Heartline Gone Flat
Sequel to: Beat Your Heart to Death
tw: explicit content, extremely unhealthy relationships. gojo/geto, gojo/reader, geto/reader, stsg/reader. female!reader. pining. mind games. catfishing. non-consensual filming. extremely under-negotiated kinks. safe? maybe. sane? it's INsane. consensual? allegedly.
bondage. knife play. it gets fucking crazy. no one retains any degree of sanity by the end of this fic. every single character is deathly allergic to honest/healthy communication. YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED.
You're not stupid. You notice the cameras.
It's not easy, mind you. Suguru - it had to be Suguru, Satoru didn't have this kind of calculated approach to anything - had hidden them reasonably well.
But the flash of a light, a glint where there shouldn't be one... suddenly you were finding cameras everywhere.
At first, you wondered. Why the hell would they bother spying on you? They already fucked in the living room. Groped each other right in front of your salad.
And then, this one time. Suguru had just finished eating their little hookup girlfriend out, his lips still wet and sticky while he lifted up his head.
He met your eyes. Dark and violet and... hungry. He didn't look away. All his pretty words, all the honeyed excuses that you know would pour from his lips, and he didn't look away.
No, your gaze was only broken by a head of white hair, Satoru pulling in to steal a kiss. Blue eyes glinting at you, so bright you have to look away.
He'd wanted you to see. They both had.
You know it, now. But why are they watching you?
And you think back.
Missing panties. Your vibrator dying on you constantly. Your lube running out. Your toothbrushes wearing out quickly.
Suguru does the laundry. He knows where everything is, like the clean freak malewife mother hen he is. Satoru keeps using your bathroom even though he and Suguru have their own.
So they're fucking with you. They're fucking in front of you. They're spying on you while you try to fuck yourself.
All that and they won't fuck you, won't even try.
Why? Why why WHY WHY! What do they want? What are they fucking doing?
Suguru won't tell you. He'll deny it's even happening. Satoru -
You don't like that shimmer. The way his eyes seem to stare right through you. His ethereal beauty.
The lurch in your chest every time he looks at you.
You'd had time to come to terms with your crush on Suguru. It had been a slow burn, a low simmer, a pull in the back of your mind that makes you nod your head and smile and sigh every time he asks you for something, every time he makes some excuse.
Suguru was comfortable. A well-loved, soft blanket you couldn't bear to wash, couldn't sleep without.
What you feel for Satoru makes you want to throw up. Shove him down, bite into his fucking neck and eat his heart straight out of his chest.
Every time you see him with Suguru it makes your fingers twitch. Your cunt clenches - do you want him inside you? Do you want Suguru inside you instead? Do you want his pretty mouth pressed up between your legs, pretty blue eyes gazing up at you, tearing up as he suffocates on your cunt?
Who the fuck knows. But you want, you know you want him. Like nothing you've ever wanted before in your life.
But you can't have him. You can't have anything, and, as far as you can tell, they're fucking taunting you with it.
So when you see the cameras... the next time you catch them fucking, Satoru moaning loudly, as if exaggerated, Suguru muttering dirty talk that could have come straight out of a porn script -
Well.
If they're filming you... and if they're so determined to be your personal porn stars...
Why not oblige them?
There's this man at the club that Suguru doesn't like.
They try not to bring men back too often. Women work better, make you more jealous. And he'll admit he doesn't like the thought of Satoru wanting a dick that's not his. He knows Satoru feels the same.
Though, with the way this pink-haired, tattooed man is looking at him, it looks like Satoru's whore instincts have gotten ahead of him.
"Who the fuck is that guy?" He whispers, bitingly, a hand over Satoru's hip. Mean, grasping.
Satoru laughs, but it's an uncertain sound. "Sukuna, I think. I remember him from tinder a couple years ago."
"Matched with him?"
"Guess so."
They don't have to wait long to see what the guy wants. How he glares at them both. Larger hands snatching Satoru's wrist, glaring down as Suguru when he tries to shove him back.
