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“Capital loss…

Love was the law and

Religion was taught.”

- AZRIEL AND ERIS LORE GUYS, I NEED TO ANIMATE IT.

#Azriel #azris supremacy #good idea #azriel x eris #these two should’ve been end game wtf

UPDATE ON ALIFER ❤️

Hello, I know it’s been awhile since I posted. Months actually sheesh lol. But I’m here to give some updates

MY WRITING.

Sadly, I do not have it in me to love Hazbin hotel anymore, during the time Hazbin came out and I loved it I was with my ex who I now associate it with. And I just can’t find the love I once had for it :(.

I thank you all so much for the love and encouragement throughout my journey as a writer and I will continue my writing, just not for Hazbin hotel or helluva boss. I’ve been writing small things to try and bring up my motivation and I now finally have it :) no thanks to all of the night comments and asks I got while I was away and writing. I thank you all for becoming the beacon that called me back to writing.

MY LIFE

Life ever since the breakup has been hard. I’ll ramble a bit on this one so please forgive me.

Awhile back me and my boyfriend had an ugly breakup in April, the relationship was not kind to me or the things I love and overall tore apart anything I had to call my own. It was toxic and I now see that for all that it is. While inside of this relationship, when I started writing on tumblr again. My boyfriend at the time thought I was weird, and would tell me over and over again how weird I was to be writing to people online, how ‘chronically online’ it was to find an outlet for something i found so endearing. i tried so hard after he bashed me for it to find it in myself to write, but i couldnt. and i say sorry to everyone who didnt get their requests like i had promised.

i've been working around my personal blocks and on myself as well and reconnected with my family and friends that he had pushed me away from, i now talk to my mother a bit more often than i used to and i apologized to the friends i had pushed away while i thought he was the one. ive been staying on and off at my older brothers house and found myself realizing how alike the two of us are XD.

all in all, it was rough, but now im getting better. im not happy but i am content with how my life is now without him :)

MY ACCOUNT

i will be switching acounts i believe, i am focusing more on the writing I want to do and focusing on that instead :) I found out that I put everyone before me a good majority of the time…and I think I need to create a safe place in writing where I can be appreciated based off of my writing and ideas and not others . So forgive me for that, this account will still be open for everyone to look back on, but I can’t find it in me to keep it because of the memories. I hope you all understand, and if you’d like to read more of my stuff my new account will be posted soon ;)

al1fers-haven

Hey you've survived this long, you've survived all this before, I know you can do it again.

No child should have to go through this, atleast not alone, remember you have us, we're cheering you on from the other side of the screen.

If you want to cry, cry. If you want to scream, scream. You don't have to be strong or put a brave face on all the time, just try not to let people take advantage of you, though then again, that's now always for us choose.

The battle is tough, scary, even frightening but you are so strong to have survived up until now. Be scared, be sad, but know that you can survive this, and you will.

Cheering you on from the other side of the screen, All the best to you.

Thank you so much, your guys’ words mean so much to me and you don’t even know it ❤️❤️

I appreciate you all staying with me during this time in my life and not leaving due to my haitus and more, tysm for the kind words and support ❤️ truly made my week :)

al1fers-haven

I don’t know who wrote this to me, at all. But I wish the world for you, the past couple of months have been particularly rough for me and every night when I was afraid of crying or who I was now without him I came back and read this exact ask. It helped me through things no one else can and words cannot mask how appreciative I am of the person who wrote it.

I’ve finally gained my motivation back to write, after reading my asks and reading everything I wrote I decided to come back to writing, not only for Hazbin but also for the other series I love so so much. My motivation recently came back after the man who was talked about in this ask texted me and said he was sorry, and every single time he texted me I thought of how this person told me that we can’t control if we get with those toxic people, but we control when it stops. I told him exactly how I felt, how he did me dirty. How awful he was to me during and after our breakup. And all I can do now is say thanks to the person who wrote this to me in May.

