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low activity / sporadic. aoko ishikawa. private indie oc. they/them ONLY. fandomless. selective. penned by blair. icon made by @tearzah

[ajisaiko]

hi everyone I started following!!! I am making a new blog and am locating active roleplayers in the community. I’ll update with the new blog once my braincells are stitched back together

[ajisaiko]

anyone here? It’s been years…

[ardoradore]

nyello folks, it’s blair here with yet another magical character! cherri valentine is a witch that serves for aphor.dite! she specializes in assisting others fertility, love/se.x lives, romance, ect. she’s 24, bisexual, nonbinary, and always wishes she had more weed. RB/LMS for me to check your page out! note: in search of 18+ mutuals only!

[ardoradore]

nyello folks, it’s blair here with yet another magical character! cherri valentine is a witch that serves for aphor.dite! she specializes in assisting others fertility, love/se.x lives, romance, ect. she’s 24, bisexual, nonbinary, and always wishes she had more weed. RB/LMS for me to check your page out! note: in search of 18+ mutuals only!

[ajisaiko]

                                ❝ not     only     did     i     SURVIVE,     i     learned     to     BLOSSOM. ❞ independent / private / selective oc adored by blair. 

[ajisaiko]

                                ❝ not     only     did     i     SURVIVE,     i     learned     to     BLOSSOM. ❞ independent / private / selective oc adored by blair. 

[whumpster-dumpster]

Character A gets left behind in the group’s escape attempt for whatever reason (they were too slow, they couldn’t walk with their injuries, etc.), but B goes back for them, opens up a chance for them to make it and ends up getting recaptured in their place. 

[whumpster-dumpster]

Deep dark circles under half-lidded, glassy eyes 👌👌👌

[tlirsgender]

You ever try to write romance and you just feel like this image

[tlirsgender]

Me: ok so then they kiss. Word it

My brain, gay and also stupid: ttheir lipsps……..

Me: go on

Brain: hhdhfbfhhf kis

[whumpster-dumpster]

Character A tilting Character B’s chin up to get a better look at their face and the evidence of the fight. A delicately thumbs away the streak of blood by B’s mouth, saying nothing as they examine it. After a brief pause, B’s heart skips a nervous beat as A looks them dead in the eyes. Their voice is quiet and tense, their anger barely restrained.

“Who did this to you?”

[amourmemes]

❥     𝐓𝐎  𝐓𝐇𝐎𝐒𝐄  𝐖𝐄  𝐋𝐎𝐕𝐄  ,  𝐏𝐑𝐎𝐌𝐏𝐓𝐒  𝐅𝐑𝐎𝐌  𝐏𝐈𝐍𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐄𝐒𝐓  .

longing  /  endearing  one  -  liners  as  taken  from  the  website  pinterest  . customize  as  you  wish  !

❛  the  first  time  i  met  you  ,  i  had  no  damn  idea  i’d  love  you  this  much  .  ❜ ❛  i  wish  i  could  just  protect  you  from  everything  .  ❜ ❛  i  noticed  you  .  how  could  i  not  ?  ❜ ❛  i’ll  hold  your  hand  the  whole  way  through  ,  don’t  worry  .  ❜ ❛  i  want  you  .  so  much  .  you’re  all  i  fucking  think  about  .  ❜ ❛  you  are  made  of  comets  and  stars  .  do  not  let  anyone  treat  you  as  if  you  are  dirt  and  dust  .  ❜ ❛  i  love  how  i  can  just  look  at  you  and  be  happy  .  ❜ ❛  i  woke  up  and  the  first  thing  i  wanted  was  you  .  ❜ ❛  i  love  everything  you  hate  about  yourself  .  ❜ ❛  pinky  -  promise  me  you  won’t  leave  .  ❜ ❛  i’m  always  tired  but  never  of  you  .  ❜ ❛  you’re  it  ,  you’re  my  person  .  ❜ ❛  you  are  the  peace  i  crave  in  this  chaotic  world  .  ❜ ❛  now  i  wish  we  never  met  because  you’re  too  hard  to  forget  .  ❜ ❛  i’d  pick  your  thunder  ,  i’d  pick  your  rain  ;  over  anyone’s  sunshine  any  day  .  ❜ ❛  you  steady  me  and  stir  me  all  at  once  .  ❜ ❛  and  then  i  knew  that  i  could  become  homesick  for  you  too  .  ❜ ❛  i  just  want  to  spend  forever  getting  high  off  what  it  feels  like  to  be  around  you  .  ❜ ❛  you’ve  got  something  they  don’t  .  ❜ ❛  what  a  plot  twist  you  were  .  ❜ ❛  i  told  the  stars  about  you  .  ❜ ❛  stay  .  i  need  you  more  than  you  think  .  ❜ ❛  you  still  feel  like  home  .  ❜ ❛  come  over  here  and  make  my  clothes  smell  like  you  again  .  ❜ ❛  i  want  to  kiss  you  and  it  kills  me  .  ❜

[andhungry]

RENT LYRICS SENTENCE STARTERS.