"Whore," Sukuna spits, glaring down at Satoru, "I paid you good money and you fucking blocked me?"
What?
"The fuck are you talking about?" Satoru snaps, as Suguru's mind races.
Is Satoru fucking around? But they spend every moment together. And he sounds genuine.
Sukuna isn't dissuaded. He snarls and sneers and acts like Satoru is playing dumb, until he finally pulls out his phone, revealing a series of DMs with someone called...
SatoSugu <3
What?? Who???
"You told me you weren't exclusive with your little boyfriend here," Sukuna growls, "Guess that was a fucking lie, too. Keep a leash on your slut, yeah, Daddy Suguru?"
And though Suguru does like to think of himself as having paternal energy - for a man like Sukuna, that's a bit on the nose.
Satoru recognizes some of the pictures on the DMs, though.
They're selfies (thirst traps, really) that he's sent... to you.
It only takes a little digging from there. SatoSugu <3 is an OnlyFans account - and a big one.
There's regular uploads. It's full of shots of the two of them, sometimes shorts, sometimes even videos a few minutes long.
The angles are a big scuffed but the audio is usually good. Some of them look like they might have been recorded from a phone -
And they're all set inside your shared home.
"Well, well, well," Satoru says, sounding much more composed than Suguru is feeling, "Looks like we got more of an audience than we were looking for, huh?"
At least most of these are showing his good side. Oh, he looks hot in that one...
He remembers that time, too, where Suguru was especially pent up...
Satoru scrolls through the feed with a smile on his face.
He pays the subscription fee, too - ooh, you were making good money off of this - and licks his lips at all the saucy content.
Really, he should be thanking you for the archive. But after using them to make money without their knowledge, surely you owed them at least one... collaboration.
Suguru does not feel the same.
It's not a surprise - Satoru has always had a bit of an exhibitionist streak.
For him, it was different. Satoru had his own ways of being territorial, but Suguru was possessive, in a dark, heady way Satoru loved to stoke.
You were allowed to see because you were theirs. You were a part of this relationship, whether you knew it or not. Even if you hadn't claimed their bodies yet, you had their hearts.
Random girls they brought home - those were unimportant. Quickly discarded. Tools to be used to make you jealous; they got only as much contact as was strictly necessary, and no more.
But this?
Showing them off - showing his Satoru, the one he'd so carefully reduced to tears and quivering. His strong, beautiful Satoru, full of energy and slutty dramatics, meant exclusively for your eyes and his?
And him; you've been pining for Suguru for years. Now you're letting strangers see him in his most intimate moments?
It's... diabolical. Exploitative. A master stroke of manipulation, taking advantage of their attempt to make you jealous, reducing it to a moneymaking scheme.
As much as he hates to agree with Satoru, it is kind of a turn on.
He can't quite call it a betrayal. You must have found the cameras they'd planted, set some of your own, knowing they might not notice the extras.
There's a special sort of rage billowing in his chest at the thought of everyone who got to see him and Satoru without his consent. But he's not so foolish as to think he didn't have this coming.
The question was, why did you do it? Are you angry? Are you trying to profit off them?
Knowing Satoru, he'd be pleased with either answer. But Suguru wants more.
Suguru wants anger. He wants your gut to sear with fury like his does, he wants you to be seething at the both of them. Apoplectic.
The time to prod you, taunt you, lead you into making a move is over. This is your answer - infuriating and enrapturing.
His mind twists and turns at Satoru's suggestion. Collaboration.
Turnabout is fair play, after all. And nothing quite turns him on like scheming and fucking.
Perhaps he and Satoru will have to make the first move. This battle is yours... but the war?
Oh, it's only just begun.
When you do meet their accusations, you do so head-on, shameless.
"Oh?" Your tone is tinged with mock innocence, "I didn't realize you had a problem with people watching you. Sorry about that."
There's not an inch of apology in your voice, of course.
In fairness, it wasn't even an unreasonable assumption. They'd fucked in plain view in your living room.
