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Afternoon drive to home

The sun setting, giving a warm color in the sky, a mixture of orange and blue. I am ready for it. I will embrace it. I am much better this way.

they, who love you, tend not to say that they miss you without action.

The wind's blowing through the balcony and through my hair. I feel the peace on my face. Is this what everyone called a comfort zone?

💗

Melukismu

dalam benang

dan irama sendu

kesahajaan penantian

serta kesabaran

menjadi sebuah takjubku

sentuhan doa

dan dekapan mimpi

menuai rindunya

disaat yang Kuasa

menetapkan takdir

atas dua insan

kasihku dan aku

#puisi #penantian #short poem #love #ajengmar

The right issue is that you write to get the audience's attention because you cannot speak. But as soon as your writing got published, your anxiety plays the role to shut it down.

#writing #quote #introvert #extrovert

Bunga di atas batu, dibakar sepi, mengatas indera, ia menanti, bunga di atas batu, dibakar sepi.

Sitor Situmorang

a woman learns in her silent resignation, not to hurt a man, but to make him understand.

ajengmar

If your intention is good, that is too strengthen the good relationship, but ideally getting zero feedback, just step back. They think you're not worth their time. So, you need to be considerate enough. Be good as in you are both strangers.

am

I wish

Dear self, I wish you a mature thought and planning, I wish you brave and independent, I wish you happiness for you and your surroundings, I wish you healthy and prosperity, I wish you are tougher and firmer, I wish you closer to God.

Stating a motivational quote is a shame, you assumed. Then, what are you who offens someone's freedom of speech?

am

#freedomofspeech #quote

Thanks to the Brain

I'm always amazed with how our brain works. Every time I attempted to make a decision, it takes a lead, considering everything until it almost takes the decision back. Brain and heart always have a special connection in me. Heart always makes the conspiracy that any planning will most likely not work although it knows that brain will take care anything. Then, I meditate. Try to listen to both of them. The brain is not always right anyway, so I ask the heart again. But every time I make a judgement, brain always said that the chance doesn't always come twice.

RahmatMu

Turunkanlah rahmatMu berupa titik titik hujan pada daerahnya yang sendu. Rintik yang membasahi tanah, dedaunan serta pilu. Rintik yang syahdu sebagai pengingat akan syukur padaMu. Agar mengalirlah harapan atas hidup. Agar tenanglah alamku.

#writing #poem #puisi #hujan #sendu #kekeringan

Romanticize

I don't like the idea of me romanticizing everything. I don't like when I picture someone would be with me doing things that come up in my mind. But I like the idea of thinking about it. It was like feeding my dry soul. I have been thinking that it might be good to experience something just like in the movie. I mean, simple thing like conversation looks so amazing. But as I look into reality, I think it's less possible for me. It would be lying if I say that I could keep up a conversation. Even, some people that I know gave up on me easily. I tend to push them away because of my anxiety. Anxiety is like my best friend so far, so possessive and most of the time hindering me to do things. I have tried. But it didn't work out. I know a guy and I kind of like him. I wanted to say hi and talked about our hobbys or what occupied our minds recently. Nevertheless, it was only in my mind and I am not supposed to think about it. It is a dream in a dull day. I wish I could be more realistic and stop romanticizing anything.

Two

It has been a very long time since I wrote the last thought of mine. We know the time keeps moving, and somehow ignoring and at the same time respecting the human being. I've been experiencing many things as I moved away from this sort of writing. I've moved on something useful and gone back to something unnecessary. Maybe someone was right that this world is like a moving wheel. We feel happiness very short and then grieving very long. Although I start to believe that it was actually the same, the same amount of feeling and the same amount of time. I've been healing. I find someone else and something else to think about. I'm sure that everyone can.

#life

One

That time, random feelings were chasing each other, sneaking out where they should be settled. I couldn't picturize exactly what I was thinking. The sentence I remembered torturing me slowly, someone said "I will never let you down. I'm sure we will always be together until then, I promise". While right at the time, I saw a status showing off an image of siluethe. It was warm and cozy, hands were holding each other. Holly crap. Here again my first mistakes. I wish I never stare at that status again. It sent my mind away to condition some years ago. I regretted.

A future is always close to you. Make it real with efforts.

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