine ,  really . ‘ it wasn’t as if boo was going to hold a grudge over that . ‘  aren’t  we  all ? ‘ it was the name of the game. work as hard as you could , try to get ahead . ‘  uh ,  i  mean ,  same  shit  different  day  mostly . ‘ she shrugged her shoulders , ‘  ry  is  back , ‘ she motioned across from them . ‘  don’t  know  if  you  ever  met  him  but  i’m  not  single  any  more . ‘ she hummed trying to think of something else , ‘  still  waitressing . the  kids  are  good .  frank  is  still frank . ‘

[aiknshamelss]

wckdgames​:

      he lifted his brows , his lips curving into a small smile , his gaze drifting around the area before coming back to boo again . he knew what emery said , and he also knew this was aspen and avery’s celebration , but with confirmation that boo was as serious about this as he was , ry swiftly stood up .  “  come  with  me ,  ”  he held out his hand and lead boo back towards the house , he knew she was bound to have questions but he didn’t want to put her on the spot in front of everybody . as soon as they got inside , his heart began to pound , he loved boo and he was sure of this , but that didn’t make it any less frightening . he cupped her face with his hands and planted a kiss to her lips ,  “  stay  here .  ” 

disappearing up the stairs , rydell returned a mere moment later , encouraging boo to take a seat , sitting down beside her ,  “  I  love  you ,  and  I always  have ,  always  will …  I  know  we’re  supposed  to  be  together ,  and  yeah ,  that’s  fucking  cheesy ,  but  I  don’t  care ,   I  want  this  boo ,  I’ve  always  wanted  this  with  you ,  it  just  took  me  sometime  to  accept  that  I  couldn’t  be  selfish  with  you ,  it’s  never  gonna  be  just  us ,  and …  I’m  more  than  ok  with  that  now ,  I  love  your  kids ,  they’re  awesome  and  you  did  a  hell  of  a  job  raising  them …  ”  he retrieved the box from his pocket , sliding off the seat to kneel down beside her instead ,  “  I  wanna  marry  you ,  boo …  ”  he popped open the box and glanced up at her ,  “  I  want  all  of  that  with  you ,  in  whatever  form  it  comes  in .  ”

-   

      boo raised a brow , almost wanting to question ry but opting to keep her questions to herself as she reached out for his hand and moved back towards the house before heading inside . she hummed in response before nodding her head , watching as he disappeared up the stairs but it didn’t take too long for him to return . boo was sure this was probably the quietest she had stayed for anyone in a long time but she didn’t want to interrupt whatever it is that ry was doing or let alone what he was going to say .

boo moved to sit , shifting in her spot so she could face ry better . as he began to speak , a small smile touched boo’s lips , her features almost immediately softening and as much as she hated to admit it , she couldn’t help the sting of tears that she felt in her eyes . it was probably the most heart felt thing anyone had ever said to her . hell , it was probably the most heart felt thing rydell had ever said to her . ‘  oh  my  god , ‘ the words seemed to leave her lips without much warning as rydell continued and moved to kneel beside her instead . boo wiped a few of her tears away as she nodded her head , ‘  yeah , ‘ she almost whispered , ‘  i’ll  marry  you . ‘ she leaned forward as she cupped ry’s face , bringing him in closer to press their lips together .

[aiknshamelss]

wckdgames​:

       she rolled her eyes at the familiar pet name , but her lips remained upturned in amusement . they could be friends , they sure as shit didn’t make it as a couple , but they’d always gotten along , always been on the same sort of level , even if deacon was a little different than he used to be , vee somewhat hoped they could get back to the point of friendship again . vee rubbed her lips together and glanced over to him again , biting her lower lip momentarily before shifting to face him ,  “  well ,  maybe  two  things  for  that  family .  ”

     deacon raised a brow at that , sitting up a little to offer more of his attention . ‘  two  things ? ‘ he looked back in the direction of the rabbits before his gaze was quick to move back to vee again . ‘  why  two  things ?  what  have  i  missed ? ‘ he figured if vee was bringing it up that she knew what was going on or at least had some of an idea . ‘  are  they  finally  going  with  the  murder  frank  idea ?  because  i’d  be  down  for  that . ‘

[aiknshamelss]

wckdgames​:

       “  oh ,  he’ll  show ,  ” angel murmured , but anybody who knew frank knew that anyway . he glanced around the place , half expecting the asshole to be roaming around somewhere . he shook his head and glanced back at deacon , then over towards vee ,  “  you  too  spoke  yet ?  ”

      it was frank after all . while he wanted to keep some hope alive that the guy would realize when he wasn’t wanted , he had the tendency to pop up when he was least expected to . ‘ yeah ,  we  talked . ‘ he looked back at angel , ‘  everything’s  good .  no  hostility  so  i  think  that’s  moving  in  the  right  direction  if  you  ask  me . ‘

[aiknshamelss]

     kieran had to admit that they were having a good time although they didn’t expect anything else when it came to this party . a lot more people showed up than they had initially expected but people were always willing to pop by when there was the possibility of free food or free alcohol involved but everyone seemed to be on their best behavior , or at least , for tonight . kieran took a hit of the joint before passed around before handing it off . ‘  definitely  not  a  bad  party , ‘ they hummed , leaning back , stretching their legs out .