’  525,600 minutes — how do you measure a year?  ’

’  how about love?  ’

’  how do you document real life when real life’s getting more like fiction each day?  ’

’  we’re hungry and frozen, some life that we’ve chosen.  ’

’  how we gonna pay last year’s rent?  ’

’  zoom in as they burn the past to the ground and feel the heat of the future’s glow.  ’

’  how do you leave the past behind when it keeps finding ways to get to your heart?  ’

’  when they act tough you call their bluff.  ’

’  what happened to ___? what happened to his heart? and the ideals he once pursued?  ’

’  you’re wasting your time.  ’

’  it’s what we used to dream about, think twice before you pooh-pooh it!  ’

’  time flies, and then no need to endure anymore. time dies.  ’

’  what’d you forget?  ’

’  i know you — you’re shivering.  ’

’  i’m just a little weak on my feet.  ’

’  would you light my candle?  ’

’  they say that i have the best ass below 14th street. is it true?  ’

’  i didn’t recognize you without the handcuffs.  ’

’  i’m nineteen, but i’m old for my age. i’m just born to be bad.  ’

’  do you wanna dance?  ’

’  today for you, tomorrow for me!  ’

’  darling, be a dear. haven’t slept in a year.  ’

’  we agreed on a fee, a thousand dollars guarantee, tax free. and a bonus if i trim her tree.  ’

’  say something, anything.  ’

’  i’m so mad that i don’t know what to do.  ’

’  feel like going insane, got a fire in your brain, and you’re thinking of drinking gasoline.  ’

’  have you ever doubted a kiss or two?  ’

’  i’m defeated, i should give up right now.  ’

’  i’d fall for her still anyhow.  ’

’  look, i find some of what you teach suspect because i’m used to relying on intellect, but i try to open up to what i don’t know. because reason says i should’ve died three years ago.  ’

’  forget regret or life is yours to miss.  ’

’  what’s the time? well it’s gotta be close to midnight.  ’

’  my body’s talking to me, it says time for danger.  ’

’  i’ve had a knack from way back at breaking the rules once i’ve learned the game.  ’

’  let’s go out tonight.  ’

’  in the evening i’ve got to roam, can’t sleep in the city of neon and chrome.  ’

’  i should tell you, i should tell you ——  ’

’  looking for romance? come back another day.  ’

’  there is no future, there is no past. i live this moment as my last.  ’

’  if you’re so wise, then tell me — why do you need smack?  ’

’  long ago you might’ve lit up my heart, but the fire’s dead and ain’t never ever gonna start.  ’

’  will i lose my dignity? will someone care?  ’

’  times are shitty, but i’m pretty sure they can’t get worse.  ’

’  let’s open up a restaurant in santa fe.  ’

’  live in my house, i’ll be your shelter. just pay me back with one thousand kisses.  ’

’  i’ve longed to discover something as true as this is.  ’

’  last night i had a dream.  ’

’  moo with me.  ’

’  you make fun, yet i’m the one attempting to do some good.  ’

’  not to mention, of course, hating dear old mom and dad.  ’

’  la vie boheme.  ’

’  and ___ will preview his new documentary about his inability to hold an erection on the high holy days.  ’

’  excuse me, did i do something wrong? i get invited then ignored all night long.  ’

’  life’s too short babe, time is flying. i’m looking for baggage that goes with mine.  ’

’  i should tell you, i’m disaster.  ’

’  the opposite of war isn’t peace, it’s creation.  ’

’  so be kind and don’t lose your mind, just remember that i’m your baby.  ’

’  take me for what i am, who i was meant to be.  ’

’  folks would kill to fill your shoes.  ’

’  i hate mess but i love you.  ’

’  i quit unless you take it back.  ’

’  guess i’m leaving. i’m gone.  ’

’  without you, the earth turns, the sun burns, but i die without you.  ’

’  how could a night so frozen be so scalding hot? how can a morning this mild be so raw?  ’

’  that’s poetic. that’s pathetic.  ’

’  will it mean that it’s the end and i’m alone?  ’

’  you said you’d never speak to him again.  ’

’  who said i was talking to you?  ’

’  run away, hit the road, don’t commit — you’re full of shit.  ’

’  i’d be happy to die for a taste of that — someone to live for, unafraid to say ‘i love you’.  ’

’  love’s not a three way street.  ’

’  i can’t believe this is goodbye.  ’

