Power

Sebastian Marc Smythe I have two doppelgangers, but we decided to stop giving a fuck about each other. More their loss than mine. I have this uncontrollable desire to be perfect, but lord knows why, because I am perfect. I can be nice when I want to, but only when I think it's warranted. You have to earn that privilege on your own.

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[private] Thank you, Seb. You’re amazing you know that?

[ainsworthbas]

[PM]: I’m trying.

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[Private] I…I mean…only I’d your sure? And I can’t promise I’ll be very good. I don’t know what I’m doing and as you’ve noticed I’m a mess…

[ainsworthbas]

[PM]: I wanna help.

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I…you….but you have him? Wouldn’t he be mad?

[ainsworthbas]

[PM]: He’s okay with it, I promise. The dominant inside me needs it too.

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You do. But…Seb.. what if I’m like you? What if I always need someone? And not just in s friend way. What if I need someone like Alaric?

[ainsworthbas]

Then i’ll be your Alaric.

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Kick me out if I do?

[ainsworthbas]

We want you here. I...really want you here, you know? I want to take care of you.

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You guys are amazing but I’m taking time away from you two’s personal time and that’s not fair.

[ainsworthbas]

You’re not, Sterling, I promise.

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I was stupid. I know you are. I’m really happy for you guys. I…I finally felt…whole for once.

[ainsworthbas]

All i’m saying is it’s okay not to be immediately over it. But you know you...you have us. If that’s what you need to feel. Me and Alaric...

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I should be over it though. It shouldn’t be this hard…

[ainsworthbas]

You loved him, Sterling. And you know, i’m kind of in love myself believe it or not, so I can imagine it’s going to take more than a week or two to move on.

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I am. I know you hate emotions and I know you hate crying and I’m basically an emotional crybaby right now.

[ainsworthbas]

You’re also my brother and I love you more than anything.

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I know. I’m sorry Bas. I know I’m a bother right now I just…I don’t know…

[ainsworthbas]

You’re never a bother to me.

[ainsworthbas]

Lost in your own head || Sebric

Alaric: took a deep breath in feeling Sebastian kiss him, his shoulders finally relaxing a bit as he finally opened his eyes meeting Sebastian's perfect eyes "at first...but soon it became normal. I didn't know any better. He took advantage over an ignorant child and that child clung to him and fell in love with him and in love with a world he knew nothing about." He said taking a shaking breath "an ignorant child to this world like you." He said bringing light to his bigger fear.

Sebastian: felt increasing frustrated as the seconds passed; had he been out of the hospital, and back home, he would have hunted down the son of a bitch but all he could do was listen to Alaric and try to comfort him-- it was why no touching was so hard for him when they were together. It was a dominance thing, it was a comfort one. "Why...why didn't you tell anyone?", he asked, continuing to caress his boyfriend's cheek.

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I know. I’m sorry I don’t mean to be so…

Originally posted by lolurnotgrantgustin

[ainsworthbas]

Originally posted by cutegaygfs

I just really want you to be okay.

[ainsworthbas]

[PRIVATE; SEBRIC]

[switching-eloise]

You’ll need training.

[ainsworthbas]

I know how to look after him. I’m not going to delve straight into the hard stuff.

[switching-eloise]

[PM FROM BAS]: Stop arguing with Sterling. He needs love.

PM: I didn’t appreciate that he implied all I could ever give you was sex. But…I saw Alex left. How is he?

[switching-eloise]

PM: I’m not going to argue this Sebastian.

[ainsworthbas]

[PM]: Then don’t chat shit about my brother when he’s really fucking hurt.

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Sorry, Seb. 

This is just…really hard for me. 

[ainsworthbas]

That’s why i’m here.

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Maybe just a little. 

[ainsworthbas]

Well, you shouldn’t.

[ainsworthbas]

[From Loyal] I know this is too early to be saying this, but Joyeux Noël, Sebastian.

IT’S THE 24TH. THE 24TH.

[loyalthekid-blog]

‘Bastian, there’s nothing wrong with being a nerd at times.

[ainsworthbas]

Now isn’t one of those times.