[aiknshamelss]

wckdgames​:

      aspen smiled back at the other , maybe once upon a time avery was a little less understanding , this had been a work in progress , it wasn’t as if being with aspen was easy , and they knew that avery’s life had definitely changed , going from laid-back , relaxed , no complications to , well , the opposite of all that , but the other never seemed to doubt them anymore . aspen leaned into their fiance , turning to plant a gentle kiss against his mouth , bowing their heads together ,  “  I  would  like  to  say  we’re  really  likeable  but  I’m  fairly  sure  these  people  would  come  to  the  opening  of  a  letter  if  it  gave  them  a  reason  to  get  wasted .  ”

   avery hummed against aspen’s lips . '  no  doubt . ‘ the people here would take any opportunity to drown in booze and it just so happened that this was one of those times . a smile touched avery’s lips as he pushed his fingers through aspen’s hair . ‘ love  you . ‘ the whole thing still felt surreal and he was sure that it would take a while before it began to feel very real that the two were engaged and had an entire wedding to plan .

[aiknshamelss]

wckdgames​:

       angel could have seen this coming from a mile away , but figuring frank deserved to be put on his ass , he didn’t get involved right away . he tipped his head back , watching from a comfortable distance , before moving forward to plant himself between emery and frank , if only to coax a drink in the younger man’s hand to cool things off before it got out of hand ,  “  wanna  smoke ?  nice  shot  by  the  way ,  ” he wasn’t about to outright tell emery to stop , that was his business , but he wouldn’t hesitate to try ease the other’s irritation , though he was quick to step out of the way , patting emery on the back .

      emery’s attention seemed to shift from frank to angel as the other put a drink in his hand . he rubbed his lips together before opting to take a step back from frank . there didn’t need to be a complete rabbit throw down tonight but he was sure that point was driven home to frank , quite literally . ‘  yeah , ‘ he nodded , almost snorting in response . ‘  thanks . ‘ emery wasn’t going to detail about what happened or why and he had a feeling that angel wouldn’t press about  it . ‘ enjoying  yourself ? ‘

[aiknshamelss]

wckdgames​:

      “  did  I  fucking  stutter ?  ”  vee retorted , a smile tugging on the corners of her lips before she glanced away , her legs crossing over one another as she dug around in her bag , pulling out a joint and sparking up , taking a few pulls and handing it over to the man at her side ,  “  yeah ,  me  too …  he’s  such  a  good  guy .  ”

     he had to admit that he had missed vee . maybe they weren’t good for each other as far as a relationship went and maybe there was never going to be a do-over in that sense but maybe they could be better as friends . ‘  no ,  you  didn’t , ma . ‘ he leaned back in his seat before looking back at her , reaching out for the joint . ‘  he  is . ‘ deacon couldn’t argue that . ‘  about  time  something   good  happened  around  here . ‘

[aiknshamelss]

wckdgames​:

       “  that’s  good ,  maybe  you  can  relax  a  little  then ?  ” rydell taunted , brushing her hair from her face before shifting to let his arm hang around her shoulders . her question caught him off guard momentarily , his gaze drifting over her features as if to question whether her words had been in seriousness , or whether she was teasing him . he breathed in deeply , rolling back his shoulders ,  “  uh …  yeah ,  I  guess  I  do …  what  about  you ?  ”

     ‘  am  i  not  relaxed ? ‘ boo asked , a grin on her lips before the conversation took a more serious turn . ‘  i  ...  want  a  life  with   you .  whatever  that  looks  like .  marriage ,  no  marriage .  kids ,  no  kids .  a  white  picket  fence  and  a  dog  or  slumming  it  here  in  aikens . ‘ boo pressed her lips together as she shifted , moving to stand in front of ry . ‘  i  know  my  life  is  complicated .  with  the  kids  and  everything  else   and  ...  for  the  most  part  this  relationship  has  been  about  me  but  it  should  be  about  us  and  what  we  want .  what  we  both  want . ‘