"That doesn't explain the man." Suguru says, unwilling to even say Sukuna's name.
But you know what you did. He knows you do.
You meet his eyes with a gaze you've never shown him before, heavy with the new arrival of old grudges. It hits him like a hunger pang.
"I thought you were looking for a third." You say. "You're always bringing people back home. I didn't think you were exclusive."
Suguru savors the bitterness in your voice. Why not me, you never asked me, it should have been me.
Delectable. Every last chocolate-coated note of longing burnt to a crisp.
"So you pretended to be Satoru?" The white-haired dog of a man slinks up to his side, arms crossed. As if he cared.
Their eyes lock onto the pink slip of your tongue licking between your lips.
"It looked like a perfect match. You've both got a preference," You drone, "Strong guys, tall guys. He's stronger and taller than either of you, and his dick is bigger, too."
That has them freezing up. Tense. Air thickening with it.
He can feel Satoru nearly vibrating next to him. Straining against an invisible leash.
"That doesn't mean you can just impersonate us."
You fix him with a look the tired fingers of his thoughts are not able to unwind. Suguru could spend hours looking at you, picking apart every single inch of your expression.
He'd love every second of it.
"So?" You ask, challenge in your tone.
He smiles, eyes half-lidded as he closes in. "So, we both agreed... if we're going to be on the page, it's only fair if you go on there with us."
You take a step back, but it's not far enough. Satoru's lean, muscled form presses into you from the side.
"Yeah, babe," Satoru sings, "Isn't it time for you to upload? Come on, we can't disappoint the masses."
Boxed in, walled off. Suguru crowds you with the heat of his body, broad shoulders.
Ah, there it is. The nervous flick of your eyes, the tightening of your expression. Readying yourself for the crash.
Like white water breaking against the rocks. You've always been so malleable to him, so predictable in your moods, and yet somehow vaster and greater than he could ever command.
He thinks your lips on his, your waist encircled in his arms, is a fine start to mastery.
Of course, Satoru can never let him have anything - arms tug at his shoulders, a chest closing in from the side.
He moves to sandwich you between them, letting Satoru slot himself behind you. He knows it already, in the cracked blue intensity of Satoru's gaze, Suguru knows he's hard, desperate to grind himself against you.
"Oh, but you're not into me, are you?" You brandish the words like a dagger, "And we've been friends for so long, Suguru. We're all roommates, too. I wouldn't want to make things weird between us."
The pointed barb makes him laugh in spite of himself.
You still won't say it. Won't say you want them. You don't push them away, don't do anything to stop this -
You want him to say it first. And if Suguru isn't careful, Satoru might just sell them out to get his dick wet.
So he smirks, letting one hand trail down and underneath your waistband. Grasping your face by the chin and tilting it to look towards a planted camera. Satoru takes the chance to kiss your cheek.
"Oh, we play with girls all the time, Satoru and I, and you didn't mind recording," he purrs into your ear, knowing this isn't what you want to hear. "Don't you think you owe this to us? After putting us up without our permission, you should at least put yourself out there too, no?"
"Yeah," Satoru says, like the obedient, horny lackey he is, "What he said."
How eloquent.
"Since you both agreed on this," You say beneath lowered lashes - but this close, Suguru can feel how your cheeks have warmed, "You must have an idea of what you want to do with me."
Anything. Everything. He wants to toss you down, eat you up, watch Satoru fuck you from a million angles while he directs, fuck Satoru while he fucks you and vice versa -
But he can't let you goad him into saying it. Even under pressure like this, you're trembling, but not as trapped prey. You're burning from the inside out, fighting the urge to grab and hold and have them.
"Oh, I know we do. Satoru," He purrs, "Come here and help our dear roommate put on a real show, would you?"
Satoru groans as he thrusts into you. Hand on hip. Clingy, needy.
"Did you like it," he pants in your ear, like he's the one getting fucked, "Did you like showing us off? Showing me off?"
Egging himself on. A match that lights itself and burns up too close to your fingertips.