I know it seems like a lot to write everything, but you mean the world to me whoever you are and I wish you the best life imaginable. ❤️❤️

Yeah no I’m done lol

Lowkey never believed in god but he’s all I have .

I know at one point he had my tumblr but idk if he does now. I have this video of us on new years that I watch on repeat. It’s him rubbing my sore leg and saying he loves me in the sweetest way. I still have dreams that your mine and that this was all some nasty dream, that I suddenly wake up crying and your there next to me again. But I just feel worse and worse when I wake up and you’re not there.

Roman stopped sleeping in my bed as much, because in those dreams you touch other women the way you touched me and I can’t stomach it. I heard you got a girlfriend, I’m so proud of you.

I hate how I miss you still after everything that happened, I just want to wake up and hear your voice again. Hear you say you love me and this was all some sick joke.

Im so sorry.

I’ve literally woken up this week with nightmares of him touching another woman. I’ve never not been able to tell someone about what plagues my dreams in so long…I feel so alone.

Last sad post, but I genuinely never understood loneliness till I started waking up to a cold bed and no one next to me, it’s been a weird adjustment over the past month and I’m working on it.

Just sometimes miss the warmth it brought me in the mornings :)

Hey you've survived this long, you've survived all this before, I know you can do it again.

No child should have to go through this, atleast not alone, remember you have us, we're cheering you on from the other side of the screen.

If you want to cry, cry. If you want to scream, scream. You don't have to be strong or put a brave face on all the time, just try not to let people take advantage of you, though then again, that's now always for us choose.

The battle is tough, scary, even frightening but you are so strong to have survived up until now. Be scared, be sad, but know that you can survive this, and you will.

Cheering you on from the other side of the screen, All the best to you.

Thank you so much, your guys’ words mean so much to me and you don’t even know it ❤️❤️

I appreciate you all staying with me during this time in my life and not leaving due to my haitus and more, tysm for the kind words and support ❤️ truly made my week :)

I know my tumblr seems pretty gloomy right now but I want to say one thing before I start writing again,

I shouldn’t be scared to go to school- NO CHILD should be afraid to go to school.

I shouldn’t be afraid everytime someone pops a bag in the cafeteria, and I shouldn’t be worried someone is going to jump me for a rumor that someone else spread. No children should go through that, and it’s 10x worse knowing that me, as a child who’s going to be out of highschool soon is being related to by toddlers in kindergarten and up, it’s disgusting.

I shouldn’t be worried about my teachers trying to make moves on me , I should be worried about having fun, getting friends, and getting good grades.

Not if I’m going to be able to make it home if I go in.

I hate the way I let you do that to me, and I hate the way I can’t hate you for all the damage that you gave me.

#whoops it got a bit too dark

Small, fragmented shards of bone.

Cold, yet pulsing flyblown flesh.

Scorched identity, molten fingertips.

Ashen face, still screaming long after death.

Blood, so much blood.

More than a human should have.

Strewn everywhere, walls covered in red, wet, ichor.

Ceilings drip with despair and malice.

Floorboards waterlogged with hate and fear.

A mark on the wall, a smiling moon.

Not a smile of happiness, but one of evil.

I'm starting to question why I took this job.

Was it for the thrill of putting the pieces together?

Did I want to bring solace to the dead?

I never thought I'd see something like this.

This is beautifully written and so vague! Im confused on why it was sent to me but I ADORE IT. Ugh, the word choices this writer made MM

Hello! I’m back from my break yall so I’ll get ALL OF YOUR requests done, I’m also beginning to write my own book so hopefully I’ll be able to keep up with all of them!

Thank you for being so patient..

Struggling with self love straight after making yourself who you’ve always wanted to be is the one thing that’s not talked about enough

Hello, I’m going to take a small break. I’m sorry for the requests not getting done like I said they would be.

I’m going through a nasty breakup right now and can’t really find it in myself to do what I love dearly, please forgive me.

My current hyperfixations are now Hazbin hotel, and Undertale.

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