’  ___ has got his work, they say. ___ lives for his work and ___’s in love with his work. ___ hides in his work.  ’

’  yes, you live a lie, tell you why — you’re always preaching not to be numb when that’s how you thrive.  ’

’  perhaps it’s because i’m the one of us to survive.  ’

’  you don’t want to watch me die.  ’

’  i just came to say goodbye, love.  ’

’  please don’t touch me.  ’

’  don’t breathe too deep, don’t think all day.  ’

’  you’re living in america — leave your conscience at the tone.  ’

’  and when you’re dying in america at the end of the millenium, you’re not alone.  ’

’  i should tell you — i love you.  ’

’  your eyes as we said our goodbyes — can’t get them out of my mind.  ’

’  i have always loved you, you can see it in my eyes.  ’

’  hold onto love, it’ll keep your strong.  ’

’  love heals.  ’

[ajisaiko]

inbox is completely empty rn. feel welcome to spam it. there are memes / starter sentences in the queue. things are barren here, as to be expected with several breaks, but i really want to get back into the swing of things. i’ve even been reading to improve my writing. don’t by shy. 

[andhungry]

NIGHT SKY WITH EXIT WOUNDS SENTENCE STARTERS.

all text taken from the poetry book night sky with exit wounds by ocean vuong.

‘  in the body, where everything has a price, i was a beggar.  ‘

‘  he was singing, which is why i remember it. his voice — it filled me to the core like a skeleton.  ‘

‘  even my name knelt down inside me, asking to be spared.  ‘

‘  it is all i remember.  ‘

‘  i was alive. i didn’t know there was a better reason.  ‘

‘  i lost it all with my eyes wide open.  ‘

‘  do you know who i am?  ‘

‘  how easily a boy in a dress the red of shut eyes vanishes beneath the sound of his own galloping.  ‘

‘  i’m dreaming of a curtain of snow falling from her shoulders.  ‘

‘  snow scraping against the window. snow shredded with gunfire. red sky.  ‘

‘  show me how ruin makes a home out of hip bones.  ‘

‘  let every river envy our mouths. let every kiss hit the body like a season.  ‘

‘  if you must know anything, know that the hardest task is to live only once.  ‘

‘  if we make it to shore, i will name our son after this water. i will learn to love a monster.  ‘

‘  he laughs despite knowing he has ruined every beautiful thing just to prove beauty cannot change him.  ‘

‘  hey! you didn’t have to go this far. why did you go so far?  ‘

‘  sometimes i feel like an ampersand.  ‘

‘  everyone can forget us — as long as you remember.  ‘

‘  i hold the gun & wonder if an entry wound in the night would make a hole as wide as morning.  ‘

‘  there’s a lighthouse. some nights you are the lighthouse, some nights the sea.  ‘

‘  what this means is that i don’t know desire other than the need to be shattered & rebuilt.  ‘

‘  even tomorrow you will have today.  ‘

‘  you’ll never forget yourself the way god forgets his hands.  ‘

‘  the body is a blade that sharpens by cutting.  ‘

‘  my mother said i could be anything i wanted — but i chose to live.  ‘

‘  i am ready to be every animal you leave behind.  ‘

‘  and this is how we loved: a fifth of vodka and an afternoon in the attic, your fingers though my hair — my hair a wildfire.  ‘

‘  when our lips touched the day closed into a coffin.  ‘

‘  the year is a distance we’ve traveled in circles.  ‘

‘  we made it, baby. we’re riding in the back of the black limousine.  ‘

‘  i love my country. i pretend nothing is wrong.  ‘

‘  i’m holding your still-hot thoughts in, darling, my sweet, sweet ___.  ‘

‘  you want to tell him it’s okay that the night is also a grave we climb out of.  ‘

‘  you say thank you thank you thank you because you haven’t learned the purpose of forgive me.  ‘

‘  you’re so quiet you’re almost tomorrow.  ‘

‘  to love another man — is to leave no one behind to forgive me. i want to leave no one behind.  ‘

‘  even though he’s gone, i still want to be clean.  ‘

‘  if only the rain were gasoline, your tongue a lit match, & you can change without disappearing.  ‘

‘  he dies each night you close your eyes & hear his slow exhale.  ‘

‘  wait, i have something to say.  ‘

‘  as if my finger, tracing your collarbone behind closed doors, was enough to erase myself.  ‘