He has you on his lap, too close and yet not close enough. Facing forward, towards the camera in Suguru's hands (is it even turned on? you can't tell, can't look away from the hunger in those violet eyes).
Satoru's other hand winds around your ribcage, clasping one of your breasts, squeezing and groping freely.
"Showing that prick my - hngh, my selfies just for you?" He whispers, "Did you have fun pretending to be me? Teasing him, then blocking him? Did you think to yourself, you'll never have him anyways, you can never have my Satoru?"
A laugh comes out from his mouth, thundering through you, his muscled chest pressed to your back.
You want to see him. Pretty, beautiful Satoru - he's finally fucking you, and you can't look him in the eyes.
Suguru does. Suguru's eyes flick towards him, meeting his gaze. Just over your shoulder.
After all those years lusting for him, you finally have him and you can't even have him.
And it's glorious. It feels amazing, like nothing you've felt in your entire life.
He's good, so good at this, pressing into you just hard enough, just enough friction, the hand on your hip darting over to rub over your clit while he whispers his dirty talk in your ear.
"Did you like leading him on only to dump him? Wanna keep me all to yourself?" His voice is hot, breathy, dripping with thrilled arousal.
"Answer him." Suguru says, and he sounds so faraway, even though he's right there.
Watching. Filming. Directing, even.
Satoru's only fucking you because he told him to. The circles over your clit send you clenching, quivering, and Satoru whispers for you to answer, come on, did you like it? Do you like them?
"Of course," You choke on the words, "It was fun messing with Sukuna. But I felt bad for him, you know? Catfishing is one thing, but it would be cruel to inflict the real you on him."
There's a laugh from Suguru, even as Satoru's fingers dig into you. He leans over your shoulder just enough to stare at you from the corner of your eyes. Grinning.
You meet Satoru's crystal-blue gaze, lips curling into a shaky smirk.
"You're such a whore," You drawl to his face, gasping as he thrusts harder (his cock throbs at the word whore, this goddamn slut), "You vain fucking bitch, you love flirting, showing off your body, but I know when you and Suguru fuck, you make him do all the work."
Reaching around with one hand, grasping the toned tightness of his ass, you squeeze - even as a swipe of his fingers over your clit takes your breath away.
"Yeah? Then what am I doing now, babe?" Those eyes glitter at you. Satoru's locked on you, not looking away for an instant.
He's so fucking beautiful, all smirking and shining and heavenly flesh against your own.
And you feel Suguru's gaze like a leaden weight. Lick your lips.
(He's not yours. You can't have him.)
"Suffering, probably," You dig your nails into his ass and he hisses, cock twitching inside you, "Poor little pillow princess Gojo having to put in some effort for once."
Satoru's smile bares teeth at your use of his surname.
(Don't, Suguru mouths in warning, while your attention is fixed on him.)
"Ha!" It's a dry laugh, biting, feral, the words he wants to say stuck in his throat, "Fuck you!"
"You are," Suguru drawls, "Poorly."
"And fuck you, too, bitch, your hole is next," Satoru pants, thrusting hard and fast.
(He wants wants want wants WANTS. But Suguru wants, too. And he has you now, doesn't he?)
You keen as he drives into you, quick movements, fast circles over your clit that match the friction in your cunt. Closer, closer.
Something in his face spurs you on. Heart racing the words out of your mouth, "You gonna cry when you cum, baby?"
Taunting, snide, the words don't match the way your chest lurches as he hits a spot inside you, and heat spurts in your lower half.
It's agonizing and ecstatic; the hand not coaxing your clit into bursts of heady pleasure grasps your breast, clutching you back against him.
There's a noise from across the room, a shift or something, but it feels so loud to your ears. Like Suguru refuses to be ignored. Even in this one perfect moment of your fantasies come through -
Or maybe you just like him too much to forget he's here. To keep yourself from glancing over at him.
But Satoru isn't looking at Suguru. He hooks his chin over your shoulder, leaning his face into your neck as he groans, languid thrusts of his release jerking against your hips.
