I feel like in this day and age it is rather easy to be cancelled. In my warming comforts post I made a statement that I would like to move on from my old creater name "CasCC". As this statement alone can seem sketchy, I feel obligated to explain while I am mentally able. While I do not anticipate any drama around such a small statement, my anxiety disorder refuses to allow me to be quiet about it. Please note that this content has a trigger warning, and while I have moments of being comfortable with explaining it now I may not feel comfortable bringing up the topic in the future.
Again, TRIGGER WARNING for the following post!
Since I turned 18 I have been in a number of abusive relationships. I was unable to see what these relationships were and always blamed myself for their failure until the last one. I was in an online relationship with an individual with a severe drug and alcohol problem that was the root of their abusive tendencies. They would compliment me often, something that I wasn't used to, and it made me ignore the controlling behaviors he exhibited. We had a pretty massive argument one day and he went outside of the relationship to get back at me. His manipulations and their cheating brought out the worse in me and while we were not together long, my mental health declined significantly to a dangerous point. I ended things with this individual, after which they began threatening me. I blocked them, to which they responded by making what felt like hundreds of accounts saying horrible things to me. They harassed my friends for information about my private life and my address to the point where I thought it safer for everyone to just delete everything and start over. I used to do art commissions using the name CazCreations, and I didn't think much of it when I made my original Tumblr to go by a similar name. Once the drama died down it wasn't a big deal. The individual that has done all of this has returned to the communities that I left after the harassment and is in contact with a mutual friend. This friend says that they when to rehab for their issues and is just sorry for what they did but as the experience was traumatic I have refused to acknowledge the apology. It took that to realize that the username is directly linked to that trauma and I felt the need for my own mental health to change it after the accidental deletion of the old Tumblr. It was time. I felt that it was just causing me more heart ache holding onto that old brand.
That's that then. I don't know what the future will hold, and I'm sure I will offend someone down the line because we are rarely perfect, but at least this is comfortably transparent enough for now. Thanks to everyone for understanding my need to post this, and for giving me the support that you already have. I look forward to providing more content as I go.