‘  to forget we built this house knowing it won’t last.  ‘

‘  it’s funny. i always knew i’d be warmest beside by man.  ‘

‘  don’t laugh. just tell me the story again.  ‘

‘  speak — until your voice is nothing but the crackle of charred bones.  ‘

‘  look how happy we are to be no one & still american.  ‘

‘  i’ll tell you how we’re wrong enough to be forgiven/  ‘

‘  say you’d kill for it.  ‘

‘  don’t we touch each other just to prove we are still here?  ‘

‘  silly me. i thought love was real and the body imaginary.  ‘

‘  i said yes because you asked me to stay.  ‘

‘  there is so much i want to tell you. how my greatest accolade was to walk across the brooklyn bridge & not think of flight.  ‘

‘  you will always remember what you were doing when it hurts the most.  ‘

‘  dearest father, forgive me for i have seen.  ‘

‘  once, i fell in love during a slow-motion car crash.  ‘

‘  i wrote a better hour onto the page & watched the fire take it back.  ‘

‘  this means you are not alone.  ‘

‘  don’t stay here. don’t cry anymore.  ‘

‘  i promise to stop soon.  ‘

‘  how come depression makes me feel more alive?  ‘

‘  i shouldn’t have, but he had the hands of someone i used to know. someone i was used to.  ‘

‘  i dreamed i walked barefoot all the way to your house in the snow. everything was the blue of smudged ink and you were still alive.  ‘

‘  here. that’s all i wanted to be.  ‘

‘  don’t worry. your father is only your father until one of you forgets.  ‘

‘  the end of the road is so far ahead it is already behind us.  ‘

‘  don’t be afraid, the gunfire is only the sound of people trying to live a little longer & failing.  ‘

‘  remember, loneliness is still time spent with the world.  ‘

‘  the difference between prayer & mercy is how you move the tongue.  ‘

‘  so what if my feathers are burning. i never asked for flight.  ‘

[ajisaiko]

                                ❝ not     only     did     i     SURVIVE,     i     learned     to     BLOSSOM. ❞ independent / private / selective oc adored by blair. 

[ajisaiko]

PRE-EST. SHIP // accepting // @sorcoeur​

I want our muses to be: friends | ex-friends | rivals | rivals with sexual/romantic tension | enemies | enemies with sexual/romantic tension | lovers | ex-lovers | partners/coworkers | pen pals/internet friends | friends with benefits | soulmates

Our muses met: as children | as teenagers | as adults | just recently

(for romance) Our muses’ relationship is: still exciting and lively | stable | starting to feel awkward | in jeopardy | romantic, but the sexual attraction is fading | sexual, but the romantic attraction is fading | toxic and self-destructive | unrequited, with my muse pining after yours | unrequited, with your muse pining after mine | determined by fate

(for rivals) Our muses’ relationship is: awkward | fiery | friendly | petty | mostly for show | losing its spark | starting to develop into something more | one-sided, with my muse considering yours a rival | one-sided, with your muse considering mine a rival | determined by fate

(for enemies) Our muses’ relationship is: dangerous to themselves | dangerous to others | based on family matters | based on professional matters | based on lies/misunderstandings | unpredictable | passionate | nothing personal at first, but changes with time | determined by fate

(for friends) Our muses’ relationship is: stable | sickeningly sweet | the kind of close friendship that makes others jealous | falling apart | based on shared interests | based on circumstance (like school or work) | based on family ties | developing into something more (romantic/sexual) | developing into something more (antagonistic) | determined by fate

[justyfiied]

Detailed Pre-Established Relationship Meme

Send me a ♡ and I’ll bold what I want to see with our muses and italicize things I may be open to! (send “heart!” if the symbol is unavailable)

I want our muses to be: friends | ex-friends | rivals | rivals with sexual/romantic tension | enemies | enemies with sexual/romantic tension | lovers | ex-lovers | partners/coworkers | pen pals/internet friends | friends with benefits | soulmates

Our muses met: as children | as teenagers | as adults | just recently

(for romance) Our muses’ relationship is: still exciting and lively | stable | starting to feel awkward | in jeopardy | romantic, but the sexual attraction is fading | sexual, but the romantic attraction is fading | toxic and self-destructive | unrequited, with my muse pining after yours | unrequited, with your muse pining after mine | determined by fate

(for rivals) Our muses’ relationship is: awkward | fiery | friendly | petty | mostly for show | losing its spark | starting to develop into something more | one-sided, with my muse considering yours a rival | one-sided, with your muse considering mine a rival | determined by fate

(for enemies) Our muses’ relationship is: dangerous to themselves | dangerous to others | based on family matters | based on professional matters | based on lies/misunderstandings | unpredictable | passionate | nothing personal at first, but changes with time | determined by fate

(for friends) Our muses’ relationship is: stable | sickeningly sweet | the kind of close friendship that makes others jealous | falling apart | based on shared interests | based on circumstance (like school or work) | based on family ties | developing into something more (romantic/sexual) | developing into something more (antagonistic) | determined by fate