You feel wetness against your neck, hot, slick. Licking at you.
"No, but maybe you will," He purrs, sucking marks into your skin.
Hands roaming. Legs hooking over yours, limbs wrapped around you, refusing to let go.
You blink, hard, and no tears come out. Must be dehydration.
Suguru's eyes are burning holes in you. Even Satoru stiffens behind you. (His cock stiffens, too - is he really that much of a whore, or has Suguru trained him or something?)
"Ah-ah-ahhh," Suguru tuts, but it's a cold sound.
His eyes are sharp, pointed, "That can't be all. This is for the audience, after all. You should put on a good show."
It's almost malevolent, how he relished in your expression when reminding you of the shared pretense.
You meet his eyes with your own burning gaze.
"This is all for content, right?" The words are full of malice, of challenge.
You match him, smile for hateful smile.
"We should do things you two haven't done before."
Suguru had to hand it to you.
He didn't expect Satoru to be the first person to peg him.
Oh, technically, perhaps it could be considered from you. After all, it had been inside you, first.
"I seem to have run out of lube," You'd explained coyly, "You don't mind, though, right? Here, I'll donate some of my own."
So Suguru had sat and filmed while Satoru fucked the dildo into you. Rubbing it over your cunt even though you swatted at him, rushing him to put it in and lube it up.
Your hands on Satoru's dick in return, grasping tight and unforgiving. Like he wasn't already hard enough. Jerking him until he spurted all over your palm.
You rubbed that on the dildo, too, once he'd pulled it out of you. You couldn't stop a tight hiss at that.
Suguru keeps the vision of it in his mind's eye as Satoru fingers him open. Hands still wet with his cum and yours.
(It keeps him hard. That little gasp you made, breathy, a touch overstimulated, so soon after your last release.
What a large refractory window. He wants to break it open.)
The dildo is hot pink, bulging. Suguru had mocked it when they'd found it in your cabinet. Satoru thought it was cute.
By the smirk on his face, his opinion hasn't changed.
"Get on with it," Suguru grunts, shifting his legs to give him better access. Glancing at you, camera in hand. Eyes locked.
"Yeah, yeah," Satoru says, blithe as ever. Rubbing the dildo's bulbous, silicone head against his hole, "Coming right up, cockslut."
He can't help a scoff. "You're one to talk."
He's still half-worried Satoru will confess his undying love to you just to get his dick wet. Give up the game before it's really started.
"Wonder what the title for this should be?" You muse, "Slutty twink ruins goth's hole, no lube? You guys sell so well."
Suguru almost chokes out a laugh at that. You and Satoru, cut from the same cloth. He'd seen it earlier.
A pair of whores talking each other through it.
(It's never failed to make his blood burn.)
"I think we're owed a little more participation from you," Suguru licks his lips, "Come over here."
A trickle of desire he lets through. Just a droplet, really.
He watches your eyes dilate at the sight.
(Oh, you want him. You want him you want him you want him you want him and it's the most potent aphrodisiac he's ever known.)
The camera is abandoned on the table. Maybe he was in frame, maybe he wasn't.
What's far more important is you, between his legs, as Satoru sits him back on his lap. Up on his thighs, giving him space to slowly drive the dildo in.
And even though Satoru's face must be just behind him, a grin he can hear - Suguru knows you're staring at him. Trapped in his gaze.
Your hands crawl up his thighs. Shaking as Satoru stretches him. Working up to the cock that's now tall and pulsing against his lower abdomen.
The hunger in your eyes makes him tense. He's leaky already, not from how expertly Satoru is nudging his prostate, but from how you look at him like a dog staring at a steak after it's been told no.
Your eyes glancing between him and his cock.
Something flutters in his stomach. Burns in his gut. Soars in his chest.
This is love, isn't it? It must be love, this high he sees looking at your face pressed against his dick like you can't quite believe you're there.
