To the least awesome guy who walks out every time we argue. TO the most awesome guy who kisses me in the forehead and tells me that everything is going to be fine.. yes sleepy, you are not awesome and awesome in so many ways and maybe not everyone see’s the TWO-SIDED sleepy. some may just see the other part and not the other one but thank God, i saw the whole you. i still remember the days that i fell for someone and you we’re just there, in that same picture. you saw how broken i was before. you saw me when i got my heart broken. you knew then that i LIKE someone else but you stayed. you waited for me to be okay before you asked the line “sai, ano na ba tayo?” hehe but hey, thank you for waiting. for me you were the “ice cream that i’m holding in my hands, slowly melting away while i was too busy staring at the balloon that is floating away” i know sabi ko “balak kong pang-foods ka lang” it was a mean thing to say and i know that when we started, you experienced heartaches from me. i never knew that i’d be serious again but yun nga, you said that “alam ko naman na sinaktan ka nila eh, di ko maipapangakong di kita masasaktan pero alam ko naman na di kita iiwan eh” (you have said so many kilig things to me sleepy but i know you don’t remember any of them cause YOU HATE WORDS) haha you we’re so eager to change your status here in fb when i replied “tayo naman siguro” akala ko nga ayaw mo sa reply ko, babawiin ko na sana noon eh pero nagreply kang “check mo fb mo” and there you were faster than the roller coaster. our first year is somewhat close to the definition of the word “cute”.. fresh, kilig, smiles, bubbly and real. pictures there, here, over there, up there, side view, front view, bird’s eye view… i was so overwhelmed that you got me so many gifts that are done with so much EFFORT. cards, paper rose, scrapbook, that metal thing with our names on it and the heart that was made with cement and you carved our names too. THANK YOU for making that year a very very very cute year. we also had issues with you. haha di na sakin, sayo na. on purpose rin ata tayong na-link sa taong may letter D eh noh? i was hurt. kasi di ko pa alam yung issue , alam kong may mali na. lalo na nung bigla mo akong niyakap, sabi mo lang bigla na “everything will be fine..” i didn’t mind but i was startled. still i love you after that issue.. then there came the time i was so depressed that self-harming is the only way i could feel better and when you saw what i did to myself, hinawakan mo lang yung arm ko and you kissed the wounds sabi mo pa “bakit? parang awa mo na sai, tama na.” you knew to that im bullimic back then. i am trying my best to stop it hon, until now i do. im still fighting the darkness inside me. for you i’d stop. on our 2nd year my very own definition of the word, “care” i got fat and fatter and fatter until i became the fattest i could be. and hated and hated and hated myself but you love and really do care for me.. sabi ko pa noon, “grabe ang pangit ko na.” you got mad and said “andami mong insecurities oi, samok na ba. para sakin ikaw pa rin ang pinakasexy at maganda sa lahat” hehe THANK YOU! you were there when everything in me is falling into thousands of pieces. you picked every pieces of me and put me back like a jigsaw puzzle. you are very tall and you always complain how small i am, now i know that it has a reason why God made me a lot smaller than you. God knows that i am very fragile when it comes to my life but God made you taller to be that stand that i could rely on if im falling. on our 3rd year, hmmm. let’s see. things might be much rougher now because we new issues to battle but i know we’ll make it through. you are my answered prayer. my sweetest downfall. my knight shining alcohol. HAPPY 3RD ANNIVERSARY IN ADVANCE. I LOVE YOU:*
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