Text || Cadelina
C: Hi
C: I have a question for you
C: Well it isn't really a question I guess. I just don't understand. I don't get it.
C: I mean us. Whatever we were. Were we even anything? Like, was this just some side thing like everything else? Because I thought it was more than that, but I don't know much about relationships. Every single one I've had has been fucked up somehow. It's usually me that fucks it up, but I don't know what I did this time. I'm sure it was me. I'm sure I did something, but I don't know what it was so if you could just please, please tell me...maybe I can fix it. Most of the time I don't care, or I try not to care, because it isn't worth being hurt over and over, so I let them leave, but I've tried that with you. I've tried not talking to you for a week now but I can't do it. I can't not talk to the one person I tell everything. The one person I want to talk to every second of the day. And maybe I'm being stupid, I don't know, I'm sorry. This is probably really ridiculous and annoying and clingy but I just want to understand. Did I mess this up? Because this is the last thing I want to mess up and if you just give me a chance, I can fix it. But I don't want you to be with anyone else. I think that's selfish, but I can't handle it. And maybe you don't want to be with me, and that'd be fine, I just need to know what we were for my own sanity.
C: Sorry.
A: How could we ever have been a side thing? No, it wasn't, and you didn't mess up. But we also weren't anything, and I was more than down to be. But I wasn't sure, so I messed up with Asher and I can't take that back, but I am sorry. And I've missed you so so much.
A: I wanna get back to being us, and then maybe we can look into being something official. You don't do anything with anyone, I won't do anything with anyone. But you can't go psycho and threaten people, you could have just talked to me.