(Finally finally finally fuck - )
He chokes, arching his back and moaning. Wincing his eyes shut to hide how they water.
Satoru's hand grasps at his hips, the other one shoving in - tight, tight, fuck, it burns -
And then it's soft, and wet, and perfect, your lovely mouth opening up around his dick.
Tongue gliding over it like you can lick away years of longing. Savor the fruit of your yearning. Devour him entirely.
He feels like he's melting. Red-hot bursts of pleasure as Satoru pumps into him and you - your eyes - fuck fuck fuck your mouth, warm and melting around his cock until he can't tell where he ends and you begin.
His hand reaches your face before he knows it. Cupping your cheek.
What face is he making right now? He can't think about it, can't think about anything but him inside your mouth and your face in his hand.
You lean into it, eyes half-fluttering, blissful, sucking and drooling around him.
That's what gets him. His cock pulses, and throbs, and he doesn't have a moment to warn you, but you swallow around him anyways. Suckling as you pull away, glancing up at his face.
A drop of his cum gets on your mouth. Thoughtlessly, his thumb swipes it away, but it lingers on your lower lip. His eyes linger, too.
Something twists in his chest.
He doesn't know what does it. If it's that moment of vulnerability, all the soft, tender parts exposed that he has to lash out to protect. Or if being able to finally touch you has unfettered something cruel and wild inside him.
Or maybe it's just the sick, twisted desire to win. To watch you cave in on yourself from the hunger, starved until you become just as willing to draw blood as he is.
But Suguru knows he says it with an awful, mean smile.
"You can add on Slut used for both holes to that, too," He snarks, his hand moving back to cup your cheek.
Soft, so soft. Face crumpling at his touch. Fighting not to show it.
"You sure seemed to enjoy it," You say. Heart on sleeve.
He wants to rip it apart. Ribcage open, heart bare and beating.
"Satoru's better, of course," He strokes your cheek in mock affection, "But it'd be unfair to compare you to him. He's special."
Thumb over the twitch in your cheek.
(Won't you bare your fangs? Won't you bite? Tear in?
If you won't, then he will.)
"I've never had anyone like Satoru. He always knows just what to do... maybe he's a born slut," Suguru chuckles, low, feeling your cheeks heat against his fingertips, "Or maybe he just knows me that well. Loves me that much."
He can feel it, he thinks. Your poor trembling heart, your face growing hard like armor.
What are you thinking now? I love you, too? I'd love you even more? I've loved you longer, forever, how can you not see -
"Sure he loves you," You bite out, "He loves your dick."
You're hungry, so hungry. Starved of his affection. And he's dangling it in front of you now -
So why won't you bite?
Satoru's not entirely sure how it got to this point.
Suguru, tied to a chair, arms strapped down. The vibrator - the one he'd sabotaged so many times - strapped to his dick, all swollen and purple and dribbling pitifully in overstimulation.
HIs eyes are red-rimmed, bloodshot. Sweat in a sheen over his broad shoulders. Lips in a thin line as he struggles not to make a sound.
He's so handsome, even like this. Maybe more like this, Satoru thinks, and then buries the thought deep as if to hide it from Suguru's ravenous gaze.
(He thinks he knows anyways. Suguru always knows, knows everything. Satoru could see things but Suguru understood them.)
It started somewhere with the bindings, he thinks.
A tone of measured challenge in your voice that Suguru couldn't resist.
Suguru thinks he's some kind of director. But you'd baited him with raised stakes, and then offered him an out.
"It's okay if you don't want to. I know you and Satoru aren't there yet in your relationship. If you don't want to do it with me, just say so."
It's not a bluff Suguru could easily call.
Telling you he doesn't want you, they don't want you, would be an outright lie, a hole he doesn't dare dig for himself.
"Do it. Tell me you don't want me. Tell me that and we can stop here."
You offer him your beating heart on a platter, well-disguised. Tone even as you give him the knife and hold if over your chest.
He couldn't call you out. So he had to raise.
Hands behind his back, at first. Then he's tied to a chair.
Satoru makes good use of it. So do you. Hands and mouth and tongue and teeth, everywhere.
Your lips are so soft and yet they sting his skin, dripping venom with every word.
Raise, raise, always raise. As high as you'll take the stakes. He'll never back down.
A vibrator, remote controlled. Satoru getting the chance to hold the camera.
Suguru just barely catches him half-filming while he palms his cock to you grinding against his dick in his lap.
"Do you like it, Suguru~?"
He doesn't know who asked him.
But he knows you're not fucking him yet, you haven't said it yet (that you want him, need him, love him can't live without him say it say it SAY IT ALREADY).
And he can't lose, he can't lose, not to you, not you.
That's when he called for the whip. It's a fine thing, a short flexible band of leather.
And then Satoru had licked his lips, itchy fingers, pulling his shirt over his head, and Suguru realized that if he went ungagged he would ruin everything.
So that was how the gag got into Satoru's mouth. He's drooling on it now.
And the sight of you muzzling Satoru had been enough.
Suguru felt ravenous, vile. He saw an opening and went in, fangs bared.
"Want to make him cry for you??" He taunts, "He's a pretty crier, even prettier when he cums. Maybe you can do with that whip what you couldn't do with your cunt, hm?"
"Shut up or I'm gagging you, too. Turn around, Satoru."
And Satoru bared the pale, flawless expanse of his back to be whipped, had to have his hands smacked away form his cock while Suguru cooed about how pretty he was.
How you asked if he liked it that much. If he was a slut for everyone, or just for the pain. If he'd take anything you would give him -
He's chomping at the bit. Ball gag. His mouth isn't full enough. He wants to taste you.
Satoru's back is burning by the time you shove him onto the floor.
"Unbind me," Suguru had ground out, "I'm so hard - fuck, I want to take him now."
"Too fucking bad. I'm busy -"
"You looks so good all red and whipped, baby." Suguru interrupts, ignoring you completely, "Like you were born for it. Look at me. Look at me."
And Satoru did, making eye contact over his shoulder, past you -
Yeah, Satoru thinks. That's how he got here.
On his still-stinging back beneath you, shirt off, watching you straddle him in all your furious glory.
Knife in your hand. His chest bared as you seethe.
He tries not to pant so hard - it's tough, you're rubbing right up against his dick and this is about the hardest he's been in his life.
"You really are a fucking slut," You say, words dripping over him with your hateful gaze, burning like acid.
Every inch of his is aflame. It's agonizing, it's euphoric - it's like your anger is a part of him. Surging in his veins.
Blade pressed to his skin. Sharp. Beautiful.
You are beauty incarnate, in his eyes. Satoru knows he's never seen anything as beautiful as you are right now.
"Worthless fucking whore, doing whatever you're told," You spit, "Letting your body get carved up for porn. Is this all you're good for, Gojo?"
He blinks, eyes wet. Don't call him that. You can't call him that! Not now!
Satoru knows it. By the touch of your knife on his skin and the touch of your eyes on the knife. Your entire world is narrowed down to this moment where he's letting you do anything to him.
He's so good for you, so still. Looking up at you with his big, beautiful sparking eyes.
All lean muscle and power and strength just lying under you and taking it.
Sure you call him a whore, you must be jealous over Suguru, but he knows you can tell. Just by how he looks at you.
Laying beneath you all docile, stronger than you and delighted to take a knife to the chest from your hands. This is love, you must know love when you see it.
And he feels it, moving, lines drawing over his chest.
Your name. Your NAME.
He feels it, in his chest, literally every stroke of the knife splitting through his skin.
Satoru's eyes tear up, pain and pleasure white-hot and pulsing towards his dick. It's throbbing, desperate.
All he can do is whimper, whine. This is why he was gagged, because even through it, he's chanting.
Fuck, fuck. You're carving your name onto him. Onto his chest, onto his heart.
He fucking feels it, he feels you leaving this mark on him, this mark that can only mean you, he's yours, he's all yours and he always will be.
Looking up at you. Your eyes, feverish, frenzied. Full of him.
Hands bloodied as you guide the knife.
Oh, he tries not to pant. He wouldn't want to mess up your work. He tries not to buck up into you, but it's a lost cause, like his cock has a mind of its own. Like it knows where its home is now.
Skin splitting, blood pooling over his chest. Over his heart.
He feels it leaping out to you. Like it'll flutter right out of his chest.
You want it. You want it so fucking bad, he can see it in your eyes.
His arms itch to take the knife from you. Satoru cries into the gag, fruitlessly, because don't you understand?
Can't you see? He'll cut it out and give it to you, it's all yours!
You can have it!
The words pour out of his eyes, like he can tell you, like you'll understand if only he looks at you long enough.
You have to understand. Of course you do. You're his whole world right now, and he's yours, he can feel it.
Satoru knows it like he knows that satisfaction in your eyes.
You lick the blade clean. It has his dick drooling.
yours. yours yours i'm yours, i've been yours, baby, look at me. you see it. you see how good it feels for me, being yours?
i love it. love you.
Feels like his heart is leaking out of his mouth. Every word he can't say. Useless, dribbling, skin-warm and wasted.
Tears streaking down his face. And he meets your eyes and you can see, he's sure, you can see it -
"Satoru," you choke out, cracking like his name has carved your throat like you've carved his chest. Shifting against him.
Oh, fuck.
Heat bursts in his lower half. Yeah... yeah, he just came from that.
Sucking in air desperately though his nose. Blinking away tears in his eyes. His face is a sticky, wet mess. Abs coated in his own cum.
Ruined beneath you. And you look enraptured.
Fuck. Fucking hell. It's the greatest moment of his life.
He spares a flick of his gaze to Suguru, poor Suguru, all alone on the corner watching.
And it's so easy just to tell him with his eyes. They know each other that well.
This could be you down here. This could be her under you, for all you know she'd let you. You're so fucking determined not to say you want it that you handed this to me.
Some things about Suguru, he really doesn't get.
Oh, well. Finders keepers.
Her name is on my chest forever, now. No matter what she does with you, she'll always have done this with me, first.
You have it. You have what you wanted, now. Finally.
Satoru is underneath you. Suguru is in the corner, fucking watching. Like he's been making you watch your crushes fuck for months on end.
Your handwriting has never been as beautiful as it is on Satoru's pale, perfect skin.
Now it's split by the letters of your name. You don't even feel bad.
He wanted it. Leaned into every inch of the cut.
Those beautiful blue eyes. Looking at you, you, you.
His gorgeous chest red with your name and he's completely transfixed, Finally it's just you, his attention is all on you -
The flick to the corner and you know instantly. Suguru.
It's always him. You can't even have Satoru to yourself for five minutes, and you can't even blame him for it.
Not when you want Suguru, too.
(but you can't have him. you can't have anything you want, not really, can you?)
Your hands are shaking. You don't even notice it. Adrenaline pours through you. Flight or fight.
You look at Satoru's chest. It's really only barely bloodied.
The knife is warm in your hand. It was so easy.
Cut him deeper. Cut him open.
You want to cut his fucking heart out and take it in your hands. Rip up that pretty face. Put out those beautiful gemstone eyes for straying.
Ruin everything you love about him. No one will want him then. Suguru won't want him.
(can you have him then?)
The edge of the knife is against his throat and you're ready to just slide it across his neck -
and -
and -
Satoru is looking up at you again.
(cut him. cut his throat. kill him now. fucking whore, how could he -)
Wide blue eyes sparkling with untamed affection. Lovesick. Adoring.
(it's not for you. this isn't yours and never will be.)
His mouth is gagged but his face just lights up when he sees you, all bright and eager and -
(you love him. you love him so fucking much.)
Suguru calls your name and your heart is burning again -
(you love him. it hurts.)
The knife falls, unbloodied, from your hands.
You get up.
You walk away.
